wow... life sucks now.
other than getting trashed last night with my Rude gang and dancing with michelle at elements (it was her bday), everything seems to be going downhill. so warren just backed out on his promise of coming to taste of the danforth with me. ugh.... i fuckin knew he'd do something like that. god fuckin dammit. i hate when he does that. argh... just fuckin tell me you can't do it when i first asked! it's not that fuckin hard! argh....

anyway... yeah.... my exam yesterday.... meh. it was a bit better than i thought it would be, but i swear, i think my memory's slipping. it's terrible. and sleeping 4 hours the night before probably didn't help. ah well. at least it's done. well i called my mom after my exam, and she got all pissed off at me, as usual. i don't know why i even called. i knew it was coming. ah well. such is the story of my life. anyway... i went out for a breather after that. it was relaxing. i bought a new doorknob for my room, cuz the girl who had my room before me took it.

work was utterly boring.
it kinda sucked that it was dave's last shift, and heidi placed him upstaires. throughout his whole shift, he had no tables. what a waste of time. i hate heidi.
anyway... yeah... i got cut, went home, had a deep convo with fran, and then went back to drink with people. it was fun. :) i was kinda disappointed that nathan didn't come to elements with me and michelle. ah well.

anyways.... this post is really boring. i only wanted to complain about warren. i'm done.

**

edit: still thinking about me and fran's deep convo last night. god.... deep convos make me depressed. i have problems. i need therapy.

last night at pete's was really fun! when i got there, it was only me pete nate dave and this other guy, so we were playing cards til these girls who worked lunch shifts at the rude showed up, and i didn't know them. but they were alright. lots of people cmae after work too, so it was nice seeing them all. even heidi showed up. *tug at collar*... omg... the amount of heidi conversations was pretty funny. heidi left after like 15 minutes though, probably cuz no one was talking to her. hahaha! oh well. i think nate and laura talked about her the most, it was really funny. but seriously... they were going on and no about her for hours. heh heh... and her and her "baby" whom will never be born. lol oh man... classic.
oh! and last night i found out that fisher's real name is actually lisa! i never knew that! apparently fisher is her last name. but everyone just calls her fisher. then she told me this long story about one of the kitchen guys found out that her name was lisa, and asked all the kitchen people if a lisa worked there, and they were all like, "no, no lisa works at the rude." and he (i think it was nate, but i'm not sure) was like, "are u suuuure?" and then they all found out that it was actually fisher. haha..

yeah, anyways, i need to study.

ok i think i've deserted this place long enough... *shifty eyes*...
today's pete's birthday. pete is the chef at the rude native. i guess im not gonna go to his party, because last night i was at dave's house (dave is a server) and i told him i'd call him before i went but he isn't picking up his phone. so... meh! no big deal. last night at dave's was actually fun, even though we didn't do anything in particular except drink south african wine and look at photos. ryan drove the three of us after work, cuz work was le tiring. but we got a free shot of something yummy. :) and tim louis played! yay. anywhoo... ryan left after his smoke and after chatting for a bit after he left, i cabbed home.

i really want to write a review for HBP, but i finished that book so friggin long ago that it doesn't seem important anymore. and besides i want to read other people's reviews first. and i can't find any. (*hint* Mar-bear *hint*) i've started reading it the second time, but i can't really get any further because to be honest, i dont want to go through all that horror again. it's way too stressful and intense. so i'll give it a couple weeks. in the meantime, i should continue reading the book my roommate lent me. i'm on the second book of the series, and the beginning is really really boring. oh well...

Anyway, the american idol concert was fuckin AWESOME. everyone was soooo good. <3 MIRACLE BOY! <3 tee hee! he was hot! constantine was sexay! and he sang bohemian rhapsody! i love consty's version of it. so fucking good! scott sang a duet with jessica sierra, and that was surprisingly really really well done! but scott's own solos suck. i hate him. nadia was good. she had energy, but everyone did. miracle boy actually SANG well! i know... lol
ok, bo bice was fuckin awesome. his tattoo was fully revealed. ahhhh so sexay! lol... i was kinda disappointed that he didn't sing his a capella piece. that would've brought tears to my eyes. ah well. carrie was good. but all she sang were country songs. she even talked with a twangy accent. ugh... she pisses me off. all in all though, i had an awesome time, and i met some really nice people. it was unfortunate that dan (kip) and ruth couldn't come with me. ah well.

anyway... dave actually just called me back, and i'm going to pete's tonight. yiay! as much as schizophrenia excites me, i need a break from studying.
anyway... i'm outtie.

i'm at Fran/Bethany's right now. nice waste of a day. so much for studying. anyway... Fran is cleaning out the bathroom right now, cuz Beth left it sooo messy. we also cleaned the kitchen for her. I can't wait til we watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, i'm le excited! we had an exciting day today. ha. we watched mens diving world championships today. it was awesome! i love watching diving. this one russian dude, his name was Gleb. we made fun of him, cuz really... who names their son Gleb?

I really really need to do an American Idol review, and a HBP review, but i really don't feel like sitting in front of my laptop for an hour typing. so.... maybe tomorrow........ or something.

ok i'm done.

Half Blood Prince spoilers ahead! read at your own risk! (there's more after the spoilers, keep scrolling)








so i went to chapters today and read 5 chapters of HBP. first chapter sucked. but that's probably because i didn't get into it yet. didn't really know how the conversation with the prime minister fit in. and right away i could tell it's very dark. especially when harry goes to the burrow, and arthur and molly have to ask each other questions to prove that it's them before entering their own house. it seems a lot more differnt than the other past 5 books. i can't really put my finger on what it is, but...it's different. maybe the way it's written. but i'm glad that the new minister of magic isn't arthur weasley or dumbledore. can't stand reading fan fics, only to have them be true. anyway.... so i guess horace (i forgot his last name) is gonna be the new DADA prof, eh? hmm... i don't really know what to think of him yet. it's still too early to tell. and what's this with snape spying and pretending to be "good"?? that was quite the shocker. well, i sort of had a feeling he wasn't a complete angel anyway. and i didn't know bellatrix and narcissa were sisters. i thought they were cousins or something. hmmm... narcissa lestrange? nice name. and i don't know what narcissa was so worried about draco for. she seemed weak. maybe i should check the ending to OoTP again. or they'll say it later in the book. hm. anyway....that's my review so far.

***

didn't get to go to the book opening. friday was SO fuckin stressful at work. i don't want to get into it again. but believe me, it was definately not fun. finished at 11:50... i wouldn't have made it in time, so whatever. i just hung out on the patio with michelle, andrew and sebastian. good times. but not really. meh. finally got paid yesterday. about damn time. now the bitch just owes me the cheque from when i first started. gotta keep reminding her. that lazy bitch, seriously. worked with rio last night. we actually didn't get on each other's nerves, for once. but her and andrea (the bartender) were talking about robbie behind his back after he told me to tell her to get to work. *rolls eyes*... anyway...

american idol concert in 3 days! i can't believe i am actually going to see miracle boy in real life! he's my hero! i <3 him! lol... i made another miracle boy wallpaper yesterday. it's le hot. heh heh...

anyway... i have nothing else interesting to post, so...i'm outtie.

stole this from garreck, cuz i'm bored and i'm bitter.
***

1. Kindergarten Teachers name: mrs. brethur... or however the hell u spell her name.
2. Last person you kissed: craig...on the cheek.
3. Last word you said: thanks (i was paying my bill at the rude native)
4. Last song you sang: who the hell cares
5. Last person you hugged: laura...bumped into her this morning at the mall
6. Last thing you laughed at: michelle, at work tonight. she's entertaining
8. What's in your CD player: tim louis
9. What socks are you wearing: none
10. What's under your bed: dust, a duffle bag, random crap
12. Current taste: tim louis's music
13. Current hair style: i don't know...
14. Current clothes: now i am wearing nada, cuz it's hot and i'm home alone.
15. Current Job: hostess at the rude native
16. Current longing: a paycheque or two... or three (stupid manager)
17. Current desktop picture: miracle boy
18. Current worry: my paycheques
19. Current hate: heidi
21. Current favorite article of clothing: backless halter, and black skirt
22. Favorite feature(s) of the opposite sex: hair, smile, personality
23. Last CD that you bought: tim louis- til it be tomorrow
24. Favorite place to be: among friends
25. Worst place to be: hmmm....
26. Time you wake up in the morning: currently around 11:30
27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: cello
29. Current favorite word/saying: that's so loving
30. Favorite book: harry potter series
31. Favorite Movie: the sound of music... and others
32. Favorite band and song: too many
35. Favorite day: when i'm out chillin with friends
36. Where do you want to go: not school, that's for sure
37. What is your career going to be: music therapist
39. What kind of car will you have: who cares
42. Eye Color: Brown
43. Hair Color: dk brown
44. Righty or Lefty: lefty
45. Zodiac sign: leo
46. Innie or Outtie: innie, but really, who cares. it's a goddamn belly button.

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: i'm not even gonna answer that.
48: Shoes you wore today: sandals, and boots at work
49. Your hair: is tied up
50. Your weakness: too many
51. Your fears: that's for me to know
52. Your hopes: world peace
53. Your most recent secret: i had an orgy in my house. ha. ha. ha. *rolls eyes*
54. Your thoughts first waking up: i wanna keep sleeping
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair, smile, and clothes
56. Your bedtime: whenever i'm tired
57. Your most missed friend: i don't miss anyone
58. Your perfect pizza: the regular... as long as it's yummy and there's dipping sauce
59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: depends on my mood
60. Single or group dates: single
61. Dogs or Cats: cats
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both?
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
64. Cappuccino or Frappuccino: cappuccino
65. Smoke: hmm.... right....
66. Curse: fuck yeah
67. Sing: i suck at it, but i'm taking vocal techniques! yay
68. Take a shower everyday: yeah... sweaty at work sucks
69. Have a crush: not really
71. Think you've been in love: yes
72. Want to go to college: no
73. Want more than what you’ve got: depends on what
74. Want to get married: eventually
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: no
76. Think you're attractive: no, but some people think i am and buy me drinks. i don't complain.
77. Think you’re a health freak: sometimes
78. Get along with your parents: hmmmmmmm....
79. Play an instrument: yes.


IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
80. Drink: yes. i did drink last year.
81. Smoke: hmm.... yeeees?
82. Done a drug: errr...
83. Made Out: yea
84. Go on a date: no. guys are assholes
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
86. Eaten sushi: yes
87. Been dumped: no
88. Made homemade cookies: no
89. Been in love: no
90. Gone skinny dipping: no
91. Dyed your hair: no
92. Stolen anything: no


HAVE YOU EVER...
93. Had too much to drink: yes
94. Been caught cheating: no
95. Been called a tease: yes
96. Gotten beaten up: oh yea, loads of times
97. Changed who you were to fit in: similar to dressing for the occasion (what garreck said)
98. Cried at something beautiful: oh yeah
99. Spent too much money on something you didn’t need: hmm... probably
100. Cried when someone died: yes

yay, i'm officially registered! i still need one more elective though... if i find one interesting enough. otherwise, forget it. i got into vocal techniques!!! YES!!! i'm so happy. i hope i get into trumpet/horn techniques. that class is full, but i'm gonna email the prof and ask if i can be in it anyways. and my dilemma between taking orchestra vs. choir..... i've decided on choir. :( not too happy about that, but... marks are more important at this point. i'm sacrificing my "cult".. boourns.

anywhoo... yesterday at work, i met the new server, rory. yes his name is rory. *tug at collar*... he is a weird one. he can be nice, but.... i dunno.... he's a bit full of himself. anyway... chillin on the patio again was fun times. rory and ginger left, and a bunch of us went to duke's. yayyy.. even chris came. he's this cool dishwasher guy who works there. robbie was telling me that one time he was hosting and chris was punching out his time after his shift, and these two customers were talking about how chris has a disability or whatever.. i don't remember.. but then robbie went up to them and literally said "shut the fuck up"... and apparently heidi (the manager) saw him go up to them and tell them to shut up, and she was like "good for you for telling them off". honestly... when robbie told me that, i was so shocked. argh! who the fuck cares what he looks like? he's so nice and such an awesome person to hang out with, AND he's a damn hard worker. ugh... people like that piss me off. but anyway! back to last night.... so yea, chris and i had a cool convo at duke's, and found out that we live close to each other as well! yeah! so me him robbie and nate were gonna all walk home together, but this girl i met on monday showed up and offered us a ride home, but i didn't wanna ditch them, so robbie took the ride, and me chris (who had his bike) and nate walked home. good fun.

AI concert in 6 days (miracle boy!!), and Half Blood Prince TOMORROW AT MIDIGHT!!! PAR-TAAAAYYYY!!!!

last night was fun! jamming was awesome, even though i was nervous as hell at first. tim was very cool about everything. he let me play whenever i wanted. i got an introduction and everything! *grin* there was this trumpet player man too, and a guitarist, and a couple of singers. they were awesome. one of them was laura sinclair's friend *tug at collar*... nah, she was really nice. craig brought his guitar in, but he didn't play anything. and laura kept making me drinks. haha.. well, she only made me two. and fisher made me a shooter, which was really yummay. haha.. i met lots of people last night. some of them scared me though. i started talking to sonya cuz they were scaring me. sonya laughed at me. hee hee... i bought tim's cd too. well... technically i haven't bought it yet, cuz i didn't pay him yet, but i will next time i see him. after the last song, tim and rich (the trumpet dude) and some other people were cleaning up, and the rest of us were just chillin.. it was really fun. nate (one of the kitchen guys) kept pushing us to leave cuz we were all gonna go to duke's. but when we actually got there, they were closing, so we went to failte's instead. i've never been there before so it was cool. actually, it was fuckin hot in there. holy shiate. tim and fisher showed up a while later, after they closed everything. and laura told me about her friend who's a cellist, and she wanted the three of us to play something sometime (she plays piany) so now i'm excited about that! yaayyy!

anywhoo.... janice isn't in her office today, so i can't do course selections til tomorrow. fuckin sucks... argh. oh well. just gonna relax and listen to tim's cd. it's super good. good to dance to, or just mellow out to. mmm....

i'm in the CAI lab right now because i need air condition. it's so damn hot outside.
and sarah's home. but that's not why i'm here.

last night at mongolian was actually fun. craig's awesome. :)

playing with tim tonight at the rude native. ahhh... i'm so nervous. it's gonna be so intimidating. but i gotta do it. get over the stage fright. and besides, tim's not the kind of person who would purposly intimidate someone. :)

gotta start studying for psych again. yay. i can't wait.

moving on...

i'm bored.

maybe i'll practise....... or something.

last night at the rude native was super dead. but it was awesome because almost all of us were cut early, so we were all chillin on the patio, drinking and eating and talking. it was sooo much fun! i haven't really hung out with them before, especially sam.. i haven't even worked with her since the first day she was there. heh.. and yesterday, tim louis played at the rude native, after playing at the jazz festival. he's a cool guy, and so talented! he played this song that ginger (a server) requested, and it's soooo funny. it's about god and smoking weed ...hahaha! i almost died... oh man... seriously, i'm gonna make carmen come visit one time he's here and make him sing her that song. hah! and tomorrow at open mic night, i'm gonna jam with him! YAY!!! i'm trying to convince bethany to come. she was telling me how she's scared cuz she's never improvised before, so we're having a jam session today. yay! and then tim stopped playing for a bit and drank outside with us, and while he was chillin with us, craig, the bartender, took his place, and started entertaining us. and he is actually really good too! so yeah... it was so much fun last night! michelle, this server there, is hilarious. she was telling us these random stories about her getting electricuted by an electric fly swatter. haha! and robbie lives down the street from me! so when i'm bored i'm gonna call him up and chill at his place. yaayyy... and then sam drove me and robbie home. it was awesome... the host group. hee hee!

you know what kinda sucks? that dan rayney doesn't work at the rude native anymore. we coulda been rude native pals AND music pals!! aww... robbie was telling us last night about the one open mic jam session with dan, craig, craig's roommate and tim.. and apparently, it was the best one ever. awww... *heart*

anywhoo... i'm gonna go... do something productive now.

back in loo.... *sigh of relief*

last night's street fest with kamla was le fun! les girafes was awesome.... for the first half hour. after that, it was just a bit too much. it just didn't end!! anyways... great big sea was awsome. celtic music is fun! kamla and i danced! it was fun. broken social scene played after les girafes.. they were actually pretty good, but kamla and i, being tiny people, got squashed and blocked by tall people. ah well...

it was a shame warren didn't want me to chill with him. well... his loss. i had fun nonetheless.

yay for working tonight! yay for getting paid!

wow, i really hate justin.
no kidding

thanks to this reminder that he is still around.


**
edit: nothing ever changes in this damn house. argh. looking forward to friday.

work has been busy, but my four days are done! whoo hoo! so now i'm in scarbro again because seriously, i have nothing to do in w-loo.

saturday night was fun. after i came home from work (in which i closed for robbie), i found my roommate and his friend brad (whom i've met once before) chillin in our living room drinking. bryon asked if i wanted to go to phil's with them, and since i already declined last time, and i have nothing better to do, i agreed. so after another beer for them, and dinner (tuna sandwich!) for me, we walked over to phil's. it was really intereseting, how that place is set up. oh! and the best part was that cover fee was 5$ and i didn't have to pay it!! i was gonna hand my 5$ over to the dude, and he's like, "oh, no, you don't have to pay".. so i asked why? and he said something about girls getting in for free or something like that, i don't remember. so i'm like, okay! and then brad goes to me "it's just probably cuz you're hot". hahaha! aaaanyways... oh, and i saw pet shop boy!! it's just this guy who works at the pet shop at conestoga mall. apparently, he's a regular and his name is brad also. i didn't talk to him though, because he doesn't know me. hehe.. anyways... then brad saw a bunch of these girls, and one of them starts making out with him while another is trying to take pictures of them making out. me and bryon are just standing there like, okaay.... doo doo doo.... hahaha and finally after like 10 minutes he introduces us. lol... geez.. and then bryon sees people that he knows, and whatnot... the 3 of us get drinks... dance a bit.. talk to those girls... they leave... we dance some more.. hang around and talk... did a tequila shot each (cuz it's brad's birthday)... dance some more. i convinced bryon to dance with the pole!! yaayyy! pole dancing was fun. he is one hot dancer, let me tell ya! he's just itchin' to grind with a hot random. lol... oh! speaking of randoms... while we were on the dancefloor (before the tequilas) out of nowhere, this brown guy behind me pokes me in the back a couple times, so i turned around, and he's like "wanna dance?" and i kinda got scared, because i'm picky with my randoms now, and he was sketchy looking, so i'm like "um.. no thanks." and then we walked away... ha. *shrug* he was narsty.. and a loner. and then me and bryon saw this one guy who was dancing with these 4 girls, getting them drinks and just u know.... that stuff. we thought he was just their drink whore, but when we got kicked out (apparently, a fight broke out, and we were all kicked out), he was walking away with the girls still!! holy shite! so yea... we were outside phil's, and there's like ALL these people, and brad went off to bum a cigarette, and me and bryon see that guy with the 4 girls stnading a bit further down, so we made up some excuse to go up to them and start talking, since bryon was so flabberghasted that the 4 girls are still hanging around him, and he wanted to know how he did it. so we went up to them and started asking them about the fight in phil's. it really didn't take much to get them talking. lol... this tiny girl(seriously, even i was taller than her!) just started blabbering away to me. it was kinda annoying, really, but oh well. after a few minutes we dragged brad away, and went to get some pizza, but this one guy in front of us just took two slices and ran out the door. we were like, wtf.... and the owners looked so pissed off. so we decided to just cook food at home and pop in a movie. so we got home and my awesome roommate made all of us pasta. it was delish! but 15 minutes into the movie, damn bryon declared that he was exhausted, and went to bed. ugh... anyways, so he ditched us. i felt so weird being alone with brad, cuz i don't really know him that well... so after sitting in awkward silence and conversing about my pacemaker, i kicked him out. it was 4am.

and that's the end of this friggin long post. i'm out.

um... yes, i have recovered.

last night at the rude native was crazy! it was so busy. and i had to close. i was le tired and sooo hungry. i asked if i could leave by 11:45pm so i could catch the last bus home, but i ended up getting home by 1:30am. whoo hoo. i was so pissed off, but at the end, laura, this girl i work with and this guy who worked in the kitchen got me food. awww... i felt so bad because they already cleaned everything up, but the kitchen guy was like "i'm making you food!!" and when he brought it out, he's like "you can't get out of your chair til you finish this!" hahaha awwww i love the people there *heart*. and then when i was waiting for my cab outside, these two customers on the patio started talking to us, and he offered to buy us all drinks! so we all had a shot of this creamy thing. it was yummay! and my cab driver had to wait for me. hahah :D and yay i got paid!

i also feel the need to mention that Fran, i already miss hanging out with you. lol

anywhoo... okay, i'm done.