this weekend was pretty cool. mainly hung out with familiy. sat. night, met up with paul and went to andy ahmed's bday party. it was okaaayyyy.... so weird hanging out with younger people. only people i knew there was andy, paul, chis and nigel (!!). haven't seen nigel in soooo long. we had a deep convo. it was pretty intense. im gonna be his friend/therapist. haha kidding. not therapist. just a good friend. i told paul about javier (i still don't even know if that is the spelling or if it's even his name) but anyway... we also set a date for him to fuckin FINALLY come to loo to visit me. and he said i have to introduce him to javier and see if he's an ass or not. lol i told him that he's super nice. paul's like, ye we'll see. lol. anyway... so yes... um...... i dunno what else to say.
javier is leaving on december 25. fuck. well, i suppose that is good, cuz then i can force myself to get over him. :( fuck i hope he calls me soon. i gave him my number last thursday at caesar's.

anyway.... this is a lame entry. i fel like shit. so im gonna go home and sleep.