no more happy happy joy joy. my life goal in the next 5 years: graduate university, and move out as fast as i can.

hi! well, i am all happy happy joy joy now, because i had a good day! psych was alright, i sat with Natalie (Gabriel's daughter) since some other girl took our seats. it was kind of a boring lesson, but i didn't fall asleep! after that i went to Religions, which is always fun. i like my religion classes. we got our outlines for the essay we have to do. it's due in two weeks. ack! oh well. after that i had lunch with Liz and Peter (cello dude) and tihs other cello dude i don't know his name and another girl, i don't know her either. but yeah...then we went to the concert at noon, which was boring as fuck, i almost fell asleep. then i had a 15 minute lesson with Jeremy. all we did was him write down fingerings on my new concerto piece. and then he had to go. we don't have masterclass tonight, since he left for the northern tour. that's why i'm posting! i came back after my lesson and did like 3 levels of scales in macgamut. then i watched some tv, and then the Romeo and Juliet dvd tracy and i bought. which reminds me, she still owes me money for her's. heh heh. anyways, and now it's like 5:30 and i've still got the whole night to do whatever! well, i think i'm going to do the rest of my religions reading and then a bit more macgamut. at least all the scales, and maybe melody or somethin. anyways, i need to call Chris, a landlord of this house we want to take a look at. if it's nice, we can rent it! fun!
ok anyways, Mel is sorting out our rez-wear stuff. i hope we get something nice! we best, or else!
anyways, uhh...yeah. i'm bored. i should go do work now. ta-ta!

ok. i know i've been ranting a lot lately on my blogs, but now, I AM PISSED. We had another suite talk with my room mates, and a lot of hatred and rant was done, and obviously i don't have a heart to say anything, because, well, mainly, i can safely say that i do think of them as anything close to friends. maybe distant aquaintances will do it. well, honestly, this conversation, i was agreeing with colleen a lot, and as usual, allison was being a downright BITCH. like, holy fuck! i did point out some things that bothered me, but they did not understand my point. colleen said she's never really hung out with girls before, and i totally understand where she's coming from. now, i don't want to direct tihs at anyone, but i know Matt will be reading tihs so, i just want to say, this is the reason why I hang out with so many guys. (most) are so easy to deal with when it comes to problems, and girls in general are just way too complicated. honestly. like, in highschool, besides the huge group of girls i hung out with in gr.9 (mar, yuen, jen, jen, dil, jen yin, ming, hira, niru, etc...), the only girls i've really hung out with were carmen, nique, kate, yvonne, shelby, frances, and karen (but ive known her since elementary school). so yeah... but anyways, i'm going off topic. after our "talk" which a lot of things i didn't even let out, because i only let out to people i'm comfortable with, Allison and Jo were emptying the dishwasher, and Allison says to me "i don't mean to sound like a bitch (yea, whatever allison. you ARE a bitch) but have you ever emptied the dishwasher??" and she used that tone with all the attitude, like she's all good and shit. holy fuck, did i want to slap her.
i honestly can NOT wait til i get out of tihs fucking hellhole of a residence. FUCK!! i am so angry right now, it's not even fuckin funny.

seriously, i hope next year we'll all be able to get along. i'm pretty sure it'll be good, since tracy and i are already pretty similar, with the cleaning and cooking and stuff. i'm quite hopeful about the other three. i'm sure we'll all get along. i've had talks about cleaning to Ian already, so it's just Shannon and Francine, i'm not sure about, but i'm pretty sure it'll all work out.

i hope i NEVER see either Allison or Joanna again after April. seriously.


on a lighter note, i bought a poster from the poster sale today. it cost me $9 + tax. but it's pretty. it's a poster of a white angel, by artist Luis Royo. she's like, evil looking and there's blood dripping down her dress. and there's like a round donut shaped coin looking thing in the background. lemme try to find a picture of it....
ok, it looks like this, only my poster doesn't have the words at the top, it's just black, and the image is enlarged and centered.

it's 20 to 2 in the morning. i just got off the phone with.... who else? the all-knowing, pot-smoking saint. it hurted like a dagger thru my heart. or......an IV thru my hand, which also hurts like a fuckin bitch!

something i realized not too long ago: love is true, just not with the right one. but if you try really really really hard,... it's still not right.
another thing: opposites do attract, but after a while, the magnetivity decreases, thus ultimately NOT attracting. however, they can be stuck together with glue. (or if some of you prefer, duct tape)

you watch soaps and wonder why it's so stupid, yet familiar--> it's just like your life, all twisted and fake. hmm...now there's something to ponder for all those hours you sit there on the couch.

something from Dr.Morgenson:
Characteristics of the wise:
1. Cognitive- aspect of wisdom is ironic
2. Behavioural- caring, acting, love
3. Emotion- empathy, the Greek "empathia" meaning understanding and affection

if something is not done soon, all will be doomed. if i die today, i will not complain, for can someone actually understand a mind so complicated and abstract? Hope was hoped, but it didn't happen.

I rest my case.

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Turret on Saturday? Tracy? Ian? Care to get smashed and cause a reckous? if that is even a word. gimme a fucking phone call y'all and we'll do it right here in WaterLOO (voice goes down, not like Shannon's).

hello fellow readers. how are y'all in Torona and Missssauga and Ottwa and Walkatn?? hahaha the only place i didn't put was Richmond Hill, cuz i forgot how Ian says it. and yea, those are the places where my friends are from (except mississauga). and my friend Ian is from Ottawa, but he likes using this "Ottawa accent" and call them whatever...u know. i just typed them out.
anywhoo. IT IS FUCKING COLD OUT! let me tell you...i went to Tracy's for dinner after sectionals this evening, and i didn't leave til like 9:15pm, cuz i was scared of going outside. well, i did eventually leave, obviously, but i felt bad cuz i had to drag two foot patrols (people who walk you home) with me. mmmmmeeehh! anyways..umm...yeah. so i'm like, really bored now. i have to finish eating this damn oranged before i can go to bed. i really should soon. i have to get up early again. these weeks are going by soooo sllloooowww. like, we've only been in school for two weeks, but it felt like a month! seriously! i guess i'm just working hard and always tired, and plus, i've been sick for like, almost a week now. it totally sucks.

anywhoo... yeah, i don't think i'm gonna finish this orange. it's too dry.

it has been a fucking COLD week so far, and not to mention busy! i'm sick, and super tired. skipped piano on monday. i just went back to rez and took a two hour nap. it was refreshing, and i was deciding whether or not i should skip again, because i'm was actually sick today (still am) but i didn't afterall. Justin did, again. so there were only two people in class. anyway, i walk in and the first thing Rebecca Shantz says to me is "Did you even make an effort to come to class on Monday?" and i was like "uh...no." and she's like "i thought so....cuz i was a couple of minutes late for class." so i'm like "oh. okay." yeah...anyways, i felt like shit all day. i came back after piano at 11, and took an hour and a half nap. i woke up and felt even worse. but i had to meet people for lunch so i left. lunch was fun! Ian was being a meanie "omg! i pulled a Mandy! meaning a told a pointless story!" lol oh well... i'm proud of my pointless stories, so fuck youuu!! *ahem* anywayssssss.... lesson was okay. i think now that i'm actually starting to improve, Jeremy actually has something to teach me! we went a BIT overtime! a first! AND-- i get to play in masterclass on Feb. 10th!! YAY! i'm actually excited because i worked hard on this and i actually don't think i suck! hahah!

i'm watching that Millionaire show, and the guy who's answering questions looks like Josh Groban!! rrrrr! muahahaha i'm only kidding. he's better looking than JG, but there are still similarities. speaking of JG, Pat and i are not going to his concert anymore. the toronto concert was sold out 3 DAYS after it came out on sale! HOLY MUTHA FUCKA!! anyways, i would go to the London concert, but 1) it's probably sold out and 2) i don't wanna go by myself.

anywhoo.... yeah. i can't wait til tihs week is over. i'll be albe to sleep in! for oncccceee. *sigh* remind me next year, do NOT register for 8:30 classes every single day!

umm...i called Grant last night, the landlord for 77 Seagram about renting this place for the next school year. it would be good, if not for the fact that the rent is $485/month/person not including utilities. it fucking SUCKS! Grant said he has other properties nearby, so hopefully, those won't be too expensive. i still need to call the apartment on University Ave. i haven't been able to reach anyone yet. mehmeh. we still have time.

anyways, i've run outta stuff to write about, so i'm gonna stop now. moo-ha-ha. ok bub bye!

so tranquil.... im sitting here in my bed, just chatting and writing in my journal and listening to the Eagles. it's nice...

i have no idea what to post. i had lunch with bernard+family today. quite intersting.
holy crappity do! i'm talking with Mikey nad Kevin, and in both convos, we're making crazy plans! that just might work! CRAZY!!!! religion classes and skiing/snowboarding. begeezes! HA!

anywhoo...i'm too lazy to post this on my xanga tonight. so i will just have to part. anyways, yeah. i'm out. bub bye.

oh yea, i found out that DAvid has Xanga. hmmmmmm.... apparently he found out i have it! probably from Hana's, since i posted something on her site (the reason i got it. damn xanga....) anyways, yeah...that's abouti it.

wow, today was such a great day! well, besides the fact that the 5 of us had to walk so fuckin far to the fuckin house on fuckin Carter St. FUCK! hahaha!!) anyways, yeah, it was COLD!! hahah i slept over at Conrad Hall last night too, it was great! We played a Harry Potter game on Playdstation, and it was so much fun! and then we had a girlie talk about boys! TEE HEE HEE!! Francine's roommate came in and talked with us and she was like "omg, Ian is soooo hot! i saw him bend over, and his arm! woooowwww." and me and francine were like, "yea, he's pretty cute. he's a very good dresser." hahah! and her roommate's like "and you're living with him next year? wow..." and francine's like "yea, you're gonna come visit us like every day!" hahahah ohh...classic.

anyways, so today, at dinner, it was sooooooo much fun! i was at the greyhound bus terminal when my mom called my cell phone telling me that some of my relatives from the U.S are gonna be there too, including my beloved cousins, Hana, Michael and David. awwww... anyways, yea, i had soo much fun talking with everyone, even my uncles and other cousins and stuff. *sigh* i am SO putting pics up in my rez room! yup! tee hee! anyways, at one point, Michael and I went over to Shoppers to get some tums, cuz he wasn't feeling well, and there, i saw Jessica Willingham! aww! i haven't seen her in so long! we chatted a bit, then we left. and...yeah, now i'm here! blogging....muahaha.

Yuen posted in our HP blog saying that Rowan Atkinson is gonna play Voldemort in GoF. Mr. Bean as Voldemort? Hard to imagine. they better pull this one off GOOD!! otherwise, there will be a very angry Mandy.

anyways, that's about it. bub bye.

RRRRRRR!! moo-ha-ha!


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wow...long hard day. and i've been workin' like dooog.
lol just kidding, that's from the Beatles.
but i did have a long tiring day. after Skills, i went to McKittrick's office (my theory teacher) and saw my exam, and...yeah, i failed. anyways, so i was told to go de-register and take it again next year. so i don't have to go to any more theory classes tihs term. so i hike all the fuckin way to the registrar's office, which is like a block and a half! SO COLD!!!!! yeah...then i had to wait in line for half an hour, but it wasn't toooooo bad. when i left, there were at least 80 people in line. no kidding. anyways, after that i walked back to the book store, returned my theory book (59$ back in my bank!) and then......i went to the couches and read religions til like 1:20 (it made me depressed....kinda. not really. lol what am i saying?!), then ate lunch with my usual theory gang. after lunch, we all (except for tracy and mike) went upstaires to listen to the instrumental concerto competition. tracy and mike were listening too, but they were listening to the pianos. so...yeah. everyone was amazing! especially James and laura. James' just blew me away, it was so good! and Melissa's was reallllly good too! after Melissa was the end of the strings section, and almost everyone left! haha! it was hilarious. i was inspired after watching the competition (loooooove the cellists!) so i went to practise for an hour. and now, i'm here.....eating dinner..... waiting for Francine to tell me and Ian whether we can go over and watch movies. we're gonna see the house tomorrow, i'm soooo excited! a house! ha! Mike was saying how he's not going to live with us becuz he's gonna live with his friends whom he knew longer (GEEZ) and Ian was like "Yeah? well i get to live with four beautiful women!" and we all just laughed. someone said it's gonna be four chicks and ian, then shannon (i think) said, "no it's 5 chicks!" HA! we'ew gonna have pillow fights and watch movies and eat popcorn and giggle and run in our underwear! and ian can run in his underwear too! FUN! *giggle!* lol! anywhooooo...yeah...i'm about done here. bub bye!

why...hello fellow readers...
school has been BUSY! i had my first religions class yesterday. it was quite interesting. i only recognized one person is the class of 90+. anyways, our teacher's this man from London, England and he has the cool English accent. then we discussed stuff about the course, evil, suffering, you know. then we took some notes, then my teacher left and this grads student took over. he put us into these groups and stuff, but me and some other people who weren't registered left, and i wrote a note to the teacher and slid it under his office door, and left. it was interesting. i like it so far.
anywhoo, today was SUPER busy! yesterday wasn't actually that busy, i just didn't feel like posting. anyways, TODAY, omg. i went to Skills in the morn, then after, me, Shannon, Francine and Ian went to the housing office to ask about housing, but no information was ready. (Yes we are living together next year, along with Tracy. MUSIC HOUSE!! *ahem*) then i had to go to piano. then after that, i went to sign up a lesson time, then went back to my rez, only to realize that i forgot i had theory, and i booked my lesson during thoery, so i had to go all the way back to Jeremy's office and change it (to 7) then i went to the dining hall, and doodled for about half an hour, waiting for thoery to start. after theory (a class which i never know what's going on and Francine and Shannon are always giggling) we ate lunch, then i went to practise for an hour and a half. during that time Yena came in and wanted me to play for her, so i did, then i went to her room to hear her play. it was long! but good. then i practised some more and went to orchestra. i almost feel asleep, it was boring!! omg. even though operas are cool, i really don't like this piece. damn opera... anyways, i left right when we were let out, wnet back to my rez and tried to take a half hour nap before my lesson. didn't work. oh well. my lesson went pretty well. haha i think i'm getting better! practising pays off. anyways, i'm pretty tired now. gotta sleep earlier. bahh... watching the O.C with Allison.
anywhoo...yes...i need to stop blogging now. staring at the computer sreen makes me tired. bub bye!

-Skills still suck
-damn Rebecca Shantz....piano
-Justin and I were the only ones in piano today. yeah, Justin's in my class! he cut his hair! he has no hair! (or...very little of it. no more curls)
-hahaha McKittrick
-Francine said fuck right in the middle of class. HA!
-more funnies in theory
-no Ian
-failed thoery. fuuuuck
-orchestra...opera. LONG!
-tired.
-tracy came over for dinner. mmmm....delish!!
-so full!! mmm...fudgesicles!
-twins fear factor, ack!
-tracy went home.
-here i am. gotta do homework soon
-fuck allison. whatta beeeeyotch

yay i'm back in waterloo! besides the fact that i am super bored and pretty tired, i'm glad to be back. i think i've told many people this already, but yea...i can't really stand being home for too long, for obvious reasons. i miss being close (or, somewhat close) to my friends, but it's all good.

i'm actually really tired. i could probably go to sleep right now. and it's only 9:40. ahhhhh....
it took me so long to unpack and organize everything once i got back. but i think i'm ready for *gulp* school tomorrow. yay...8:30 class everyday again! can't you just taste the sarcasm? geez.

Kiel's supposed to come up here to talk with us, but he ain't here yet. and we're all tired. argh. Matt's at the bowling alley and everyone else is probably busy. i should take tihs opportunity to take a shower, but i'm feeling pretty lazy right now. i should've brough the copy of DD. i don't feel like reading it online.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuudge. the girl whose room is above mine is blasting her music again. this is so annoying. someone come here and beat her up for me please.
anyways, matt says i should stop saying anyways, but anyways, i think i am actually gonna take my shower now. so ta-ta. have fun in school tomorrow.

yay i'm home! i was just out with Tracy, from school. we went to this "cool" asian hang out place at First Markham Place. the place reminds me of an asian version of Plantations. i had a milk tea. mmmm yummay! but now i'm like, so full, and i feel like barfing.

well, maybe not barfing, but i am pretty full.

i need to print out more blog posts. bah...but i need to install that certain font i print it out in. meh meh meh. Matt's at his cousins house for the weekend so i won't be albe to talkto him til sunday night. ahhh!!

i have decided to start reading the Draco trilogy from the very beginning again. i have stopped reading for so long, i don't really remember all the events and details that happened. like, gosh, i started reading this since grade 10 or 11, and i'm in university now, and i'm STILL reading this trilogy! hard to believe. anyways, i'm in chapter one of Draco Dormiens. hahaha wutever, yo. Harry and Draco aren't turning back to themselves. lol

anyways, i think i've had enough of blogging now. i'm gonna go read Draco Dormiens, if you'll excuse me. ha! alright...i'm out.

last night was soooo much fun! well, at first i was bored outta my mind! i was SO bored, i read my psych textbook. ya, that was how bored i was. and then i called up Karen. made plans to go to Timmy's, so like 20 minutes later (she said she had to change out of her PJs) we drove there, and it was closed! grr... so i was like "now where do we go?" and she was like "Coffee Time?" so we went there and had some food and played around with our cell phones. Karen knows more about my cell phone than i do! she showed me this cool thing i could do with the phonebook, so we played around with that, and when we were done with the settings, she'd call me, to test it out. during one of our testings, Matt called, and it was hilarious, cuz i was like "What? did you call me again?" and she was like, no! so i was like, "omg, it's an actual phone call!" lol we were giggling so much. anywhoo, after that we went to this Asian mall, that new one on Brimley and Sheppard. i've never been to it, so we went in and walked around. i swear, it's just like Pacific, just bigger, and without the street names. we went in this one jewellery store, and looked at rings and i saw this really nice one i liked and Karen was like "i'll get it for you! it'll be your Christmas and birthday present! and just because i love you so much" so..yay! i got a ring! it's pretty!
anyways, after that i drove us both home, and got ready to go to Nique's. i was like the first one there. i helped Damien vacuum. after that, he's like "i seriously can't let you do anymore, just because you're a guest." so yeah...but then some people showed up, namely Mike and Alec, a friend of Damiens. so then we just started talking and stuff, and more people showed up, and Matt called saying he wasn't going to show up, but he did anyways. then Margaret called me 3 times just to ask if Eric was there yet. lol. umm...and Emilia showed up wearing a Chinese kimono dress thingy. anywhoo... yea, Kevin bought a bottle of something called Jack's and i had some with Coke, and it was yummay! i liked it a bit more so than Carmen's Jamaican rum a couple of year's ago. and then i stole a bottle of Mike's Smirnoff Ice (he said i had to pay him back with sexual favours) and a sip of Alec's vodka. that wasn't very good. at 45 seconds before midnight we turned on City TV and counted down then had a huge hug-fest. it was great! so fun! i could feel the love in the room. *AWWWW!!!* lol yes....anyways, i had to be home by 1, so i called a taxi at 12:50 and went home. it felt so good sleeping. well, more so just putting my head on a pillow. Matt called at like, 4:15am ish and said goodnight. awww.. but i wasn't feeling too great. pounding headache. but it's okay. it was nice recieving the call anyways!

today, i went to Matt's place after lunch. (Little Rascals was on tv! so cute!) we just hung out there... ate mint chocolate...played with cats...choked on fur. and Matt gave me the rest of the mint chocolate! YAY! then i went to dinner with family. now i'm just waiting for 9:00 to stroll by so i can watch World Idol!! hahaha yes, i'm a nerd, so what? and besides, i wanna see who wins. best not be the German guy, the Australian guy or the Polish girl!! or else!!
anywhoo...i think that's it fer now. mmm.....mint chocolate....HAOP!!