just got back from Jon's. omg, it was soooo much fun!!
ok well, let me start from the beginning:
Me, Carmen and Jordan went to Midtown for lunch, sooo full. hee hee...and then Carmen and i went to my house. we chilled there, looking at pics and talking and Carmen played with my little spider toy. hee hee and then at 3, we decided to head over to Jon's. (haha it started at 1, but...meh!) so we get there...see all these ppl. some were watching Minority Report, some were playing checkers, or...whatever they were, some in thye basement playing those Magic cards. and so Carmen and i turned on the tv in the basement and started watching "Lofty Ideas". a while later we started a game of Mah Jong, and i taught Carmen how to play and stuff. it was fun! and then after a couple of rounds, they wanted to sing kareoke, and i'm like, okay, if Jackie sings, i'm going up, cuz i wanna hear him sing. so finally we abandoned the game and all went upstaires to sing. but then all the songs were Chinese, so it was mostly Jackie, Lydia, Gavin (whom i haven't seen since...Ryan's party), umm..oh, Pat, Christine, and these other ppl i met, Philip and...Andy, i think his name was. anyway! yeah...i knew some of those songs cuz they're really old and stuff. hee hee...and then carmen got picked up by jordan cuz we was bored, and carmen had to eat dinner with these other ppl. so then i got a drive back home, brought some money (cuz we were going to dinner) and then walked back to Jon's house. hung out a bit more, then went to that Korean barbeque place for dinner. lol we were so loud. at one point, Gavin was like, "so is there something with you and patrick..?" and i was like "no!" and he was like " really...? i saw a spark there.." and then...yeah. i convinced him that i did not like pat cuz i liked this other dude (y'all know who that is. hee hee) and so the subject was dropped. and then, The Conversation started. well, it started with Lydia asking me if i knew *that person* and i'm like...who?! "*that person*!!" she said...and then i had to think for a while, cuz i know so many people with that name, and then finally i knew who she was talking about, and so we started talking about *that person*. and then...it was so weird, cuz apparently, almost everyone there knew about *that person* so...yeah. i felt kinda bad cuz we were aaallll talking about *that person*...but...meh. anyways, then Pat and i got into our own convo about...*this other person* and he gave me some great advice. well...Nique gave me the best advice last night, and he agreed with Nique. and hahah Gavin was all left out cuz he's the only one who doesn't go to ACI. hee hee! and then after a looong time, we finally paid and headed back to Jon's house, where most of us sang more K, and the rest, who didn't really know Chinese (Omid, Ryan (who does, but i dunno why he wasn't there), Shawn, Jon, i dunno who else) were in the basement playing nintendo (pffft!) but yeah...i was in the singing room, and even tho i didn't know how to sing or anything, i knew a couple of those songs, and i knew some of the ppl, and it was so much fun. i can feel the love in that room! (no, seriously...hahah) esp. when it was a song that just about everyone (including me) knew, and they were all singing. *tear* i was sitting with Dorothy and Gavin, and Dorothy and i both didn't know chinese, so were just listening, but gavin knew a lot, and he was singing so loudly. Dorothy kept telling him to shut up. haha it was funnay! hahh now i'm a bit inspired to learn more chinese.
*pause*
naaahhh...lol!

anyways, when we finally left, i was planning on walking home, but ryan had room in his car, so he gave me a ride. yaaayyy! i get nervous walking at night by myself.
and that's the end of my oh so wonderful day.

P.S. i screwed up on my band exam. but oh well.

wow...my brother finally burned me that cd i wanted! and now i'm listening to it, and ahhhhhhh....it's sooooo niiiiceeee... i love Chinese classical music... *drifting away smiling like an idiot*

did i tell u that i have the entire score of The Butterfly Lovers Concerto? (aka. Liang Shan Bo & Zhu Ying Tai) i'm trying to learn the solo part. it's really hard. but i'm workin on it. hee hee

so i hung out at school today cuz i didn't wanna be stuck at home again. especially with my brother. i planned a nice quiet morning reading, but when i got to school i saw jackie kamla and margaret, and so i just hung out with them. tracy and i had a nice talk too, at one point, after she finished practicing her band stuff. i miss talking to her. heheh i remember in Montreal, we stayed up til like 4am talking. but like all my Chinesey friends (minus Carmen) i feel so bad talking to them for long, cuz then they would kinda start speaking to me in Chinese, but i would always reply in English. but i understood them and all. oh well. i still miss talking to them. well, when spring comes, and the tennis starts, moo ha ha! yay for chinese ppl and tennis! oh..and omid. lol! oh, and henry holland too. hahah they're so jokes. i can't wait til spring!
anyways, back today...so after a while margaret and kamla left for stc, and i had to stay cuz my mom won't let me take the bus home myself. (she was like 'oh, i don't know what ur doing and blah blah blah...') so i hung out with matt and jen and ben. i seriously don't remember what we did other than sit on the bench. time went by so fast. oh...Christine came by at one point, and...yeah. at 2, we walked matt to his exam room, and it was funny cuz the room was so empty. anyways, so ben, jen and i walked back downstaires, and jen finally got her bio text book, and we sat on the benches and listened to jen talk about bio. i showed them the scary picture of the albino dude, and we then proceeded to have a cool convo about albino people. and then adam came by and we started talking about...drag queens and gay people downtown. (how did that happen?)and then a convo about chinese people (ben would make a good fob), and then that led to jordan crawford speaking chinese to me, and that led to mixed people. heheh it was quite interesting. i think mixed people are so pretty. take Cassia for example. she's growing up too cute! anyways, then i had to go home. and...the rest is boring. it's weird cuz i don't like staying home by myself, but i rather stay home by myself than to stay home with my family in the house as well. it's just really annoying. Kamla was telling me today that she's counting down the days til she's out, and that is totally what i'm doing too. countin' down the days...*sigh* well..first i'm countin down the days til the HP book comes out, but it's at around the same time...end of school...u know. yeah.

aaanyways...yay tomorrow's Jon's party! can't wait can't wait!! finally something to do other than sit at home!!

u know what. i'm a pretty good actor. i should go into theater. hmmm...

what's with everyone and thinking these days? it just gets u depressed. becuz all u think about is negative stuff. gawd..it's not going well at all. has anyone called the Kids Help Phone line before? or maybe it's all in my head.
ok i need to stop thinking. or i'm gonna start crying.

*re-reading* wow...this is a really personal entry. but i'll post it anyway. i have no secrets. everyone knows about my life. they don't care.

i actually tried to stay away from my computer today. it kinda worked. i read a lot. White Oleander. and it's not even my ISU book. but it's a good book. omg i have so many half read books, it's not even funny. The Mists of Avalon, Mistress of Avalon, Back When We Were Grownups, and The English Patient. The Avalon ones are really long, so i got impatient. lol meh. and i'm trying to get myself to finish reading The English Patient before watching the movie. i heard it's a good movie though...i wanna see it! *sigh* i need to control myself...no watching the movie...(i have the video, so it's like, right there!)
mmm...*yawn* okay...back to more reading...

P.S. Carmen, i've got a good name for you to add to your list: CarmAMCdude (eh carmen? *nudge nudge*)

it's 12:10! hello!
anyways, i'm tired of thinking up what to write for my Waterloo application thing. and Witness just popped into my head. and now i'm singing about Nicodemus. lol
ohh...now it's about Sampson.

oh Gawd...i just kinda peeled off the tape on the other side of my incision just too see, and it's even nastier than the first side! the string is actually stuck to the tape so i can't even peel off the whole thing. bleugh... gotta show Carmen to gross her out. MOO HA HA!!!!
anyways, i need to tell my mom about "Kate's sleepover" soon...heheh maybe on thursday...does Kate know about this? lol i need to tell her soon.

ok the headache's coming back...i'm going to bed.

i went on the internet for a reason...but i don't remember what it was anymore, so now i'm blogging.
um...so...hello! omg, i just found out (this afternoon) that that questionnaire paper thingy for Waterloo is supposed to be mailed in two weeks after you recieved it. whoops. i think i've had it for more than two weeks already. like, three, maybe. meh well.
and i just realized that i didn't get a letter from Ryerson telling me that they got my application. hmmmmmm...

so anyway, i was supposed to arrive at school early to practice for band, but when i got to school at 9:15, there was NO ONE in any of the music rooms. MR2 was dark and MR1 was empty. so i looked around for Jon and he was playing cards with Adrian, so i went over to them and hung out a bit, and then we saw these two little gr.9 kids going in the band room, so we followed them, and yea, we practiced a bit, and i got Jon to play English Folk Song for me, cuz i just love the bass part. um...and then when i stopped playing, the gr.9 kids took my mallets and started playing my piece. lol. stupid kids. and then we stopped playing cuz it was too early in the morning to practice, and..yeah. so i hung out with Adrian and Tracy and Jon for a bit, and then went over to Mike Kamla and Jackie cuz they were studying for philosophy. i didn't really practice anymore, cuz it was really boring. Mike was being all Frenchy again, and he was quoting M. Rochon "Hokay!" and he was like, oh if i were doing the math exam, i wouldn't know anything, and i would just write "les maths sont (fun? i dunno..it's french) eh?!" lol umm...yeah. anyways...that was funny. he had the accent going on too. lol
and then they left for their exam, and i just hung out with Matt. it was...ummm...FUN! (lol) no, it was actually pretty fun, besides the fact that i was really tired. anyways, after two hours, we walked to the lockers and joined mike and kamla and jackie, and talked a bit about their oh-so wonderful exam, and then went home.

aaanyways, uhhh...okay i'm done.

ok i found out my problem. it was becuz that site doesn't work anymore. i have to go to a different site. pfffft!! all these websites. i swear, all they want us to be is confused. lol!

anyway, i just read Carmen's blog, and hmm...dinner? why wasn't i invited, missy? *glare*
mehhhhhwell. i dun care. i'll just sit here with rivers flowing down my cheeks. u know...those anime ppl. (tee hee) and then i'll be like Alice in Wonderland, and drown everyone. muahahaha!
gurgy mcflurgy.

omg, u know what's crazy? logging on to the Compass website doesn't work anymore! hahah cool, huh? i just tried it, and it won't let me on. it keeps saying that my password's not right.
that's just a little something i thought i'd share with everyone...that's it.

after reading a couple blogs and got some thinking done, i decided to delete my last post, cuz i have worse things to dwell on right now. and i really don't want to log on my blog everytime and read that post, cuz it'll just remind me of...well...stuff i don't want to be reminded of.
anyway!! i've done nothing today. went out to lunch, that's basically it. i read a lot of HP news, and that was the highlight of my day. and here's what i found out:
- Gary Oldman is (probably, most likely) gonna play Sirius Black
- David Thewlis is gonna play Prof. Lupin
- Pam Ferris (that fat woman from Matilda) is gonna play Aunt Marge (she's the perfect Aunt Marge, i'm tellin' ya!)
- Jim Tavare is gonna play that bartender from The Leaky Cauldron
- the second DVD is coming out April 11th
- some people friggin made ecstasy pills with HP pics on them so that they would target kids. this is disgusting.
- Dobby's probably getting sued (how? he's a friggin image on a computer!) cuz apparently he looks like this Russian poltics dude....umm...oh, it's the president. haha

and i was reading this thing where all the mistakes were in the book, and some of them were pretty funny! one them was, okay, in the 4th book, on page 229 when Fred and George tries to compete in the tournament, and Dumbledore says "Madam Pomfrey is tending to Miss Fawcett of Ravenclaw" but on page 371, at the Yule ball, Snape says "10 points from Hufflepuff, Miss Fawcett!" hee hee...but then there is a possibility that Miss Fawcett has a sister or cousin in either of the houses, so...i dunno. i don't think so though.

ok enough with HP.
i was talking to Jon, and he's gonna go practice his band exam tomorrow, and he was like "wanna come?" and since i've got nothing better to do, i'll go. i waaaas gonna go on wednesday, but...meh. i don't care. and since Gabe did his exam already, i don't think he'll be able to help me with the snare piece. booo...oh well.
anyways...i'm done posting. bye!

i'm booooored!
omg, i was talking with Yuen yesterday, and i found out that she reads my blog! haha that's cooool. Hi YUENSY!
hmmmm...what else? i was watching the Australian Open a while ago, and Andy Roddick was playing again. and i've noticed that even tho he's pretty hot, he's quite a terrible player. i don't like him anymore. he sucks!! last time i saw him play, i was like, okay you're not that good, but i'll cheer for ya anyways. but now...too bad. two weeks (or maybe less..i don't remember) i was watching Andre Agassi play this other dude, and OMF, he is awesome!! his serves and everything are so fast, it's like, whoosh!! i was just like "omg!!" and then today i watched Roddick play, and it was slooooow. paahhh...and he SUCKED! his backhand had no power, and obviously, the opponent, some dude from Germany (haha! Germany...hahahah!! if u don't get this joke, it's alright. but for those who do, HAHAH!!) could tell, and he kept giving Roddick backhands. heh heh...good job German dude!

hee hee...i want to play Armenian Dances again. it was fun! i get to use 3 mallets at one point! fun fun fun!! *giggle*
ok..umm...i have no life, so i'm gonna go to AA and fix my ugly page and read what Debra wrote in my gb. ta-ta!

today was actually quite a good day. i got to school at around 9:20, practised Armenian Dances (the bells one), and it was not as hard as i thought. i've got it down pretty good now. there's just 2 bars that keep messing me up, but other than that, it's pretty good. English Folk Song, on the other hand, nearly killed me! (well...not literally) i couldn't play past the first...5 or so lines. too hard! and Mr. Pinhorn told me to stop cuz it was so loud, and he was testing ppl in the midi room. so anyway...at 5 minutes to 11, i decided to go up to the english hall to meet the chem ppl who are coming out from their exam, and apparently, the chem exam was really really hard. and then kate and nique went home, and carmen got a ride, and i drove paulanne home, cuz...well, it was fun! and then i came back. after that i went out to lunch with my parents, and came back (again) at 1:10. i practised a bit more, then proceeded to look for Mike cuz i knew he had a Society exam. i didn't have to go far, him and Kamla and Margaret and Jordan were all at the benches studying. so i hung out with them til their exam, saw them off to the class, and then went back to the Music office, where i hung out with Strahan. he was telling me to come to the next TYWO concert, on feb.23rd. (i think?) and then..oh, Mr. Pinhorn came in, and i told him that my brother told me that Mrs. Houghton told them the story about Mr. Pinhorn and his TV career when he was a kid, and how he couldn't keep it when he grew up cuz his vioce changed. hahaha! and i was like "well, my brother told me it was supposed to be a secret" and Mr. Pinhorn was like "yeah, a very big secret! so big that she told it publicly to her 5 band classes!" or somethin like that...hee hee. and then Mr.Lum came in, and he mocked me, and Mr.Pinhorn yelled at him. ha sucker. and apparently, Mrs. Houghton told Lum also. hahah too funny!

anyway, today is friday! omg, i'm gonna be soooo bored at home. (i'm at the office right now) my parents are gonna be out with these parents of the ppl who go to orchestra, eating and partying. and my brother has orchestra. paaahhh...and i don't even get the car so i can go some place. what to do? what to do?
mlehh...

oh yay!! we can leave now! (finally!) okay bye!!

hahah so i had my calc and phys. exams today, and omg...they were hard!
okay calc: logs, first principles, and equation finding were all really hard, and complicated. after the exam, i was like "wow, i feel like i've wasted so much time and paper on review, and it wasn't even on the exam!" and Jordan agreed with me. he did so much more review than i, and now look. *sigh*
and phys: well...all i have to say is, i'm pretty screwed with all the problem solving stuff. but...meh. as long as i get higher than what i'm getting in class, it's alright.

now i'm worried about band. (i don't think i have to take the art one, cuz mr. remigio talked to me about it, and he says it's okay if i don't take it) ok, i have to play the friggin bells part for Armenian Dances. the band has only played it like two times together, and it's the BELLS!! grrr...i do not play bells. and i have to play the snare for English Folk Song, which is complicated as well. and i have never played either part, so i will like, have to learn it from scratch.

aaanyways, after the physics exam, i hung out with Matt a bit, and then went to the music office, cuz cool ppl hang out there. hahaha well, cool music ppl. anyways, yeah, it was fun. i got to play with Pete the Penguin, this little penguin toy Mr. Lum got in Montreal last year. pahh...i want one. lol he actually told me to get one when we were in Montreal, so that we could have a conversation (hahah) but at that time, i was like "nooo..." and now i want one. Lum was like "then go to Montreal!!" hee hee

anyways, so then i left, hung out with Matt and the (increasingly annoying) bunch of gr.11s. and then we went home at about 4:45, and yeah..i forgot my keys, so i was locked outta my house. so i shovelled snow a bit, in hopes that my brother would come home soon, but that didn't happen, so i walked all the way to that little plaza on Havenview to the pay phones (which took, i'm guessing, 12 minutes, cuz it was so cold), and when i got there, i was so cold, my legs and face were numb. i made one phone call, which didn't even work, and then decided that it was just TOO cold, so i went across the street to Tim Hortons to warm up with a cup of cappuchino. about 15 minutes later, i went back outside with the capp. (so i can warm myself with it) and walked back to the pay phone, spilled the friggin capp. called many times to various phone numbers (my parents' cell phones and my house) and none of them worked, and then i got really cold again, and went back to Tim's and got another capp. and about 25 minutes later (after finishing the drink, and warming myself up with that heater blowing thing in the bathroom) i went back outside to call, and after about 3 calls (all with the same quarter) i managed to get a hold of my mother, who was at home, and she came to pick me up. and then she started lecturing me about dressing warmly and all that crap about taking care of myself.
aaanyways, my incision is like hurting quite a lot now, cuz my muscles have been contracting so much (from the cold) and i have stretched it a little, when i slipped on some ice. and..owww...

blehhh...anywayZ (lol) i have nothing else to post. so ttfn!

i know i'm on the computer. i know i have an exam tomorrow.
but for god sakes, i just came back from Kate's, and my brain is sooo filled with math, it's ridiculous. and i'm tiiiiiired. the last like, 15 minutes, Jordan and i just fell asleep on Kate's bed. i'm pretty sure Jordan was really asleep. i was this close to actually falling asleep too, but then the Bandages song came on, and i woke up. hee hee
tonight was also the turning point in my life. i have aquired a liking for cimmanon hearts. (lol). i swear...i have eaten more cinnamon hearts tonight than i have ever had in my whole life. damn peter and jordan...they got me into eating them. lol (just kidding...i still love you) ummm...what else? oh! nique's birthday party's on the friday after exams! whoo hoo! two parties in a row! yeah bebeh! hahaha! this time, i'm gonna try to convince my parents to let me sleep over. and if i do, i'm claiming the floor, on the carpet, right under the small couch! (since all the couches are apparently taken. i don't wanna sleep in a ball.)

anyway, so i just got home, right? and Audrey sent us a letter! it's kinda like the emails i send to all those people, but just waaaaaay longer and it's about their whole past year. (they send one out annually), and now i'm reading it. they also sent us a photo, and my goodness, Cassia is so much older now! awwwwwww...and too cute! and she actually looks more asian. my mom thinks she looked very jewish when..the last time we saw her. (she's half jewish) so..hahaha

anyway...blahhh...back to more studying...gooood byyyyeee...

yay for breaks!
i've been doing calculus review for 3 HOURS!! paaahhh...so tired...and im still not done. arg...that's how slow i work. anyways...i dunno what to post, cuz my brain is all filled with derivatives and factoring right now.
hey, it's Jamie's birthday today! (James Tantsef) rrrrr! lol just kidding...

i'm tiiiiired.
wow, my cheeks are really hot right now. that means i've worked really hard. cuz that's what happens when i'm concentrating for a long time and stuff. they turn all hot and pink. lol last night, my mom was like, "are u wearing make up?" and i'm like "no..." hehheh

*listening to Edelweiss* i wanna watch The Sound of Music. hmm....*yawn*

ok i'm done posting. goodbye.

i'm in tech right now. my teacher is away. stupid tech. frickin...frackin...

ok well smelly here (yutat) is reading while i type, so i have to stop. blog more latah!

my day was boring as usual, except that Mary Poppins was on tv! go Juuulie Andrews!! heheh
and then around like 4:30 kate called and told me they're having another study session at her house, so that was where i was this evening. it was very fun indeed, and kate gave me my Christmas present, which was one of those clipy things u put pictures in. it's beautiful! i'm putting our group's grad pics in there, so u know...heh heh..remember to give me one of your's! yes...including mikey's =)
anyways...so we did some math, laughed a lot, er...read a lot (those mr/ miss books. oh myy...lol) and...i dunno. lol jordan got a special call (aww), and carmen sniffled a lot. i think nique did the most work (applause for her) and kate did the least. lol i'm sorry if that sounded bad, but kate was occupied with...other things...lol

anyways...pahh that Chim Chimmeny song is stuck in my head.

Chim chimmeny chim chimmeny chim chim cheree
when you're with a sweep, you're in glad company.
Chim chimmeny chim chimmeny chim chim cheroo
Good luck will rub off
when i shake hands with you.
Oh blow me a kiss!
And that's lucky too.

Carmen- yay thanks for posting my song! *tear* it's beautiful!!

i guess i should actually write a real entry, and update everyone, not the stupid crap that i usually write.

okay, so i got out of the hospital on thursday afternoon, around 1:30. i didn't do much, really. i wanted to call Carmen, cuz it was lunch time and stuff, but...i never got around to doing it. heh heh...i remember, the first thing i did when i got in the house was eat. i was soooo hungry. like, the only real food i ate in the two days i was in the hospital were two grapes, 4 crackers, and a lil box of cereal. i was so scared to eat, cuz...u know, the incident with the grapes...*shudder* but i drank a lot. heh heh...they all made me drink a lot of fluids to wash out the chemicals in my body. so..yeah. i ate a helluva lot when i got back. lol. and then, i think i went to bed, slept a bit, and around evening, i went on the computer, and Carmen was at Jordan's house and she wanted me to call her, so i did. and apparently, Peter (Rabbit) was helping them study for the calc exam, and asked if i wanted to come over, so off i went to Jordan's house to do some calc. Peter is really smart, eh. i learneded!! hahahah!! oh! and when i was talking to Nique on the phone, i thought it was Kate, but after like a minute, she mentioned Kate, and i was like "what?! aren't u Kate? who am i talking to...?" lol
and then on friday, yesterday, i just stayed home, relaxed, u know. about 1, Matt called me from school, cuz it was lunch time and stuff, so...yeah. it was nice hearing his voice...after like a week. lol but then we had to get off cuz class was gonna start. i don't really remember what i did...umm...oh yea! i watched part of this movie with my brother, Almost Famous. it was pretty good, but then the bastard didn't want to watch it anymore, and wouldn't let me watch it myself, and i got really mad. (but i just finished it now, so sucks to him) and i tried donig some calc stuff from this review paper Nique gave me. there was this one question which really boggled my mind, and i didn't know how to do it, and Billy did it for me, but i still don't understand. it's a very mind boggling question. so i skipped that question. lol. silly me.
and today, i don't know what i'm gonna do yet. hmmmmmmmmmmmm...

hahah i'm talking to Timmy on icq, and he's like "have u been skipping school?" and i'm like "yes." hahah
ohh myy Frank, talking about skipping school. hmph! Kamla and Matt have been telling ppl how i've died. *sniff* now i feel so loved. *wahhh*
lol anyways, it's all good. now i can tell ppl how i'm back from the dead! (MOO HAA HAA)

anywho-dilly, i don't have much else to write, but i'll leave u with this: plz try not to make me laugh so hard when i come back to school. it kinda hurts when i laugh really hard. (Carm, Nique, Jordan, Kate, u guys know what i mean...hee hee...ow)
well that's about it. TTFN! (ta-ta for now! that's what Tigger says! hee hee!)

i feel like i'm on anesthetics again...whooaa...
have u ever tried staying awake while breathing in the gas? it's crazy! i actually tried that...it was hard, let me tell you...one of the last things i remember hearing was the anesthesist (or whatever u call them) saying "you're still awake?!" heh...that was pretty funny..

anyways, i feel like crap right now, so i'm gonna stop typing.

OMFOMFOMFOMFOMF!!!! THE NEXT HARRY P. BOOK TO BE PUBLISHED ON SATURDAY JUNE 21ST!!!!

ok no more caps. but i'm SOOOOOOOOOO excited!! i'm ecstatic! i'm bubbling with pure anxiousness! it's gonna be a third longer than the last book! 768 pages!! it's gonna start with: "The hottest day of the summer so far was drawing to a close and a drowsy silence lay over the large, square houses of Privet Drive... The only person left outside was a teenage boy who was lying flat on his back in a flowerbed outside number four."
and later in the novel: "Dumbledore lowered his hands and surveyed Harry through his half-moon glasses.
'It is time,' he said, 'for me to tell you what I should have told you five years ago, Harry.
Please sit down. I am going to tell you everything.' "

AHHH THE SUSPENSE! DUN DUN DUUNN!!! hee hee hee hee hee!!!!

JUUUULIE ANDREWS!!!
heh heh heh!! i just read The Crazies, and now i've got that song stuck in my head. but that's okay cuz i like that song. =)

anyways, so yeah...i'm back! *sigh of relief* the main reason i was so looking foreward to coming back is cuz the IV gets to come off. paaahhh...it hurts. stupid damn IV. heh heh...anyways, i'll be going back to school on monday, so...yay! umm...i'm kinda sore and i'm tired. and i'm starving. hehehe oh well.
other than that, i'm doing pretty good.

Jordan- Chapters guy? u never told meee!! grrr...
**Good luck on the english exam tomorrow!!**

just got home, like, an hour ago....hahah i smell like the hospital. but it's okay. anyways, all i did today were some pre-cath tests, like ECG, bloodwork (and they gave me a teddy bear afterwards! awwww), X-rays, and this doctor woman just talked to us about the procedure. heheheh i think she's Polish, cuz she talks with the same accent as Emilia. =) oh, and at one point, this nurse wanted to test my oxygen thingy, and they have to put this clampy thing on my finger, right? but then i was wearing black nail poilsh, and they couldn't do it. hahaha! she was like "if it was any other colour except for black..." so i had to like, scrap one off. poooohh...but then after, she was like, well it's best if you remove that tomorrow....lol! gosh darnit!
anyways, i wanted to come back to school to see ppl, but then my mom was like, you shouldn't cuz all the teachers know and stuff, and they'll be like why the hell are u here? and stuff like that. so...yeah

well, that's about it. my day wasn't too interesting..

hee hee this is a funny word
SHMIERSKAHOVEN
hee hee hee hee hee hee hee!!!

by the way...i have a tagging board thingy. it's at the bottom of my page right now, until Jen fixes it again. *smiles* her and her computer skills. lol
anyways, nothing happened today, so bye for now!

oh my Frank, my blog is messed up...

i've been thinking of what to post ever since...the last time i posted. heh heh...
Jen was teaching me how to put this tagging board on my page and stuff. it's really cool, but it's not working so far, so i will have to figure some more stuff out.
aaanyways, i don't think i'm going to school the whole week next week. since the english exams are friday and everything, and i don't know if i'll even be out on friday. i should be...but i'm not sure. anyways, i'm probably gonna call u guys during lunch, to talk or whatever. well, that's what i told carmen anyways...she has to tell me when she has 3rd lunch, 4th lunch, or both.

anyways....pahh...i don't know what else to post. umm...i had this arguement with my mom today, cuz i didn't want her telling everyone about tuesday. and she was like, 'well it's not a secret! why can't i tell?' i was like " well u don't have to go telling everyone, even if it's not a secret! i don't want everyone to know!" and then she said a bunch of stuff, and then i'm just like "well at least respect the fact that I don't want anyone to know" and she's like "respect?! omg" (or something like. it got me very mad)
was so stupid. omg. can't wait til i move. paahh...

okay, well that's about it.

lots happened today. but i'm not in the mood to post it all, so too bad for you.
i'm here to post that song for Carmen.

Josh Groban- Let Me Fall

Let me fall
Let me climb
there's a moment when fear and dream must collide.

Someone I am is waiting for courage
the one I want
the one i will be become will catch me
so let me fall if I must fall
I won't heed your warning
I won't hear it.

Let me fall
if I fall
through the phoenix may or may not rise.
I will dance so freely
holding on to no one
you can hold me only if you too will fall away from these useless fears and chains.

ahhhhhhhhhh....someone I am
is waiting for my courage
the one I want
the one I will be become will catch me
so let me fall if I must fall
I won't heed your warning
I won't hear.

Let me fall
If I fall
there's no reason to miss this one chance
this perfect moment
just let me fall.

*pop* goes the weasle fiddling on the fridge! MOO HAHA!!

well it's like 1:30 am, and here i am blogging. i'm suppsosed to be sleeping, but i can't. cuz when your mind's full and your belly's empty, it's hard for one to fall asleep. (btw, that's from Charlotte's Web...u know, the book?) anyways...yeah.

i'm just talking to rick on icq (yeah, the annoying one, but he's real nice sometimes) and i just told him about the thing, and now i'm sad.
bloody hell, now he's telling me how his marks in college are so good. paahhh...u can never stay on one topic for long with him.
asshole. heh.

anyways, i'm trying not to think so much, which i'm doing right now. but...well...i dunno. i just finished reading this Lurlene McDaniel book, and y'all know what kind of books those are. *tear tear* and it got me all thinking again. depressed and thinkful. well, it's like, this "two worlds" thing. there's the school and normal life world, and then there's the out of school/health/hospital world. i've only put the two together once, in the summer when i took Carmen down to Sick Kids to visit Andre and Christine. it felt sooo weird. like, whoa! =) but it was a nice change. (hehehe "un petit peu" remember carmen? hehehe!!) anyways...and then i was talking to Kate today, and she was like "Can i visit you?" heheh it'd be so awkward seeing her there. no offense or anything. (i know you're reading this, kate!)
anyway...i don't know what to post. i can't believe Matt and Jen actually stayed through orchestra. they're too sweet. *tear* i just wanna hug them forever and ever. (okay, well maybe not THAT long, but y'all get the idea.) *sigh*

anyway,i have nothing else to post. i'm still wide awake, but what the hell. i'm getting off.

HOLY HEART OF MARY!!!
i was just at sparknotes.com to see if i could find study guides to the Stone Angel, and lo and behold, they have study guides for HARRY POTTER!!! OH MY GAWD!!! it's amazing!!! they makes the simpliest books seem like one u read at school. (by the way, they don't have The Stone Angel. what a half crappy site. it's only half crappy cuz it does have HP) i just read the guide for the Chamber Of Secrets, and apparently, Lucius' name "echos" Lucifer the evil angel, and Lockhart is a real name meaning "locked heart", or secret identity. hahah Dumbledore is a bumblebee. and...yeah

*reading the Azkaban one*

ok here it says, Sirius Black means Black Dog (hmmm!! niiice!!) and...well this is what the page says about the ppl's names:

Sirius Black means, virtually, Black Dog; the name Remus Lupin has its origins in the Latin word wolf, and in a co-founder of Rome, Remus, who was suckled by a wolf. Take also, for example, Lucius Malfoy: the "mal" in numerous languages is rooted in the word "bad," and his first name, Lucius, is similar to Lucifer. Other names, like Dumbledore, have actual definitions—in this case, bumblebee in old English. One can liken this to Dumbledore, who is an ancient, wise wizard who works well and hard to sustain his community, the "hive" of Hogwarts. Professor Trelawney's first name is Sibyll, the ancient prophet of mythology. Furthermore, Padfoot, Moony, Wormtail, and Prongs all are indicative of the animal they represent.

omg, they have "suggested essay topic" for this. this is riddikulus!

How does the true appearance of the merpeople foreshadow the ending of the book?
What other greater struggles does Hermione's struggle for house-elf liberation parallel?

bahahah this is funnay!! iiiii wanna write an essay about Harry Potter too! lol!

the good thing about late starts is that i get to post in the morning. yay for posting.

uh...ok i really have nothing to post. lol so bye
(pahaha what a waste of time)

u know what else makes me melt? The Butterfly Lovers concerto. ohh myyy goooosh...
well i already know this. loved it since...i dunno. many years. hee hee...but i haven't really played it for a while, and i was just remembering how Pat wanted me to play it once during the CVS rehersal, and i couldn't remember all the notes. i just downloaded it and i'm listening to now and ahhhhhhhh....
just waiting for the 12 minute mark, cuz that's my favourite place. omg...the wonderful BASS!!! hee hee...

omg, in band yesterday, the bass people had to play the melody part by themselves for the Folk Song Suite, and i was standing RIGHT behind Jeff, and OMG, i just about melted! Laura was like "yeah, Jeff plays a sexy instrument!" hahahah


OMG OMG!!! THE BASS PART!!!
*MELT*

ok it's done but i'm repeating that part....*SIGH*
hee hee...i wish i could play the trombone, or baritone sax. *wishes*

ahh..it's not gonna work.
ok i'm like, posting a bunch of crap. lol

anyways...yeah. my mum called Christine today (that woman from Sick Kids) and for now, "the thing" is scheduled for Feb.17th. they might move it earlier. i dunno. anyways..yeah.

anywhoooo...that's all the news i have. ta-ta!

paaahhhhh *breath of relief* yay i got my dear computer back.
hmm..well, to be honest i didn't miss it that much. kinda forced me to...u know...calm myself for a bit... hee hee...
anyway, i'm back! MOO HAA HAA!!!
so what's up, u say? nothing, except we got these new songs in choir, right? and the latin one is very pretty, but the english one is kinda stupid.
Nobody, nobody, nobody knows the trouble I've seen...
paahhh...hee hee...
anyways, wow, mikey got a new sweatshirt! it's very pretty, i might say.. hee hee... black and silver...notice, they're the Vicious Calendars' colours? hee hee..and they go very well with the pigtails. hahah

aaaanyway...um..when i got home from band, my mom was like "when does your exams finish?" and i told her, "last week of January, why?" and i'm thinking, 'oh she must be asking so that she can go on vacation afterwards (cuz she's been wanting to to go Hong Kong) anyways, so i ask why again, and then she's like "Oh, Christine called (she's the head of the Cardiac clinic in Sick Kids, a wonderful woman) and she said she noticed that your pacemaker is at the indication mark and she wants you to have your operation." and i'm like, totally shocked, cuz i wasn't expecting this news, and so soon too. so i'm just like "whaaaat?! well...actually, i kinda knew, cuz when i was doing my transmission thing, i could tell my heartbeat went lower." and she was like "oh really?" and i'm like "yeah...but i wasn't expecting so soon." and she was like "yeah, me neither."
hee hee...soo...yeah. i kinda cried in the car. (but shhhh...no one's supposed to know that. hahah even though i'm posting it for the world to see) it wasn't intentional. but i suddenly got really scared. *shudder* i'm still scared, but the surprise has gone, so now...it's just...meh. i remember the last time i had to go, it was in gr.7. and it wasn't too fun. nope. *sigh* oh well...i'll live. just tell everyone they'll have to stop messing around with me and stuff. and..yeah. and then i'm like "oh what about violin? i'll have to stop for a bit." and she was like "yeah. and Christine said if they change the wiring as well, you'll have to lay off the music stuff for about 8 weeks." and i'm like "8 weeks?!? what about violin at school?" and she was like "yeah, you'll have to stop. and better yet, band too, cuz you have to hit the big bass drum and stuff." and then i'm like "but i have Kiwanis and Music Fest coming up!" and she was like "i dunno then."

aaaanyways, that's all i have to say to that.

anyways, so in choir (well, before choir) i was talking to kevin (pickering) and i heard that he has the tape from the Christmas Variety Show (moohaahaa) and so i was asking him if he could duplicate a copy for me, and he's like "well i'm making couple of copies" and i asked if he was selling them and he was like "yeah, for my own purposes..." that bastard. hahahaha so i'm like "oooh can iiii have a copy? i'll be your beeeest friend." and he was like "what? you're not my best friend! u never were!" lol
ain't that sad? *sigh* oh well....

anyways, that's all for now blog more later!

dammit, i'm not going out after all...
poohy

well i was at the library late today, cuz i was soooo tired. i slept in til like, 12, and becuz of that i had to take the bus there. anyways, so i was planning on doing some physics, but i forgot to bring my physics binder home, which contains all my notes. pah! so i didn't get much done. oh well. but then i went on the computer and typed a reaallly long email. u know, the ones i send to everyone once in a while? yeah. anyways, i didn't get to finish it all at the library, cuz it was just so darn long, so i went home and finished it. it's finished now. i edited it so much, holy heart of mary.

anyways, i just went to matt's friend, mike's page, just for fun, right? and WELL!! i read his journal thingy, and it was from new year's eve, and he was saying how matt was looking for me with all this effort. hee hee i'm flattered! but now i feel terrible making them all look and stuff. paahhh... (yea, i know our mikey got pissed off last year cuz i was such a "goody good" but i can't help it alright?!) the funny thing was, me and kamla were actually talking about my so called "problem" back on the bus 3 nights ago, and she was like, "yeah mandy, you're always like that. you always feel bad for everything, even if it's not your problem. but it's not that bad of a thing." so i dunno. aaanyways, yeah that's my story.

methinks i'm going to see a movie tonight with carmella and jordan, cuz he's working, so now i'm just waiting for her call.
CALL DAMMIT!!

or..wait, she just icqed me. hee hee!
ok i've nothing else to post.

i'm at the library right now. how fun! i just did a ton of blog reading, and it seemed like everyone had such a great time at Nique's.
i just got my film developed and a lot of them turned out great! umm, the ones from October (i think) when we had that concert at the Toronto Center for the Arts, remember? but i didn't get Strahan in anything in the background. but there was this one pic where Shelby was laughing her head off- that was funny! and that night at my house and Plantations- that pic of Carmen in the closet turned out sooo good! u guys have to see it! and Carmen...talking on the phone with my secret lover. grrr... hahaha! and...the ones from the Christmas Variety Show weren't bad either. Jordan- i know i can trust u w/ my camera. the one with me and Matt came out quite good too! behehee and i took one of Mike trying to hide himself, but u can see there's one eye poking out. hee hee so cute! *squeesh!*

anyway, yesterday i was browsin' thru the HP sites, and i read this rumour that Sarah Lee isn't going to play Cho Chang in the 3rd movie! YAAYYY!!! it's probably going to be this Korean girl, i forgot her name, but yeah, she's a better Cho Chang. hmmm...i wonder who Cedric Diggory's gonna be? *giggle tee hee hee!!* i think iiiiii should be Cho Chang. hahahah just kidding.
i was reading Draco Veritas, and it just dawned on me that Sirius and Lupin might be gay together (in that fanfic) ohh myy...it's pretty weird, cuz they've known each other for so long and stuff. aiya...lol

anyways, tomorrow's the last day of break u guys! argg..(the weekend doesn't really count) poo for school. blarrrggg, i think my time is up, so ta-ta!

so yesterday i was at the library working, and then at like 12, the PA system comes on and tells us the library's closing in an hour. so i grumble and get back to work, and at 12:45 i left. it's funny cuz i actually got a decent amount of work done. anyways, there were these two guys working at the table behind me, right? and they were sooo loud, i almost moved, but i liked my table so i stayed. and when i left the library, i went to Tim Horton's for lunch, and guess who i see there? those two loud ppl. paahhh...but they were sitting far, so that's okay. anyways, after lunch i went home, called kamla and i made plans for the night. it was so last minute. hahah but she got permission to go downtown, so that was cool. anyways, so she came over at 6 and we got a ride to the RT station. and the ticket man was like "where did u get these tickets?" (cuz i have the new student ones, and i don't think he's seen them before) so, yeah, we wasted like two minutes there talking with that stupid man. haha
and so we're at nathan phillips square and there's not a lot of people cuz we're so early (it was about 7:30ish) so we walked around, looked at all the pretty lights, grumbled at the man who wouldn't rent us skating shoes, and then made our way down to where everything was gonna take place. so yeah..we stood for a really long time and there were all sorts of weirdos around us. um, there was this one really drunk chinese man who freaked us out cuz he was yelling and stuff, and i think he said something rude to kamla, i'm not sure. but we just ignored him. and thankfully, he left after a while. and then there was this group of 3 people, and i'm guessing they're about 20y/o or so. anyways, the thing about them was they were near us the whole night and at first they seem all nice and stuff, but at the end, the dude was all mean and bitchy, and the girls were like pushing everyone. paahh...and kamla and i were kinda separated for a while by all these girls, and they all had long hair and it was like, there!! oh my gawd...there was this one girl with the ponytail and she turned her head and her ponytail like whipped me across the face. paaahhh!!
anyways, so..yeah. near the end of the show, kamla and i surprisingly got squished to the very front (and we wanted to be at the front too) so that was cool. and the highlight of the thing was after the show all the "important" people were like walking around the stage and stuff, taking pictures, and the people from Not By Choice were like really close, and kamla shouted "i love you" to one of the guys and he turned around and looked at her and smiled. bahah well, i think that was her highlight. i didn't really have one. umm...yeah. i regret not taking my camera. ughhh...i never anticipated we were gonna be sooo close to the stage. like right there!! so that sucked. anyways, so at 12:30 we departed and walked around dt trying to look for some place we can get hot chocolate and halfway, carmen called! yayy!! so i was talking to her (and she sounded better than i thought! hee hee) and then i talked to jordan, who was in a bad mood, but i tried cheering him up. and then i talked to carmen again, and then nique (who i could tell, was verrry drunk. i hope she can still remember me calling her. haha) and then carmen again, and then raffi. bahah raffi was cool. i just met him once at nique's house a while ago, and he couldn't remember who i was but we still talked and it was so weird. i was like "well, remember that time at nique's house? and u were talking to me in french?" and he was like "oh, really?" hahah
anyways then we found the subway station and i had to get off the phone. and then we went home.
hee hee hee
so in conclusion, it was a very good night except for those couple'a people who bothered me, not bringing my camera, and not meeting up with matt (stupid mark...*waving my fist at him*) cuz i actually really wanted to see him. aaaand..oh yea! when i got home, my parents were being a bitch and that got me all pissed off and stuff. stupid lectures. pah.

and now i'm not doing anything, so yay for blogging. and my brother was like "next year, i'm gonna go with denny and henry" (they're my cousins) and i'm thinking, next year, i'm going to nique's, for sure. hahaha. hopefully there's going to be a next year. u know, with (ack) university and all that. so...yeah.
ok nothing else to post. ta-ta!