argh
well, im in the CAI lab. fun.
i wasted so much time today. fuck... it's a long story. but anyway....

i miss having internet. or even a computer. and i miss having roommates. :(
olaf's grad recital on tuesday was awesome. he made a couple of little mistakes but overall it was cool. then we all went to rachel's house to par-tay. it was fun. kevin gave me 5$ so i could cab home. christelle came with me. we pretty much spent the day together, since the MT session. i just realized last night when i was at her place watching american idol, who she reminds me of. it's kinda freaky.
one more MT session. awww i'm gonna miss that kid, he's so cute.

started priming and painting my room. i finally decided to prime it. it was pink. i did the first layer of red this morning. it looks kinda shitty. but whatever. argh. it's so tiring. i found out on monday that i'm gonna have a guy roommate again. well, no offense or anything, but i sure hope he's somewhat neat. cuz if he's like you-know-who, i'm gonna be pissed off. he moved stuff in this morning while i was painting, but i didn't really bother meeting him. whatever. i'll see him eventually.

anyway... my day is kinda ruined so i'm not really in the mood to do anything anymore. and jeremy's not in his office so i can't talk to him. fuuuuck. argh. so pissed off. argh.

okay anyway... i'm gonna direct my anger elsewhere.
bye.

hello sexies!
ok i had a really boring day, but i had the best lunch ever! it was at this indian buffet. it was sooooo good. and i got to have a mango milkshake. yummay

so yes... i'm still in scarbro. why? um... i dunno. i was on the phone with carmen for so long trying to sort things out, and i am still not sure what's happening. and nique took her chicken! *sniff*...but nique, i wanna meet heeerrrrr! heehee.. oh well. i went and bought black chalkboard paint yesterday, so i can paint my room. found an awesome red too, but i didn't buy the actual paint yet, just in case... but i really wanna paint my room red. it'd be so cool.

anyway, i've been wanting to write a reflecting-of-the-past-school-year post, since everything's done and everyone (but me) has moved out of the house, but the keyboard i'm using is shitty, so, i'll do it when i get back to loo tomorrow. i'll be chllin in the cai lab. haha

ahhhh... anyways... this weekend has been fun. got to see family and partay. and i know who's emceeing my wedding...when the time comes. hahaha!!

wow...
okay i'm in toronto again. ooooh aahhhh...
fuck, i am SOOOO tired. i was practising by 8:30am. :) yay... etelka came in my room cuz she heard me practising weiniewski and thought it sounded good and wanted to see who was playing. awwwww i love that girl. i was practisng in 318 last night and it was soooo shit and i was soooo stressed, seriously wanted to break my damn violin. but i didn't. my jury today wasn't as bad as i thought. i had some intonation problems and overall it could've been cleaner, but you know... i'm not complaining.

anyway....
awww i wanna go to anton and mike's keggar tonight, or to guelph! but i'm in scarlem, so....meh! mny cousin just came! i haven't seen her in like.. soooo long. awwww... i wanna party soooooo bad. because i can now. hee hee

i feel like practising. i hardly ever practise in the morning, so it feels so weird that i've already practised today. wweeeeird.

omg, so my friend steve and his friend are putting together a celtic band, and i'm gonna be in it!! i'm super excited! i mean.... there's all these people in rock bands, but only the COOLEST people get to be in celtic bands. oooohhhhh yeeaaaaa! im gonna fiddle! and cute mike (percussionist) is gonna be in it too! *squeals* hee hee hee! man... this summer is gonna be awesome. and i'm gonna ask jeremy if i can play bartok's romanian dances, because i'm a little bit obsessed wth bartok right now.

anyways.... i keep gettng distracted so i'll post more later

yay for breaks

so yeah.... the theory exam fucked me in the ass big time. and as warren would say, it owned me. not even fuckin kidding. it was the hardest exam i have probably ever written. SO HARD!!! fuuuuudge.
(mmm fudge)
anyway... only lukas tom heather and bubblebutt finished before the very end of the time limit of the exam, which was 3 hours. *shakes head*.... mian... and i was studying with soooo many thoery people all day. so disappointed. well... i'm gonna be the next joni glidden... taking first yr thoery in 3rd yr. great. fucken figured bass and secondary dominants. i was so pissed off, i didn't even feel like going to Duke's after. but i went anyway, just as they were leaving. argh. so we all bummed to heather's house and had a great time getting baked, along with tom lukas and justin, and we talked about the exam. lukas is so damn smart. argh... before the exam i was like, "hey lukas, wanna teach me everything we learned this semester in 5 minutes?" and he's like "um.... no..." hehe boooourns. anyway... when i was about to leave brandon, kyle brenders, sarah van veen, and this other girl arrived. so i stayed for a bit more, and then sarah and kyle walked me home cuz justin's a fucker.

anyway... yesterday was my first time as co-therapist with Cristelle and her 4 yr old autistic client. aww mian, he was sooo cute. i felt sooo bad telling him to come sit down. aww... and when i went over to him to bring him back to sit down, and held my hand. aww so cute. when his session was over cristelle was like "come on, let's go see mommy!" and the second we opened the door he started crying hysterically and really loud. awwwwwwwww.... it was so heartbreaking. and his mommy picked him up and said "let's go home, okay?" his mom is soo nice. i can tell she has a LOT of patience. it's so admirable. anyway, the mom tells him to say bye to us, and he's like "waahhhhh-byyyyyyeeeee-aaahhhh!" it was the most heartbreaking thing. he was saying bye to us while he was sobbing! *tear* so after he left i went to practise while cristelle went to talk with her supervisor, but after that she came to the practise rooms and we had a chat too.

then i went to my Beth Ann. it was really productive. we played the Wieniewski. i love that piece, it's so much fun cuz it has aspects of fiddling as well as really sad melodies. and then we went through my concerto too, and it was quite a bit better from the last time. haha thanks to jeremy who took out the cd for me. hehe.. anyway... i spet the rest of night pretty much eith eunie studying in the library. she had to use the computers after like an hour and a half so we went to the main floor where warren and his friends were studying too, and they were all talking and i got so distracted. pahhh...

so i went to my second massage therapy session today. it was, again, really great. it hurt a lot, actually, but that's a good sign because it means that i know she's doing something to my damn muscles. but yeah... at some points i was like "ahhhh!!!" in my head. lol. when she was massaging my chest near my pacemaker, i almost told her to stop. it was pretty intense. it felt like i was having an echocardiogram and the technician's looking at my pacemaker. fuuuuudge. but then she started massaging my neck, and that hurt too, but it wasn't too bad.

anyway.. i had a lesson today, and jeremy and i spent soooo long figuring out good bowings for my wieniewski. it was tedious work. jeremy was like "yeah, it's like...advanced math!" lol.... ohhh doctor bell. lol

anyway.. i went to studying with eunie after my lesson again, but we're taking a break cuz she has to eat and i have to watch american idol hahaha... oh man, last night was awesome! miracle boy was actually good too!! *heart* but i think bo bice and constantine were definately my favourites last night. esp constantine. ohhhh.... he was hot last night! yummay.
i'm killing time right now before it starts at 9.

kinda disappointed with summer ushering positions. i wanted to usher at ilana's and olaf's grad recitals, but so many damn people want them. argh. ah well. i'll go to it anyway. olaf owes me a photo. hee hee.

wow... tihs post is long... um....
ok i'll stop now.

can't wait til tomorrow... psych exam, followed by a Beth Ann, meeting with Arnason, then more practising! FUN!!!

things i need to know by tomorrow:

- the diff. between a hybrid and a compound form
- what an ECP is
- leading tone secondary dominants
- regular secondary dominants
- how to do figured bass

ahhh... mian, i am SO screwed. *SIGH*.... i'm kinda glad my exam is at night tomorrow. if it was in the morning, i don't know what i'd do. and justin didn't call me today. he was supposed to so we can work on theory. that bitch. ugh... and didn't answer his phone either. so not impressed. i hate boys.

anyway... so diana morgan's grad recital this evening was awesome!! oh man... she was soooo good! and great turnout too! over 100 people came! the last piece had three percussionists too (evan, olaf and brandon), and i think that was one of my favs so far out of all the pieces in the different grad recitals i've heard. it was so mesmarizing. evan was like, the main percussionist on the bass drum and conducting. it was intense. that piece was deep.
anyway.... the reception was awesome! oh man... there were soooo many samosas! and they were sooo yummy! mmmm.... so my dinner this evening consisted of samosas, watermelon and steve's cookies. yiay!

ummmmmmm.... anyways. i'm le tired. and i have to get up early to go to the bank tomorrow. i'm signing my lease for my new house!! YAY! i'm so excited!

ahhh just came back from warren's. i actually gave him his cake, finally. and then we watched Ong Bank, on his computer. halfway, his parents came to move some stuff and brought food, so i got a reallllly nice lunch. yay!

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um... anyway... i'm kinda depressed cuz i feel so fucken used.
again.
why the fuck does this always happen to me?

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sooo... last night was quite the night, i must say. melissa's grad recital was AWESOME. i'm so proud of her. awwww... excellent program and she memorized everything. the Wienewski concerto was unbelievable. i remember hearing it in masterclass and then the recording of when jerzy video taped it. it was so much better last night. the last piece on the program was one of my favourites, she played it in the concerto competition too. miiiaann... a great piece to end off of. and her dress was beautiful! she was like, floating! after the concert everyone was lining up to give her a hug. aww... naoko and laurissa even bought flowers! and laurissa bought a tomato...lol.. just in case. the reception afterwards was by far one of the best ever. it was fully catered, and the plates had holes in them to hold cups so you wouldn't have to hold them! genius! an hour later, justin, ruth and myself walked over to huether's but we were really early. the only people there were melissa's brother and some friends. people started showing up, and we all toasted melissa. it was great. good times fo sho.
anyways... toward the end, people started leaving, so justin and i chilled for a bit, and went home. i didn't really want to go to melissa's for the after-after party, cuz i wouldn't know how to get home. so.... yeah.

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this morning was so fucked up. gawdddd....
warren and i had an almost 1 and a half hour long phone conversation. we always have weird convos, but i think today's was a bit over the top. it was still good though. anyway... i said to warren "so guess what happened last night?" and he immediately knew. i was like "whoa! wtf?! how do u know? ahh... you know me too well." hehehe. so that started an interesting convo in itself.
anywhoo....

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oh yea... so last night at the huether, i was talking to james and justin, and we were talking about italy and quartetfest, and they told me how they're putting on their own recital, and i was complaining how i suck, and can never do it. and then james was like "no, you can! just put on your own recital! it's good performing experience too!"
so now, i 'm really thinking about it. i just told joanna (leung) about it, cuz she's a good friend who is like this amazing singer. :D yayyyyy.... i'm excited now! back to bach, mozart and beethoven! :) and i'm gonna ask jeremy if i can learn the bartok romanian dances, and if it's decent enough, then i can play that too. :) but nothing is for sure yet, so we'll see.

anywhoo..... well... that's enough of an update.

so today was my last day at st. mark's. it was awesome. the only little downside to it was that the regular teacher had to go to a workshop, but i saw her when i arrived and after school for two minutes. well, my class was pretty hyper today, cuz of the supply teacher. but after their independant reading tyler gave me the card from the class and i gave them the stuff i prepared for them too. ohhh mannn... it was like the class suddenly exploded! it was soooo cute. they loved the bubbles, and the guys (except for tyler and leandro) were complaining that they didn't get candy necklaces. haha! awwww... and then my literacy group and i (except for tyler becuz he gradumatated from literacy power) went into the halls and (tried to) work. jon and some girls in my class kept coming outside nad talking. and i tried to get them to be quiet and work. didn't really happen. then jon blew bubbles in fran's gr.8 class, after i told him not to. hahaha the teacher got pissed off. so jon started eating his bubbles. lol.... oh man... and then travis and leandro sat in their lockers, and the other kids tried to lock them in. but travis was claustrophobic. aww... it was cute. and then leandro started acting like such a gino. well, he is brazilian, so... it's kinda in him... but still. we went back in, and one group did their liturgy. i swear... this class taught me so much about religion. they're kinda intense. not as intense as some people i know *tug at collar*... but still... during recess, fran and i played the piano, and marvelled at how out of tune it was. during gym, eric and travis kept me company, since they didn't bring their gym clothes. it was cool. eric told me how he was a good writer, then gave me a copy of his story. hahaha (i actually did read it, when i got home.) fran and i stayed and talked to the kids til about.... hmm.. 3:50ish..? it was fun. vince, this guy from fran's class kept bothering me, it was really annoying. colten, this other kid from fran's class was cute. haha awww... he has perfect hair. and then i traded msn's with some of the people in my class, but vince managed to write his down too. argh.

but anyway, one of the girls in my class told fran and i to go to their graduation, and i think i'm gonna. they are sooo cute, and i miss them already! travis and eric kept pressuring me to visit them, and i kept say "but it's so far from where i live!" and jon was like "come to my house!" and he told me where he lived. lol...

anyway... in conclusion, i would just like to say I LOVE MY CLASS! yaaayyyy

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and it's Warren's birthday today! he's 21! omg, Warren is old!!

fuck.... i feel so fucken used..... *shakes head*...
i teared up in the cai lab. so glad mike was there, keeping me company, and playing my guitar while i was supposed to be practising. but i guess thats what i get for practising in the cai lab.

seriously don't want to go to placements tomorrow. i ran out of cellophane paper. fuck. i might have to go back tomorrow and get some. fuckity fuck.

i read somewhere a long time ago, this guy said "if you wait around for people, you won't get anything done" or something along those lines. it's so true. one of my favourite quotes ever. makes you think...

i saw cute mike today. ha. well, he was practising for his jury tomorrow. so i watched him play his marimba piece and the drum set/everything else piece. damn... he is really good! awww... and he broke one of his wooden things, and got pissed off. :S

fuck.. i really really seriously need to practise tomorrow. argh. jeremy took out the cd for me so now i have no excuse for fucking up my rhythm.
and i'm so screwed for guitar tomorrow. ah fuckit. *sigh*... so unmotivated. but i need an A in this course.

ahhhhhhh whatever. i'm done. time for some poetry.

WOW i just watched american idol, and it was a great show!! oh maaannn... loved the baby pics! omg, Bogart is SOOOOOOO cute!! hee hee heee hee hee!!!! oh man, i'm SOOOO hyper right now!! AHHH!! :D miracle boy was actually good today, but Constantine MADE MY NIGHT!! holy heart of Mary he was awesome!
scott sucked tonight! i'm so glad! i REALLY hope he's out tomorrow! miracle boy is NOT going home! it's hard to predict who else is gonna be in the bottom three.... ahhhh!!!
oh mian... tonight's show was SOOOOO awesome!!!

ok that's all i wanted to post about. bye!

hm... haven't written in a while. couldn't think of anything interesting to write. bleugh.

skills exam was alright, i guess? on the last day, i practised the melodies like crazy. they were so hard. but vandenberg actually gave me the easy melody and the easy rhythm, for once. a bit disappointed cuz i messed up on the solfege and the ta-ka-di-mi. and the sight stuff, i could've done better. they weren't the hardest ones we've gotten. mian... i am seriously SOOO glad skills is over. i honestly can't stand vandenberg and his asexuality.

anyway, i've also started studying for psych, i'm so proud of myself. *smile* yayyy... i have to finish up the chapter i started today before i sleep tonight.
yesterday when i got back from the library, i was in such a great mood, cuz i was on top of my own schedule, and it was great weather outside, so i chilled out with fran and shannon and had a nice girl talk. it was quite amusing. then we went to wilf's for our house dinner. it was fun, i saw keziah, cuz her and her friends were going to wilf's too! yay

did two shifts at the MOFO today. mike rosenberger (i think he has the classiest last name) and diana lam's grad recitals. mian... they were both awesome! i'm glad i went. in diana's recital, i had to count the # of people attending, so i got to use the clicker! it was fun. and i quite enjoy closing the doors too. hahaha

aaaanyways...
nothing else to say... i hope this weather keeps up. i'm lovin' it.

well it's a bit past 1 on wednesday. school's over, cept for exams. ahhhh! it feels so weird, school being done. i actually don't have skills at 9:30 tomorrow, no theory at 12:30, and definately no more orchestra.
today was a beautiful and busy day. practised my little ass off! did three 1 hour sessions. my second time practising today was after masterclass, and it was so productive! when i checked the time it was already 5 minutes to 8pm! so i packed up really fast, rush home and turned on american idol. hahaha! right on time! anyway...scott sucked again today. hahaha... surprisingly, i did not think of him in short shorts doing aerobics (sorry carmen!). miracle boy sang Climb Every Mountain, from The Sound of Music. when i knew he was singing that, i got all excited, cuz i LOVE that movie, and that song. but fuck, mian... he sucked today. yes, i went there. *hangs head in disappointment*... it was a very very disappointing performance. *sigh*.... you know what... in all honesty, if he gets kicked out tomorrow, i wouldn't be surprised. :( it's so sad. me and jordan will get together and cry. boo hoo.

anwar actually didn't suck today. i was quite impressed. nikko wasn't that good this week, and neither were vonzelle, and bo bice. i mean, i love bo bice, but i don't think that song suited him.
ok, tihs may be weird, but i think that when constantine hangs his head and look up, and how his hair falls down, he kinda looks like marius. but only sometimes, when he does that thing. hee hee... but otherwise he's alright. his performance today was okay.

anyway... enough about american idol. i'm actually kiiiinda glad i didn't go to the noon concert today. i don't think i would want to see simon. *shakes head*... i was talking with catherine little today, while doing skills outside, and we talked about what happened, cuz she started the convo, so i assumed she knew cuz of james (dan asked me about it yesterday, cuz of melissa) so yeah... i told her what i thought about it, and she agreed with me. i forgive her for her plentiful lobsters and trams. hee hee aww.... sorry catherine (who will probably never read this)! i couldn't help it. lol! but anyway... mian... i'm curious as to how he took to the really clean kitchen we left him with. *ponders*... well, that will probably be unsolved forever.

anywaaaayyy... i'm gonna go now.

wow... so last night was definately one to remember.
chamber orchestra concert was AWESOME. the only downside to it was that i expected a lot more people attending. we didn't even reach 100. boooourns. jeremy's cues and bow conducting were intense!! lol!! oh man.... hilarious. i really liked how the violins and violas were standing too. it looked like they had a lot more freedom for moving their bows.

after the concert i caught a ride with katie scott and pete to simon's house. jeremy was already there and drinkin'! lol it was actually a lot of fun. the PSQ told us about bad jury experiences, travelling, and other stuff. good convos fo sho! a couple things i learned about jeremy last night: 1) he LOVES beyonce (he was sooo excited when katie lent him the cd) 2) he makes a time out sign everytime he hears somone swear. hhahaha and then me and katie caught him saying "oh shit" hahahaa! it was funny, cuz he's like "nooo i said oh shoot!" hee hee and 3) jeremy dancing like a gangster is REALLY funny. hahaha!! he was dancing to eminem. imagine that! ohh hilarious. and then whenever a swear word was heard, he would do the time-out sign. hahaha
anywhoo... other great moments were pete drinking 4 glasses of wine and eating like, half the cheese, christine doing weird eye movements, jeremy's lump, katie drinking like a million bottles of beer (the healthiest kind, hahaha!) and christine telling us that if we practise drunk and it sounds really good, we'll have to be drunk in our leson to reproduce that. haha nice!
anyway... at the end of the night, it was only me, melissa, cheryl, lucas, and james with simon. katie insisted that she walk home. anywhoo. that was when it got REALLY interesting. totally unexpected. anyway... the 5 of us left around 2am, went to my place to pick up my theory assignment, went to james' place so he could get some stuff, and went back to melissa's and cheryl's place. it was like a whole other party. it was really fun. we talked about what the hell just happened, played music, laughed, smoked, and i did my theory assignment. cheryl helped me. yaaayyyy! we eventually went to bed. really late. i don't even know what time. maybe 4:30, 5ish. heh heh... their couch is soooo comfy.

james' alarm on his cell phone this morning was fuckin annoying. argh. yay for 3 hours of sleep. oh man... we were bussing back to school, and zoning out sooooo much. we were like 8 minutes late to skills and missed the teacher evaluations. argh, i'm so pissed off. i was looking forward to giving vandenberg a really shitty evaluation. argghhh... and i am SO tired right now. paahhh.... definately taking a nap after theory. and we even have orchestra today. wtf. argh...
*yawn*
crap, i've yawned soooo many times today already. hahha ... after skills, james' was like "i'm going to the practise rooms to sleep." haha awww... *yawn*

anyway... to sum up, it has been one interesting night. and now i'm le tired, killing time til theory.

ok, seriously now....

i woke up tihs morning, and to my great disappointment, the world was covered in snow. and it is still snowing. even blizzarding at times.

wtf?! first i lose an hour, now we get snow. and need i point out that my room is fuckin cold?? ugh... so unimpressed. argh... even my desk is cold! wtf?!

i may or may not skip the choir concert today. really don't feel like going out. and damn this theory assignment, in which i still haven't started.

whoa... i haven't posted since tuesday... wait... actually i have. and deleted it. haha.
well, this week has just flew by so fast. two more days of school, whoo hoo! unfortunately both days are Skills/Theory days, which fuckin SUCK. hmph. i should also probably go to psych this week, seeing as it's the last two classes. hahaha.

i don't really know what to post. well, other than my mishap with miracle boy. *blush* anywhoo... i cant wait til american idol on tuesday, yaaaayyyy!!! i told fran how i was sad, and she was like "omg, you're such a loser!" and laughed and walked out.
and got me cake. hahaha! yummay.

finished my psych paper on wednesday- i hope i did okay on it. i messed up the refrencing, but whatever. i didn't even care anymore. as long as it's done.

i went to the chamber music concert on thursday. it was really really good! laurissa's group was frickin awesome!! it was so intense! and then laurissa dropped her music. ahhh but fortunately not the page that she needed. hehehe
oh and jeremy played a duet with joni glidden-- that was amazing. they were really together. yaayyy! there was the second part of the concert tonight but i decided not to go. it was too cold out. but i'm going to the chamber orchestra one tomorrow. well, i'm also ushering that concert, so it'll be good. getting paid to see a concert. then par-tay at jeremy's house? i hope so. i wanna meet his Wif(e). it's kinda funny, cuz at my lesson on thursday, Jeremy started with asking me what a musical symbol on my page meant, and i didn't know, and he was like "it's french... didn't u take french?" and i said yeah, up to gr.9, but i don't really know much. and then he asked if i knew cantonese and i said yes, and he got all excited and was like "oh! you should talk to my wife!" so we had this nice conversation about chinese. haha and then jeremy spoke something that his wif taught him. hahaha he got the pronounciation wrong so i was like "okay... say it again..? (he said it) okay... that's not right. this is the proper way.." lol... so for like 30 seconds i was teaching jeremy how to speak chinese. during my lesson! it was awesome!! yay we can bond. *grin*

anywhoo... oh yeah.. tonight, me and ian were in the basement playing play station, and shannon and fran had to go to the choir rehersal, so we just stayed for a while more, and when we went back upstaires we realized that tracy locked the door when she went to choir, and neither ian or i had the keys, so we were like trying to pick the lock and stuff. and it was freezing outside! finally ian went and got a hammer and took out the screen door in our bathroom window, opened it, and i crawled in. yiay teamwork! but now ian's pretty pissed off at tracy cuz she locked the door. hahha *shrug*.

aaaanywhoo. fuck. i have to do my theory assignment. argh. i don't want toooooo! i don't understandddd! *pouts*

and the pope passed away. it's so sad. i'm not even religious. but dying people makes me sad.

well, i'm outtie.