blahblahblah.... my mom suggested that i stay in waterloo after my technique exam instead of coming out again. at first i was like "no, too bad." but now i'm having second thoughts. i mean...do i really want to stay and listen to nagging every moment i see her? do i really want to seem upset and distraught in front of my friends, and other people? do i really want to have to ask before i go anywhere? not really.

i had a reltively good weekend. saturday, went to art class, shopping at Woodside, then going to Matt's new apartment, going to STC. all that jazz. it was so fun. Matt's place is preeeetty. except the balcony. it's kinda dirty. Sunday, i went to violin lessons with Mr.Fan, then more shopping with my parents. i bought a skirt at Jacob's. it's brown and pretty! but i took it to some lady to get it altered cuz it's kinda big for me. it'll be ready by the 17th (i can wear it to the Christmas dinner!) went home, did some practising, set up the Christmas tree. this morning i woke up, hung around the house, pratised a bit of violin then headed to ACI. i was so anxious to get there and see everyone. i met some gr.9 girls, and most of them were pretty cool. during the periods after lunch me, and Eric just sat on the benches listening to MP3's on his brand spankin new cd player. listenened to almost all the LP songs and its remixes (!!) and some Billy Talent songs (mehhhh...they're alright). after school i was so excited cuz Matty's outta class! finallllyyyy. but after a bit, evreyone was around and it was crowded, and matty kinda left to hang out with ramy. feeling like a friggin outcast, i went into the orchestra rehersal and helped Amanda (okay, i don't remember her last name....Ms...something...) tune violins and stuff. it was probably about 20 minutes after when most of the people in the halls left, and Mike Eric and Matt stuck thier head in to see what the heck i was doing. i tried shaking my fist at them but at that moment this girl came up to me asking to tune her violin. she also said "hey Mandy...do you remember me?" i kinda looked at her for a while, then i was like "...Monica?" and she was like "yeah!" anyways, Monica is this little girl i used to play with in elementary school, in like, grade 6. i knew she'd be at ACI this year but i never thought i'd see her again in orchestra, of all places. tee hee she's so little! like me! so cute! anyways, after tuning, i left. went back in the halls, got mad at Matty, then got over it, then just hung out with him and Eric and Mike til like 4:45. then went over to Mike's locker where we hung out some more. then we went to the bus stop. if i got home 5 minutes earlier, i would not have been caught. but fuck, i was just THIIIS close to home, when my mom also got home..in her car, so she was faster than me and saw me walking ohme. i got another lecture. see? this is why i don't want to come back. anyways, so yea...i got tihs huge ass lecture again and whatever. perfect for my mood.

anyways, i listened to the whole WLU concert (in October) cd again. (except the middle two songs). it was awesome, but Beethoven's 5th was way too long in the middle, i almost fell asleep. the first movement was great though. it felt like i was playing again. i was so into the music. bahahaha

ok enought stupidness. i'm going back to ACI tomorrow, for a bit, then another lesson. *sigh*