i found out yesterday at 3pm that i had to re-audition. because i was just that bad. fuck.... well, i headed over to the practise rooms at 3:45, and tried to practise, but i then i started crying in the practise rooms becuz all i could think of was how much i suck, and i suck SO much that the PSQ couldn't even place me in the frickin orchestra. goddammit. anyways... Liz came by my room, and started talking to me, and then helped me with my music til 5:30. it was really great. oh liz... after liz left, i practised the mozart excerpt for another hour and a half. went home and relxed ofr two hours, and headed back at 9. it was brutal. i came home, and tracy left for a while, and ian, shannon and jess and a bunch of other boys went out to the bar. i talked to paul on msn... complained of how stressed i was and how i need to practise more. i was just about to start practising in my room, and tracy came back.... with a boy! tee hee... anyways... i practised a bit, then went to sleep. tracy was like "you're seriously gonna sleep now??" and i was like "yeah? i have to get up at 7 tomorrow!" and her and her friend were like "omg!" lol.... they're so funny.
anyways... so i practised this morning, and did my audition. it went pretty well, except that that excerpt of the..... beethoven. well, i didn't really practise that, but whatever. the the mozart was good. sooo.... yeah! i'm done! shannon, ian, beth, fran and i are going out tonight! yiay! i feel like dressing up. i need to do that once in a while. oh! btw, yesterday was the worst day, since i got here... the only high point of my day was bumping into Garreck, aka Garry Siu, and chilling with him for a bit. AND i haven't seen andrew abela yet! nor tim! they're probably having lots and lots of froshie fun! lol...

omg... today was the general meeting for all the music people, and i saw marius! haha awww... i heard he's married now! ooooo! lol... omg, shannon and fran saw dwight! hahaha ohhhh dwight. i need to see him soon. haha! and i met some of the new violinists! they're cool. omgomg... and IAN MADE IT INTO ORCHESTRA!!!! YIIIAAYYYY!!!! you have NO idea how excited i am. it's gonna be soooooo much fun!! :D!!!

anyways... i probably should head back home. our internet stopped working, and i'm at school again. i was gonna pick up my orchestra rep but the music office is closed and so is the one at the library. soooo... yeah!
okay, anyways... i'm outtie.