wow i just realized how many typing errors i had in the last post... too lazy to fix them, whatever.
fuck.. okay, today has not been a good day. serious.. well besides seeing kevin and jordan whynot in the morning totally caught me by surprise (kevin told me he was working with jordan today in waterloo, but he said he wasn't going to be able to visit me. this morning i woke up, went to the concourse to get a bagel, turned around to head to class, lo and behold, kevin and jordan are there! what the heck?! it was sooo surprising. we hung out after my class... drove around in jordan's van... wnet to Quizznos, bike shop, hung out at my rez)
anyways... yeah, i had these fucking weird-ass dreams last night. what else is new? god... i mean, Matthew Gittens (some guy... we had kiddie crushes on each other in gr.2) showed up in my dreams a couple nights ago! that is crazy. well... yeah. anyways, last night, i had two main dreams, and they were both so crazy, i can't even describe it. well.... i can, but not on my blog, sorry guys. well, yeah, one of them, i can't stop thinking about it. it was SO incredibly real. something between two friends in ACI. it was so real that, i didn't know what to think of her when i woke up, and during the entire day. it's just....... wow. i can't comprehend it. and i thought about the possibility of it happening, and i can't say it's not possible. what does that mean? (Tracy? help!) so.. yeah. like i was telling Tracy today, according to Freud, or any dream interpreter, dreams do not happen for no reason. it must be something in the subconscious. every dream has some kind of meaning, whether you know or not. *ahhh* gaaaawddd... this is seriously not happening... and i have been waking up in the middle of the night for the past two nights. and it's not the fact that i wasn't tired, because i WAS. i was damn tired. so i don't know. i'm going crazy for real this time.

ok just off the phone with Matty. again... what does that mean? i mean, it has been three days. fucking weird (i gotta stop using that word) days too. i truely believe that i am finally going crazy for real. Tracy's friend, Alex, was trying to be my therapist today. wow... first Warren, now Alex... crazy. Warren did a better job, no offense. anyways... i'm trying to think straight... or... relatively straight.

Ian's meeting a boy tonight! tee hee... i told him, if he doesn't like him, and if he's hot, he should let me know, so i can go for it. hahah i mean, he's not fully gay, so it's okay. hahaha just kidding... Anyways. yeah. well, i'm out.