wow, it's friday. this week went by pretty quickly. but you know it's been shitty. i'll save you all from details, but yesterday was probably the worst day this week. i zoned out so much, i think my whole day was a zone out. (ask Lisa... choir on thursday was not pretty). um... i went to Phil's on wednesday so i could hang out with Alex and Beckford, since he invited me. but yeah, it didn't go well. whatever... i saw Alex tonight, he came in while i worked. he got cornrows, it actually looks really hot. then he asked me why i didn't have a good time at Phils. i just told him i've been having a really depressed week. and he just looked at me and said he didn't know what to say. ugh.

um... anyway... oh, i called home on tuesday night, to ask if Anita Mah had called, because she hasn't called me. anyway... so i talked to my dad for a bit about that Anita woman... then my dad was like "do you have anything to say to your mom?" and i'm like "hmm... i dunno, does she have anything to say to me?" and i could hear my dad ask her, and i could hear that she said no. so...whatever, if she doesn't want to talk to me. she can't even make an effort to talk to her fucking daughter.

anyway... just so i'm ending on a happy note, i received the Lengbeyer Holiday Letter tonight (like, just right now) and reading it made me laugh for real. i love my cousin so much, she's awesome :) definately the highlight of the week.

oh, and Warren called me today. he saw me in the library, and instead of coming up and saying hi, he decided to call me while i was walking out of the library. it kinda caught me off guard, because i haven't talked to him in like a over month. and talking means, even bumping into him at school and saying hi. and it was the most uncomfortable conversation i've had with him. i actually couldn't think of anything to say... ugh. whatever, mian. everything sucks.

oh... i just realized i'm back on the bad note.

umm...

fuck.... since i'm already there, i should also say that i fuckin missed the student/faculty art show this year!!! FUUUCKKKK!!!!! you have no idea how pissed off i am because of this. fuck! the art show is one of the only things i look forward to each year.

ok, i'm done.