ok i wrote this post last night, and when i finished, i could not find a signal on my laptop, so i'm posting tihs now.

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ok.

1. happy satan day! (well, i just missed it by 3 minutes) i really want to see The Omen.... maybe thursday, i'll go.

2. i had another dying dream last night. it was scary. i was with a bunch of people, and we were part of a war or some kind of battle. but i knew it in the dream as war. and people died, i'll spare everyone the details. the gunshots sounded very real. i fucken hate dying dreams.

3. ok, after weeks of pretty much no conversation, alex started talking to me, finally. well, it started with him talking to shaughn nad i was just putting cutlery away, so i joined their conversation. so we actually talked. then i was sitting with tara, and he came over and talked to us. but he didn't completely talk directly to me, but yeah... then tara was like, i'm kinda drunk, i gotta stop drinking so i can drive home (and then we had tihs conversation about drunk driving and getting caught). so i just said that i could drive her home then take a cab, and tara was like, aw you're so sweet, then alex was like, "yeah, you are really sweet." and i know he meant it, because alex wouldn't say something and not mean it. it's a good attribute, but also bad because he would say a lot of really really not-so-nice things, and you'll know he meant that too. (that's pretty much the one thing i really hate about him) then he kissed me arm and was all friendly and stuff. so at that point i was thinking "umm... okay...? don't talk to me for a month, then all of a sudden be all chummy?" and when i had to leave to catch the bus he gave me a big hug and kissed my neck.

so the question is..... what the fuck?

i was doing so well getting over him... and it was actually working! now i'm confuzzled. help. :(

anyway... i came home from work (10 minutes ago) and the second i walked in the door, i smelt smoke. FUUUUUUUUUCK!! i'm calling my landlord tomorrow and telling him. and this time i'm going to do it for real.