was today a good day?
no.
was it a bad day?
not necessarly.

too many things going on.
well, actually, only one thing. but it seems like a big deal. it is a big deal. but with me sitting here doing nothing isn't gonna solve it. sooo....i'm just gona sit here, cuz it ain't gonna be solved anyway.

Jon Sum gave me a ride home cuz i thought it would be cold and windy outside, but it was actually pretty nice. but still...anyways, he was like, "let's go for a joyride, i'm not taking u home" and i'm like nooooo!!! (cuz he drives very crazily) he goes so fast and turns really sharply. there were moments when i was seriously scared for my life. lol i kept saying "omg...drive safely...be careful...drive safely..."
anyways, after a while i got used to it and it was kinda fun. and then i came home and now i'm blogging.

i want the tennis court to oooppeeeennnnn!!! (i'm whining) bleugh... stupid tennis courts...open so late...grrr..

on a happier note, tomorrow's the first eppy for my china trip!!!! YAAYYYYY!!!! for those of you who want to watch it, it's on ch.36 at 10:15pm. yay i'm so excited!! i think 6 or 7 people are gonna come over so that we can watch it together. heheh *tear* ain't it beautiful? hee hee... anyways...oh! the public library called, and i finally get my Disappearing Moon Cafe book. stupid ACI library never has it. grrrrrrr....welps, i'll be reading late into the night tonight! hahaha
anywhoo...i dunno what else to post, so bye!!

band wasTIRING tonite. omg...especially after Effie (sp?) and Mr. Lum yelled at each other. that was bad.
anyways...can't type...too tired...falling asleep in front of my computer while waiting for stupid Tomson to call me back.
ZZzzzz...

wow...what a day.
unquestionably one of the most unique i've had in a while. well, all the events happened after lunch, although i did find out i was ditched once again. but whatever... that's nothing new.
i had this weird craving for macaroni salad, and no one really wanted to go to kfc with me. (cuz they're all LAZY!) but finally i got smitty to tag along. so, yeah we ate at kfc, i got pushed against the wall and scratched myself. stuuupid smitty. um...then i hung out with carmen and jordan and alexis, and watched camille get her makeup done. and then carmen, jordan mike, and mike, and rachel and i all sat at this bench. see, when mike (the azn one) came and sat down with our group, i knew something was up. and then he told me he made 40$. was it another picture? no.... it was something worse. i'm not gonna post what it is, so for those of u who know, good. you know wut im talking about. well, anyways, almost our whole group started talking w/ mike (incl. mike fortnight) and yea... i got pretty angry at him. he refused to tell me the whole story, even tho he probably knows everything that's going on. he was going to not tell me anything at all, but our dear mikey yelled at him, and he told me....some...crap. it was so stupid. gawd.... even mikey was like "omg!! just tell her!" so mike was like "okay there's mr...x, and mr.t" and mikey was like "go for mr.t" argg!! he wasn't supposed to be helping him! and then mike's like "mr.t's chunkier" and mikey's like "chunky is hunky!" OHMIGAWD. it made me laugh, even though it's not really funny, but the way he said it was. *sigh* so..yeah, and then i was at the fashion show. and mike somehow sat behind me, and obviously i started yelling at him "why the hell are u sitting behind me?!" and yeah... i think he was up to something. that bastard...
so anyways...yeah, i'm stilled pissed off at him. i mean, if he was a friend he wouldn't allow this to happen. a couple of pictures, whatever. i know he sells pics. but this is going too far..(i'm getting pissed off just writing this...)

anyways, after the show, i found matt and remy outside and it was so weird. i was thinking like, what the hell are u doing here? after missing all day.
yes. i get annoyed easily. didn't u know? oh, and i'm also mad at my mom (again) cuz she wrote some shit on my application for this music scholarship i really want. gawd...i told her not to write that. did she listen? no....gawd..if i win that scholarship because of that, i don't want it. i don't want money out of pity. i want it for my accomplishments.
ARRGG!!
sorry bout my super negative post, but i had to let it out otherwise i'd go crazy. well, more crazy than i already am. *sigh*
okay... ths last part is messed up. what the hell am i typing?

geez. i need to leave.

omg, u know that movie i put on hold last year at the library? 1984? well, guess what? i finally got it!! almost a whole year!! see, cuz last year i didnt get to see that movie with my class (stupid music trip) so i borrowed it. apparently everyone else in the world wanted the same movie. i was like 45th or something in line. PAH! so now i'm spending my weekend watching 1984. yippee! i get to watch Winston become electrified!

aaaanyways, i just read this article about the top 10 sexiest beaches, so now i have a craving to go somewhere nice and warm with a beach. and swim with fishies.

well folks, i did indeed get into Windsor, and NOT the "undecided" program. i actually got into Music Therapy. but, fuck, they said i have insufficient knowledge of theory. i do not!! my theory is fine! it's the ear training stuff i have probelms with.
in any case, i got in, so now i have to make a list of pros and cons whether i really WANT to go there. i don't really want to because of all the things i posted earlier about that school. and...yeah. so....we'll see.

anyways, i'm hungry, so bye!

i managed to stay away from my computer all day..until now. heh heh... i have to look at some Shakespear notes. stupid Hamlet. so friggin confusing...
anywhoo...i was going to go to the library today, but when i got there i found out that it was closed, so then i had to wait til 4 for my mom to pick me up. so after she picked me up, we mailed some letters, went grocery shopping, and that stuff. and now i'm doing my homework. yippee i don't like the way my teacher teaches shakespeare. i mean, i thought last year was bad, cuz my teacher talked really fast and my writing wasn't fast enough for his talking, but now, this teacher doesn't talk at all. all she does is give us these questions and we have to read it on our own. grrr...i don't like old english, it's too hard to understand. *sigh* anywhoo... mike got a blog everyone! it changes colour! wickednessism! go check it out.
later.

pooh for posting. i didn't really wanna post today, but i just did on the crazies, soo...whatever!

anyways, yea, last night i went out with Matt to meet Ching and Yuan. it was soooo fun! well.. not the first part. we were at First Markham Place, and Matt and i walked around for like 20 minutes locating the place where ching and i said we'd meet. and after 4 calls to her cell i finally reach her and she then told me it was outside. *PAH!!* so we go outside drive around the parking lot looking for her car, finally see her, and then i find out that we have to go pickup yuan! (cuz i thought she picked her up already) so anyways, we drive to Don Mills station, wait a while, look at photos...and about 20 minutes later, yuan shows up. yay! and then we head to pizza hut, eat and talked about all the good stories from china. ching and i had to tell yuan about the ghost hotel cuz she wasn't there with us at that time. and then we started talking about terrence, this reporter dude who was with us a whole day, interviewing us and stuff. that was a good convo, cuz i actually found out stuff i didn't know before. anyways, this outing was also the first time i saw matt actually eat something. like, real food. heh heh... what an experience. lol!! anyways, so then after a loooong time, we finally left and went home.

so yes...about the formal. i'm getting my dress custom made, becuz 1) i can't find anything in my size that i really like, and 2)i'm reaalllyy picky, so..yeah! but i'm not gonna post all the gory details about it here, cuz it's gonna be a surprise. *grin* and yes, i will be accompanied (sp?) but by who? no one knows...

the CCC site Ching gave me. it's our little BIOS from the Root Searching trip. take a look at it, it's pretty good, even though in a couple of places, the info is wrong...hahaha (*note: i'm 17 yrs old)

i'm almost finished reading my book. nooo!! it's so addictive. i stayed up til 2:15am last night reading. *sigh*

so anyways, i was talking with Pat last night, and i asked him *the question* and he was like "meh, it doesn't matter" and i was like "dry..." and he's like "sorry i didn't mean for it to be dry." i think karen's selling a guest ticket. i'll have to ask her. hahaha anyways, then we got into this really intersting convo about friends and when it's time to leave *ahem* , it's time to leave. it made me kinda sad. and then we were talking about his "sai lo" and that's a whole new story. and that's when i got to thinking how much ppl have changed in the past years. like, even myself, u know. so in a way, as natalie and i were talking back in february, it's sort of a good thing debra (one of my best friends in elementary school) didn't change much. i mean, she's such a girly girl, and that's annoying sometimes, but at least i know there are ppl out there who are still true to themselves. not that we aren't, but...u know what i mean. well, i'm writing this post, so I know what i mean.

anywhoo.. i really don't wanna go to First Markham Place tomorrow. that's where i'm meeting Ching and Yuan. it's like, full of FOBs and FOB-like things... *shudder* oh well... i guess i don't really have a choice. i can't make them come all the way down to Scarb. soo..whatever. *yawn*
okay, back to reading...

two more months...well..technically four, but...two more months..and then i'm free.
omg...
after all this time, i guess i can still wait 4 months. i need to leave.
this year's actually going pretty fast. which is a good thing.
why am i even typing this? so pointless.

geez, okay, well, Ching emailed me and we're probably gonna meet up on Saturday. yay something to look foreward to, finally. last night was fun. only Pat and Jon ended up coming over, but we had a good time. the dvd didn't really work so we watched AI instead, but halfway, i had to watch this chinese show which showed clips from my trip to china, so we watched that and then they went home, and pat borrowed the AI dvd so he could finish watching it at home. too bad joanna couldn't join us, but she said next time, so...meh. anyways, hahah i'm complaining to timmy right now about how i'm imprisoned in my house today. i saw him last night when we were driving to get pizza. and now neither of us have access to a car, so we're both imprisoned in our houses.

the book She's Come Undone is really good. sorta like the kind you pick up and can't put down. i need to find more books like that to pass the time. The Disappearing Moon Cafe isn't returned yet, and it's been, what, 3 weeks? 2 weeks? argg... how can someone read so slow?
argg..stupid long weekend. the only good thing about it is i can catch up on my sleep. but other than that, it's stupid. a big waste of time. hmmmmmm...

Ryerson called me today about admisions and stuff, and i told her about my English mark, and she's like "hmm..i don't know. i think you should ask another admissions girl." so now i have to email tihs other Ryerson person and ask her about the possibility of my revoked offer. grr... stupid English.

anyways, i think i've enough ranting. goodbye.

what a crappy day.
career day was okay. we had these two sessions w/ career ppl. i went to the vet session and the psycholigist one. i like the psych one more, cuz the man was fuuunny!
and then we went to this assembly where this other dude talked a lot. and then 2nd period i was soo bored. went to country style with mark to get a drink, then headed back to school, read a bit, then english sucked, then lunch. i was in a pretty bad mood, so i just went home. bleugh...
anyways, i just had math tutor and yeah, i totally don't get related rates. like, what the hell is a related rate?? grrr... stupid math. i hate math.

*sigh* stupid ppl. certain ppl.
talkin' to edward...askin him if he wants to come to JG Night tomorrow and also watch the CIBC show with me, cuz we went to China together, and it'd be cool to watch it with someone who knew what went on and stuff. doo doo doo....

one last quesion: why does everyone ditch me?

ok well for the time being, my blog is messed up, but i'll try to figure out what the problem is and fix it.
ummm... but now i should do some homework, so...can't fix it yet. sorry!

i'm in tech, and im so bored i actually put a guestbook on my blog. i hope it shows up. hmmm...anywhoo... if it does work, plz sign it ppl!
ok back to more time wastin'.

it's wonderful how a nice shower, a sunny day and josh groban helps cheer up bad moods. oh, and a bag of candy. yumm...
i'm so bored now. i need help with math. stupid math.
ok back to reading. yay for reading!

it's very important to visit the university you want to go to. very important. i always knew it was, but didn't really give it serious thought. now i know. after actually visiting Windsor's School of Music yesterday, i was able to compare that one with Laurier's, and let me tell you, there were MANY differences. i think Windosr's music is built around the music therapy program. it's a very small, very old building. lots of student involvement and the people are really friendly. it was a nice set up, how they organized the whole day, with lunch and everything. however, because they spent so much time on that, the music school itsef isn't very professional. it gave me a feeling like they're just hangin' around, playin music, not taking it seriously. the facilities weren't very nice and efficient. it was like, "ah...doesn't matter. at least we have them" u know? Windsor 's had a feeling of hghschool all over again. just...at a different place. on the other hand, Laurier, though not as friendly and student oriented, it was very professional. i could tell that the music students at Laurier were really music students. So even though i talked so much about going to Windsor without another thought, if they accepted me, i'm rethinking.
i also got an acceptance from Dawson College, in Montreal. i actually wanna go there, cuz it's pretty good if you're interested in arts and stuff. but the bad thing is, i have to accept or decline their offer by the 24th of april. and i also have to go and write an english and french test. montreal is 6 hours away.
anyways, i still want to go to Windsor because of the program but i reallly don't like thier building facilities. it's so unprofessional.
i'll have to do a lot of thinking. write out the pros and cons for everything.

btw, my audition sucked like crap cuz the accompanist went too fast and i screwed up. they only gave me 15 minutes to practice with him!! ... stupid Windsor...

moving on... the play last night was awesome although the first half was better, in my opinion. nique always seems to have the good parts, eh? anyways, apparenty liza was supposed to be there but sarah called her and no one was home. ah well... it was fun waiting afterwards when everyone was cleaning. margaret emilia matt kamla remy and i drove to Tim's for coffee, and then to nique's house for the cast party, where i stayed for like 15 minutes and left. drove margaret home first though. it was weird cuz all night i felt like, so weird, and when i got home my mom started yelling at my brother and all that shit. see, this is why i absolutely hate staying home. it's always either my brother being an ass, my mother yelling at someone, or my dad wanting to "talk" but won't ever remember anything cuz he's so absorbed in his work. so yeah... last night i felt like crap, and couldn't sleep. too much thinking goddammit.
oh well...

anyways, that's about it for today's rant. adios.

it's been a long time since i posted, so since everyone's been asking how my audition went i'll post a detailed story of it here, and then everyone can read it.

so on monday i went to first period, and then to the auditorium and practised with Christine. at 11 my mom came and picked us up and off we went to Waterloo. i tried to do some rudiments (theory) in the car, and got Christine to teach me some stuff i forgot, like stupid cadences. but then i learned and i was happy. then christine said she'd do some calculus while i do rudiments but then we fell asleep cuz it was so boring.
then we arrived in Waterloo and we ate lunch at pizza hut and saw lots of university students. we sat near the buffet table so we kept watching ppl go up and get food. it was really funny. we're like, seeing what they'd get, and they have for dessert this berry pie looking thing in a shape of a pizza, and we were watching the woman in the kitchen make it, and she kept giving us evil looks cuz we were laughing and talking so loud. hahah.
anyways, so we got to the music building and kinda got lost a bit, cuz i forgot to bring the paper which tells us where to go, but then we found our way and up we went in the elevator, signed in with the lady at the front desk and went to the place with all the practice rooms. we turned a corner, and i see this guy sitting in a chair who looked really familiar. so i'm thinkin to myself "what? is that Conrad? cooolll...someone i know...hmm..i wonder if Daniel's here too (his brother)" so then i turn another corner and i see his brother, and i call out, and he sees me and we're like, hey what's up, and stuff, cuz i haven't seen him in like 2 years. we used to have to same violin teacher (til i quit) and the same orchestra, so...yeah. and then i thought, oh shit, i have to compete against Daniel...oh man, this sucks. cuz he's an amazzzing player. soo...meh. then christine and i found an empty practice room and practised. it was so crappy cuz the room was freezing and i kept messing up. but the acoustics in the room was really good. and we could hear other ppl from outside, and they were all sooo good. anyways, at 2:30 we went back to the room where i was going to audition and waited for the person before me to finish. and i could hear her play and HOLY SHIT, she sounded professional. when she came out my mom recognised her. she was a student of Ti Zhang, a pretty famous violin dude from Beijing, my old teacher. so i'm like...wow...no wonder. so yea, i went in, played my pieces, but got stopped during each one (cuz it was so horrible). the place i kept messing up on in the practice rooms, i did okay, but i messed up on other places. so...yeah. then they kicked christine out and talked to me. they were asking me stuff like why do u wanna be in this program, do u know guitar (cuz the music therapy program requires you to learn it) and other stuff. and then when i came out Daniel was sitting, waiting, cuz he's after me. so then i was led to this other woman's office for my interview. it went okay. she basically asked me the same questions, but included stuff like, did u volunteer with music stuff and i answered yes, even tho it doesn't really count. i taught zipporah for like, a month. and...yeah. then we just went to the caferteria and i hung out w/ christine. and i also found out that the girl before me, Ti Zhang's student got asked by the auditioner to go back so that he can give her a free lesson. i think he really really liked her playing, otherwise he wouldn't have asked her to go back. *sigh* so anyways, at 4:15, i went back upstaires to do my theory exam. i was in the same elevator as Daniel so we were just making small talk, like "so how was your audition..." stuff like that. and then yeah...the theory exam...omg. there was the intervals and triads part where the guy played these intervals on the piano and we have to write down what they were. i messed up so much on that. stupid intervals. i hate listening excercises. anyway, after that was the easy stuff, except i still don't know what a diatonic chord is. i asked mr. pinhorn the day after, and he doesn't know either. *sigh* ah well... and then after the theory i went back downstaires to join christine and my mom and we went home. my mom was like "should we drive daniel and conrad to the bus station? it's really cold outside" and i said, nah..they're eating! and my mom said, yeah...they're used to being independant. so we left and arrived home at 8pm. then i had to practice Bonnie Doon. *sigh*
btw, speaking of bonnie doon, the performance last night was okay. i messed up at one point, but...meh. who cares. mr. pinhorn was like "can u play for us again at the spring concert?" and of course i said yes. hahahah no...no i can't play for you sorry. lol

aaaaanyways...i'm so screwed for english so i'm gonna stop typing now and read some Hamlet. bye!

what the bloody hell is wrong with my stupid page? grr... after eugene posted on my tagboard it stopped working. it's all his fault!!! *shoots evil looks in eugene's direction*

ok so let me tell you about my eventful day.
i went to art class, where i did more work on my rose. i left, went shopping with my mommy at Markville to look for some prom dresses. at one place, they had a simple pink satiny dress, and that's where i realized the horrible horrible truth: i actually look good in pink. *shiver* but anyways...yeah, i kinda liked that dress, until i went to fairweather, and found another one, which was purple and black, the best two colours in the world. and i liked that one more. but THEN my mom took me to this private formal clothes store, and lemme tell u, there was this one dress that was REALLY nice! it was something like 475$. paahhh... but then the woman there said even if she gave us half price, it would be like 250$, and our budget is max 200$. sooo....we'll see. anywhoo, i also got to eat after 3pm. omg, the final 2 hours were painful. i was soooo hungry. anyways, i ate and then i wasn't hungry anymore.

so yea, i went on eugene's journal website, and found links to some quizzes, which i did, and now i'm gonna post them up.



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why am i posting u ask? why am i not in Windsor?
well, that becuz i found out that my mum called the ppl there and postponed it cuz the weather is really bad. and the highway that we're supposed to drive on is dangerous. a lot of accidents have happened there.
so anyways, yeah, the friggin english exam. what the hell kind of essay was that?! geez... okay, i can't even find the thesis, and it's telling me to find where it's restated. goddammit... i wasted like half an hour on that stupid question. then i rushed all the other questions, and was left with 5 minutes to do part B. i wrote 2 sentences. anyways, i know i failed that exam. goddammit. there goes my ryerson offer. arggg!! so pissed. i left the room and started bawling. literally. i mean, i seriously thought that i wouldn't get accepted, and i actually did, and what's worst than not getting accepted is getting a conditional offer and have that revoked. the only way i can get my mark up now is do phenomenally well in Shakespere for the next two months. and i intend to try my best.
lunch was okay...matt and i talked about some stuff and i guess that made me feel better. at least there's one less thing to worry about. (well, now two, cuz the windsor audition is postponed) anyway, i skipped physics, since i was late anyways, i don't want a detention or anything. (ms. trinh and her detentions for late ppl...grrr...) so i hung out with emilia and matt and then it was music and that was boring, cuz all we did was theory. well, EASY theory (sorry, do i sound stuck up?) and..yeah. and calc really made my day. i found out my average. and yeahhh....i'm failing. dammit. i don't really need math specifically, but i just wanna pass to get the credit, and this mark is gonna pull my average down. so.... meh. and then i went to violin...with christine again, and this time, edith also (a family friend) cuz she wants to see if she likes my teacher, cuz she wants to start again. and...yeah.

anyways, now i feel like i'm free cuz got no homework, and i don't need to waste time eating.
arggg... and my mum just saw the commercial Ching was talking about for our China trip. oh yea, okay, whatever i said previously about the show, forget it. it's confirmed that the show is starting on April 30th at 10:15pm on Channel 36. however, there's a preview about it THIS SUNDAY at 8pm. so...watch it! even if u don't understand what the hell they're talking about! anyways, so...yeah. Ching told me that the commercial showed Nick and Edward writing thier names. (when we went to Shun De, Ching's place) i can't believe i missed it!! arggg!! ah well...oh yea, and about the show, Ken actually wrote to Alice (one of the producers) and found out that him and Peter are the first episode. muahaha! and Ching said that we get to laugh at them first. muahahaha!!

anyways...wow...what a long post. well, i'll stop typing now.

holy shit, i'm sooo fuckin stressed. i totally thought today was wednesday and that the english exam is two days away, but reality hit me when i found out that today is THURSDAY. which means the exam is TOMORROW and i'm heading down to Windsor.
this week is passing waaay too fast.
also feeling the pressure of the audition. especially when i was talking to Pat about it, becuz he knows that i'm pretty damn hard on myself. i was practising it during spare, and it was SO BAD. omg...i bet the Windsor ppl are just gonna be like "we don't even have to write anything. ur not gonna make it. goodbye."

on top of that, things are just generally not going well. too much stress with music and english and shit like that. i think the only good thing that happened today was going out with Frances during spare. just chillin.... trying to do some homework... slipping on ice... spilling hot chocolate on myself (wait...that was bad). heh. anyways... that's it.

hey everyone- the China trip show is actually showing on APRIL 9TH, not April 16th. well, it's also on the 16th, but it starts on the 9th. ummm... it's next Wednesday, and it's on Channel 36, and i don't know the time. lol. ain't that a lot of help? hmmm...one of the ppl who went with me said it's probably at 10pm, but i'm not sure.

when i'm sure, i'll mention it again.

anyways, i'm in tech, and i'm so bored. dunno how to do my work, so blogging. nice, eh? heh heh heh...
anyways, i'm gonna actually try to figure out my stupid drawing...bye!

oh yeah....hahh in spare today i was in MR2, and Mr. Pinhorn came in and i told him about why i had to leave yesterday (without naming any names...but he knew who it was) and we had a cool discussion about loud singing ppl who think they are being nice and helping, but are just annoying the hell outta the ppl around them. and now i have the goddamn Ezekeil song in my head... shut up, i know it's spelt wrong. i don't care.

i would type out all the stuff i wanna type, but i just realized the extent of my tiredness, so i'll just leave it til tomorrow. (Cassia's birthday!!!)
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