the talk with jeremy today after my lesson was intense. and he actually had napkins this time. ones from the dining hall. but yeeeeaaa.... it was really bad. it's our 3rd talk, and this one actually got me kinda angry. some things he said were pretty cold. anyway..... that totally ruined my entire day. so i decided to skip music ed. even though i adore my prof to death, she's is the best fucking teacher ever! but yeah.... didn't want to deal with all that. so i took a little trip to dt kitchener. good times. and some bleeding on the way back.

last night's party at Kat's was pretty awesome. good times to be had :) Dan Rayney and i had an intense conversation about working at the rude native. hahaha good ol'e Dan. i miss hearing him play in the dining hall.

anyway, i seriously am anxious about work on wednesday. i hope Jay comes and visits me so i can harass him about not calling me. :) just kidding... but really, i can't wait. i mean... i don't even know if he is coming, but i hope he does, since i told Kelly that i work wednesdays and fridays, and i'm guessing that she told him. ahhh.... this is distracting. this is why i don't like having such relationships during school. it fucks with your mind and you lose sleep over it and your grades go down.

anywhoo...... yeah..... okay, i'm gonna go now.

a really really horrible night is almost always followed by a really really awesome night.

tonight was defiantely an awesome night.

it must be the heavens doing its magic.

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Halloween party at Kat's tomorrow!!!


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edit: damn, that is one intense xanga site

so i was reading Owen's xanga, and he posted something about ACI alumni forum. so for the hell of it, i went there to check it out. and i found out that their Christmas concert is on Dec.7th this year. i'm contemplating emailing Lummy and asking him if i could play in the orchestra just for fun. i miss highschool. they were such good times.

so...... should i? what if he cruelly rejects me? i'd be so embarassed.

i'm coming back for an afternoon this weekend!! yaaayyyy i am excited. i get to go to art class! but i am still going to miss Nique's party. i really wanted a raga with Damien, Nique, and Elliot. :( boourns. and i need to get my costume this weekend as well. another trip to value village? yes, please.

anyway.... i need to get back to studying... i'm going to see if i can pull an all nighter. it is currently 3:50am. 5 more hours to go!

i feel better now
yay it's thursday! which means tomorrow is friday! yay!

what a night....
really.
first with Sam... then the thing that me and Ginger conversed about. i went into the Rude this afternoon and asked Ginger if i could still take the day off if Sam couldn't take my shift, and she pretty much said no. and Sam can't take my shift. argh.

i am actually a bit homesick (really doesn't happen often) and i called home to tell my dad i can't go home this weekend after all, even though i've been planning it for almost a month. and he said he would drive me back on saturday to work. *smiles*

and then the thing with music.
i really don't understand. and i'm thinking psych terminology again.
it's okay, you can repress it. or project it subconsciously. it is so blatently clear. well....... anyway.

i really like talking to people who took psych. cuz they actually know how to make you feel better. love our deep convos, THANKS FRAN!!! much love. <3

so i faileded my history exam. so not impressed. ugh.... i went to see sanotuosso today and she was actually somewhat nice. but she made me feel really stupid by telling me i should form a study group with smart people in the class, and then looked at her class list with everyone's marks, and naming certain people who had really good marks on their exams. yeah, anyways.... i talked to lorrina about it, cuz apparently she did well on her exam, and lorrina said she will show me how she studies and stuff. yay.

went to wilf's with geoff tonight. it was fun. we listened to craig and his roomie play music. that was cool. then we went to the practise rooms and hung out for two hours. i met a first year guitar guy. he is le HOT. me geoff and aurora sat in his room and listened to him play for us. it was fun! he really is quite talented. and he wants to do music therapy! awwwww....

okay, anyway... enough about that. going with tim to get pierced tomorrow. yay- i've never actually been WITH someone for their piercing. it has always been someone going with me for mine. so it'll be interesting.

anywhoo... i'm spent. g'night.

edit: oh yeah... while i was hanging out in the practise rooms, i saw darryl cremaso, the guy who kinda help mark our history exams and was kinda supervising our exam. and i told him that i didn't pass. and he looked really surpised and apologized. (we had a conversation about the level of difficulty the exam was right after i wrote it) haha... oh darryl.

i am REALLY glad that the history midterm and the skills sight singing is over. paahhh.. history was meh. i mean... it was hard, but it wasn't THAT hard.... except the short answer questions molested me. that was hard. i mean... opera seria? bach chorale? i didn't study in that much depth. anyway... it's done. i practised skills for literally one night, and i think i did okay this morning. yay, go me!

i was just hanging out with fran and beth, it was good times. i havent really hung out with people like that in a while, just walking around campus, talking and stuff. except they started dissing strings people again. like, what the hell? ugh... i didn't appreciate beth's discriminatory comments against violinists. but she said that i was an exception. that didn't help much.
i stil love her though. yay bethany!

anywhoo... yeah, i really need to get some work done.

orchestra concert was amazing. it made me sad that i couldn't be in it. the Franck gave me shivers throughout, it was that good. Lucas was HOT today. i even told him, both sober and drunk (at the huether). haha

huether's was awesome! i really miss hanging out with my strings people. tim came! yay! it was fun hanging out with ihm. i am drunk. it's great! :) i love my strings people. can't wait til Kat's haloween party, yayyyy!

in light of the upcoming music history midterm, i made this hot banner:



dedicated to all y'all music nerds who's in history, or was.

one thing that seriously pisses me off: people who are late. like fuck... if you're not going to arrive at the time you say you are going to, then don't tell me you are coming at that time!!! because i'm going to be expecting you at that time and you're not here and it just messes everything up! i work based on a schedule, so fucking just follow it! god fucking dammit!

what if it's an important meeting or something? you can't do that! argh! and not like i have all day waiting for you. who do you think you are?! ugh...

people like that disgust me.

santosuosso's great at putting people down and crushing them.
she did me in about 5 seconds.

i went to collingwood yeterday with a bunch of people. it was prety fun. we went to the scenic caves place. well, i went there twice before, but they have this new suspension bridge now, so i went on that. it was le fun.

anyway, i'll finish this later.... i gotta go.

soo... i'm sick. damn cold. *cough cough* ow, my throat.
back in TO.
gosh, i'm such a nurd... first thing i did when i got home was to pull out my research methods assignment and do it. i'm pretty much done, except for like two questions; one in which we haven't learned the lesson yet, and the other takes too long and my brain can't take that much math at 1am. i showed my mom my assignment, and she found out that i did this one question wrong. i didn't multiply the fractions properly. i totally forgot how to mulitply fractions!! omg... how embarassing. i got a good laugh out of it though.

anyway... my mom is making cheescake right now. mmm... it smells delish.
speaking of cheescake, i was working at the Rude on thursday, and i got to try the banana phyllo and the key lime pie. oh my god.... soooooo good! mmmmmm....

so party at nique's on sunday! i can't wait!! i'm sooo excited about seeing nique, mikey, smitty, and whoever else! yaaaaayyyy!! :) and i'm going leaf-watching tomorrow. take some hot pictures with my hot camera. it's gonna be a good weekend.

it's been a generally pretty shitty couple of days... except saturday morning when catherine and i went to the market-- that was fuckin awesome!! grocery store groceries are so crappy compared to the fruits, vegetables, bakeries and meat stands at st. jacob. i bought the freshest groceries i've seriously ever seen in my life! and catherine bought a cool pair of shoes and me a little purse-y bag as well. kudos. heh

but yeah... besides that trip, it was pretty shitty. work fuckin sucked. it was really busy and i probably made a lot of money, but it was also very frustrating and stressful. on saturday's shift, i was in charge of the wait list, and ginger kept critisizing me about taking down descriptions... after she came back from having a smoke-- in the middle of the rush. it was really really not cool. i was pretty pissed off at her, and she could tell. but when i finished my shift and everything, we had a talk, and made up. that was nice. kinda... anyway, i'm just glad i wasn't scheduled at all for the upcoming weekend. being thanksgiving and all.

im a bit (just a bit) anxious about going back to TO. i miss my scarbro friends and eating good food (although i had awesome dinner last night and lunch today, from market groceries). but yeah... we'll see how it goes. oh, i still have to get mikey and carmen's presents cuz it's their birthday on monday. yaayyy

i feel like chilling and watching a movie. but i have so much reading to catch up on. bah. i'll do the right thing. after a shower.

outtie.