yay for breaks

so yeah.... the theory exam fucked me in the ass big time. and as warren would say, it owned me. not even fuckin kidding. it was the hardest exam i have probably ever written. SO HARD!!! fuuuuudge.
(mmm fudge)
anyway... only lukas tom heather and bubblebutt finished before the very end of the time limit of the exam, which was 3 hours. *shakes head*.... mian... and i was studying with soooo many thoery people all day. so disappointed. well... i'm gonna be the next joni glidden... taking first yr thoery in 3rd yr. great. fucken figured bass and secondary dominants. i was so pissed off, i didn't even feel like going to Duke's after. but i went anyway, just as they were leaving. argh. so we all bummed to heather's house and had a great time getting baked, along with tom lukas and justin, and we talked about the exam. lukas is so damn smart. argh... before the exam i was like, "hey lukas, wanna teach me everything we learned this semester in 5 minutes?" and he's like "um.... no..." hehe boooourns. anyway... when i was about to leave brandon, kyle brenders, sarah van veen, and this other girl arrived. so i stayed for a bit more, and then sarah and kyle walked me home cuz justin's a fucker.

anyway... yesterday was my first time as co-therapist with Cristelle and her 4 yr old autistic client. aww mian, he was sooo cute. i felt sooo bad telling him to come sit down. aww... and when i went over to him to bring him back to sit down, and held my hand. aww so cute. when his session was over cristelle was like "come on, let's go see mommy!" and the second we opened the door he started crying hysterically and really loud. awwwwwwwww.... it was so heartbreaking. and his mommy picked him up and said "let's go home, okay?" his mom is soo nice. i can tell she has a LOT of patience. it's so admirable. anyway, the mom tells him to say bye to us, and he's like "waahhhhh-byyyyyyeeeee-aaahhhh!" it was the most heartbreaking thing. he was saying bye to us while he was sobbing! *tear* so after he left i went to practise while cristelle went to talk with her supervisor, but after that she came to the practise rooms and we had a chat too.

then i went to my Beth Ann. it was really productive. we played the Wieniewski. i love that piece, it's so much fun cuz it has aspects of fiddling as well as really sad melodies. and then we went through my concerto too, and it was quite a bit better from the last time. haha thanks to jeremy who took out the cd for me. hehe.. anyway... i spet the rest of night pretty much eith eunie studying in the library. she had to use the computers after like an hour and a half so we went to the main floor where warren and his friends were studying too, and they were all talking and i got so distracted. pahhh...

so i went to my second massage therapy session today. it was, again, really great. it hurt a lot, actually, but that's a good sign because it means that i know she's doing something to my damn muscles. but yeah... at some points i was like "ahhhh!!!" in my head. lol. when she was massaging my chest near my pacemaker, i almost told her to stop. it was pretty intense. it felt like i was having an echocardiogram and the technician's looking at my pacemaker. fuuuuudge. but then she started massaging my neck, and that hurt too, but it wasn't too bad.

anyway.. i had a lesson today, and jeremy and i spent soooo long figuring out good bowings for my wieniewski. it was tedious work. jeremy was like "yeah, it's like...advanced math!" lol.... ohhh doctor bell. lol

anyway.. i went to studying with eunie after my lesson again, but we're taking a break cuz she has to eat and i have to watch american idol hahaha... oh man, last night was awesome! miracle boy was actually good too!! *heart* but i think bo bice and constantine were definately my favourites last night. esp constantine. ohhhh.... he was hot last night! yummay.
i'm killing time right now before it starts at 9.

kinda disappointed with summer ushering positions. i wanted to usher at ilana's and olaf's grad recitals, but so many damn people want them. argh. ah well. i'll go to it anyway. olaf owes me a photo. hee hee.

wow... tihs post is long... um....
ok i'll stop now.

can't wait til tomorrow... psych exam, followed by a Beth Ann, meeting with Arnason, then more practising! FUN!!!