just emailed the guy who made the website and asked if Pedro or Ramon have email addys and if i could have them. ha maybe i DO have a chance of contacting them! *crosses fingers ever so tightly*

okay found another one! oh, this is the best one out of all three! they're in the last pic: http://www.psioui.com/varekai/02quebec/premieremartine/7/

you know what? i don't know who's who becuz i totally can't tell them apart. haha!! oh well!

! i actually found a decent picture of Anton (Icarus) and the website won't let me copy it! arggg!!! i guess it's cuz he took the pic himself, and he's fromCDS. oh well...no hot twin pics yet. there was one of their brother.bleh. who cares. haahaha

*a while later*
ooh...i found a pic of the Atherton twins...wow, they're pretty hot too! (they're cute in the program, but these pics are ones taken on the Toronto premiere of Varekai, so they're different)

*a while later*

OMG!! i found the picture!!! of the hot twins!! AHHH!!!! OMG!!!!! ahhh here's the url it is the last pic on the page: http://www.psioui.com/varekai/03toronto/premiere2/6/

ohh...*breathing quickly and giggling like a school girl*

*a while later*
YEA BABY! ANOTHER ONE!!! They are in the 4th pic: http://www.psioui.com/varekai/03toronto/premiere2/7/

*a while later*
oh i found another one, but it's only one twin, and it's not really a good pic, so im not putting the url for that up.

*sigh* i guess that's it. until later, and when i find some more good pics. see ya

so today i went to the mentors' meeting, and it was pretty fun. had lunch with carmen and shelby first tho. that was cool. carmen got a hair cut! she's so cute! heheheh! anyways, i'm mentoring for 1C, which is pretty cool, cuz i was 1C when i was grade 9 too. behehe carmen's in 1A. bleh. 1A?! what the heck? heheh anyways...so yea, we did some skits and made our signs (for registration day) and went home. linda was there too, and i talked to her about our "dinner" tonight, and i told her no one is coming. and she was really surprised and stuff, and we decided to cancel it, and instead maybe just go for coffee or something like that. *sigh* all my hard work wasted. so i went home and emailed mrs.rowe, hoping that she'd check it before leaving, and yay she did! so now we're meeting at Tim Hortons at 8. preeetty cool, huh?

anyways last night i was on the Tom Felton website, and i found out that the HP Prisoner of Azkaban movie's coming out in 2004! nooooo!! that's so long! they're gonna skip one year! this is terrible news....terrible i say!! *sigh* stupid movie making ppl...grrrr...except for Tom and Emma of course. heheh! and Sean Biggerstaff! *grin* anyways...

i have Accolay in A minor, six pages. (music) and i'm planning to learn a page a week. by myself! heheh so proud! but i've had this music for a long time. but it's hard, so...there! heheh i'm doing the first page right now. it's pretty easy, since i've played it so many times before. (i've had this music for like, 4 years!) but near the end, it's really difficult. so...yea. well, good luck to me then.

have you ever had the feeling, sometimes your mind's just so full and you're so tired that you just wanna slip into this great big depression and not care about anything at all?
well, that's what im feeling right now. it's terrible, but...ahh...can't do nuthin about it.

wow. i'm actually chatting with Devin. haven't for so long. i miss him. he still owes me cool decorated drumsticks. heh

so back to my depression. i've been feeling bad since the night of Cirque Du Soleil. i think it started with the letter to Pedro. i still have it, in my bag. i feel so bad about it. i've lost my only chance to even have a chance to meet him. does that make sense? arggg...and i was so close to too! i was gonna ask the cashier lady (cuz i was buying something) and then this other dude showed up behind her (another cashier) and i can't ask in front of two ppl! especially the other cashier, cuz he's hot, and he's a guy, and it doesn't work when u ask guys to give notes to other guys. sooo...yea.
and then there's my mother, who's always nagging me about stuff, and not letting me live my life. and there's my stupid brother who's always throwing rude remarks at me. "Are u stupid?!"..."Mandy, do you know anything?!"..."Oh my gaaawd."..."omg! Use your brain!"..."You're ugly! and dumb!" and tons other that i don't think i'm even gonna post. it's terrible, and it's incredibly discouraging. i know...y'all must be thinking i should just ignore him or whatever, but i can't. i just can't. he says them so much and so often now, that i'm starting to believe. and then i cry and wanna end my life. *sigh* and then there's the problem with my driving instructor, who is being a dumbass. and also other people who might think of me the same way as my brother thinks of me, and....just lots of stuff. i want school to start so i can take my mind of all that. ahh...one more week. i can't wait that long! but i guess i have to. argg...well, going to the mentors' meeting this thursday, that's in school. yay. i can't wait. i need to DO something!! or i'm gonna go crazy!! i think i'm already crazy.
ahhh...ok no more. i'm out.

so yesterday we went to lunch with gavin and kenric (these ppl who used to be in our old orchestra, but they moved to england) and then they came over to my house. and my dad helped me set up my lantern and disco ball and my mirror! yippee! my room's so pretty now! =) it's just a big mess though, cuz i haven't cleaned my room in so long. ah well.
anyways, im at the office again, and i am so addicted to icq that im downloading it on this computer too! =) even tho this comp's slow and crappy. oh well. it gets boring here too. but not as boring as home! ack! hehehe! anyways..err...i wanna go to Las Vegas! im in this Cirque Club thingy online, and i got them to email me the forums that ppl post, nad i was reading today's and one guy said that Mystere in LV is gonna be shut down! or move...or something like that, i don't remember the exact details. anyway, i wanna go before they move! they better not move!! but they said ther's gonna be one opening in NY city. that's pretty close to T.O so, that's good! well, my icq's almost done downloading, so post more latah!

i declare yesterday the best day of summer! not only did i go to cirque du soleil, i also went to ikea! omg it's the best store ever!!!! and i got my lantern, finally, and i also got a full length mirror. yay! it's wavy, so it's good, cuz it matches my room. (water theme, y'know...) anyways...so last night i wnet the CDS, and i was sooooo excited i couldn't even stand still! my parents were all weird and stuff and said i looked stupid. so that got me down a bit. the show was incredible! omg! anton is fucking hot! ahh!! and so are the hot twins! ahhhhh!!!! but they did some minor adjustments in the show. they didn't have this one dance, but insead they had this juggler. but that's alright with me. i looooved the juggler! he was sooo good! and the fast-paced acts were sooo energetic! holyy...and i loved the music. well, i loved the music ever since the first time i saw it, but still! it's different whne u see them a second time. u know what's coming so u can concentrate on the details. the first time, you might forget the details and remember the show vaguely. so...yea. and since april i did a lot of research on them and stuff, so it's different when i watch them perform. in a whole new light! hehehe! and yes, i did write to the hot twin, but i never gave it to an usher to give it to him. i never found the right time to ask, and it felt weird to just go up to one of them and tell them to deliver a note. so i'm a bit dissapointed. actually, more than a little bit. there's this funny feeling inside me right now (since last night whne we came back) that there's something not right, and...augh. i dunno how to explain it. it's weird. like, i have to fix something. *sigh* anyways...i don't think he'd call me anyway.
ahh...i wish i were in boston RIGHT NOW so i can watch Quidam. stupid parents...won't even let me go to Boston. *grumble* oh well...

that's it for now.

i just came back from driving, and we were picking up this dude for his next lesson, and omg, he looks SO much like bernard!! it's funny cuz bernard doesn't even live in that area! behehe!
anywas, TOMORROW is my CDS show!!!!! AHHH i'm so excited!!! i was telling mom about it, and about all the cool ppl in it, and she's like "if u put that much effort in biology, then that would be good." *grumble* anyways, yea! omg! so i was telling mom about Icarus/Angel/Anton, and i realized that today's his birthday! ack!! Happy Birthday Icarus!!! =)
okay well, not much else to say. so post more latah!

well, i finally found someone who knew about Andrew. ahhh finally!! omg, if he doesn't respond, i will be soooo upset cuz it took me forever to track him down! well, actually i knew he went to campbell, but i don't know many other ppl who do. bahh...and stupid kelvin didn't tell gordon about it. oh well. i just told him so it's okay. and omg, lindsay's email finally pulled through! omg...i have doubts about lindsay coming though. sarah told me she moved really far away. well at least i tried. anyways...ummm...yea. i'm still puzzled about the mentor meeting. well, can't do ne thing til the day comes.
CDS in two days!!!

well, im home again, and my computer's being weird on me. like, my icq would suddenly shut down on it's own and close. so i have to start it up all over again. and then there's my background for my desktop. it keeps going back to the condo pictures. not that i don't like it, because i like that picture very much, but i used another picture! and it, like, disappeared. *shrug* oh well. so..yea, i was talking to my mom this afternoon at the office and i told her no one could come to CNE with me and i really wanted to go to Polish Day, and she's like "ahh don't go! who cares it's not even good! there's not much to see." so...i guess i'm not going. bahh...well there's always next year, i guess.
ummmm...
my icq closed again. grrrr...oh yeah- i know what the url is for my pics. it's http://photos.yahoo.ca/hermy_g182 so if anyone's interested, then be my guest. ummmm...today is wednesday. ack! 3 more days til saturday!! i can't wait! well, cuz it's the night i see varekai, like i said so many times, but im also going to Ikea on Saturday to get this cool light for my room! ahhh!! i'm so excited! =)

anyways..umm...i can't find my wallet. argg...so im gonna get off my computer now and find it. ta!

well, im at my dad's office right now, and im using his laptop. heheh it's fun! but it's really slow, so...that sucks.
anyways...garry/derek (hehehe!!) called me today. he said there's this meeting for the mentors next thursday at school and i was like "what?! im a mentor?!" cuz when the list came out at school, i did not make it, so i dunno why im in it now. hahah oh well, i guess they changed their minds and decided that i was good enough to be a mentor. yayy! omg, if i go, and find out they've made a mistake and im really not a mentor, i'll be sooo mad! hehehehe and...i dunno...nothing much really happened today. i spent the day at the office. that was pretty good cuz i didn't have to be stuck at home and stuff. plus, i put more pics up in my online photo album (sorry i forgot the url for it, so i can't tell you what it is) so that's good. i think i'll come again tomorrow...home is really boring. seriously. plus, i can help my dad with his catelogs. i did a little bit today, but the sticky tape thingy ran out. ah well.

omg i thought next week was the 20's week (u know, today is the 21st, tomorrow, 22nd, etc) but it's actually this week! which means im going to seeVarekai this saturday! omg why is time going so fast? and next week is the reunion dinner! next week! arggg... i still have to try to contact ppl. this is so sad. oh anyways...

i have to call bernard to see if he called gabriel yet. and maybe i'll call eugene to see if he's still gonna be in the orchestra when it starts up again. hmmm...and im in a crisis. need to decided if im gonna quit violin or zheng. i can't do both. blehhh...decisions, decisions...bah! anyways, post more latah!

omg! i remembered what i was gonna post! yay for meee!
ok i was just gonna say that two nights ago, gabriel (yes, gabriel, the yelling meanie ex-violin teacher) called! well, actually, he called bernard first, to ask him to come back to orchestra! well, bernard wasn't there at the time, so his mom talked to him. well, i think she kinda yelled at him. anywhoo, after that, bernard's mom (amy) called us to tell us that gabriel called her, and warned us that he might call us too. so...yea, he called. i wasn't as surprised as i would've been. i was like "yea, do u want to talk with my parents?" and he's like "no, i want to talk with you." inwardly, i was like "ah shit." lol so...yea, he wants me to come back to orchestra, and yes, he did tempt me (or, tried to tempt me) with money. i said i'll think about it (just so i could be nice) and...yea. he said i had to practise a lot and blah blah blah....i was sorta tuning him out...u know...oh well. after i hung up, i did actually think about going back, just for the concert, cuz i miss ppl there, like...oh...devin, and anton, and...ppl. anyways. today, i found out that bernard's not going to go back, so, i don't think i will go back either. and besides, gabriel might sound nice over the phone, but i know that once i'm back there, it's gonna be hell again. so....no! hehehehe
that's all! i'll keep ya posted! i'm supposed to call him back. i told him i would think about it and call back. arggg...i don't wanna call!!!

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audrey sent us pictures from when we visited her! they are really nice! i need a better camera...or a better place to develope my pictures. argg...so now im writing her back. stupid howard, never wrote to her. bah!
yvonne left for florida today, so...can't do ne thing. still planning, rather, thinking about, that trip to cne. i wanna gooo!! yuen and jen are working there. bums they got jobs! arggg...oh well. anyway, saw Angela's Ashes again. damn it was good. hehe middle-aged Malechy's Devon Murray, Seamus in the HP movies. =) he's so cuuute! well, not that kind of cute. hahah and older Frank is hot. Well his real name is Michael Legge. (Legge?! what kinda name is that?! haha ok sorry...that was awfully mean. sorry!) anyways...yea, he's hot! =) yes, that's all i ever think about...so sue me. oh well. nothing else to post.

i had something to post, but i forgot what it was. argg...oh well.
i finally found out how to get pics' url addresses, so now i can fix up my aa page, and that's what i've been doing for the past two days. ummm...i dunno what to post...yvonne's off to florida. so we can't do anything. planning on going to CNE, but i dunno when yet. saw The SHipping News. it's a good movie- i have to book for it. i'll probably read it soon. probably. =)
ummmm...shit, i forgot what i was gonna say. bleh. oh well.
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