the rest of the week wasn't good. well, at least it wasn't worse. my parents made me throw out my ever so useful broken mirror. they're like, "the edge is really sharp! you could get hurt!" i was thinking, 'isn't that the point?!' i think i'll have to break another piece of glass or something, cuz knives don't do the trick. they just make a line.
well, that tuesday night, i felt better...because....i forgot. well, something cheered me up. i think it was the tv. that night i didn't feel like using the mirror anymore, although i did find a better way where it can cut better. and all my cutting lines are gone- except for the one i cutted hard (er) on. but it's barely noticeable, so...that's good.
yesterday was TAP. thank god i went to the library. i began making vocab notes for the bio exam in a week and a bit. i need to start studying. i did math practically all day today. i'm screwed for the recipricols thing. it's sooooo hard!! and then i did some of the stuff we did at the beginning of the year. damn, i sucked at it. forgot everything!
orchestra was okay last night. actually, not really. mr.tam put me all the way back, and i'm sitting by myself. god, i hate my seat!! i HATE it!!! and mr.tam can't conduct! even Gabriel's better than him! actually, gabriel's pretty good at conducting. ok, he's almost as bad as mr.ward! (and that's pretty bad) and bernard didn't come yesterday. *sigh* me, howard and evita were talking, and we're like "no one's here today." and evita's like "yeah, bernard's not here, so that's everybody." lol it's true! bernard's presence is everything! he makes a whole room's mood go up 100%. *smiles* he better come next week!
ok, well, i guess that's all i really have to say.
Tuesday, February 19, 2002
i wrote this looong blog this afternoon about my crappy day, and stupid blogger didn't function, and my post got erased. damn company.
well, i'll try to tell it again, but in as much detail, cuz that'll take forever. and i'd be in a bad mood again.
ok, so this morning, me and carmen were talking about chem and she said she doesn't like it when it's last period, cuz it'll make her day end bad. i told her i'd rather have it last so i won't be mad for the whole day. little did i know that i was foreshadowing my own day...
so...la dee da...we have chem. it started off bad already! we got our binders back, and i got a freakin level 2! wtf?! i spended SO much time on them, and that was all i got. i talked to Bitch (baksi, bitch, what's the difference?) and she said that it was because i didn't have my hmk and stuff. i was sooo mad!!. then she said if i showed her my hmk next day, she'll change my mark. and THEN she teaches this lesson, which i didn't really pay attention to cuz i was taking notes (on our lesson, by another class, which was probably more useful than her blabbing. probably better too) and then we had to do a lab. while we were collecting the chemicals, i took down the attendance, and when i came back my group was already working without me. so i go over, and i stand there. for freakin 10 minutes, they totally ignored me! (well, jen c, and jen yin.) i asked them twice, what are you guys doing, and they ignored me. finally, i had to go on the other side of the working bench RIGHT in front of them. still, they ignored me. after like 3 minutes, jen goes "oh, do you want to try?" i was soooo mad, i could've smacked her right there! arggg...i swear, she pisses me off SO much (jen c) with her attitude. thinks she's the best and sht.
any ways, we leave chem, and i storm out of the class (with carmen of course) and i pack and leave really quick so i can go to volunteering. i go and wait for the bus for a couple minutes, and just as a 85G pulls up, as i walk to it. it leaves! i mean, it just closed the door and left! and blew lots of sand in my face too. i was really pissed off then. i knew i was late for volunteering. the second bus came 15 minutes later. by the time i was on the bus, it was 10 to 4pm. my volunteering ends at 4. at brimley, i don't even wait for the bus, i ran all the way there. time: 6 minutes to 4. i run up the staires, only to find that the room was locked, lights off. i am still trying to catch my breath as i ask the teacher across the hall. she told me to ask office. so i did. the teacher left for volly ball game. i knew she'd be away, but wasn't there a substitute? gawd, i was sooooooo upset, i was almost in tears. all that was filling my mind was the fact that i had let the little girl (whom i tutor) down. i felt soooooo angry at myself. and then i wait outside for my mom to pick me up as she always does, but....she never came. huh. how surprising is that? i waited and waited and waited. finally, i took the bus home. i waited long for the bus, but no brimley bus, so when i started to walk to the shepppard stop instead, a brimley bus whizzes by. i KNEW that would happen. whenever im waiting, buses don't come, when i decide to walk, they come.
well, the only thing that came out of all this was all the time i got while i was waiting. i did a lot of thinking. in english, macbeth says "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, Creeps in this petty place from day to day" meaning everyday's the same, all the same routines. what's the point of living? wake up, school, come home, eat, homeowkr, eat sleep. every single day. even the weekends are like school. art class, every week, tutoring, homework. no change. if my whole life was about school, than is there even a point? are our lives so controlled by the government and our parents, that we have no say in what we want to do with our very own lives?? i don't think that's fair at all.
i hate my brother. i don't have a brother. i have an extremely selfisjh, stubborn, rude boy living in my house. i want to run away.
well, i'll try to tell it again, but in as much detail, cuz that'll take forever. and i'd be in a bad mood again.
ok, so this morning, me and carmen were talking about chem and she said she doesn't like it when it's last period, cuz it'll make her day end bad. i told her i'd rather have it last so i won't be mad for the whole day. little did i know that i was foreshadowing my own day...
so...la dee da...we have chem. it started off bad already! we got our binders back, and i got a freakin level 2! wtf?! i spended SO much time on them, and that was all i got. i talked to Bitch (baksi, bitch, what's the difference?) and she said that it was because i didn't have my hmk and stuff. i was sooo mad!!. then she said if i showed her my hmk next day, she'll change my mark. and THEN she teaches this lesson, which i didn't really pay attention to cuz i was taking notes (on our lesson, by another class, which was probably more useful than her blabbing. probably better too) and then we had to do a lab. while we were collecting the chemicals, i took down the attendance, and when i came back my group was already working without me. so i go over, and i stand there. for freakin 10 minutes, they totally ignored me! (well, jen c, and jen yin.) i asked them twice, what are you guys doing, and they ignored me. finally, i had to go on the other side of the working bench RIGHT in front of them. still, they ignored me. after like 3 minutes, jen goes "oh, do you want to try?" i was soooo mad, i could've smacked her right there! arggg...i swear, she pisses me off SO much (jen c) with her attitude. thinks she's the best and sht.
any ways, we leave chem, and i storm out of the class (with carmen of course) and i pack and leave really quick so i can go to volunteering. i go and wait for the bus for a couple minutes, and just as a 85G pulls up, as i walk to it. it leaves! i mean, it just closed the door and left! and blew lots of sand in my face too. i was really pissed off then. i knew i was late for volunteering. the second bus came 15 minutes later. by the time i was on the bus, it was 10 to 4pm. my volunteering ends at 4. at brimley, i don't even wait for the bus, i ran all the way there. time: 6 minutes to 4. i run up the staires, only to find that the room was locked, lights off. i am still trying to catch my breath as i ask the teacher across the hall. she told me to ask office. so i did. the teacher left for volly ball game. i knew she'd be away, but wasn't there a substitute? gawd, i was sooooooo upset, i was almost in tears. all that was filling my mind was the fact that i had let the little girl (whom i tutor) down. i felt soooooo angry at myself. and then i wait outside for my mom to pick me up as she always does, but....she never came. huh. how surprising is that? i waited and waited and waited. finally, i took the bus home. i waited long for the bus, but no brimley bus, so when i started to walk to the shepppard stop instead, a brimley bus whizzes by. i KNEW that would happen. whenever im waiting, buses don't come, when i decide to walk, they come.
well, the only thing that came out of all this was all the time i got while i was waiting. i did a lot of thinking. in english, macbeth says "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, Creeps in this petty place from day to day" meaning everyday's the same, all the same routines. what's the point of living? wake up, school, come home, eat, homeowkr, eat sleep. every single day. even the weekends are like school. art class, every week, tutoring, homework. no change. if my whole life was about school, than is there even a point? are our lives so controlled by the government and our parents, that we have no say in what we want to do with our very own lives?? i don't think that's fair at all.
i hate my brother. i don't have a brother. i have an extremely selfisjh, stubborn, rude boy living in my house. i want to run away.
Monday, February 18, 2002
well, i'm back from school (3 hours ago) and i've done some blog-reading, and now i'm pretty sure i can think up something to post about.
i didn't really have that good a day in school. everyone's so dead. even me. the math quiz was easy, cept for the last question. IAPS was alrite. we had a presentation done. music was soooooooo fuckin boring. we just practised by ourselves. and then i almost fell asleep in bio. gawd, zipporah is pissing me off SO much now! argg! i mean she didn't literally do ne thing to me, it's just her being there! i know that sounds obsurd and stupid, but it's just this feeling i get.
and then comes lunch. stupid choir. i had to wait 35 minutes, since everyone's still in class. i see pat and shawn, so i go over and hang out with them. and then yutat comes, and scares me half to death! and then he get all freakin annoying and stuff, and that really pissed me off.
well, there's actually more to that, and more ppl who pisses me off, but due to some circumstances, i cannot post it here. so i'll juuuust leave it at that. it was a crappy day.
*thinks*
hmmm...ok this isn't going ne where. i'll just leave now.
i didn't really have that good a day in school. everyone's so dead. even me. the math quiz was easy, cept for the last question. IAPS was alrite. we had a presentation done. music was soooooooo fuckin boring. we just practised by ourselves. and then i almost fell asleep in bio. gawd, zipporah is pissing me off SO much now! argg! i mean she didn't literally do ne thing to me, it's just her being there! i know that sounds obsurd and stupid, but it's just this feeling i get.
and then comes lunch. stupid choir. i had to wait 35 minutes, since everyone's still in class. i see pat and shawn, so i go over and hang out with them. and then yutat comes, and scares me half to death! and then he get all freakin annoying and stuff, and that really pissed me off.
well, there's actually more to that, and more ppl who pisses me off, but due to some circumstances, i cannot post it here. so i'll juuuust leave it at that. it was a crappy day.
*thinks*
hmmm...ok this isn't going ne where. i'll just leave now.
Thursday, February 14, 2002
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
i had a great day! with class starting at 12:15, i was able to sleep til 10! oh yeah!! sleep is good!! each class was 34 minutes. too bad it was an odd number day. oh well, tomorrow will be the same. and it's friday!! whoo hoo!! also, what made my day so good was that mr.caffarata actually taught our class again! *exhales* i HATE that other "teacher". she sucks at teaching!!! omg!! i don't think she was even here today. oh well! music was pretty good. we listened to this new song we're playing ( i don't remember what it's called) and then watched a video of mrs.walsh's Suzuki orchestras. she yougest child was 4 years old!! she plays cello, and it's soooo cute! tee hee! mrs. walsh always refer her hands and bowhold to "little cute baby hands!" lol and then we just talked for the rest of the class. mostly about valentine's day and stuff.
bio was actually not bad, if you don't count the "flowers" thing. ugh! mr.small said flowers are hermaphrodites, so they have both male and female sex organs, so they can *ahem* with themselves. lol and then he's like "so everytime you give someone a flower, you're giving them a sex organ. that probably means that they want to give you their sex organ." omg...and then some ppl in our class was like, "so what are you giving your wife?" and he's like "hmmm...flowers." LOL!!! it was disgusting!!
anyways, anthro was good too! we handed in our report. whew! that's like a load off my back! and....i think that was all my classes. i went to the aci asskickers' hall and hanged out with ppl until classes were over. i had to ask yuen if she taped Mists of Avalon or not, and if i could borow it. she seemed really annoyed and told me maryam was gonna borrow it. stupid yutat didn't tape it for me after he SAID he would. *sniff* oh well...i'll watch it on saturday. it's the second half. but i missed most of the first half anyways! so...*sigh*
orchestra (at school) was so fun today! we actually went through both songs, cept for the first page of Lord of the Dance. man, it was really good! made me want to keep playing! mr.ward thinks i suck. everytime, ppl makes mistakes, he overlooks it, but when i make the teeniest mistake, he bitches at me! he even bitched at me when i didn't make the mistake! bastard. i hate him. thinks he's so good...
mom wants me to quit violin lessons at peter's. too far and stuff. i mean, i really like peter, he's a great teacher, but i agree, it's really far. in etobicoke! so i might take lessons at that music place on Brimley and Sheppard. perhaps i can go on a tuesday, when i finish my volunteering. hmmm....
anyway, i don't really have nething else to say, cept I WANNA WATCH MISTS OF AVALON!!!!
ok bye!
i had a great day! with class starting at 12:15, i was able to sleep til 10! oh yeah!! sleep is good!! each class was 34 minutes. too bad it was an odd number day. oh well, tomorrow will be the same. and it's friday!! whoo hoo!! also, what made my day so good was that mr.caffarata actually taught our class again! *exhales* i HATE that other "teacher". she sucks at teaching!!! omg!! i don't think she was even here today. oh well! music was pretty good. we listened to this new song we're playing ( i don't remember what it's called) and then watched a video of mrs.walsh's Suzuki orchestras. she yougest child was 4 years old!! she plays cello, and it's soooo cute! tee hee! mrs. walsh always refer her hands and bowhold to "little cute baby hands!" lol and then we just talked for the rest of the class. mostly about valentine's day and stuff.
bio was actually not bad, if you don't count the "flowers" thing. ugh! mr.small said flowers are hermaphrodites, so they have both male and female sex organs, so they can *ahem* with themselves. lol and then he's like "so everytime you give someone a flower, you're giving them a sex organ. that probably means that they want to give you their sex organ." omg...and then some ppl in our class was like, "so what are you giving your wife?" and he's like "hmmm...flowers." LOL!!! it was disgusting!!
anyways, anthro was good too! we handed in our report. whew! that's like a load off my back! and....i think that was all my classes. i went to the aci asskickers' hall and hanged out with ppl until classes were over. i had to ask yuen if she taped Mists of Avalon or not, and if i could borow it. she seemed really annoyed and told me maryam was gonna borrow it. stupid yutat didn't tape it for me after he SAID he would. *sniff* oh well...i'll watch it on saturday. it's the second half. but i missed most of the first half anyways! so...*sigh*
orchestra (at school) was so fun today! we actually went through both songs, cept for the first page of Lord of the Dance. man, it was really good! made me want to keep playing! mr.ward thinks i suck. everytime, ppl makes mistakes, he overlooks it, but when i make the teeniest mistake, he bitches at me! he even bitched at me when i didn't make the mistake! bastard. i hate him. thinks he's so good...
mom wants me to quit violin lessons at peter's. too far and stuff. i mean, i really like peter, he's a great teacher, but i agree, it's really far. in etobicoke! so i might take lessons at that music place on Brimley and Sheppard. perhaps i can go on a tuesday, when i finish my volunteering. hmmm....
anyway, i don't really have nething else to say, cept I WANNA WATCH MISTS OF AVALON!!!!
ok bye!
it's 12:24 am and im still doing my stupid IAPS project, which is due tomorrow. dammit! i'm so freakin tired, but i need a break! too much country music stuff going on in my little head.
It's Valentine's Day tomorrow! YAY! i'm so excited, even tho i have no one "special" to spend it with. wait....i do! all my friends! awwww hehehe! there's gonna be a dance, but i doubt i'm going. too tired, man. Market place today. i asked about my science problem. i think i really will have to take gr.11 physics next year. *grumble* i hate it!! i don't want to be in a gr.11 homeform!! stupid new curriculum. i HATE it!!
arggg....i wanna sleeeeepppp....
It's Valentine's Day tomorrow! YAY! i'm so excited, even tho i have no one "special" to spend it with. wait....i do! all my friends! awwww hehehe! there's gonna be a dance, but i doubt i'm going. too tired, man. Market place today. i asked about my science problem. i think i really will have to take gr.11 physics next year. *grumble* i hate it!! i don't want to be in a gr.11 homeform!! stupid new curriculum. i HATE it!!
arggg....i wanna sleeeeepppp....
Monday, February 11, 2002
ohmigosh...i haven't blogged in so friggin long! but then, there's nothing particularly interesting to post about my life. we just had a long weeked. thursday felt like friday, friday felt like saturday, and so on...
i was searching the web (on thursday night) for some stuff about Wicca, after jordan and i had that conversation about witches and stuff, and omg, it's THE most intersting thing EVER!!!! and then they said if you wanna know more about them, read lotsa books, and one of them was Mists of Avalon! omg, and it's gonna be on tv on wednesday! yuen and maryam kept talking about it on the aci asskickers club. im SO getting that book now! hahaha!!
and then there's this freaky guy on my bio text book. he's albino. *shudder* freakyness...so i covered him with a large piece of construction paper.
we (my family and i) went over to mississauga to spend most of the day with denny (my cousin) and his mom and brother yesterday (sunday). it was pretty fun. we went to Square One, and i got the Bif cd from Music World. it was 10$!! hehehe!! im such a good shopper! (yea right)
agincourt singers went to kiwanis today. it was fun! we got first place in both the open class and the A class. ppl said we sucked in the open class one, but i didn't think so. oh well...
but lemme explain about the A class one. ok, so there were these other two groups right? and they SUCKED. especially in Open Thou Mine Eyes. now, it was our turn, and when we were warming up with the lip thrill (is that how its spelled), most of the other two schools laughed at us. even one of the freakin teachers! he tried covering his mouth with a bible. anyways, after, we began to sing Open Thou Mine Eyes, and suddenly, they all stopped laughing, and their jaws dropped. i swear, i was soooo mad, when we finished i was this close to going up to one of them and saying "laugh now, bastard!!" hmph!! even if we did look funny, we're damn good singers, and if you can't act like the age you are, then get the hell out.
whew!
ok, so, lunch was fun- we walked to Eaton center. Christine and Jonathan came too. we had a really good time. at one point, we split up, and me and jon and chris we by ourselves, and we listened the Zhang-ist. or Zhang player. damn, she was soooo good!! i wanted to stand there and listen forever....and ever....but i couldn't. so then we left, and went back to the church and listened to Concert Choir instead. oh well.
when i came back from school, there was this big basket full of oranges and stuff all wrapped beautifully in ribbon. auntie lucy (my next door neighbour) gave it to us! wow...she's so nice!! and the basket was for chinese new year. awww...and she's not even chinese. but i guess she did it cuz we are.
anyways, that's really all that happened. so i'll post more if there's anything else worth posting. ta-ta!
i was searching the web (on thursday night) for some stuff about Wicca, after jordan and i had that conversation about witches and stuff, and omg, it's THE most intersting thing EVER!!!! and then they said if you wanna know more about them, read lotsa books, and one of them was Mists of Avalon! omg, and it's gonna be on tv on wednesday! yuen and maryam kept talking about it on the aci asskickers club. im SO getting that book now! hahaha!!
and then there's this freaky guy on my bio text book. he's albino. *shudder* freakyness...so i covered him with a large piece of construction paper.
we (my family and i) went over to mississauga to spend most of the day with denny (my cousin) and his mom and brother yesterday (sunday). it was pretty fun. we went to Square One, and i got the Bif cd from Music World. it was 10$!! hehehe!! im such a good shopper! (yea right)
agincourt singers went to kiwanis today. it was fun! we got first place in both the open class and the A class. ppl said we sucked in the open class one, but i didn't think so. oh well...
but lemme explain about the A class one. ok, so there were these other two groups right? and they SUCKED. especially in Open Thou Mine Eyes. now, it was our turn, and when we were warming up with the lip thrill (is that how its spelled), most of the other two schools laughed at us. even one of the freakin teachers! he tried covering his mouth with a bible. anyways, after, we began to sing Open Thou Mine Eyes, and suddenly, they all stopped laughing, and their jaws dropped. i swear, i was soooo mad, when we finished i was this close to going up to one of them and saying "laugh now, bastard!!" hmph!! even if we did look funny, we're damn good singers, and if you can't act like the age you are, then get the hell out.
whew!
ok, so, lunch was fun- we walked to Eaton center. Christine and Jonathan came too. we had a really good time. at one point, we split up, and me and jon and chris we by ourselves, and we listened the Zhang-ist. or Zhang player. damn, she was soooo good!! i wanted to stand there and listen forever....and ever....but i couldn't. so then we left, and went back to the church and listened to Concert Choir instead. oh well.
when i came back from school, there was this big basket full of oranges and stuff all wrapped beautifully in ribbon. auntie lucy (my next door neighbour) gave it to us! wow...she's so nice!! and the basket was for chinese new year. awww...and she's not even chinese. but i guess she did it cuz we are.
anyways, that's really all that happened. so i'll post more if there's anything else worth posting. ta-ta!
Wednesday, February 06, 2002
i felt sooo horrible at violin lessons today. oh, man. i didn't really practise, right? so of course i wasn't playing very well for my teacher. in fact, i sucked!! but the thing was, he didn't even yell at me or anything! well, he doesn't yell at anybody, but i mean, gosh!! i was so ashamed of myself, how could he be so nice about it? i think im crazy. my previous teacher yelled way too much, and this teacher is way too nice. well, it's a good thing, but it scares me sometimes. *sigh* so this week, i am determined to practise my ass off!! i mean, my arms...heh heh...
hmmm...i was going to write about school, but i have to recall what i did in school today. i have such a bad memory....oh yeah!! i went to nique's house for lunch today, and i wasn't scared of dakota! whoopie! instead, i was scared of edwin. isn't that silly? he's freaky looking (sorry nique, and whoever likes edwin). anyways, we were eating, and out of nowhere, jordan nudges my leg from under the table! omg! i was so freaked out, i like jumped and bumped my knee!! seriously, i though that was edwin's nose or something. *siiiigh* gave me a heart attack, man!! jordan was laughing so hard, he was crying! and then carmen took the piece of napkin on which he dried his tears and wrote "jordan's tears! aww crying!" or something like that, and told us to frame it. lol she's so funny!
and while we're on the subject of heart attacks, this dude in my english class fell of his chair today while we were watching macbeth! and it wasn't because he lost his balence. u know usually ppl fall off their chairs, they get up really quick and start laughing? well, this guy, he just stayed on the floor! i swear, i thought he was having a seizure! the teacher went over to him and there was this big commotion and stuff, and apparently, he was really dizzy. and...i dunno. he fell off his chair. it was kinda freaky. well, he got sent down to the office, and that was the end of that.
i got my semi formal pictures back!! yayyyyy!!!! im so happy!! most of them turned out alright, but a couple of them (the ones that were not taken by me or jordan) turned out either fuzzy, or the zoom wasn't good enough. argg!! and some ppl had red eye. argg! i hate it when that happens!! jordan and mike- you guys have to get your eyes fixed. lol
hmmm...i talked to that new girl from chem (and math, but we were in chem class at the moment) and she's really quite nice. i didn't say much, cuz i don't really know her that well, but....oh well. im not even sure what her name is. Viva or Vivo or something like that.
anyways, that's all i have to post for today. early dismissal tomorrow! yeah! but then i have vocal, so that sucks. oh well.
hmmm...i was going to write about school, but i have to recall what i did in school today. i have such a bad memory....oh yeah!! i went to nique's house for lunch today, and i wasn't scared of dakota! whoopie! instead, i was scared of edwin. isn't that silly? he's freaky looking (sorry nique, and whoever likes edwin). anyways, we were eating, and out of nowhere, jordan nudges my leg from under the table! omg! i was so freaked out, i like jumped and bumped my knee!! seriously, i though that was edwin's nose or something. *siiiigh* gave me a heart attack, man!! jordan was laughing so hard, he was crying! and then carmen took the piece of napkin on which he dried his tears and wrote "jordan's tears! aww crying!" or something like that, and told us to frame it. lol she's so funny!
and while we're on the subject of heart attacks, this dude in my english class fell of his chair today while we were watching macbeth! and it wasn't because he lost his balence. u know usually ppl fall off their chairs, they get up really quick and start laughing? well, this guy, he just stayed on the floor! i swear, i thought he was having a seizure! the teacher went over to him and there was this big commotion and stuff, and apparently, he was really dizzy. and...i dunno. he fell off his chair. it was kinda freaky. well, he got sent down to the office, and that was the end of that.
i got my semi formal pictures back!! yayyyyy!!!! im so happy!! most of them turned out alright, but a couple of them (the ones that were not taken by me or jordan) turned out either fuzzy, or the zoom wasn't good enough. argg!! and some ppl had red eye. argg! i hate it when that happens!! jordan and mike- you guys have to get your eyes fixed. lol
hmmm...i talked to that new girl from chem (and math, but we were in chem class at the moment) and she's really quite nice. i didn't say much, cuz i don't really know her that well, but....oh well. im not even sure what her name is. Viva or Vivo or something like that.
anyways, that's all i have to post for today. early dismissal tomorrow! yeah! but then i have vocal, so that sucks. oh well.
Tuesday, February 05, 2002
you know, sometimes, you just get up, and you feel awful? that's how i feel right now. and yes, i just got up. i took a nap. i have no idea how i'm going to finish my homework and practise violin. i hate work. i want to just curl up, and....sleep. (were you thinking of the word "die"?)
anyways, nothing really happened today, cept it was nique's birthday! we wrote all these pages of locker paper thingies and decorated her locker, and then some! heh heh...it was fun. i was late for bio. oh well. i hate bio. got so friggin low on my test. *sigh*
me and yvonne had a pretty interesting lunch though. we named some people we thought were "dirty" and "clean". not just the outside appearances, but how they dress and their manners, and stuff like that. it was fun. we were just looking around the caf looking for people who seemed dirty. and we also concluded that almost all girls are clean. boys are too, but there are more dirty boys than there are dirty girls. heh heh...
i still have to get my roll of film from semi. i hate my schedual. no time for anything else fun. *pouts*
oh! that reminds me. two days ago, Christian was online. he's like, never online anymore. and then i said hi to him, and then he replied really quick, and left. really quick. i think he's avoiding me. he still owes me a letter, that bastard. but i don't think im ever gonna get it. oh well... i don't think im ever gonna talk to him again.
anyways, nothing really happened today, cept it was nique's birthday! we wrote all these pages of locker paper thingies and decorated her locker, and then some! heh heh...it was fun. i was late for bio. oh well. i hate bio. got so friggin low on my test. *sigh*
me and yvonne had a pretty interesting lunch though. we named some people we thought were "dirty" and "clean". not just the outside appearances, but how they dress and their manners, and stuff like that. it was fun. we were just looking around the caf looking for people who seemed dirty. and we also concluded that almost all girls are clean. boys are too, but there are more dirty boys than there are dirty girls. heh heh...
i still have to get my roll of film from semi. i hate my schedual. no time for anything else fun. *pouts*
oh! that reminds me. two days ago, Christian was online. he's like, never online anymore. and then i said hi to him, and then he replied really quick, and left. really quick. i think he's avoiding me. he still owes me a letter, that bastard. but i don't think im ever gonna get it. oh well... i don't think im ever gonna talk to him again.
Sunday, February 03, 2002
well, im back and im bored.
before i went, jordan called me, and made me all upset and guilty, but then it's partly my fault, but annnyways, let's not mention it.
sooo....the party: i met a couple of ppl and had lots of fun. sorta. i was bored near the beginning cuz i didn't really know anyone, and the ppl i know weren't really talking and stuff, cept margaret kept hitting ppl with a bouncy ball. that was freakin' annoying, man!!!
carmen had like, jamaican rum and coke, and (i can't believe im saying this) it was actually pretty good!! i swear, she's gonna get me addicted to it. lol
no, don't worry, i will NOT become a drinker.
tee hee! mikey curtsied for my camera! awww!!
and the thing about ********, well, i just hope it's gonna be over on monday. i mean, i was pretty frustrated and mad at her myself, but...well, i controlled it. i felt so bad for carmen and mikey though. i know they were really really mad.
hmmm.....
i wanna finish my roll of film and take it to the developing place!! 16 more shots and im done!!
before i went, jordan called me, and made me all upset and guilty, but then it's partly my fault, but annnyways, let's not mention it.
sooo....the party: i met a couple of ppl and had lots of fun. sorta. i was bored near the beginning cuz i didn't really know anyone, and the ppl i know weren't really talking and stuff, cept margaret kept hitting ppl with a bouncy ball. that was freakin' annoying, man!!!
carmen had like, jamaican rum and coke, and (i can't believe im saying this) it was actually pretty good!! i swear, she's gonna get me addicted to it. lol
no, don't worry, i will NOT become a drinker.
tee hee! mikey curtsied for my camera! awww!!
and the thing about ********, well, i just hope it's gonna be over on monday. i mean, i was pretty frustrated and mad at her myself, but...well, i controlled it. i felt so bad for carmen and mikey though. i know they were really really mad.
hmmm.....
i wanna finish my roll of film and take it to the developing place!! 16 more shots and im done!!
Saturday, February 02, 2002
i apologize for losing my temper last night. but i think i deserve do lose my temper! i haven't done that in a while. nique's party is in 3 hours, and i don't want everyone to think im in a bad mood or whatever. i've talked to my mom about the time issue, and she said she think about it. i have to call her though. sucks. oh well, at least it's better than nothing.
and about the other thing, i'm sorry i said it, but not sorry enough to delete it.
oh anyways.
these ppl are at my house now, and they're staying for dinner, but i get to leave! YAY! there's this littl girl, right? and she's so damn annoying! omg!! she's running arounf my house now, i just wanna slap her ad get her to stay downstaires!! argg!! *exhales* ok i should stop yelling at ppl. lol hmmmm....ok now im gonna go post at the crazies...
and about the other thing, i'm sorry i said it, but not sorry enough to delete it.
oh anyways.
these ppl are at my house now, and they're staying for dinner, but i get to leave! YAY! there's this littl girl, right? and she's so damn annoying! omg!! she's running arounf my house now, i just wanna slap her ad get her to stay downstaires!! argg!! *exhales* ok i should stop yelling at ppl. lol hmmmm....ok now im gonna go post at the crazies...
Friday, February 01, 2002
i have to post. because if i don't i'm gonna go crazy and depressed!
i came back from orchestra, and blah blah blah...i was telling my mom about nique's party. and, i mean, i actually was pretty honest about it with her from the start. u know, about the alcohole and stuff, and before, she let me stay til 11:30, which is alright. i actually wanted to stay til 12 or past, but i am such a goody-good, and im glad that my parent let me go that i agreed. to be honest i wasn't entirely happy, but i'll settle with what i have. and then i was so nice and shit with her, and now, she's making me come home at freakin' 11!!! i am SO pissed!! i mean, i was honest and stuff about it, which i DIDN'T HAVE TO!! but i did because i thought we could discuss it like normal human beings, and not really as parent and kid!! so what's the problem?! God, why can't she just let me go, dammit?! i'm not a kid! i have a life!! which doesn't involves adults!!
ARRGGG!! i wish i were adopted!! they fuckin think im gonna do drugs! what kinda shit is that?! *exasperated sigh* i wanna run away!!
*cries*
and then there's something else. and i won't mention names, in case they might read this, who are SO pissing me off right now! they think they're so good and they can control everyone in the group! what the hell?! so we're the followers now, aren't we?! we don't get any say, huh? arggg!!
and also, it's not like i enjoy being teased, alright? even though i know i'm easy to tease and i tolerate it sometimes, but i have feelings too okay?! and i don't like it when ppl make fun of me 24/7 so cut it out, cuz it's REALLY not so fun.
anyways, i should stop typing, before i lose all my friends.
i came back from orchestra, and blah blah blah...i was telling my mom about nique's party. and, i mean, i actually was pretty honest about it with her from the start. u know, about the alcohole and stuff, and before, she let me stay til 11:30, which is alright. i actually wanted to stay til 12 or past, but i am such a goody-good, and im glad that my parent let me go that i agreed. to be honest i wasn't entirely happy, but i'll settle with what i have. and then i was so nice and shit with her, and now, she's making me come home at freakin' 11!!! i am SO pissed!! i mean, i was honest and stuff about it, which i DIDN'T HAVE TO!! but i did because i thought we could discuss it like normal human beings, and not really as parent and kid!! so what's the problem?! God, why can't she just let me go, dammit?! i'm not a kid! i have a life!! which doesn't involves adults!!
ARRGGG!! i wish i were adopted!! they fuckin think im gonna do drugs! what kinda shit is that?! *exasperated sigh* i wanna run away!!
*cries*
and then there's something else. and i won't mention names, in case they might read this, who are SO pissing me off right now! they think they're so good and they can control everyone in the group! what the hell?! so we're the followers now, aren't we?! we don't get any say, huh? arggg!!
and also, it's not like i enjoy being teased, alright? even though i know i'm easy to tease and i tolerate it sometimes, but i have feelings too okay?! and i don't like it when ppl make fun of me 24/7 so cut it out, cuz it's REALLY not so fun.
anyways, i should stop typing, before i lose all my friends.
TGIF!!
actually, this week went pretty fast. oh well. im glad it's friday after noon. i love friday afternoons. heh heh nothing to do! i have to do get ready for orchestra later. eck! i don't really wanna go that much, but then i do, cuz it feels weird not being involved in an orchestra.
anyways, we had music today, and, well, although i love ms. walsh (as teacher ok?! u guys have dirty minds!!) she does tend to make us feel bad. im sure she's not doing it on purpose, but, all the same. she mentions about her Suzuki orchestra thingy a lot, and it bothers me now cuz she's always like "oh, they're these cute little 4 yr olds and they're playing this concerto and blah blah blah..." i mean, i don't care if they can play like Mozart!!! and she's always talking and stuff, and i'm sitting there thinking 'can we just play, dammit?!' argg so annoying!
maryam visited at lunch. it was such a surprise! cuz i thought she'd never come. anyways, yeah. i didn't talk to her THAT much. everyone was surrounding her. and *that certain person whom i dislike very much* was there, so...yeah. hee hee! so me and yvonne just talked about Rose Red and joked about sending roses (from ACC) to all the different ppl. and teasing patrick about sending roses to ming. lol that was funny! me and yvonne think he likes her, but....i dunno. maybe not.
it's so windy outside. the humungous pine tree in my backyard seems like it's gonna fall down any minute! and it's huge! if it falls, i'm gonna die!
ok, now it's still...hmmm....ok it's getting windy again...lol
anyways, that's pretty much it. can't wait til the party tomorrow!!
actually, this week went pretty fast. oh well. im glad it's friday after noon. i love friday afternoons. heh heh nothing to do! i have to do get ready for orchestra later. eck! i don't really wanna go that much, but then i do, cuz it feels weird not being involved in an orchestra.
anyways, we had music today, and, well, although i love ms. walsh (as teacher ok?! u guys have dirty minds!!) she does tend to make us feel bad. im sure she's not doing it on purpose, but, all the same. she mentions about her Suzuki orchestra thingy a lot, and it bothers me now cuz she's always like "oh, they're these cute little 4 yr olds and they're playing this concerto and blah blah blah..." i mean, i don't care if they can play like Mozart!!! and she's always talking and stuff, and i'm sitting there thinking 'can we just play, dammit?!' argg so annoying!
maryam visited at lunch. it was such a surprise! cuz i thought she'd never come. anyways, yeah. i didn't talk to her THAT much. everyone was surrounding her. and *that certain person whom i dislike very much* was there, so...yeah. hee hee! so me and yvonne just talked about Rose Red and joked about sending roses (from ACC) to all the different ppl. and teasing patrick about sending roses to ming. lol that was funny! me and yvonne think he likes her, but....i dunno. maybe not.
it's so windy outside. the humungous pine tree in my backyard seems like it's gonna fall down any minute! and it's huge! if it falls, i'm gonna die!
ok, now it's still...hmmm....ok it's getting windy again...lol
anyways, that's pretty much it. can't wait til the party tomorrow!!
