so um.. yeah. today was pretty "interesting". well in the morning i went to the library to work for a couple hours, pretty productive, then i wnet to the doc's to get a needle... heh blood drawn. whatever. i was soo early, so i decided to go to aci early. and warden and finch, matt calls from mike's cell, takes me like two minutes to actually realize who the hell was talking to me. weird convo. they wanted to leave. whatever. i get to aci, they've left, i call mike. kate was with them. they came back to pick me up. awkward as fuck. didn't get to get my mitts back and see everyone. went to mike's house (see, i conform too). more awkwardness (at this point i was reminded of how badly i wanted to go back to waterloo and stay there). matt tried making convo, i tried stopping it. too awkward. i just wasn't ready. two pats on the fucking head. then kate had a call to pick someone up, or meet her, so i left with her... went to finch bus station, then she drove me home. goddamn. what a wasted afternoon. totally not what i expected. pah.. i'm so pissed off and disppointed. i'm home early, and probably won't be able to go out again. fuck.

i was chatting with Ian earlier, like 10 minutes ago...talking about boys. he was telling me how i should find another one. i agreed. he told me this guy likes me. so i'm like, "seriously? no joke" and he's like "no joke" so anyways... it's this guy in my orchestra. i got aquainted with him a couple weeks ago at Chapters (the day of the Skills exam) so..yeah. well, i barely know him, so we'll see. i told Ian to tell him to msn me. so...meh. personally, i wouldn't go for it, but i'll be nice. Ian said he's cute in some ways. what ways? i dunno. but i trust his judgement. so... we'll see.