sometimes, there are good days. sometimes, there are bad days.
today was a pretty bad day.
it's kinda weird how just one thing can set you off. and i surprise even myself sometimes, how bitter and mean i can be. hey, people piss me off, what can i say?

thanks jeremy for boosting my confidance.
well... i guess it's not all hsi fault. i really do suck.
you're not ready for masterclass. i'm going to postpone you. what you think?
yeah i think so........
it's just going to be very hard for beth anne
mm hmm......
let's say.... march 1st.
......okay.
let's do the orchestra excerpts now.
..... okay.

*later in orchestra*
can we just use my music, i hate turning those pages. (clara's music is fucked up. it's like double sided, but upside down. it's a bitch to turn)
but these have the bowings...
*grumble* fine... fuck
well we can use your's if you really want.
no, it's fine. *grumble*

*later in sectionals*
ok, this black chair is mine, im going to get some stands.
(i come back and the chair is fucking gone) wtf... who the hell stole my chair? lorrina.
argh... i pulled up another black chair. went to get more stands, and came back, and my chair was gone. that new girl stole it. WTF?!?!? STOP STEALING MY FUCKING CHAIR!! GET YOUR OWN!!! god fuckin dammit, people...

and to top it off, i played horribly today. great. well, at least i have food in my house now. yiay i'm not gonna starve.