i surrendered.
i did. i lost this battle. but i'm also gone, thank God. back to loo, back to life, back to being myself.
i never thought hatred felt like this. don't get me wrong, i'm thankful for what they've done. but the past year have been unbearable. to quote a good friend of mine (carmen) "you're making me want to hate you. i don't want to, but if you keep doing this, i will"
i think i have edged closer to that point after today.

how fast does a lip piercing close up?
i took it out about half hour before i left the house. i'm in loo now, two hours later, and i think it's closed already.

i miss it. i feel naked without it.





patience, mandy.... patience..... keep to the plan.










i'm outtie.