last night, work kinda sucked, because i was so tired at the end, and sad because shaughn reminded me of the thing i was gonna tell him, and i couldn't tell him yet, because other people were around, and then mike (from skinnyphat) sang the sweetest song and it made me think of someone from long ago and that made me sad. and then i got home, and my house smelt like smoke, because obviously my roommate was smoking in his room again, and i called my landlord, and he didnt answer his phone, so i left a message. but then mel left me a text msg on my phone, and then keith called me from her phone, and i went over to their place, and we hung out for a long time, and it made me happy again.

the end.

my weekend was pretty bad, except for hanging out with kevin.
after 5 days, it was back to the Rude last night... it really wasn't as bad as i had anticipated. first of all, jen wasn't working at all, so that certainly made my night a lot easier (although she did come in just to chill). another thing was that this was the first time in almost a year that heidi did not show up on a wednesday night!! oh. my. god. i know. apparently, john and heidi had a fight or something of the sort, but either way, it was GREAT! a couple of us were talking in the kitchen and max was like "i'd pay john to keep this up." hahaha! so would i. anyway... after work i went over to the duke and met up with mel and pat. well, i invited shaughn and alison too, but after waiting for him to finish up, him and alison kept fucking talking... omg... i wanted to slap them. after 10 minutes of just standing there holding the door, i was fed up and just went over myself. they came eventually, and alison informed me that they helped max put up all the chairs. heh heh...too bad. so a shitload of staff were hanging out at the duke, and it really was a lot of fun! rory's friend, chad, was trying to hit on me sooo bad. he was sitting with mel and pat and i, and when chad started touching my back and my arm, mel almost had to stop him from getting up and punching him. yay i have good friends who will save me from old men! haha... anyway, chad kept insisting that he wanted to hang out with me and i should go with him to cameron's house to drink, and i was like, "um.... ask my friends, i'm gonna go whereever they go" and i turned to mel, and whispered "say no!". so he did ask her, and of course she said no. haha, it was kinda funny. anyway... i was a bit disappointed that alison was stuck on shaughn so fucking much. i was hoping i could talk to him about this thing i was thinking about doing, and i needed his opinion. but i told him that i would tell him another day. so mel and pat and i left the duke, and walked to 7-11 to pick up snacks, and headed to her place to hang out for a bit. it was good times... and pat eventually walked me home, since mel had to work this morning, and neither of us did.

and i didn't get the kids' art camp job. boo hoo.
honestly..... i'm not that upset over it. it would've been fun and everything, but i wouldn't want to work at 8:30am-4:30... then work at the Rude.

oh, one more thing before i leave: i was watching Ellen this morning, and one of the guests was this guy named Matt, and he travelled around the world, dancing. it's actually really really funny. there's like clips of him dancing in every country (except canada) and y'all can check it out at www.wherethehellismatt.com

have fun!

so my mother's birthday yesterday was pretty shitty, sice i was in a shitty mood all day, and she got pissed off at me for getting pissed off at this stranger walking in the parking lot. then she complained about how horrible a daughter i was and our family sucks and how unhappy she was. and my brother was being a reaaaal asshole. i was reminded of why i stay home for no more than two days. anyway... when we got home, her and my dad left for the office, and i called up kevin and we hung out at white haven park. it was good times, and definately good convos. then a certain someone kept calling his phone, which got pretty annoying after the 3rd one. and i got 4 lovely mosquito bites right on the ass. wonderful.

and now my arm hurts because my driving teacher's car fucking sucks.

work sucks, family sucks, i hate people, and i'm sure people hate me.


thanks, G, for a fun night

watched The Man Who Cried yesterday.... it wasn't as good as i expected it to be, but it was alright. made me sad at the end.

last MT session yesterday was great, i got to videotape the first session, that was fun. i didn't play anything in the second session. meh. hopefully my schedule will work out in the fall do that i can start up again. MT sessions are fun!

anywhoo... i guess im not going to the PSQ concert at perimeter institute on saturday, since no one will be able to cover my shift, but it's okay. i haven't been to one q-fest concert yet, and i probably won't this year.

damien's bday party on canada day? fuck yes, if i can take the day off work! raggas are fun when you are willing.

anyway... i'm outtie. til next time i find an signal on my laptop.

last night, shaughn walked me and gloria home after work.
not cool.

patio was fun.

alex got fired.

ok i wrote this post last night, and when i finished, i could not find a signal on my laptop, so i'm posting tihs now.

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ok.

1. happy satan day! (well, i just missed it by 3 minutes) i really want to see The Omen.... maybe thursday, i'll go.

2. i had another dying dream last night. it was scary. i was with a bunch of people, and we were part of a war or some kind of battle. but i knew it in the dream as war. and people died, i'll spare everyone the details. the gunshots sounded very real. i fucken hate dying dreams.

3. ok, after weeks of pretty much no conversation, alex started talking to me, finally. well, it started with him talking to shaughn nad i was just putting cutlery away, so i joined their conversation. so we actually talked. then i was sitting with tara, and he came over and talked to us. but he didn't completely talk directly to me, but yeah... then tara was like, i'm kinda drunk, i gotta stop drinking so i can drive home (and then we had tihs conversation about drunk driving and getting caught). so i just said that i could drive her home then take a cab, and tara was like, aw you're so sweet, then alex was like, "yeah, you are really sweet." and i know he meant it, because alex wouldn't say something and not mean it. it's a good attribute, but also bad because he would say a lot of really really not-so-nice things, and you'll know he meant that too. (that's pretty much the one thing i really hate about him) then he kissed me arm and was all friendly and stuff. so at that point i was thinking "umm... okay...? don't talk to me for a month, then all of a sudden be all chummy?" and when i had to leave to catch the bus he gave me a big hug and kissed my neck.

so the question is..... what the fuck?

i was doing so well getting over him... and it was actually working! now i'm confuzzled. help. :(

anyway... i came home from work (10 minutes ago) and the second i walked in the door, i smelt smoke. FUUUUUUUUUCK!! i'm calling my landlord tomorrow and telling him. and this time i'm going to do it for real.

How Heidi is a Crazy Bitch for Those Who Don't Know

situation #1
i worked a split today and i just finished my lunch shift, and have 2 hours to kill before my next shift, so i sat outside with an issue of Echo chillin outside waiting for my food to come up. Heidi comes bustling outside (she always walks like she's in a rush... it's pretty ridiculous) and stops in her tracks and asks if i had checked the bathroom before i finished, i said no, only becuase i checked it at least 8 times before, and i know it's fine. it's not my fuckin fault our bathroom fuckin sucks. then she asks me if i check the urn outside at anytime during my shift, and again, i said no. why the hell would i? i don't fuckin smoke, and i absolutely hate touching clean cigarettes, let alone butts. god...what a fucking bitch.

situation #2
this is actually 30 minutes after situation #1 happened. dave pootz arrived for his shift 2 hours early, also waiting to get his paycheque. so we're just sitting there chillin, and i'm eating still. then Sebastian arrives, orders a beer, and sits down with us, also waiting for the paycheques to arrive. the two of them each light up a cigarette and whatnot and we're all just sitting there chatting. out of nowhere, Heidi runs up to Sabby, throws an ashtray on the table, points a finger in his face and pretty much yells "If i EVER see you throwing that shit on the patio, you will not be on the patio ever again!" we're all shocked, but Sabby, being all suave and shit, asks "What? Doing what?" then Heidi goes "Who the hell do you think sweeps that shit up?" (and makes it sound like she does) and storms away. after she leaves, i was like, "um... ok, no one cleans the ashes on the floor because it's either washed away by the rain, or the wind blows it away. but seriously, i think Sabby sat down for no more than 5 minutes and Heidi exploded in his face.

anyway, i think Heidi was extra moody today. hormones or something, i don't know. anyway...

justin's a dick.
that is all.

what's this? my comment system is not working?
damn.

i'm still sick from sat. morning. dammit, nathan.
i was sitting outside with peter, alex, and little dishwasher dave yesterday, and i was complaining to pete how i'm still sick, and he fully said "that's what you get when you make out with nathan." i could not believe he said that! jerk! for the record, i did not make out with nathan. ugh...
anyways...

so i found a place in my room where i can get a signal on my laptop. i'm sitting on the edge of my bed. it's not too bad.
i went to club ren with mel and keith and a bunch of their friends tonight. it was le fun! i never not have fun at ren though, it's great! i met this one (straight) guy there who looked a LOT like mr. church, from aci. it was really freaky. and i met this other (gay) guy who is half hong kong chinese, half french. mmmm... :D yay chinese pride! lol.. he was really really cute. too bad he's gay. anyway...

oh, and sebastian didn't really like my apocalyptica cd. :( well, fuck him for not having good music tastes.

alright, i'm out. i gotta work tomorrow... or today... depends on how you look at it.

friday night/sat morning:
me and laura (expo girl) wnet to nate and pete's after hanging out on the patio after work. t'was fun. we didn't even get drunk or anything. just had some wine and lots of good convos. then nate and i hung out in his basement listening to drum and bass and watching infomercials for another 2 hours. it was fun. but it was cold and i got a cold from sleeping down there. damnmit! i told peter when we woke up a couple hours later, and pete said the house was about 20 degrees, but i guess the basement's always colder.

work last night wasn't too bad, cept all day and night i was blowing my nose, and my throat killed cuz i've been second hand smoking for entire night (fucking smokers, i hate them all!!) so i was in pretty bad shape. and jen didn't even let me go, after i pretty much did all the side duties and no one else needed my help. ugh.... i seriously hate closing with her. and i wasn't even the closing host. whatta beeyoch. but then i brought the apocalyptica cd for sebastian! i'm gonna try to convert him to like it. haha... he thought eicca looked like a woman. :(

anyway... my cold's getting better tihs morning, but i just found a buise on my knee. hm... i wonder where that came from. i'm leaving for scarbro in half an hour. yiay? my parents are in LA. so yeah... we'll see what happens.

whoa, it's been a while...

umm... don't really know what to write.
hmm... got more new stuff to practise. whoo hoo just started learning Mozart's Concerto #5. it's not too bad so far. my Kreutzer study suuucks. but all studies suck, so whatever. i need it. i want to learn the other 2 movt's of the Bach Sonata #1 so i can get it recorded! i need to practise.

work SUCKS. i HATE heidi soooooo much. what a fucking bitch, holy shit. i hope she dies and burns in hell! argh! and alex is finally back from his suspension, ha ha. i actually missed him, buh. but now... not really. he's a jerk. but it makes me sad that we don't talk.

hung out with Katie wednesday after work. it was fun. her roommate's gf is a bitch though, seriously. yay shopping tomorrow!

been having weird dreams lately. random people in random situations. people from the past, amber (?), etcetra.

god, Fran, i told you not to get me addicted in one of those friends-network thingies! Facebook is pretty addicting. probably because it's so new. but still!
oh well. it's okay. you were right, it's fun.

my roommate never did his dishes after i told him repeatedly to do them. he even said he would today. but he didn't, and he went home for the weekend. i'm thinking of being a bitch and put his dishes in front of his door. throwing them out is too mean. yeah, maybe i'll do that tomorrow.

anyway, i gotta meet Katie at Starbucks tomorrow at 10, so i'm gonna go sleep now. ta-ta.

so i have my new phone... finally. it's really different, i haven't decided if i like it yet. i was playing this game on it this morning for like 5 minutes nad the battery ran out. and it was fully charged when i started. (?!?!) strike one. but the images on the display is quite good, so that part is good.

there's still a bunch of crap i haven't figured out yet, but i can do that another time.
now i gotta go home and catch Oprah. hee hee! (i'm in the CAI lab)

just watched Tsotsi at the Princess Cinema. it was really really good. i miss watching good movies that make you think. i'm really into the "less mainstream" movies now, there's a bunch i wanna see at the Princess. i just gotta.... save up the $$.

anyway, today was a really great day. relaxing. andrea never showed up, so we didn't hang out afterall. i biked to waterloo park and hung out, looked at the animals, sat in the gazebo, reading, watching the ducks and swans and baby ducklings, and reading under a tree.

Big Rude Jake at the rude native tomorrow. i'm actually excited about it. i hope it's good! i haven't been able to sell any tickets. but whatever, i don't really care. it's really Heidi's loss, not mine.

...
argh...
fuckin' Alex... i always manage to mess up with people i like. but it's probably a good thing that it didn't work out. realistically, i don't think i am what he's looking for, and vice versa.
well, whatever. there's other fish in the sea.

but you can never get what you really want... and i don't even mean Alex.

umm...

anywhoo... that's about it, i guess...
my phone still haven't arrived. it's really frustrating. there's so many people i need to call. bah.

okay, i'm outtie.

so i just had a glooooorious day in dt toronto with my dearest Kamla! we went to the clothing show! i thought last year's was better, but i bought a denim dress and a couple of tshirts from the black market. i was so close to getting a dress from play-dead, but it was a bit over my budget. plastikwrap was there!! but i didn't get to see sarah. :( maybe next year. and yeah, i think plastikwrap is fucking amazing. if i had $150 laying around, i'd definately would've bought something from there. then kam and i streetcar-ed back to union, walked down queen, visited tribal rhythm (one of my fav stores), chinatown (99 cents for a box of strawberries!), then dundas. a lot of walking, but also a lot of fun. kamla gave me a shirt she bought from the blackmarket! *tear of happiness* i lurve it! i was gonna buy the same one at the clothing show, but kamla was like, "Mandy... i have to tell you something..." and then i got scared cuz she looked so serious, so i was like "omg, what's wrong?" and she's like "i was gonna give you that shirt... i wasn't gonna tell you, but i don't want you to get the same one." awwwww.... <3 so sweet. i bought a bag with the same design instead, because it is a really cute design.

anywhoo, it was was really fun day. yay for hanging out with my Kamla!

yay im in the CAI lab, cuz my internet's not working at home. bah.

i just woke up from a 4 hour nap, heh heh... last night at peter/nathan/alex's place was le fun. alex was completely wiped out on his bathroom floor. i felt bad for him, cuz people were throwing pennies at him, lol. a whole group of us were crowding around his bathroom door, then pete came down and was like "guys.... why are there pennies on alex?" lol... he came around eventually. it was neat seeing their place too, alex lives in a portable. haha... it's pretty awesome, actually. he just need to decordate it more. and the swing set in the backyard was quite entertaining. good party, good party. i left kinda early with laura, cuz i needed a ride back to waterloo, so i hung out with them at the duke for a bit. whitby and beckford eventually showed up too, hahaha hilarious. and then max and i shared a cab home. whoo hoo. my roommate's alarm woke me up at 6:30 this morning. it kept going and going, i was sooo pissed off, considering i already had trouble falling asleep. and then i had to get up at 800 for volunteering. bah. i kept yawning while i was playing. it sucked.

oh, and i saw jeremy bell while i was on the payphone. it was a pretty awkward conversation. yea, i don't like him much.

aaaanywayyy... i'm sooo bored. it's so sad, it's my day off work, and i'm probably gonna go in and hang out, because i have no life. boooourns.