Friday, December 30, 2005

Thursday, December 29, 2005

last night's dinner was seriously awesome. the food was shit, but it's the people you go with that make it aaaallll worthwhile. boston pizza with mike, carmen, kate, and smitty. oh, good times! our server was soooo bad though. it was so bad that it was really funny. i was laughing so hard, i had trouble talking to nique on the phone. and then this girl from the table beside us was getting out of her seat to take pictures with her friends, and she totally tripped... ohh man... the 5 of us cracked up laughing...hahaha! good times. then to mike's house to do the usual. and mark showed up!! whhhooooo!

tonight's group dinner was awesome! i couldn't have asked for anything better. well.... except smitty cancelled on us. what an ass. it was great that kevin g. came though! he's such a sweetie. hahaha! aww.. omg! and nique showed!!!! YAY NIQUE!!!! it was the best surprise ever! anywhoo... i got violated by kamla though.. it was so scary. so me, her, alishia and mike were chatting, she suddenly reaches out and fully grabs and squeezes my boob. it wasn't like a brush. i was like, whoa! NOT expecting that! after a minute, i calmed down, and mike tried to take a picture of me and kamla and alishia together. right before he clicks, kamla licks my cheek. honestly... if she told me she was gona do those things, i could be like, alright. but it took me completely by surprise. and it didn't help the fact that while we were slowly getting ready to leave, she kept checking me out. even kevin g. caught her staring at my boobs.
i guess i feel loved?....violated? hahaha.. but i got in two nice pics with mikey. yay! (for pics that are loving!)


anywhoo, i went shopping today with my mom. we went to a lot of diff places, AND vaughn mills! just cuz i've never been there before. i really like it! i got a nice pear of jeans, and (you can all slap me for this) an eskimo coat. yeah... i know... i've conformed to society. it's so sad. but my eskimo coat is really hot! if it was a long trech coat, it would be orgasmic. but i'll settle with the short. and i bough fabric at fabricland, for my outfit for music formal. i hope it can be ready in time... otherwise, i won't be able to go. well... i will, but... i won't have the ieal outfit, which will suck. maybe i will ask beth if she can help me, since she is such a martha stewart.

anywhoo... i'm bored of posting. so... bye. pictures will be up perhaps tomorrow night.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

wow, i haven't posted in a really really long time...
well, my exams all went okay. kinda... i passed everything, so...whatever. i can't really stand classical music right now though, no thanks to the history listening. anyway....

so i went to Cuba on the 16th, it was really quite a good trip, now that i think back. the first day was crazy though, cuz i left my house at 4am, and our plane was at 8:30am.. it was a 3 hr flight. and when we got to Cuba we had to wait for a really long time so that everyone on our bus got on and then we had to drive half an hour to our hotels and drop people off at various resorts. oh, and the Varadero airport is kinda freaky... guards and security everywhere. anyway... we finally got to our resort and waited forever to check in. the people at the front desk were really slow. we finally checked in at 3pm, went to eat a quick lunch, since their dining hall thing closes at 3:30, and proceeded to our room. it was pretty big. there's like two sections to it. but our balcony view sucked. but whatever. the rest of that first day consisted of my parents sleeping a lot, and me going out and exploring the beach and the resort and stealing seashells from the beach (there were literally hundreds!).. and taking pics.

anyway... the next day we taxi-ed to Matanzas, a city about half an hour drive away from Varadero. it's a pretty small city, but we visited a cave and.. some other places.. our taxi driver was pretty good lookin. really suave. haha...shh... i took a picture with him. anyway... we went to this local market and shopped among locals, but didn't really get anything because it was all local stuff... like, you know... shampoo and other household items. but the thing about that place was that you could really see how they live. like...their markets are shit, because they are generally less priveledged (not really poor) than us. it was actually a bit freaky, cuz the streets and stuff were really dirty and there were people everywhere. anywhoo...

the next day, sunday, we just stayed at the resort and chilled... i sat in the sun and got a nice tan. oh, and it was also the day i met Alex. he works at the resort, and he is really hot. but he started talking to me first, cuz he noticed my scar... and he asked me about it, and he's like "oh, i have one too!" and i was flabberghasted! "really? open heart?!" i says. and then he opened up the top of his shirt and showed me. it was HOT. mmmmm.... but yeah, i have never met anyone with the same scar as me, so obviously, there was an instant attraction. yeah, i know it's corny... but whatever. you're all just jealous. haha! anyway... so...after i finished eating, i worked up the nerve to go up to him and tell him he had gorgeous eyes (they are green). he just kinda laughed and all the other guys working there with him at that section laughed too. haha.. oh well. anywhoo.... okay. me and the guys who worked in that section became pretty good friends. they're so fucking nice. i miss them. (they all eventually knew i had a crush on him because it was so disgustingly obvious)

on monday, my parents and i took another taxi to Havana, which is the capital of Cuba. it was a two hour car ride. our taxi driver this time was much better than the first, becuase he could at least speak english, so we conversed and got to know each other. we also spent the whole day in Havana, compared to the 4 hours in Matanzas. we even ate lunch with him (i guess in Cuba, you pay them a set price and they take you whereever you wanna go for the whole day, or however many hours you want). he was a pretty cool guy. he's married to a 21 yr old! damn.... and yeah, he was like our tourguide too.. haha.. it was cool. we went to the the pirate ship place (i forgot its real name), the cigar factory, Revolution Square, the cathedral, flea markets, and walked around old Havana as well. there's this one street that is super narrow and really crowded with people. but it was cool. oh, and we visited two public libraries (adult and children sections are separate), and some other places. it was a really fun day. and i took a picture with the taxi driver.

the next day, tuesday, just chilled at the resort again, soaking in the rays... that night at dinner, all alex and i said to each other were hi how are you? i'm fine thanks. hahaha it was really nerve-racking to talk to him, because i was super shy, and he was really hot... just standing there.... ooohhh..... hahaha... shhhh.... but yeah... we just kept looking at each other and stuff. tee hee. oh, and i got hit on by an old Spaniard tourist while i was having drinks at the bar with my parents. it was fucking annoying. he kept talking to us, even though we didn't understand Spanish and he didn't know English. he kinda ignored him, but he persisted on making his point, so we left.

wednesday, my parents and i walked 20ish minutes to this plaza in Varadero called Plaza America. hehe... it was actually pretty cool. and then we got a horse and buggy ride further down Varadero where there are markets and little restaurants on the street. it was uber cool. we had lunch at this tiny restaurant near the ocean (sea?) that was family-owned, and had an amazing meal. it was basically a fun shopping day. that night, at dinner, i wrote my address and number down so i could give it to Alex so we could write to each other, but he wasn't working, so i gave it to one of the other guys who said he would give it to him the next day for me. i got excited, and glad that i went through with it (i was debating whether or not i should...because some people don't like girls who pursue guys like that.... ahem.... jay... ahem) yes...anyway....

thursday, we hung out at the hotel again, and i pretty much spent the day by myself. hung out by the pool, read my book again, you know... that sort of thing. i even had dinner by myself. my parents wanted to go to this other restaurant for dinner that night. it was in the hotel, but they required a reservation. and i really didn't want to go because 1) that place isn't as good as the buffet, and 2) i wanted to see if Alex got my piece of paper. anywhoo.... so during the day, i was chillin by myself, and the bellboy (who looked about 50) who was working that hit on me. ok, he followed me to my room, and then decided to strike up a conversation right outside my door. it was le freaky. then he asked if i had a boyfriend, and i said no, and he looked all surprised and asked why. and then he was like, "you're very pretty. i see you walking around a lot. can i have your address so i can write to you?" omg... i was scared. and i said no. then after a while, i think he got the message that i didn't want him there, and he left. i ate dinner at the buffet by myself that night and i got to talk to Alex, (and all the other awesome people who work there) and he wrote his address and number down for me, but it took him a long time because he kinda forgot the country code and area code for his country. ... it took him three times to do it. but yeah... then he asked me what i was doing later that night, and whether i wanted to hang out after his work. so of course i said yes, but i really didn't expect him to ask that. hehe... anyways, after that little convo, i went back to my table to eat, and my hand was literally shaking cuz i was so elated. (ok, you can stop laughing at me now). and when i finished and as i was leaving, i was chatting with this other guy who works there (i think he is like a manager or something, i dunno), and i had agreed earlier that week that i was gonna take a letter back to his friend in Scarbro for him, and so we were chatting and he was like "can i get you something? anything you want? it's my pleasure! what are u doing tonight?" like, he really wanted to hang out with me, i think. but i didn't really wanna. i get scared by being asked out by old(er) men. so i told him i already have plans, which was true. he looked upset, and was like "you do?" and i'm like yeah... with Alex... and he's like "who? Alex? he works here?! i don't know him..." and he actually sounded pissed off. i got scared... but i said yeah. and he's like "oh..." so i just said thanks for the offer anyway. and left. anyway... at 10:30, i went by the restaurant, and was waiting a long time for him to come out. but he didn't, and i got annoyed cuz i thought he was standing me up. but then Hanoi (the guy who's letter i was taking back to Scarbro) saw me, and was like "hey...what are you doing here?" so i was like "waiting for Alex"..haha... so then he told me to come in (the restaurant was closed at the time) and he went to find him for me... then Alex came and told me to wait a bit til he finished up. and Hanoi and I chatted about Toronto til he came out... so he came out, and we walked towards the trails/paths nestled in the trees and bushes of the resort. he didn't want anyone to see us, especially his bosses, because apparently, he's not allowed to have relationships with customers, or he could get fired. but the paths that night were unlit (which was really weird)... so we just sat down and talked there. it was really fun. we had a bit of trouble understanding each other becasue of the language barrier. he kept telling me to speak slowly. haha... oops. anyway, it was a really really great night, and it was too bad i had to end it early ( i knew my parents would be staying up and waiting til i get back)... so that was that. he wanted us to chill the next day, but i knew i wouldn't be able to, so he said he'll call me, and stuff. so...that was the end of that.

on friday, the last day, we checked out at noon, but the bus wasn't picking us up til 7:30pm, so we pretty much had nothing to do the entire day. read a bit.. soaked up a bit of sun, played cards, and wandered aimlessly. the last dinner there was yummy. and it was great that i got to say bye to all my cool restaurant workers. haha.. it's too bad Alex didn't work that day, otherwise i could've gotten to see him one more time. but such is life. the ride back to the airport was nothing spectacular. i started making conversation for the first time with this man who was on vacation with his wife and son who were at the same resort as us for the entire week. kinda weird.... he graduated from WLU too, so yeah, thats pretty much what we talked about. and then we were going around to the other hotels and picking other people up, and this other girl was wearing a WLU shirt. YEAH REPRESENT!! lol... anyway... we waited at the airport for 2 and a half hours before we got on the plane. it was super boring. and to make this a Mandy story, we got on the plane and flew home. hahaha.
well, we got back to TO at 2am...took forever to get our luggage. my brother picked us up, and we went home. and that's the end of my trip.

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yeah, that was a novel, i know... i applaude whoever read the entire thing. it was pretty much more for myself than you, since i forgot to bring a journal there. i usually do when i go places. but anyway...

christmas was boring, boxing day sucked, and today i went downtown with kamla. and i mailed a letter to Alex, cuz he never called me up. i think there was something wrong with the phone. cuz i tried calling him the next day, and it didn't work for me either. so i wrote instead. :)

alright... this entry is WAY too long. i'm gonna stop. and when i go back to Loo, i'll post pictures from the trip. toodles!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

posting backwards in time.

wow, i am already sick of some of the mus. history's listening stuff. bahhhh... gotta admit though, i really like some of the pieces we have to know. i mean, other than the two beethoven symphonies i've played. Schubert's Erlking is pretty awesome. anyway... enough about that.

the recital hall end-of-term party at morty's was pretty fun tonight. John bought us all wings, they were awesome. good time playing pool with Angela too. yay!

what is wrong with me? techno is starting to grow on me. i have one techno song in my playlist. this is blasphemy. it makes me think of sexy raves and glowsticks. thanks Andrea* (bartender girl at the Rude).

last night's party at James' was hoppin'! haha him and Pete have a really nice place, and if ihad a car, i'd want to live there. i only stayed for a bit though because i wanted a ride home, so i left whenever lucas left. and lucas left kind of early. oh well, it's all good. i had eggnog. i haven't had eggnog in years!! just cuz last time i had it, i remember i didn't like it. anywhoo..

the last mus. ed class was awesome! i seriously loved that class. June is the best damn teacher in the country! hehe june countryman. :) gotta love that woman. she bought like 10 boxes of pizza, so we all got to stuff our faces while we had this debate thing about problems that can arise in music education. it was fun. then we got our essays back, and i got an A-. i seriously didn't expect it, cuz writing that thing was like torture. it was almost all BS. but then i went up to June and told her that i didn't think i did well, and she said, no i did okay. i compared it alright. so...okay! not complaining about A-. haha.

the two orchestra/choir concerts were AMAZING. but i will post my review on a separate entry another day. it's gonna be too long. but it was seriously like the most high experience i've ever had. (not the stravinsky though. but the Bernstein and Jasmina's piece for sure!!)

anywhoo, i need to sleep, so i can wake up tomorrow and study more.



* no thanks

Saturday, December 03, 2005

today's choir rehersal was INTENSE!!! when Dan, our counter-tenor soloist sang... i almost cried, it was so beautiful. i could feel the tear forming in my eye. haha. i don't usually like tenors as much as baritones and basses, but Dan's voice was so pure, it was intoxicating. i am now excited more than ever about tomorrow's concerts. it's kind of a shame that so many people can't make it to the 8pm show. *shakes head* undedicated bastairds! *shakes fist* hehe...

anyway, last night at the Rude was pretty fucking intense as well. since i was closing with Andrea, it wasn't surprising that i clocked out at 1:30am. but Andrea offered to drive me home, so okay. at first i didn't really want to. i'd rather take a cab and get home early than wait around til she closes the entire restaurant. buuuuut a bunch of staff were drinking and hanging out, and i seriously haven't hung out on a friday night in soooo long. and they're a crazy bunch of people. so i stayed. it was pretty fun, actually. once it was pretty much all staff (and nate's gf and other friend) we got free drinks and stuff, it was awesome. Cam, the new dude, made me a crispy crunch, but it was kinda gross cuz it was too sweet. but before that, he made me this apple-y drink. that was good. Rory and i chatted about Nepal and Tibet, and Alex and i had some weird convos. hahaha... it was all good though. Alex called for a cab probably like 10 times, and none of them ever came, so Andrea drove both of us home. i got home at 3:30. oh, good times!

**

I realized that after seeing GoF, i still haven't posted a review. okay, so here goes.

1. Ron was actually pretty cute in this. I especially enjoyed seeing him dance with McGonagall. and his scenes at the Yule Ball were done quite well.

2. i must disagree with Mar... EMMA WATSON flaws, not Hermione. sorry, i think you all know by now my hatred for her. what was UP with that curtain scene, seriously? it was so lame. "oh Harry be careful! oh!" please.

3. (as a comment to Mar's post) i think that it would be incredible if the HP collection became a TV show.... so they would be able to do EVERYTHING in the book. and yes.... a Hermione with more depth is welcome. and maybe Harry too.

4. Cedric actually looked pretty cute in GoF... i didn't think he was when i first saw his photos. but his acting was good. he made a good Cedric. he could've been blonder though.

5. .... but then again, Fleur could've been REALLY blonder.

6. Katie Leung was also not as bad as I thought. i digged her accent.

7. the 3rd task was AMAZING, didn't you think? i think it was one of my favourite scences. and Ralph Fiennes did a good job of Voldemort.

8. i'm really glad this move didn't have the terrible terrible ending like PoA... remember... Harry flying towards us.... and it ends.

9. some parts of it were really kinda boring... and i was super disappointed about the lack of Quiddich World Cup in the movie.

10. i really really liked how Mike Newell decided to put in the first chapter of the book. it was a really good way of starting the movie. a lot different than the other 3. i could tell right away it was a much darker movie, just from that scene. and the cinematography was WAAAYYYY better in this movie as well.

11. Dan Radcliff needs to work out. that bathtub scene did not impress me.

12. ...neither did Moody. baaaaad casting. that's all i have to say.

13. no Charlie Weasley? no Bill Weasley? i am sad.

aaaand, i'm spent.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

i have never tried so hard to try to pursue someone ever in my life. and it still won't work.

so i guess the lesson is never try.

i'm done with calling. he can do the pursuing from now on.

Friday, November 25, 2005

whoa.. okay, so yesterday, i tried doing my first sudoku puzzle, since my history class was cancelled. i quit after 20 minutes though, because i had to practise. anyway... i actually tried doing it again today, and after an hour and 45 minutes of dedicated puzzle solving, i finished it!!! whoooooo!!! it's so cool, these puzzles are addictive! it was a good waste of time. hahaha i need to get my hands on another one tomorrow.
wwhhhooooooaaaaaa
today's rehersal with orchestra was INTENSE!!!! holy fucking shit... best legal high EVERR!! the Poulenc is actually starting to grow on me. it sounds awesome with orchestra! Jasmina's symphony is AWESOME, i truely love that piece. aaaaaand BERSTEIN!!!! whoo hooooo! my faaaavourite piece tihs concert!!! holy shat, i almost died, it was that good. instead i turned into a Mandy puddle. it was a boiling puddle too, cuz it was so hot. lol i was kinda iffy about buying Craig a ticket, cuz i know he wants to come to the concert, but i didn't wanna pay for him, but now, i seriously don't even care. i didnt have to pay for either my brother's or Jay's tickets. hahaha so it's all good.

i'm really excited to hear that counter-tenor now... putting everything together will be beyond amazing! eeeeeeeeee! and then i'm going home saturday! whoo hoo!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

*grin*
ok, sooooo i just came back from lunch with Jay. it went super well. i bussed to his place, and we walked back to his house for a bit, deciding on where to eat. and we couldn't decide so we just started walking to uptown Waterloo. but we walked through like Mayfield and some other sidestreets, past Sobey's and through Erb St. it was a long walk, but it was awesome. we had lunch at the Fox and Fiddle, which is an awesome place! i've never been there before, even when it was Paddy's. so..yeah... it was le fun. after that we walked to WLU and i showed him around campus... and he showed me where he glued ferns on the walls in the terrace, when he worked there. haha! and then in the dining hall, we bumped into Bethany, so we stopped and chatted with her for a while. it was le fun. and then he had to go cuz of work. so boourns. but he's coming to the choir/orchestra concert! yaaayyyyyyy!! i am le super excited, it is gonna be great!

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edit: Hurrah for 10 000 hits!!!

edit edit:: why is it blizzarding so hard??? argh!!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

1. writing this paper is like torture...
2. i talked to johnny rocco about jay. he said he would talk to him next time he sees him and see what's gonna happen.
3. i watched Saw 2 yesterday. it was fucked up. what a good movie.
4. HP4 will have to wait til next weekend. stupid school getting in the way.
5. i miss things.
6. still.
7. i hate school
8. my head hurts.
9. and i'm tired.
10. back to work.

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edit: i called jay last night after having a mildly deep convo with fran. it went mildly well.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

last night, i had a weird dream. there were lots of people around, but the people i remember in it the clearest was me, warren and amy lim. basically we were in this restaurant or cafe place... i think? and warren was sitting at this one table, and i i walked up to him and he was doing homework, so i just sat there and talked... and then i saw amy lim sitting a couple of tables away, so then we started talking too, but amy and warren weren't really talking... and then some other stuff happened..... and yeah.....lol.... i don't remember all the details, but some parts of it were embarassing.

hmmmmmmm......

ok freudians... what was the meaning of that dream?

and then i was reading an article in te concourse after choir today for my music ed. paper, and warren walked up to me cuz he saw me working. it was so weird seeing him. haha anyways....
yea, and amy came up to me during the choir break and started having a full out conversation with me. that was kinda weird too.

and that's the end of my story.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

ok it's been a couple of days since the handing in of the music history papers... i think i've recovered from my lack of sleep. hee hee... i checked my multiple choice marks for my psych exam today (which was on the same day as the history paper was due, so i studied zero for it) and it's kinda funny (yet sad) how bad i failed it. hahah.... it was really bad. hopefully the bs-ing of my short answer questions will make up for it. but my hopes aren't that high.

anywhoo, so i jammed at the Rude last night. it's been a while since i did... and it was pretty fun, except near the end they were all playing funk and other crazy stuff like that, so i had to sit out for it, cuz i have NO idea how to play to that. but it was fun still.

anywhoo.. i don't really have much else to post, but THANKS NIQUE! for offering to beat up guys for me! i feel the love. <3

Saturday, November 12, 2005

right. okay, so guys are still dicks.

i'm done with the drawing board. i dunno what else to do.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

just some news... Jeremy and I have parted ways.

gone are the stressful lessons, tears about stressful lessons, bad confrontations, awkward silences, and pretending.

i'm actually kinda relieved.

**

anyway... so after deciding to ask Kelly about Jay, i called her, but no one was home, so i left a message, and went to sleep. two hours later, my phone rang, and my caller ID said "Kelly. The Duke." (The Duke is where she works)... so i picked it up, glad that she was returning my call. but it wasn't Kelly, it was Jay! whoo hoo! so yeah... we had a nice chat... then was like "were you sleeping?" so i'm like "uh....yeah...." haha oh well. i'm glad he called though. we made plans for friday, but it wasn't until this afternoon that i remembered that i lost my driver's license.... sooo.... i will have to try to find someone who looks like me and ask if i can borrow their's for a night. because i really hate cancelling plans with people. especially two people (Jay and Bethany). so... yeah... YIAAAAAYYYYY!!!!

anyway, Kelly called me back tonight, and it was really unexpected because i assumed that she was the one who told Jay to call me back. but apparently she didn't know. which makes it even better for me, because now i know he called me by himself! yay! and i also learned that they live together. pah.. go figure. i'm stupid. but we had a cool little chat anyways. so yes.... this week is looking better already!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

ok so yesterday, tuesday, the penderecki played at the noon concert. it was intense. i couldn't even sit through the entire show. i dunno.... just seeing jeremy there playing... remembering the things he told me. i couldn't take it. one thing i realized after monday... i really can't stand people who contradict themselves like that. it's like saying, "i wonder why i eat so much food at the dining hall. it's disgusting".. and then 10 minutes later, you head to the dining hall and buy a slice of that 4 cheese pizza because it's so delicious. can't stand it. and the first piece in that concert was really boring as well.
i dunno...... i'm kinda thinking about quitting lessons with jeremy now. i mean... i have been kinda complaining about his teaching styles for 2 years, now i have a chance to get out... should i? i dunno. i hate severing ties. like, i seriously had soooo much respect for him. but just after what happened on monday... i dunno anymore.

*sigh*... a minute to reflect....

anyway... jay never did come in today at the rude. and he still hasn't called. i must say, i am pretty disappointed. but what can i do, huh. i think i'll stick to me and fran's principle of "guys are dicks".

better start doing some work. meeting amie at the library tomorrow. yay.

Monday, October 31, 2005

the talk with jeremy today after my lesson was intense. and he actually had napkins this time. ones from the dining hall. but yeeeeaaa.... it was really bad. it's our 3rd talk, and this one actually got me kinda angry. some things he said were pretty cold. anyway..... that totally ruined my entire day. so i decided to skip music ed. even though i adore my prof to death, she's is the best fucking teacher ever! but yeah.... didn't want to deal with all that. so i took a little trip to dt kitchener. good times. and some bleeding on the way back.

last night's party at Kat's was pretty awesome. good times to be had :) Dan Rayney and i had an intense conversation about working at the rude native. hahaha good ol'e Dan. i miss hearing him play in the dining hall.

anyway, i seriously am anxious about work on wednesday. i hope Jay comes and visits me so i can harass him about not calling me. :) just kidding... but really, i can't wait. i mean... i don't even know if he is coming, but i hope he does, since i told Kelly that i work wednesdays and fridays, and i'm guessing that she told him. ahhh.... this is distracting. this is why i don't like having such relationships during school. it fucks with your mind and you lose sleep over it and your grades go down.

anywhoo...... yeah..... okay, i'm gonna go now.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

a really really horrible night is almost always followed by a really really awesome night.

tonight was defiantely an awesome night.

it must be the heavens doing its magic.

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Halloween party at Kat's tomorrow!!!


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edit: damn, that is one intense xanga site

Friday, October 28, 2005

so i was reading Owen's xanga, and he posted something about ACI alumni forum. so for the hell of it, i went there to check it out. and i found out that their Christmas concert is on Dec.7th this year. i'm contemplating emailing Lummy and asking him if i could play in the orchestra just for fun. i miss highschool. they were such good times.

so...... should i? what if he cruelly rejects me? i'd be so embarassed.

i'm coming back for an afternoon this weekend!! yaaayyyy i am excited. i get to go to art class! but i am still going to miss Nique's party. i really wanted a raga with Damien, Nique, and Elliot. :( boourns. and i need to get my costume this weekend as well. another trip to value village? yes, please.

anyway.... i need to get back to studying... i'm going to see if i can pull an all nighter. it is currently 3:50am. 5 more hours to go!

Thursday, October 27, 2005

i feel better now
yay it's thursday! which means tomorrow is friday! yay!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

what a night....
really.
first with Sam... then the thing that me and Ginger conversed about. i went into the Rude this afternoon and asked Ginger if i could still take the day off if Sam couldn't take my shift, and she pretty much said no. and Sam can't take my shift. argh.

i am actually a bit homesick (really doesn't happen often) and i called home to tell my dad i can't go home this weekend after all, even though i've been planning it for almost a month. and he said he would drive me back on saturday to work. *smiles*

and then the thing with music.
i really don't understand. and i'm thinking psych terminology again.
it's okay, you can repress it. or project it subconsciously. it is so blatently clear. well....... anyway.

i really like talking to people who took psych. cuz they actually know how to make you feel better. love our deep convos, THANKS FRAN!!! much love. <3
so i faileded my history exam. so not impressed. ugh.... i went to see sanotuosso today and she was actually somewhat nice. but she made me feel really stupid by telling me i should form a study group with smart people in the class, and then looked at her class list with everyone's marks, and naming certain people who had really good marks on their exams. yeah, anyways.... i talked to lorrina about it, cuz apparently she did well on her exam, and lorrina said she will show me how she studies and stuff. yay.

went to wilf's with geoff tonight. it was fun. we listened to craig and his roomie play music. that was cool. then we went to the practise rooms and hung out for two hours. i met a first year guitar guy. he is le HOT. me geoff and aurora sat in his room and listened to him play for us. it was fun! he really is quite talented. and he wants to do music therapy! awwwww....

okay, anyway... enough about that. going with tim to get pierced tomorrow. yay- i've never actually been WITH someone for their piercing. it has always been someone going with me for mine. so it'll be interesting.

anywhoo... i'm spent. g'night.

edit: oh yeah... while i was hanging out in the practise rooms, i saw darryl cremaso, the guy who kinda help mark our history exams and was kinda supervising our exam. and i told him that i didn't pass. and he looked really surpised and apologized. (we had a conversation about the level of difficulty the exam was right after i wrote it) haha... oh darryl.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

i am REALLY glad that the history midterm and the skills sight singing is over. paahhh.. history was meh. i mean... it was hard, but it wasn't THAT hard.... except the short answer questions molested me. that was hard. i mean... opera seria? bach chorale? i didn't study in that much depth. anyway... it's done. i practised skills for literally one night, and i think i did okay this morning. yay, go me!

i was just hanging out with fran and beth, it was good times. i havent really hung out with people like that in a while, just walking around campus, talking and stuff. except they started dissing strings people again. like, what the hell? ugh... i didn't appreciate beth's discriminatory comments against violinists. but she said that i was an exception. that didn't help much.
i stil love her though. yay bethany!

anywhoo... yeah, i really need to get some work done.

Monday, October 17, 2005

orchestra concert was amazing. it made me sad that i couldn't be in it. the Franck gave me shivers throughout, it was that good. Lucas was HOT today. i even told him, both sober and drunk (at the huether). haha

huether's was awesome! i really miss hanging out with my strings people. tim came! yay! it was fun hanging out with ihm. i am drunk. it's great! :) i love my strings people. can't wait til Kat's haloween party, yayyyy!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

in light of the upcoming music history midterm, i made this hot banner:

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dedicated to all y'all music nerds who's in history, or was.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

one thing that seriously pisses me off: people who are late. like fuck... if you're not going to arrive at the time you say you are going to, then don't tell me you are coming at that time!!! because i'm going to be expecting you at that time and you're not here and it just messes everything up! i work based on a schedule, so fucking just follow it! god fucking dammit!

what if it's an important meeting or something? you can't do that! argh! and not like i have all day waiting for you. who do you think you are?! ugh...

people like that disgust me.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

santosuosso's great at putting people down and crushing them.
she did me in about 5 seconds.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

i went to collingwood yeterday with a bunch of people. it was prety fun. we went to the scenic caves place. well, i went there twice before, but they have this new suspension bridge now, so i went on that. it was le fun.

anyway, i'll finish this later.... i gotta go.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

soo... i'm sick. damn cold. *cough cough* ow, my throat.
back in TO.
gosh, i'm such a nurd... first thing i did when i got home was to pull out my research methods assignment and do it. i'm pretty much done, except for like two questions; one in which we haven't learned the lesson yet, and the other takes too long and my brain can't take that much math at 1am. i showed my mom my assignment, and she found out that i did this one question wrong. i didn't multiply the fractions properly. i totally forgot how to mulitply fractions!! omg... how embarassing. i got a good laugh out of it though.

anyway... my mom is making cheescake right now. mmm... it smells delish.
speaking of cheescake, i was working at the Rude on thursday, and i got to try the banana phyllo and the key lime pie. oh my god.... soooooo good! mmmmmm....

so party at nique's on sunday! i can't wait!! i'm sooo excited about seeing nique, mikey, smitty, and whoever else! yaaaaayyyy!! :) and i'm going leaf-watching tomorrow. take some hot pictures with my hot camera. it's gonna be a good weekend.

Monday, October 03, 2005

it's been a generally pretty shitty couple of days... except saturday morning when catherine and i went to the market-- that was fuckin awesome!! grocery store groceries are so crappy compared to the fruits, vegetables, bakeries and meat stands at st. jacob. i bought the freshest groceries i've seriously ever seen in my life! and catherine bought a cool pair of shoes and me a little purse-y bag as well. kudos. heh

but yeah... besides that trip, it was pretty shitty. work fuckin sucked. it was really busy and i probably made a lot of money, but it was also very frustrating and stressful. on saturday's shift, i was in charge of the wait list, and ginger kept critisizing me about taking down descriptions... after she came back from having a smoke-- in the middle of the rush. it was really really not cool. i was pretty pissed off at her, and she could tell. but when i finished my shift and everything, we had a talk, and made up. that was nice. kinda... anyway, i'm just glad i wasn't scheduled at all for the upcoming weekend. being thanksgiving and all.

im a bit (just a bit) anxious about going back to TO. i miss my scarbro friends and eating good food (although i had awesome dinner last night and lunch today, from market groceries). but yeah... we'll see how it goes. oh, i still have to get mikey and carmen's presents cuz it's their birthday on monday. yaayyy

i feel like chilling and watching a movie. but i have so much reading to catch up on. bah. i'll do the right thing. after a shower.

outtie.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

yay for posting! i haven't posted in sooo long.
well... it feels that way.
i'm actually taking a break from studying and homework. haha.. it's fun. what a great day! i talked to Terry today about switching to his skills class, and he said it was okay! YAY!!! Terry Kroetsch!! i told mike the percussionist (not cute mike percussionist... the other mike percussionist) and he asked me who i have for skills now, and i told him Carol Bauman, and he looked all surprised and told me how she has breat cancer. i felt kinda bad, but then having breast cancer doesn't mean that you have to be a bad (or mediocre) skills teacher. *shrug*... okay, i'm cold hearted... so sue me. i just want the marks.

anywhoo! last night i went to the Rude with Timmy for drinks AND cheescake! it was awesome! i got a menengitis vaccine shot on monday, so my arm was pretty sore yesterday and i couldn't play for open mic. hell... i couldn't even practise. it still hurts today, but not as much. feels like my muscles are all stiff and shit. anywhoo... but it was fun chatting with Tim Louis and Ryan and Elaine and all the cool people who jammed.

oh yeah... HI CARMEN-BEAN!!!!
i love my Chewy hee hee!

ummm... what else...? oh! our bathroom is being painted today! it looks really nice so far! all clean and beige! and our new porch/deck is being built now too! YAY for new porches!

haha i watched the family guy movie yesterday, it was hilarious! my favourite part was the Sound of Music impersonation. i love Julie Andrews, who is my queen. *heart*

anywhoo.... im gonna go.. and do some work now.

i <3 nurds!

edit: my research methods prof is hot!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

i was just about to post something about missing my friends, and i saw nique's post on the crazies. :( it was so touching. i usually don't bother reading song lyrics on a website, but i read that one all the way through, and it made me sad.

anyway... i was going to reflect on the fact that i feel so detached from everyone this school year. i mean, i don't know any of the first yr violinists, besides knowing their face (and even that, i don't know everyone). i barely have any classes with people in my own year, and i'm not living with any music people.
oh, and warren and i haven't hung out once, and neither have i and andrew abela. i know everyone's all busy and stuff, but still... it sucks. well... warren's always postponing hanging out with me. last time, he asked for a raincheck, and i was like "no i don't do those, because i know people always forget, and i'd rather not have people owe me." ha. i think he took it the wrong way. whatever.

the good thing is that i really like my new roommates, they're awesome. our unit of the house is finally starting to get some real renovations. we got a new fridge, new stove, new water taps, and vlad (the fixer dude) is coming in tomorrow and continue fixing up our bathroom. it's gonna look so awesome! today we all drove to the hmoe depot to buy a new shelf for our bathroom, and taps for the tub. it was a fun little trip. haha..

i have so much reading to do, i'm getting flustered. you know that feeling when you have so much to do and you don't know what to do first, so you don't do anything at all? yeah... that's how i'm feeling right now.

anywhoo... i'm gonna try one more attempt at reading more music history. wish me luck.

Monday, September 19, 2005

well yesterday afternoon, when i was at home in scarbro, i decided to watch The Joy Luck Club. Nan recommended that i watch it with my mother, but i found out that my mother was the one who bought the dvd, and already watched it a long time ago. anyway... i watched it by myself, and i'm not even kidding, i cried like a baby. some parts of it were so touching, and it's something i can totally relate to. aaahhh.... it really is a mother-daughter movie.

anyway.... Lorna and i looked over each other's Apocalyptica pics. i got mine developed yesterday. some of them didn't come out at all, which really sucks. but there were a few that came out awesome, and those totally make up for all the shitty pics. i'm actually going to blow one or two (one for sure) up and put them up as a poster in my room. it's really really hot! :) i love my hot finnish cellists. *heart*

anywhoo.... my break is over... back to being a nurd. yay baroque music! allemande! courante! sarabande! gigue!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

OH MY GOD.... the Apocalyptica concert was fuckin AWESOME!!!!!! seriously.. oh man... it was sooo great. hearing them live is a million times better! when the first band opened for them, lucas and i were outside chatting. he was sooo mellow. it sucked, cuz i wanted to be hyper. but i got a good dose of lucas, and i almost fell asleep. that party pooper. when apocalyptica started up we went in, and i dove into the front row... but off to the side. lucas went... somewhere else, i don't know. they played sooo many metallica songs! it was great!! the highlight of the night was when they played Nothing Else Matters (aka the Joni Glidden song, who, bythe way, wasn't there at the concert). oooohhhh maaaaannn... it was so fuckin orgasmic! i loooved Inquisition Symphony too. it's one of my other favs of theirs. anywhoo... the concert ended at about 9:30, and afterwards Lorna, Lucas Lorna's brother, and her highschool friends all waited til they came out. i swear to god, they are the most nicest, down to earth musicians i have ever met. you know how some rock starts are all assholes just cuz they're rich and famous? not them! perttu was so shy, it was the cutest thing. but on stage, he was the first one with his shirt off, leather pants, and i heard he goes commando under them! so Lorna was like "how many personalities do you have?" cuz he's so differnt off stage. and pertu was just standing like counting his fingers.. hahah! but yeah.. it was awesome chatting with them. and then we talked to the drummer, he was also very nice. he has cute hair. hahah. yeah... i don't know his name. but he signed my ticket as well. me, Lorna and Eicca had the coolest chat. we were talking about technique and stuff, and i told him that i played violin, and we (me and lorna) wanted to know how he kept his wrist (or arm, but it looked like he was playing from his wrist) soo relaxed, especially during the 32th notes. and eicca was like "just play from your ass! or your back." but yeah.. it was like a mini masterclass! with eicca! *heart!!* i seriously love them so much, they awesome. and when eicca was signing my ticket, he didn't know that he was only supposed to sign one, so he signed all 3 of them. haha it was funny. oh well. paavo was the last to come outside, and he was Lorna's favourite, so we had to wait til he came out. and we got pictures and all that good stuff, but we all had to agree that he was a bit of a letdown, compared to the bonding that we did with perttu and eicca and the drummer. oh well.. and then Lorna's brother drove me home and i didn't have to take the bus! yaaaayyyy!!

WHAT A GREAT NIGHT!!

edit: i also want to comment on the extent of the HOTNESS that was on stage tonight. fuckin unbelievable! mmmmmm.mmmmm.mmmmmm

Friday, September 09, 2005

awwww a first year violin girl is shorter than me! she's sooo cute! hahaha
this morning's meeting in jeremy's room (my violin studio teacher) was really interesting. we started off talking about our summers and music related stuff, then for some reason, it branched off to talking about cadavers and skinning people to see their muscles and stuff. it was weird. but fun still.

i'm at Fran's right now. i love her new room, it's so cozy! it's like being in a cave! awww.... but it would be nice to go home right now... but it's such a nuisance cuz there's construction all over. bah. ah well...

anyway.... i'm le tired. im gonna go hang out with fran and amie.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

took this from my xanga.... didn't feel like writing the same thing again...

i just want to comment that i really really fucking hate little frosh kids who wear skirts so short that i can pretty much see their asses and get trashed and walk all around town talking at the top of their lungs. really... that is so degrading. ugh...

i just came back from going out with timmy and a bunch of his roommates. we had a drink at the Rude, and then walked home. on the way, these 3 girls were in front of us. two of them were holding up this one girl who was absolutely trashed out of her mind. we got sick of walking behind them, so we walked faster to get in front of them, and i turned around to see the girl who was really trashed, and lo and behold, it was shermeen. that blind girl who went to ACI. anyways... i told timmy, and we were all surprised and stuff, but timmy was kinda buzzed himself and started saying that blind people should be allowed to drink too. *rolls eyes*... anyways.... it just wasn't cool. and really.... her skirt just wasn't short enough. *rolls eyes in disgust*

okay, i'm done complaining. there's a laurier international students dinner party at the Rude tomorrow. i'm actually really excited, because fran's a mentor, and i'm hoping to meet her exchange students. i dunno if she's gonna be there, but... hopefully! anyway.... im gonna go... i have a meeting with jeremy tomorrow. i'm sooo nervous, because i wrote him a long email telling him about my schedule and plans and stuff, and his reply was only one sentence: to go see him soon. so... i'm worried that he doesn't like me anymore. aww... so yeah... i gotta prepare for that.

but before i part, i would like to say that i saw amie, james, liz and joni glidden today. i miss my strings people. *heart*

and jay hasn't called yet.... still waiting....

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

look! i'm stealing internet again! yay it works!

lots of people have moved into my house, so i just thought i'd try and see if they've gotten internet yet and if i would be able to steal it. it worked! stealing internet is great!

anywhoo.... i ushered tihs morning. it was ofr a graduate studies' orientation. it was sooo boring. i actually fell asleep during the 2-hour presentation.

anyway.... i would have thought i had much to post, but... i don't. not up to sharing stuff today. so i'll end it here. bye!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

i could write this long post about my shitty life and whatnot, but i'll spare everyone of having to read my complaints. instead, i'll let y'all know that i can't wait til school starts in a week.

that is all.

Monday, August 29, 2005

the weekend was busy. busker festival in waterloo was alright. good for business. haha it kinda sucked that i had to work all weekend. first summer here, and something cool like this happens and i can't even watch. oh well. saturday night was the adult show, it was pretty awesome. i only watched a bit of it from the patio, but there were these two guys on stage stripping. totally naked. it was awesome. i was too far to see anything on the front, but i saw their bums. hee hee... and then it started pouring and tons of people ran to the Rude. hahaha fuckin awesome. saturday night was also the night that robbie and ryan celebrated their birthdays together and sonya's last shift, so everyone was there partying. robbie was also supposed to close, but he asked if i could do it for him, so i agreed, just cuz it was his birthday, and i know the closer would be in for a long time. so... yeah... i didn't finish my shift til 1:15am... i started at 4. yeah... i was fuckin tired as hell. but after my shift, i was just like, give me a damn beer, i have to sit down. haha... it was good good fun. most of the buskers who performed that night were all chilling at the Rude, so we were hanging out with them too. i met this one girl who plays violin while walking of stilts. she's awesome :) so yeah... i didn't get home til 3. haha it was cool. rory drove me home.

anyway.... bryon's moving out. it's so sad. he's the best roommate i ever had, hands down. he's pretty pissed off about his new place though. apparently, they're all slobs. *tug at collar*. well, i told him to come visit anytime. i still have his book, so we'll be in touch. i met this one guy who is moved in today, in another unit. i think we're gonna hang out later tonight. we'll see. and the other new girl in my unit is moving in on wednesday. yay! dave, my landlord was moving old furniture out the her room today, left by the old girl who was there. and he told me that the new girl wanted to talk to the people here, so i gave him my new cell phone number, and maybe she'll call me. i dunno...

anyway..... i gotta go practise now. i haven't gotten around to practising for a while. i don't think i'm gonna be playing with ania this summer anymore. we never got around to putting it together. i need the music back from her though, because i'm still putting together bartok with nancy, and now matty as well. so i fuckin gotta practice.

alright.... well.... i'm done posting now. bye.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

back in scarbro for a few days... it's been fun so far. my family and i went to see the famous people show this evening. it was really good! i even got a bday card from them! and at the end of the show, this guy proposed to this girl! oh man... it was the sweetest thing! i only see proposals on tv, so it was cool seeing it in real life.

note to self: i gotta stop spending so much $$.... gotta save up for africa.... africa... africa....

who wants to come with me?

in more recent news.... i finally bought my apocalyptica tickets! oh man... i am SOOOOO excited!!!! eeeee!!!!! i just downloaded one of their music videos, because i've never seen them play or sing, even in a music video. it made me so hyped up! haha! *bounce bounce bounce* i'm excited!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

ew my last post was such a "mandy" post. hahaha

yay it's the last day of SOSI today! all those kids running around and taking up the practise rooms annoy me. hahhaha.

anyway.... gotta love the CAI lab.
i have nothing to post.

edit: i bought tickets to apocalyptica! YEAHHH!!!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

so i'm not in guelph. ah well.... no biggie. carm called me this morning and said she and michelle planned to hang out since they were on rocky terms with each other. so i ended up hanging out with nancy all day. it was fun.... most of the time. :)

anywhoo... so last night i played at open mic at the Rude. i didn't play much, and it wasn't even with tim. ah well. john, this guy who plays at the Rude on wednesdays bought me a rose, cuz we were all hanging out on the patio, and tihs woman selling roses came up to us and was like "wanna buy a rose? it's for the firefighters' charity" or something like that... so yeah. it was fun chatting up a storm with john. he introduced me to this other guy, jay, who just moved to KW. he's super nice and has a hot piercing. :) he asked when i was gonna work next, and i told him saturday, and he's like "okay, i'm gonna come a bit after 6 and visit you." yaayyyyy!

anywhoo.... yeah, i'm done.

Monday, August 15, 2005

i miss my highschool people sooooo much. :(
shouldn't have stayed out last night. phil's was definately not fun last night. except kathy's awesome.

fuckin dooon't want to go to work today. i really don't.
argh...
3 nights... i don't know if i want to do this anymore.

guelph on wednesday. yyyyaaayyyyyyy

edit: andrew visited me at the Rude today!!! it made my night completly! i bought him a martini, and it only cost me 3:60 plus tip! score! gotta love martini mondays with staff discount! gotta love mr. abela!

Saturday, August 13, 2005

in the CAI lab.... haven't been able to get internet in my laptop for like two weeks now. fun.

my birthday was le fun. i actually got got hang out with warren at taste of the danforth. but then he had to ditch me. oh well. the hospital was meh. dinner with my family was actually really good. then picked up carmen, went to the LCBO, bought wine (carmen bought me Cat's Pee on a Gooseberry Bush), then headed over to mikey's. sarah and liza showed up not too long afterwards. yay for white haven-ites! tee hee! so yeah... we hung out for a bit, watched robot chicken (which is frickin hilarious!), drank wine, and basically just sat around. it was le fun :) i love my fellow calendars.

anyway... work last night was loooong. well, it wasn't really that long. but it felt like it cuz we were busy since a really good band came in to play. nancy and bernice came to visit me. nan and i hung out the whole day before i went to work. we went to visit her bf, who is a dick (long story). she oughta break up with him. plus, he's heinous. hahahah! right. anyway... ginger got really drunk last night. it was pretty funny. i was pre-bussing bottles and glasses as usual, and ginger stumbles in the door and announces that she has to pee. so i kinda helped her into the bathroom cuz i didn't want her to fall over. when we were close to the bathroom, she suddenly hugs me and starts kissing me. lol! ohhh ginger! anyway... so she was in the bathroom for a while, so i decided to check up on her, see if she didn't pass out or anything. but she came out, and i kinda help her back outside and she says to me "i love you!" and kissed me again. lol... it was hilarious. oh, and then she told me to change the toilet paper in the bathroom and leave. it was great! i hate closing with andrea (the bartender) cuz she never lets me leave! so i finish up, order a pint and start drinking outside. and it was already past 1am at the time. but it was awesome. what was more awesome was that sebastian and i conversed! yaaayyy i like sebastian! he's awesome. he usually leaves pretty soon after his shift but last night he stayed til really late. and he kept asking me when i was done. i was like "probably not soon... since i'm working with andrea." heh heh heh... but yeah... i'm glad we got to hang out. oh, and i met nathan's childhood friend, michelle. she's really nice and really easy to talk to. yaa-aayy. i really hope she gets to work at Rude too, it would be like a party every shift! then we all headed to starlight. dancing was an effort, but we tried. michelle told me some stuff about nathan, which was... intresting.. *shifty eyes* after we got kicked out of starlight, we went back to the rude to drink some more. well.... nathan and beckford did. it was pretty funny cuz jen and sonya were closing, and no one was there, cuz the place was closed, and suddenly a bunch of us walk in. haha! anywhoo... and after a bit more hanging out, michelle drove me home. and we all had to listen to nathan complain about not listening to his drum and bass cd. *rolls eyes*...

in other news, audrey's pregnant again! audrey is my favourite cousin, i love her so much! yayyyyyy!!!! yay for babies!

Sunday, August 07, 2005

YAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!!!!!

that means it's my bday tomorrow. fuck.

i wanted to party and dance last night, and Ania, this hot biatch i work with, and i planned it all out. she even left me her number so in case she left after work, i could still call her. so i called her, and then she never showed up. ugh. and i even told chris. and he said he'd be with his friends but he'd tell me where he was going so we can all go, but he left without even saying bye. ugh, what an ass. so i just ended up chillin at Rude with my work buddies. after a couple beers and a j, we (me laura and beckford) went to the Vault and danced for a bit. but it sucked, and i got bored and tired. so all in all, it didn't work out as planned. i got sad, went home, and re-read HBP.
and yeah. bethany went home this weekend. so even though she promised to come partying with me, she couldn't. i hate my birthday. every year, something goes wrong. ah well.... anyways...

i actually went to the danforth with warren today. he gave me a nectarine. hahaha. ooookay. i never met up with fran, cuz she didn't call me this morning *ahem* (yeah, fran) anyways... then warren had to ditch me, so i walked around by myself like a loner, until i bumped into natalie and another girl whom i wish not to speak her name. after chatting for a bit, i went home. ugh... so uneventful. ah well.

ok, what a shitty post... i just wanted to complain. i'm done now.

edit: i just want to add, that if bethany reads my blog, clean out Goulet! he is fucking decomposing! good god, woman!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

i wanted to write a good entry, but i don't have anything interesting to say.
well... i went back to scarbro for a few days, and got a new phone. it's cool, i like it. it's not physically as purdy as my old phone, but it isn't bad either. i can take pictures with it! yay.

ushering today! i haven't ushered in over a month, so it'll be fun. i'm actually looking forward to it!

anyways... yeah, that's about it.

Sunday, July 31, 2005

wow... life sucks now.
other than getting trashed last night with my Rude gang and dancing with michelle at elements (it was her bday), everything seems to be going downhill. so warren just backed out on his promise of coming to taste of the danforth with me. ugh.... i fuckin knew he'd do something like that. god fuckin dammit. i hate when he does that. argh... just fuckin tell me you can't do it when i first asked! it's not that fuckin hard! argh....

anyway... yeah.... my exam yesterday.... meh. it was a bit better than i thought it would be, but i swear, i think my memory's slipping. it's terrible. and sleeping 4 hours the night before probably didn't help. ah well. at least it's done. well i called my mom after my exam, and she got all pissed off at me, as usual. i don't know why i even called. i knew it was coming. ah well. such is the story of my life. anyway... i went out for a breather after that. it was relaxing. i bought a new doorknob for my room, cuz the girl who had my room before me took it.

work was utterly boring.
it kinda sucked that it was dave's last shift, and heidi placed him upstaires. throughout his whole shift, he had no tables. what a waste of time. i hate heidi.
anyway... yeah... i got cut, went home, had a deep convo with fran, and then went back to drink with people. it was fun. :) i was kinda disappointed that nathan didn't come to elements with me and michelle. ah well.

anyways.... this post is really boring. i only wanted to complain about warren. i'm done.

**

edit: still thinking about me and fran's deep convo last night. god.... deep convos make me depressed. i have problems. i need therapy.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

last night at pete's was really fun! when i got there, it was only me pete nate dave and this other guy, so we were playing cards til these girls who worked lunch shifts at the rude showed up, and i didn't know them. but they were alright. lots of people cmae after work too, so it was nice seeing them all. even heidi showed up. *tug at collar*... omg... the amount of heidi conversations was pretty funny. heidi left after like 15 minutes though, probably cuz no one was talking to her. hahaha! oh well. i think nate and laura talked about her the most, it was really funny. but seriously... they were going on and no about her for hours. heh heh... and her and her "baby" whom will never be born. lol oh man... classic.
oh! and last night i found out that fisher's real name is actually lisa! i never knew that! apparently fisher is her last name. but everyone just calls her fisher. then she told me this long story about one of the kitchen guys found out that her name was lisa, and asked all the kitchen people if a lisa worked there, and they were all like, "no, no lisa works at the rude." and he (i think it was nate, but i'm not sure) was like, "are u suuuure?" and then they all found out that it was actually fisher. haha..

yeah, anyways, i need to study.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

ok i think i've deserted this place long enough... *shifty eyes*...
today's pete's birthday. pete is the chef at the rude native. i guess im not gonna go to his party, because last night i was at dave's house (dave is a server) and i told him i'd call him before i went but he isn't picking up his phone. so... meh! no big deal. last night at dave's was actually fun, even though we didn't do anything in particular except drink south african wine and look at photos. ryan drove the three of us after work, cuz work was le tiring. but we got a free shot of something yummy. :) and tim louis played! yay. anywhoo... ryan left after his smoke and after chatting for a bit after he left, i cabbed home.

i really want to write a review for HBP, but i finished that book so friggin long ago that it doesn't seem important anymore. and besides i want to read other people's reviews first. and i can't find any. (*hint* Mar-bear *hint*) i've started reading it the second time, but i can't really get any further because to be honest, i dont want to go through all that horror again. it's way too stressful and intense. so i'll give it a couple weeks. in the meantime, i should continue reading the book my roommate lent me. i'm on the second book of the series, and the beginning is really really boring. oh well...

Anyway, the american idol concert was fuckin AWESOME. everyone was soooo good. <3 MIRACLE BOY! <3 tee hee! he was hot! constantine was sexay! and he sang bohemian rhapsody! i love consty's version of it. so fucking good! scott sang a duet with jessica sierra, and that was surprisingly really really well done! but scott's own solos suck. i hate him. nadia was good. she had energy, but everyone did. miracle boy actually SANG well! i know... lol
ok, bo bice was fuckin awesome. his tattoo was fully revealed. ahhhh so sexay! lol... i was kinda disappointed that he didn't sing his a capella piece. that would've brought tears to my eyes. ah well. carrie was good. but all she sang were country songs. she even talked with a twangy accent. ugh... she pisses me off. all in all though, i had an awesome time, and i met some really nice people. it was unfortunate that dan (kip) and ruth couldn't come with me. ah well.

anyway... dave actually just called me back, and i'm going to pete's tonight. yiay! as much as schizophrenia excites me, i need a break from studying.
anyway... i'm outtie.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

i'm at Fran/Bethany's right now. nice waste of a day. so much for studying. anyway... Fran is cleaning out the bathroom right now, cuz Beth left it sooo messy. we also cleaned the kitchen for her. I can't wait til we watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, i'm le excited! we had an exciting day today. ha. we watched mens diving world championships today. it was awesome! i love watching diving. this one russian dude, his name was Gleb. we made fun of him, cuz really... who names their son Gleb?

I really really need to do an American Idol review, and a HBP review, but i really don't feel like sitting in front of my laptop for an hour typing. so.... maybe tomorrow........ or something.

ok i'm done.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Half Blood Prince spoilers ahead! read at your own risk! (there's more after the spoilers, keep scrolling)








so i went to chapters today and read 5 chapters of HBP. first chapter sucked. but that's probably because i didn't get into it yet. didn't really know how the conversation with the prime minister fit in. and right away i could tell it's very dark. especially when harry goes to the burrow, and arthur and molly have to ask each other questions to prove that it's them before entering their own house. it seems a lot more differnt than the other past 5 books. i can't really put my finger on what it is, but...it's different. maybe the way it's written. but i'm glad that the new minister of magic isn't arthur weasley or dumbledore. can't stand reading fan fics, only to have them be true. anyway.... so i guess horace (i forgot his last name) is gonna be the new DADA prof, eh? hmm... i don't really know what to think of him yet. it's still too early to tell. and what's this with snape spying and pretending to be "good"?? that was quite the shocker. well, i sort of had a feeling he wasn't a complete angel anyway. and i didn't know bellatrix and narcissa were sisters. i thought they were cousins or something. hmmm... narcissa lestrange? nice name. and i don't know what narcissa was so worried about draco for. she seemed weak. maybe i should check the ending to OoTP again. or they'll say it later in the book. hm. anyway....that's my review so far.

***

didn't get to go to the book opening. friday was SO fuckin stressful at work. i don't want to get into it again. but believe me, it was definately not fun. finished at 11:50... i wouldn't have made it in time, so whatever. i just hung out on the patio with michelle, andrew and sebastian. good times. but not really. meh. finally got paid yesterday. about damn time. now the bitch just owes me the cheque from when i first started. gotta keep reminding her. that lazy bitch, seriously. worked with rio last night. we actually didn't get on each other's nerves, for once. but her and andrea (the bartender) were talking about robbie behind his back after he told me to tell her to get to work. *rolls eyes*... anyway...

american idol concert in 3 days! i can't believe i am actually going to see miracle boy in real life! he's my hero! i <3 him! lol... i made another miracle boy wallpaper yesterday. it's le hot. heh heh...

anyway... i have nothing else interesting to post, so...i'm outtie.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

stole this from garreck, cuz i'm bored and i'm bitter.
***

1. Kindergarten Teachers name: mrs. brethur... or however the hell u spell her name.
2. Last person you kissed: craig...on the cheek.
3. Last word you said: thanks (i was paying my bill at the rude native)
4. Last song you sang: who the hell cares
5. Last person you hugged: laura...bumped into her this morning at the mall
6. Last thing you laughed at: michelle, at work tonight. she's entertaining
8. What's in your CD player: tim louis
9. What socks are you wearing: none
10. What's under your bed: dust, a duffle bag, random crap
12. Current taste: tim louis's music
13. Current hair style: i don't know...
14. Current clothes: now i am wearing nada, cuz it's hot and i'm home alone.
15. Current Job: hostess at the rude native
16. Current longing: a paycheque or two... or three (stupid manager)
17. Current desktop picture: miracle boy
18. Current worry: my paycheques
19. Current hate: heidi
21. Current favorite article of clothing: backless halter, and black skirt
22. Favorite feature(s) of the opposite sex: hair, smile, personality
23. Last CD that you bought: tim louis- til it be tomorrow
24. Favorite place to be: among friends
25. Worst place to be: hmmm....
26. Time you wake up in the morning: currently around 11:30
27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: cello
29. Current favorite word/saying: that's so loving
30. Favorite book: harry potter series
31. Favorite Movie: the sound of music... and others
32. Favorite band and song: too many
35. Favorite day: when i'm out chillin with friends
36. Where do you want to go: not school, that's for sure
37. What is your career going to be: music therapist
39. What kind of car will you have: who cares
42. Eye Color: Brown
43. Hair Color: dk brown
44. Righty or Lefty: lefty
45. Zodiac sign: leo
46. Innie or Outtie: innie, but really, who cares. it's a goddamn belly button.

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: i'm not even gonna answer that.
48: Shoes you wore today: sandals, and boots at work
49. Your hair: is tied up
50. Your weakness: too many
51. Your fears: that's for me to know
52. Your hopes: world peace
53. Your most recent secret: i had an orgy in my house. ha. ha. ha. *rolls eyes*
54. Your thoughts first waking up: i wanna keep sleeping
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair, smile, and clothes
56. Your bedtime: whenever i'm tired
57. Your most missed friend: i don't miss anyone
58. Your perfect pizza: the regular... as long as it's yummy and there's dipping sauce
59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: depends on my mood
60. Single or group dates: single
61. Dogs or Cats: cats
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both?
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
64. Cappuccino or Frappuccino: cappuccino
65. Smoke: hmm.... right....
66. Curse: fuck yeah
67. Sing: i suck at it, but i'm taking vocal techniques! yay
68. Take a shower everyday: yeah... sweaty at work sucks
69. Have a crush: not really
71. Think you've been in love: yes
72. Want to go to college: no
73. Want more than what you’ve got: depends on what
74. Want to get married: eventually
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: no
76. Think you're attractive: no, but some people think i am and buy me drinks. i don't complain.
77. Think you’re a health freak: sometimes
78. Get along with your parents: hmmmmmmm....
79. Play an instrument: yes.


IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
80. Drink: yes. i did drink last year.
81. Smoke: hmm.... yeeees?
82. Done a drug: errr...
83. Made Out: yea
84. Go on a date: no. guys are assholes
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
86. Eaten sushi: yes
87. Been dumped: no
88. Made homemade cookies: no
89. Been in love: no
90. Gone skinny dipping: no
91. Dyed your hair: no
92. Stolen anything: no


HAVE YOU EVER...
93. Had too much to drink: yes
94. Been caught cheating: no
95. Been called a tease: yes
96. Gotten beaten up: oh yea, loads of times
97. Changed who you were to fit in: similar to dressing for the occasion (what garreck said)
98. Cried at something beautiful: oh yeah
99. Spent too much money on something you didn’t need: hmm... probably
100. Cried when someone died: yes

Thursday, July 14, 2005

yay, i'm officially registered! i still need one more elective though... if i find one interesting enough. otherwise, forget it. i got into vocal techniques!!! YES!!! i'm so happy. i hope i get into trumpet/horn techniques. that class is full, but i'm gonna email the prof and ask if i can be in it anyways. and my dilemma between taking orchestra vs. choir..... i've decided on choir. :( not too happy about that, but... marks are more important at this point. i'm sacrificing my "cult".. boourns.

anywhoo... yesterday at work, i met the new server, rory. yes his name is rory. *tug at collar*... he is a weird one. he can be nice, but.... i dunno.... he's a bit full of himself. anyway... chillin on the patio again was fun times. rory and ginger left, and a bunch of us went to duke's. yayyy.. even chris came. he's this cool dishwasher guy who works there. robbie was telling me that one time he was hosting and chris was punching out his time after his shift, and these two customers were talking about how chris has a disability or whatever.. i don't remember.. but then robbie went up to them and literally said "shut the fuck up"... and apparently heidi (the manager) saw him go up to them and tell them to shut up, and she was like "good for you for telling them off". honestly... when robbie told me that, i was so shocked. argh! who the fuck cares what he looks like? he's so nice and such an awesome person to hang out with, AND he's a damn hard worker. ugh... people like that piss me off. but anyway! back to last night.... so yea, chris and i had a cool convo at duke's, and found out that we live close to each other as well! yeah! so me him robbie and nate were gonna all walk home together, but this girl i met on monday showed up and offered us a ride home, but i didn't wanna ditch them, so robbie took the ride, and me chris (who had his bike) and nate walked home. good fun.

AI concert in 6 days (miracle boy!!), and Half Blood Prince TOMORROW AT MIDIGHT!!! PAR-TAAAAYYYY!!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

last night was fun! jamming was awesome, even though i was nervous as hell at first. tim was very cool about everything. he let me play whenever i wanted. i got an introduction and everything! *grin* there was this trumpet player man too, and a guitarist, and a couple of singers. they were awesome. one of them was laura sinclair's friend *tug at collar*... nah, she was really nice. craig brought his guitar in, but he didn't play anything. and laura kept making me drinks. haha.. well, she only made me two. and fisher made me a shooter, which was really yummay. haha.. i met lots of people last night. some of them scared me though. i started talking to sonya cuz they were scaring me. sonya laughed at me. hee hee... i bought tim's cd too. well... technically i haven't bought it yet, cuz i didn't pay him yet, but i will next time i see him. after the last song, tim and rich (the trumpet dude) and some other people were cleaning up, and the rest of us were just chillin.. it was really fun. nate (one of the kitchen guys) kept pushing us to leave cuz we were all gonna go to duke's. but when we actually got there, they were closing, so we went to failte's instead. i've never been there before so it was cool. actually, it was fuckin hot in there. holy shiate. tim and fisher showed up a while later, after they closed everything. and laura told me about her friend who's a cellist, and she wanted the three of us to play something sometime (she plays piany) so now i'm excited about that! yaayyy!

anywhoo.... janice isn't in her office today, so i can't do course selections til tomorrow. fuckin sucks... argh. oh well. just gonna relax and listen to tim's cd. it's super good. good to dance to, or just mellow out to. mmm....

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

i'm in the CAI lab right now because i need air condition. it's so damn hot outside.
and sarah's home. but that's not why i'm here.

last night at mongolian was actually fun. craig's awesome. :)

playing with tim tonight at the rude native. ahhh... i'm so nervous. it's gonna be so intimidating. but i gotta do it. get over the stage fright. and besides, tim's not the kind of person who would purposly intimidate someone. :)

gotta start studying for psych again. yay. i can't wait.

moving on...

i'm bored.

maybe i'll practise....... or something.

Monday, July 11, 2005

last night at the rude native was super dead. but it was awesome because almost all of us were cut early, so we were all chillin on the patio, drinking and eating and talking. it was sooo much fun! i haven't really hung out with them before, especially sam.. i haven't even worked with her since the first day she was there. heh.. and yesterday, tim louis played at the rude native, after playing at the jazz festival. he's a cool guy, and so talented! he played this song that ginger (a server) requested, and it's soooo funny. it's about god and smoking weed ...hahaha! i almost died... oh man... seriously, i'm gonna make carmen come visit one time he's here and make him sing her that song. hah! and tomorrow at open mic night, i'm gonna jam with him! YAY!!! i'm trying to convince bethany to come. she was telling me how she's scared cuz she's never improvised before, so we're having a jam session today. yay! and then tim stopped playing for a bit and drank outside with us, and while he was chillin with us, craig, the bartender, took his place, and started entertaining us. and he is actually really good too! so yeah... it was so much fun last night! michelle, this server there, is hilarious. she was telling us these random stories about her getting electricuted by an electric fly swatter. haha! and robbie lives down the street from me! so when i'm bored i'm gonna call him up and chill at his place. yaayyy... and then sam drove me and robbie home. it was awesome... the host group. hee hee!

you know what kinda sucks? that dan rayney doesn't work at the rude native anymore. we coulda been rude native pals AND music pals!! aww... robbie was telling us last night about the one open mic jam session with dan, craig, craig's roommate and tim.. and apparently, it was the best one ever. awww... *heart*

anywhoo... i'm gonna go... do something productive now.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

back in loo.... *sigh of relief*

last night's street fest with kamla was le fun! les girafes was awesome.... for the first half hour. after that, it was just a bit too much. it just didn't end!! anyways... great big sea was awsome. celtic music is fun! kamla and i danced! it was fun. broken social scene played after les girafes.. they were actually pretty good, but kamla and i, being tiny people, got squashed and blocked by tall people. ah well...

it was a shame warren didn't want me to chill with him. well... his loss. i had fun nonetheless.

yay for working tonight! yay for getting paid!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

wow, i really hate justin.
no kidding

thanks to this reminder that he is still around.


**
edit: nothing ever changes in this damn house. argh. looking forward to friday.

Monday, July 04, 2005

work has been busy, but my four days are done! whoo hoo! so now i'm in scarbro again because seriously, i have nothing to do in w-loo.

saturday night was fun. after i came home from work (in which i closed for robbie), i found my roommate and his friend brad (whom i've met once before) chillin in our living room drinking. bryon asked if i wanted to go to phil's with them, and since i already declined last time, and i have nothing better to do, i agreed. so after another beer for them, and dinner (tuna sandwich!) for me, we walked over to phil's. it was really intereseting, how that place is set up. oh! and the best part was that cover fee was 5$ and i didn't have to pay it!! i was gonna hand my 5$ over to the dude, and he's like, "oh, no, you don't have to pay".. so i asked why? and he said something about girls getting in for free or something like that, i don't remember. so i'm like, okay! and then brad goes to me "it's just probably cuz you're hot". hahaha! aaaanyways... oh, and i saw pet shop boy!! it's just this guy who works at the pet shop at conestoga mall. apparently, he's a regular and his name is brad also. i didn't talk to him though, because he doesn't know me. hehe.. anyways... then brad saw a bunch of these girls, and one of them starts making out with him while another is trying to take pictures of them making out. me and bryon are just standing there like, okaay.... doo doo doo.... hahaha and finally after like 10 minutes he introduces us. lol... geez.. and then bryon sees people that he knows, and whatnot... the 3 of us get drinks... dance a bit.. talk to those girls... they leave... we dance some more.. hang around and talk... did a tequila shot each (cuz it's brad's birthday)... dance some more. i convinced bryon to dance with the pole!! yaayyy! pole dancing was fun. he is one hot dancer, let me tell ya! he's just itchin' to grind with a hot random. lol... oh! speaking of randoms... while we were on the dancefloor (before the tequilas) out of nowhere, this brown guy behind me pokes me in the back a couple times, so i turned around, and he's like "wanna dance?" and i kinda got scared, because i'm picky with my randoms now, and he was sketchy looking, so i'm like "um.. no thanks." and then we walked away... ha. *shrug* he was narsty.. and a loner. and then me and bryon saw this one guy who was dancing with these 4 girls, getting them drinks and just u know.... that stuff. we thought he was just their drink whore, but when we got kicked out (apparently, a fight broke out, and we were all kicked out), he was walking away with the girls still!! holy shite! so yea... we were outside phil's, and there's like ALL these people, and brad went off to bum a cigarette, and me and bryon see that guy with the 4 girls stnading a bit further down, so we made up some excuse to go up to them and start talking, since bryon was so flabberghasted that the 4 girls are still hanging around him, and he wanted to know how he did it. so we went up to them and started asking them about the fight in phil's. it really didn't take much to get them talking. lol... this tiny girl(seriously, even i was taller than her!) just started blabbering away to me. it was kinda annoying, really, but oh well. after a few minutes we dragged brad away, and went to get some pizza, but this one guy in front of us just took two slices and ran out the door. we were like, wtf.... and the owners looked so pissed off. so we decided to just cook food at home and pop in a movie. so we got home and my awesome roommate made all of us pasta. it was delish! but 15 minutes into the movie, damn bryon declared that he was exhausted, and went to bed. ugh... anyways, so he ditched us. i felt so weird being alone with brad, cuz i don't really know him that well... so after sitting in awkward silence and conversing about my pacemaker, i kicked him out. it was 4am.

and that's the end of this friggin long post. i'm out.

Friday, July 01, 2005

um... yes, i have recovered.

last night at the rude native was crazy! it was so busy. and i had to close. i was le tired and sooo hungry. i asked if i could leave by 11:45pm so i could catch the last bus home, but i ended up getting home by 1:30am. whoo hoo. i was so pissed off, but at the end, laura, this girl i work with and this guy who worked in the kitchen got me food. awww... i felt so bad because they already cleaned everything up, but the kitchen guy was like "i'm making you food!!" and when he brought it out, he's like "you can't get out of your chair til you finish this!" hahaha awwww i love the people there *heart*. and then when i was waiting for my cab outside, these two customers on the patio started talking to us, and he offered to buy us all drinks! so we all had a shot of this creamy thing. it was yummay! and my cab driver had to wait for me. hahah :D and yay i got paid!

i also feel the need to mention that Fran, i already miss hanging out with you. lol

anywhoo... okay, i'm done.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

*breath*

*breath*

*sniff*

*tear*

why?

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

can thinking something that may not happen get you this pissed off? i don't know, but i'm pretty pissed off already...

Monday, June 27, 2005

PRIDE

- met carment at stc
- subway'ed to new tribe... i got my quote for my tat... carmen set an appt.
- ate lovely street meat by the fountains at queen and bay, then eaton center for cameras
- called jordan too many times
- gave our leftover fries to a scary homeless man who wouldn't leave us alone ("thanks... i'll eat them when i'm hungry")
- kate called! we never met up til the parade started like an hour later
- lots of people.... but not as much as last yr's
- i bought a flag!
- pushed our way to the front. whoooo
- kate, mikey, and kate's bf showed!!!!! yaayyyy
- took pictures
- chilled behind apartment buildings
- kate and bf left
- me carm and mike met up with .... emily (?)... and some other people i don't know.
- bumped into none other than bubble-butt (i'm NOT even kidding. carm was with me... we were like "hey! what's up?" and then i was like "um... okay i have to go.")
- called nique but she couldn't join us, and i thought laura ann and damien were gonna join, but they never did... and we left.
- went to some back alley for a j... with random people. it was pretty cool though
- left... took a pic with hot dragqueens
- back to scarbro... chilled at mike's... called up smitty
- jack astor's for dinner... it was sooo awesome (it was so loving! i kept wanting to say it, but contained myself)
- fun stories
- more pictures
- terrible tanlines on both carmen and myself
- back to mikey's
- looked at awesome artwork which i am jealous about
- matty JP and ramy showed up, and carmen and i went home.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

okay!
so i came back to TO last night. it was great, i missed the city. even the air smells different! ahhhh lovely polluted downtown air! :D

went to center island today with my mum. cuz my brother's in the dragon boat race team with his school. it was fun! i didn't see thier school compete, but there were sooo many others! i saw ken, the guy i went to china with. he was on the Hakka team. and UofT had like 5 teams. ugh... over achievers. heheh! macmaster's team had a really good banner! it said " Holy Mac Row" lol it's so cheesy that it's funny
i couldn't find UW's team cuz we wanted to look for this family friend of our's who's there. but we couldn't find them. umm... and then when we took the ferry back, i bumped into natalie and wendy (from highschool). i haven't seen them in so long, but meh. and then while we were waiting to get off the ferry, i heard someone calling my name, so i looked around, and there was warren!!! YAY! awww i haven't seen him in so long! he was with some guy... lol... i told him to chill with me tomorrow, during the day, and he's like, "what's tomorrow?" so i'm like "the pride parade!" and he automatically was like "nooo!!!" :( and then i asked him why, it would be fun! and he was like "i have no pride" bah... oh well. oh, and he was making conversation with my mom in chinese... bah. warren's so fob. heheh

anywhoo! yes, i'm excited for pride!! i just got off the phone with carmen,and we're planning great things! yaaayyyy!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2005

aww someone wrote me a sweet comment! *heart* thanks!

i have about 24 hours to write my essay.. whoo hoo! i procrastinate way too much. but it works. :)

last MT session today was fun. i took lots of pictures and all the little kids were like "ooo light!" cuz my flash was on. haha...

can't wait to go home this weekend. PRIDE WEEKEND!!!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

to make a long story short, because i REALLY can't think right now....
me fran and beth went to morty's last night then they forgot their housekeys and were locked out. so they slept over at my place, and fran slept in my room on the floor and we had the most intense deep conversation. we slept at 7am this morning. it made us depressed and reflect. and then we spent two hours talking about what names we like and not like. it was hardcore. and soooo funny! hee hee

i. am. so. tired.

but i really have to start my essay today. fuck.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

today felt really long.
i got a new bike. :)
chilled at home.

i had a new tattoo idea. it's two S's on my back, like string instruments. like this pic:

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anyways... i told bethany. and... (this is a shortened version of our convo)
~~~

M: :D guess what beth!!
B: what??
M: i had another tattoo idea!
M: well, this afternoon
B: of what?
M: it's gonna be like this pic:
M: (hold on)
M: sends C:\Documents and Settings\Cheung\My Documents\My Pictures\Mandy's Pictures\Violin 2.bmp
M: the 2 S's on my back
6/18/2005 7:56:24 PM Sending of "Violin 2.bmp" to reed-enjoying it up in the pdot has failed.
B: omg omg omg omg
M: beth
B: MANDY
M: what the hell
B: lol
B: omg
M: what???
B: i can't believe that
M: you wish you had that idea
B: soo violin player omg
M: i can't believe you cancelled the download
B: steve says thats on an apoctaliptica album
M: isn't it hot?????
B: ummmmm
B: k
M: YES
B: no
M: what?!
B: ultimate nerd to the max
B: in the universe
M: hahha well, what can i say
B: can't believe that
B: I would beat them up
M: awwww you would beat me up?
B: maybe not you, but its a bad idea
M: :(
M: i think it's sooooo cool
B: I dun know, I think the jury is out on this one
M: :(

~~~

beth made me sad today, becuz of her discrimination against string players.

Friday, June 17, 2005

coming back to scarbro this weekend has already made me think so much.
just the people... the past... stuff.

the present.

it really kinda sucks, you know...

anyway... i called warren last night, to see if he wanted to chill this weekend. he was not in a good mood. i wanted to give him a hug. and bake him a cake. but meh. it really sucks that this is the weekend he's going to loo, and i'm here. and he's coming back the day i'm going back to loo. :( oh well...

i'm sorry matty, my deepest condolences. we all loved mischief.

it doesn't help that today's so gray.












i miss things.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

just popping in for a quick post.

on sunday night, Christine Vlajk was my hero. and i still dream of Liz. :)

i'll elaborate more when i have time.

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

friday night's concert with Atar Arad was crazy good! went to the huether afterwards, and then the starlight. jeremy came with us!! omg, it was weird... dancing with your studio teacher. hahaha! but it was lots of fun! oh, and dan and ruth aren't coming to the american idol concert anymore :( boooourns. well anyway.. the starlight was fun. then eric and cheryl walked me home.

yesterday's quartetfest concert was the shit. the hyperion quartet was crazy good!! omg!! i could feel all this energy around them while they were playing, and they had such a good chemistry between all of them. kat mrmak was sitting beside me and she was telling me how she played that piece before but it was like twice as slow. awww...

anyway... last q-fest concert this afternoon!! i'm le excited! i think the party tonight's gonna be at Christine's, but i'm not sure. we'll see. i might not even go.

i bonded with my roommate yesterday. hahaha... well, i came home from work early cuz i got cut (there were too many people working already) so i came home, and after i showered i just chilled with my roomie
and he was watching Scream. and then his friend came over and they were pre-drinking for phil's, so i hung out with them. it was really entertaining. my roommate is a funny drunk! lol... his friend's cool too. they kept talking about these girls from thier highschool. so i zoned out a little bit. heh heh.. anyway...

i need to study before the concert, so i'm outtie.

Friday, June 10, 2005

ow... my neck... ow...

i woke up this morning to find that my roommate was still home. i asked him why he wasn't at work, and then he told me that he got injured and his boss was stupid becasue he didn't want to pay for his injuries at work and didn't give him insurance forms to fill out til today. and he also repeated several times that his boss was a jackass. i agreed with him. then i picked up the laundry from last night, and he went out the door.

i'm in the CAI lab. bumped into cute mike, and he told me that he was going to work. but aren't we supposed to have a rehersal in ... *checks time*... 9 minutes?? hmmmm..... i don't think he's gonna be at the rehersal. steve was supposed to call everyone but i guess he didn't. dammit! i wish i had work, so i don't have to be at this rehersal. i don't like it very much. bah. bah!! what are we gonna do without cute mike?? he is our percussionist! argh...

anyway.....

Thursday, June 09, 2005

im the CAI lab... stupid bunny chewed my charger cord last night. argh! so i can't use my laptop anymore til i get it fixed. lovely.

it's soooo hot. my neck has been acting up again. stupid allergies + playing violin.
i went to The Sound Post yesterday, t'was fun! i got my bow fixed! now the metal thingy won't poke me! yiay. got a new set of strings, they sound awesome. new strings rock! except when they go out of tune. ah well. AND i finally got the Bartok music!! yyeeeaaahhh!! i started playing it last night hahaha.. had to stop every two minutes to tune my violin. some of the movements are actually pretty hard! practise!

mmm.. i smell like babies. hee hee... two more weeks of MT left! awww.... baby Alice learned to crawl and pull herself up! awwww.... she's so cute! babies in their summer outfits are frickin adorable! hee hee! andrew cried a lot this morning. but when he came in, there were books on the floor, and he promptly picked one up, plopped on my lap and opened the book and made me read to him. it was so cute, mian. hahaha *heart*

haven't been to the gym in a week! oh man... my biking is gonna to suck the next time i go. ah well...

mimi zweig's workshop is tomorrow. i really want to go, and both jerzy and jeremy suggested i should go. but i don't want to pay 30$ for it. dammit!! celtic band rehersal tomorrow too. bah. ... i kinda wanna quit that thing. it's soo... silly. argh.

i got the job at the Rude Native. whoo hoo!
*blink blink*
i dunno what else to say about that. (note to self: bring a bottle of water!)

i wanna sleep.