nothing much happened today. just cleaned the house (we have guests over tonight) and that was tiring. and then my cousin and his mom came over. we went to the mall. i got a cd (big shiney tunes 6) and now i'm back, and my other cousin came over.

i went to watch Lord of the Rings two days ago. (the night i went to the mall with kate and jordan) and OMF, it was so good!!!! i'm definately getting the movie when it comes out and i'm realllllly looking foreward to the next one!! and even though i'm (still) a big fan of HP, i have to admit, LotR was a WAY better movie!! yeah...i think that's gonna be another one of my addictions from now on...heh heh heh!! and Orlando Bloom (all these ppl with weird names...) who played Legolas was ultimately HOT!!! *sizzle sizzle!* lol yep!! better than Sean Biggerstaff *gasp!* did i just say that?! hmmm...lol but of course. i could've deleted it if i wanted to...but i didn't! esp.. the part when the fellowship were going up the ice mountain and the viewer's at the top, and they see the characters reaching the peak? OMG, hottness!!! lol and he's British!! oh yeah british babes are hot! lol

ok, i'm done releasing my addictive-ness of LotR and Orlando Bloom now. hehehe!!

i can't wait til Bernard comes! (he's a guy from my orchestra whom i'm pretty fond of...heh heh heh) Yippee!!
ok that's all, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

ok, i've got a great story.
i went to the mall with kate and jordan and cliff today today. it was pretty fun. nothing extrodinary happened though. so we went home. and after we left cliff on the (green) subway, we went on another subway (yellow). and we (well, at least i was) pretty tired. and we weren't talking much. so this guy near us, he started talking to us for no reason. he's like " do you knowe Sarah *somebody*? no? she's a great singer! you should talk more, that's how you learn. sarah sang in The PHantom of the Opera." and me and kate were just giving these glances at each other. we were not interested, and any dumbass would know. it was so obvious. so after he said "you should talk more" i turned to kate, and i said, "sooo...how was the quidditch?" lol so we talk about HP a lil bit longer, and then that guy starts talking to us again! he open his bag, and started taking out cds and stuff and showing us and asking if we've heard of them before. lol and THEN, he commenced taking off his jacket. i was like, 'okaaayyy...he's probably showing us something he's got which is in one of the pockets inside the jacket.' so me and kate give each other this weird look, and resumed to watching him. omg, and THEN, he started lifting up his shirt! at this point, i almost yelled out loud! it was disgusting! well, apparently, he had another shirt underneath, which said Ignorance can Change Stupidity is Forever (or something like that. and he started telling us that we should talk more so we won't be stupid! LOL i was jusdt about dying in laughter!! so was kate. but, y know, i was not laughing out loud, cuz that'd be just rude. so the guy puts his shirt back down and looked at us as if we were really stupid. and he kept talking, i don't remember what, but i wa mouthing the words "oh! look! a tree!!" to kate. LOL that was actually our joke. well, she didn't hear me. anyways, the guy asked us if we knew this other artist and stuff, and we're like, no. and omg u won't believe what he said to us. he said "How much more do i have to teach you?!" i just about burst out laughing!!! HAHAHHAHAHHA anyways, a while later he stopped talking to us. that was a BIG relief. lol
so after we got off the subway, we had SUCH a good laugh!! i was practically in tears!! so then kate and jordan both call home, and then kate's mom and aunt and cousin are at Warden Power Center, so we took the subway (again) to Warden and shopped there. it was pretty fun! and then i came home.
so that's my day!! bye!

this is so not true, cuz i wanna be Hermione, but it's still a cute picture!

*sigh* i'm back! well, i was supposed to post on Christmas day, but their internet didn't really work. but anyways, we had a very nice turkey dinner, played ping pong, la dee da...and then we drove home yesterday, passed my this outlet mall in Buffalo to do some shopping and got caught in a humungous snowstorm (but by the time we finished shopping, it stopped snowing) and then we got home at around 11pm.
and...today, i just sat around the house. well, i opened the rest of my christmas presents and wowee! my cousin gave me this Harry Potter puzzle (a puzzle inside a puzzle) and a deck of playing cards, also from HP. it came with a really cool tin can shaped like a book too! so i putted together the HP puzzle, and also glued it so it's like a poster, and looked at the pictures on the deck of cards (they had a really nice picture of Oliver Wood). i also cleaned my room, put up a big poster of Blink-182 on my door (which i got from Indiana) and practised violin. nice day, huh? i also have a cold. so that sucked. oh well. i'll get over it.

today was fun! snowed all day!! went to meijers for like, 3 hours! helped cary with the lamb and duck stuffings, watched pinocchio (or however you spell it). had a great dinner! everything was so fancy-pancy! too bad i dunt have a scanner, or i'd put up pics after i get them developed. i felt audrey's tummy, and omg, the baby kicked! and then sorta tumbled, or something! it was sooooo totally awesome! *sigh* then i played cary and howard ping pong. lost all the games 'cept one. hahhaha i suck. well, that's all really. i didn't get to drive. mom said she'd actually let me drive a bit, on the country road right by their driveway, but by the time we got back from Meijers, the road was pretty slippery and snowwy, and they didn't want me to accidently drive into the lake or anything. so that sucked. well, that's all toodles!!

i'm currently in Indiana. ahhh....i finally get the computer to myself. my brother was pestering me to let him use it. anyways, we (me, dad,mom, howard, audrey, larry, cary, and thier parents) went to chicago today, just to walk and stuff. and omg, it was absolutely freezing!! *brrr* and it was snowing too. hahaha
and now....i'm bored. i actually read The Hobbit last night! it was kinda boring at the beginning, but it's getting better. and i was at this book store today, and they have this "official movie guide" book to The Lord of the Rings and it was sooo cool! i wanna get it, but it was pretty expensive so i didn't get it. and on the way back home, audrey, larry, and i were talking about kids kids and stuff, and i think it would be really interesting it we learned about their behaviour and stuff in IAPS. don't you think? like genetics and stuff, and how first borns are usually more of a "rules" person then the younger borns, and stuff like that. i just think it's really fascinating.
anyways, not much else to say, so i'll just stop here. toodles!

yeah! it's saturday! i'm so bored. last night, went to sleep at 1:30am. not even tired at all! weird eh? i was just looking through my pictures and stuff. *sigh* i miss my friends already. i wanna get that roll of film developed right now!!! heh heh...
ahhh...finally someone msged me on icq! well, i have nothing else to say, so i'll just leave it here. ta-ta!

wow...so today, we had our christmas variety show, and it was just totally awesome!! everyone was sooooo good! wow, and i never knew Gabe played the guitare! he's really good at it too! played a solo! ahhh that's my gabe! heeh hee! anyways, shermeen sang "the greatest love of all" *siiigh* my favourite! made me cry!! *sniffle* it was so beautiful! and hahaha mr. sim, mr.caruana mr. freedman, and this other teacher were like doing this rock thing, and it was halarious!! but, actually, they were pretty good, eh!! heehee! ahhhh....and afterwards, me, jordan, kate, and everyone were at our lockers, and we had such a good time! it was SO much fun! i wish it'd never end! kate's friend, alex, was there. she's really nice! :) so...yeah, i took lotsa pictures and stuff, it was cool! :) and i took this picture of Mike, and he was so funny! hahaha

and then i went to peter's for violin. his new condo is SO awesome! it's like, the penthouse, so it had two floors, and one wall is all covered in windows! OMG! but that peter, wanted to keep his house al white. i was just sitting there thinking of all the furniture arrangement, colour he could paint and everything he could've done to make his house look better! than it's already is! ahhh...that was fun. and then we talked about me being in TMYO, and how it sucked and stuff, when he came to our concert. i said, yeah, but i like the people there now, even though i don't like gabriel (the conductor). but in the chinese orchestra my brother goes to, there's just too many chinese ppl (obviously) and they're just not my style! (except for Bernard, but i mean, i can't always hang out with him, even though i like him very much, but he's got his own friends!) so...yeah. we were discussing whether i want to go there or not. like, i know the repertoire at the chinese orchestra is way better, but it's all about the people, y' know? and like, at gabriel's, there's Eugene, Francesca, Gabriella, and hahaha Daniel! so....*sigh* i don't know what i should do... i told pater that i don't like how there's too many "too hong kong style" people there, and he said he knew what i meant (so that good!! whatta relief!) and then started saying how mostly all his family lived most of their life in the States, but peter nad his siblings were born in HK cuz at the time, their grandparents were both very sick. so...yeah. we were saying, we are very westernized and stuff, and he told us that he had never dated any asian ppl, except for one. even his ex-wife was German. so...yeah. and i thought, hmmm...how very true...
anyways, that's my story today.

i'm going to indiana tomorrow, but i think i'll be able to post before i leave. so that's good. i'm sooooo excited!! YAYY!! i get to see Audrey!! YESS!! and larry, he's the best! mom said Cary and Ko are going too. but (aww i'm so mean) i'm not that excited to see them. oh well. anyways, i'm gonna go now. ta-ta!

la la la!!!
i'm SO into the christmas spirit right now! YAYY!!! i just got home from skool, and me, and everyone from the asskickers club did secret santa! haha it was SO much fun! yuen got me, and her presents were the coolest!! hahaha i'm gettin high of that lip balm tonight! lol i swear, it smells soooooo good!! mmm....im wearing it right now. :)
anyways, we had an awesome music class today, it was so much fun! ms. walsh was singing, and at first, mr.freedman was playing guitar, and when he left james mc something, i forgot his last name, was playing guitar, and brian too. it was fun! heh heh heh!! i'm so hyper right now...lol ok, i'm gonna stop typing now. ta-ta!!

oh, and kevin talked to me (or icq-ed me) last night, and we were discussing our "relationship" or whatever, blah blah blah, and then we decided that we are not going out now. so, i guess you'd all would like to know. that's all. see ya!

wow, seems like i haven't posted in ages!! craziness, man, so much happened!
ok, first, i went to yvonne's birthday party on...saturday, and it was SO much fun!! i got to meet her sister, and her sister's boyfriend (who, i have to admit, is pretty hot. haha!) anyways, we had an amazing dinner by candle light, yummy cake, and presents! it was really cool, cuz most of yvonne's gifts were from American Eagle. hahaha after we watched How The Grinch Stole Christmas. it was such a good movie, omf!! Cindy Who had the coolest hair!! the one with the teapot on it! (hahaha her mom's had milk in a cup on her head!) and then we watched Rush Hour 2, and half way, i had to leave.
on sunday....what did i do on sunday?? um, i guess i just stayed home and did homework. oh yeah! and then at six or so, i went to this concert, which was SO totally crappy!! i mean, i thought they were good (cuz i heard them once a loooong time ago, but i guess they suck now. they even had a recorder group!! and they SUCKED. my brother and i were laughing soooo hard, my mom was telling us to shut up for at least 5 times! LOL anyways, that sucked. oh! also, i finally finished reading Draco Sinister!! *sigh* how long did that take me? 6 months?! hahaha so now i'm starting on Draco Veritas. it's got only 4 chapters, but hopefully, they'll write more and make it longer. oh, and i also got to talk to Devin on icq. that was fun, hahah! i was like, "what? mandy? i'm hermione!" lol
and monday, which was yesterday, i went to school, and i thought there wasn't any Agincourt Singers, but there was, so that sucked too. aaand....yeah. i hate school.
and today...well, it was alright. except lunch. it was totally pathetic!! ok ZIPPORAH was selling these candy canes, right? AND she has this box of condoms, that she's ALSO selling. and at first se's just going up to ppl asking them to buy the candy, and quietly asking about the condoms, and at the end, she practically advirtising them!! "would you like to buy a candy cane? ...and a condom?" O.M.G. me and yvonne were just sitting there, looking thoroughly grossed out. and not to mention, embarrassed. *sigh* man...but near the end of lunch we left her. haha. oh well. it was nasty!
anyways, i was walking back from school, and i was thinking, hmmm i should be getting my actual card for the driver's license either today, or tomorrow, and when i check the mail, it was there!! YAYYY!!! i look SOOO bad in the picture though. LOL looks like i'm drunk or something. lol damn picture takers. oh, and at the bus stop on Brimley, this girl started talking to me, and i don't even know her! how weird is that?! oh well. she goes to SAM, so i guess that explains it. LOL i'm so mean. but...oh well.
anyways, gotta go now. i'm posting on the Crazies, ta-ta!!

OH!! i forgot to tell all of you, at the concert tonight, I SAW HARRY POTTER!!!!!! well, he's not the real Harry, but he looked SO MUCH like him!!! wowee!! me and my friends were all checking him out. eugene was like, laughing his head off!! he has the funniest laugh!! so contagious! HAHAHH he's like, "i'm not laughing cuz it's funny, i'm laughing cuz you're crazy!! HAHAHAHAH!!"
LOL it was hilarious, u should've been there!! and daniel, he's the SERIOUS guy, and i'm kinda scared of him, but then i told him, and he's like "where?" and i'm like "behind that guy", and he actually went over just to see! HAHAHAH!!! that was funny!! and vanessa wanted to get his autograph! LOL omg, i wanna see Harry again!!!

i went to FAirview with yvonne, and OHMIGAWD, we saw the HOTTEST guy there!! i'm sooooo serious!! omg. he was awesome. and he was in a wheelchair, but who cares!! and he was with his friend, and they were pretty close and stuff, and looked kinda gay, so me and yvonne thought they were gay with each other. but damn, they are SO HOT! the walking guy was hot too, but the wheelchair guy was the BEST!! me and yvonne were stalking them. LOL we were like following them, until they went into this computer store. we stayed outside, by the railing, looking like we were just standing there, enjoying the decorations. and then they came out, and i was overly excited, and got all hyper. hahah and then they came out, and yvonne said she saw them talking and then looking back at the cashier guy and saying something, so we think they think the cashier guy is hot too. and we think he's gay too. hahah yvonne's like "look at his arm!"(the cashier guy). "that's what gay peoples' arms are like!" okay so after they came out, we followed them a bit longer, and then went the other way. and we were on the escalator, and tihs OTHER hot guy came up, and he sadi "excuse me!" !! oh yeah, he talked to us! HAHHAHA and then we were just walking and then we saw the walking guy again!! but the wheelchair guy wasn't with him. i wonder why. i think he wheeled himself away. LOL hahah

Anyways, i just came back from my stupid Christmas concert for TMYO. and i'm pretty dissapointed. for a number of reasons. fuck, the concert was horrible. near the end, i was bored of even listening to us play! Mom said Peter's friend looked quite bored too. well, i can't blame him. Ms. Walsh didn't come. that was one of the reasons. i was so looking foreward to it. *shakes head* people who don't keep their word pisses me off. the actual fun part was during intermission and after the concert. me, francesca, gabriella, vanessa, jo, bernard, eugene, devin, and anton had SO much fun! we took lotsa pics (the one with alex in it was riuned, cuz someone walked in fron of the camera, and i screamed. dammit bastard. alex is hot heh heh) at the end, we took some group pics. and (YES!) daniel was in a couple of them (he is majorly HOT) so...yeah. i think me and bernard are like, better friends now, which is a very good thing. before, i wasn't sure if he liked me or thought i was weird or whatever. so...yeah. well, i'm sure he still thinks im weird, but in a good way, i guess. and...vanessa and jo, well....we're alright now. before, i didn't really like neither of them, from SSE (the orchestra i USED to be in. it's crap). and me and eugene are okay too. he's an awesome friend. and devin is cool too. he is really nice. anton, just needs to gel his hair. haha. i love my friends. oooh!! guess what? devin decorated his drum sticks, and they look soooooo cool! hahah he's gonna do them for me! YAY! i'm so excited! oh, and sylvia. awww i love her, she's the nicest person ever! i'm not sure if she's gonna join TMYO after Christmas. well...hopefully!
oh, yeah, i keep talking about all my friends at orchestra, i forgot to tell what the other thing i was pissed about. Gabriel is like so biased now. damn bastard. and mom told me that he taking some money out of the ORCHESTRA for his own use. WTF?!? he can't do that! oh, i need some money too, i guess i can take it out from the orchestra! since part of it IS mine. i'm sooooo dissapointed. and, okay, i'm not really complaining about this, but the way he pays ppl is so not fair. either, he give everyone some (even if it is less money) or he shouldn't give anyone at all! and okay, some ppl didn't put any effort into it, and they got more money than me! like wtf?!?! i do like, everything!! (well, not everything, but a lot of it) every single fuckin time, i help with the equipment, i don't talk back (unlike SOME bastard *ahem*marco*ahem* bastard) i bet daniel got like a couple hundred (but he deserves it, so i'm not complaining THERE) and some other ppl got like 50. i got 30. isn't that so not fair? *shakes head* if it weren't for the ppl there, i would NOT go to that orchestra anymore. it takes up too much time, and gabriel won't even let me play the instrument i want! wtf? and he's complaining he doesn't have enough percussion, so...? and he's like "no, u should stay in violin, and practise" fuck, i don't even learn anything!! *sigh*
ok i'm done complaining.
now i'm gonna leave.

went to chrismas concert last night. it went qiote well. symphony was actually good! wow. and A.Singers was really good too. ppl stood up whne we sang the Hallelujah song. heh heh

anyways, we didn't really do ne thing special today. so boring. i hate bio class. it's damn hard now. and i have to do the exam again. well, maybe the first 4 pages or so. cuz i SUCK. but i'm really glad there's actually remedial help available. stupid ms. baksi. i HATE her. damn bitch.

okay, well, i've got orchestra tonight, and another concert tomorrow for my orchestra. so....i guess i'll post later. BYE!

YEAH! i got my computer back!! hehehe i can't live without it. i'm so addicted. hehehehe!

anyways, today was a particularly good day, except for one...little thing. with zipporah. so i'm still pissed off at her for saying those stuff about kevin, and just her attitude, generally. and i guess she sensed it, cuz i wasn't talking to her much, and i sorta lost enthusiasm when i'm talking to her and stuff (which is what i usually do when im serious) and well, she kinda ignored me too, but whatever.
so it's after class, and i'm packing up and stuff, and she calls out wait, so i wait for her, and then we walk to my locker, and halfway through, and then we start getting into this conversation/slowly turning into argument:
z: are u very, *big word, i forgot what it was* pissed at me?
m: yeah!
z: is it because of that thing i said about kevin?
m: well, yeah. and other stuff too.
z: like what?
m: like how you say stuff that offend ppl.
z: like who?
m: well, say, mr.small, and u calling him fat. i mean, you can't say that!
z: that was years ago!
m: no, it was NOT years ago!
z: if you want your relationship with kevin, then go ahead!
m: it's not that! even if i WASN'T in a relationship, i don't want you telling me stuff about my friends like that.

and then i forgot what she said, but soon after, i kept telling her that you can't just say stuff without thinking, it can offend people, and can hurt their feelings (did i say that part? i don't remember) so...yeah. i was really quite upset. but then yvonne came and we walked to the caf, and she kinda followed us. and then we bought our lunch and went out to the benches and then she said she had to do some bio hw, and had to go to the library. but i think she justs wants to leave. oh well. so me and yvonne dicussed about zipporah's "problems" and i told her that even though i knew she was like that before, i didn't really take it to heart, it just got pushed aside, until that day that yvonne yelled at her. hehehe! and then i started realizing it. yvonne's like "but it's true!" and i told her that i could tell that she was really angry that time, and she's like "i was!" hahaha so funny! and then i told her that i was kinmda sorry for zipporah, but not sorry enough to go up and tell her to forget everything, and let's resume being friends. yvonne agreed.
oh well. i don't know what i should do now. i mean, i see her practically everyday, plus, i sit beside her in bio, so i can't really avoid her. but then i don't WANT to avoid her, but i don't know what to say to her. *sigh* complicating life....
oh well, that's all, really, good night!

another poopie day. since bio.
first ANDY started with the thing for marking the binders. he wouldn't give..caroline, i think the freakin mark, cuz she didn't put the date on ONE piece of paper! and then he started saying "this one, and this one too..." and everyone's like, "just give her the damn mark!!" i was SO mad, ooohhhmiiiigaawwwwddd. and THEN zipporah goes "mr. small, you know the clock is broken?" and we JUST finished that conversation in class 20 minutes ago!! AND the past 3 WEEKS!! omg, sometimes, she really REALLY pisses me off. and then that thing with kevin. i was waiting for music class, and then kevin comes, so we're just waiting for the teacher, and then zipporah comes, and she's like "what are you doing here?" and she looks at me, and goes "oohhh...." and then he leaves for class, and zipoporah turns to me and says, "ew you guys were...*i'm not gonna say tths but it's something bad* ?! UGH! that's disgusting. haven't u broke up with him yet?!" i was already pissed off, so i'm just like "no." and she's like "why not?" and i forgot what i said. but anyways. that's my story. and then she ignores me the rest of the class. and we were practising in tha auditorium, and then ms. walsh comes over to talk, and she asks me why i'm mad at zipporah (i told her i was mad) and i told her. and she agrees that zipporah talks before thinking. i mean, u guys (whoever's reading this) should be around her sometimes. some stuff she says are quite offensive. especially to those she dislikes. and to techers sometimes too. argg....sometimes i wanna just tell her to shut up!! arggg
and then my end of the day was cheered up by yutat cuz he went to the library with me. hee hee! but i don't know where he's now. probably looking for some books. hahah they better be harry potter! jk!
anyways, that's all. i better get my computer fixed, or else!! heeh hee!

omg, i haven't posted in sooo long. my damn computer's been broken (it still is) and i had like, NO time, until now! i'm at the public library. hahaha! exams sucked. especially bio. i fucked up on that SO bad. *sigh* everything i studied leaked out of my head.
i went to joanna tang's concert last night, audrey's cousin on her dad's side. ne ways, she was AM-AZ-ING!! i swear to frank!! she was so totally awesome! i had tears in my eyes halfway through the song, and when we got home, my mom's like, "is she your hero now?" i'm like "yeah" listening to her play last night encouraged me to work harder (even though i know im lazy and all) but if she can do it, why can't i? and plus, she's older than me, so it'd be even harder for her. anyways, she's won a competition to play solo with the ACTUAL Toronto Symphony Orchestra! i'm sooo excited! cuz see, i'm going!! i just emailed audrey, and i told her about it, and hopefully, her parents will be able to go. it is really worth it.

anyways, i just read jordan's blog, and it got me all depressed and pissed off because of that thing with kevin. i totally agree with what he said about him not talking and all. and i know kevin and i are drifting apart too, ever since we got back from the summer break. and now, with all the conflicts and everything, i'm not even sure if i consider him a friend, or just "someone i know". carmen talked to him, and she told me today about what he said. carmen said even he doesn't know if we're "going out" so, like, what the fuck?! i'm VERY upset about all this. well, not "now" as in NOW, but ever since she told me. like, i can't talk to him about anything! (i couldn't really before, but i can't even more now) and everything's fucked up. does anyone know what to do? i know it's up to me to fix this problem at the end, and i have written him something, but i forgot to give it to him this morning in our math exam. he was complaining that he fucked up on the exam and he only got 3 questions. well, honestly, no offense or whatever, but he didn't work hard, he didn't do his homework, and it's pretty much his loss. can't blame anyone but himself. which is pretty sad, i should say. i tell this to everyone, "you get what you worked for", and it's true! i mean, i've worked pretty damn hard in math this year, since i failed last year, and what am i getting in math now? 87%! it's like, my best math mark i have EVER gotten. and im really happy about it! so...yeah.
well, when i get my computer fixed, i'll talk to him, i guess. i can NEVER talk to him at school or whatever now. it's pretty much like we're strangers.
arggg..now i feel like shit. i think this is the blog where i've written the most swear words. i feel bad, but whatever.
*siiiiiiggghhhh*
what to do. what to do?
whatever, i'm out.