well, work day #1 is over. i've got 4 more. heh heh...
it wasn't bad today actually. i was at the office cuz the library opened late and my mum was like "by the time u get to the library, you won't be able to concentrate again" so...yeah. i'm going tomorrow though. whoopee..i actually got one chapter of the math review done. which is pretty good, considering how much i did laaaaast time. oh myy...haha

anyways, around 8pm, Kamla called me, and it was pretty surprising, cuz she never calls me, and..yeah. anyways, we were just talking about christmas and stuff, and how there were sooo many people on boxing day and la dee da. and then we got into this topic of New Year's, and how i wanted to go to Nique's party, but she didn't tell me about it and stuff, so i don't know if i should show up or not. and then after some thoughtful thinking, i decided that i don't think i should go, since it's not "my type" of party, as our dear friend Mikey put it. but i still kinda want to cuz eeeveryone's gonna be there. pahhh...but then again...they're just gonna get wasted and stuff, so meh. so then i told kamla how i sorta wanted to go downtown, and then a brilliant plan came to mind: kamla can come with me! yaaayyy!! but now she has to ask her parents, cuz apparently her dad is really strict. and for kamla to stay out later than she is allowed, she can sleep over at my house! oh yeah...great plan, huh? (pahaha that was what iiiiiii was planning to do if i were at Nique's party) ANYWAYS, i think this is a better plan, so now i'm just waiting for her to call me back with the answer.
*waiting*

and while i'm waiting i'll tell you about Dralion tonight. it was actually reeaallly good. i finally saw Viktor Kee, this juggling dude who's everyone's been talking and drooling about. hahah!! he is really talented, but i think Octavio Alegria (this other juggling dude from Varekai) is better. the canes girl was awesome too, but again, Olga (from Varekai) is better. Olga's more well known too. and..oh! the silk flying thing was awesome! one of my favs. but i think red silk looks better than blue. (they were using blue) ummm...yeah. it was good, but not as good as i thought. cuz i'm in this forum thing for the Cirque website, and they email me all the messages so i don't have to go back and check. and yeah, everyone's like "omg! Dralion is sooo goood!!" and stuff. Varekai is SO much better. ESPECIALLY Icarian Games, and the Russian Swings. holy moly!! and varekai's clown acts were better too. sorry if this sound like i'm criticising Dralion. they're really good, but i just think Varekai's better. *smiles innocently*
and now i don't have to go to Montreal. hee hee so yay for Quebec City!!!

ok i have nothing else to post...behehe time for fanfics. yay Draco Veritas!!

gurgle*
yay for mornings. hahah well, it's almost noon...but what the heck. i have nothing to do. so bored. my mom's on the phone with one of our family friends. pah...mothers are so talkative.
i need to develope my film.
soooo boooorrrreeedddd...
oh, i went to the ACI website, and heard Lacrymosa from the Christmas concert. it was actually not as bad as i thought. but we could've done SO much better if...we had a certain someone back. (carmen, jordan, nique, u guys know who i'm talking about) and..Scenes From the Louvre (band) wasn't too bad. it sounded like we were kinda rushing at times though.
well nothing else to post. maybe i'll go read some fanfics. good idea. bye!

gotta blog fast. reading fanfics.
carmen and i went to stc, saw Catch me If You Can. awesome movie (recommend it to anyone), i got the JG dvd. yummay! erm...oh! went to Fariweather, and they had a big sale. but not enough time to get anything cuz of the movie. was closed when we got back. dammit! ermm..oh after the movie, some guy who dressed up like an orc was walking around the theater main hall place. scared the living daylights outta me. (he was following us!!) raced to the bathroom for coverage. tee hee carmen laughed at me. talked about debit cards and how we can't use them anymore or we'll have nothing in our savings account. bahaha
i got some little lantern all on a string at Green Earth (Green...what's it called? that place...green something...hahah!!) um..yeah. it was kinda expensive, but it was the only white one left (white ones match my room. the other colour was red. pah!) so i got it. it's put up already. look like little tiolet paper rolls. hahah so cute!
now just reading fanfic. so good! yay Sirius and Narcissa are getting married gotta finish...bye!

found a pic of the Hot Twins. with their older brother. tee hee hee hee
Click here NOW to see some yummyness..hahaha
they are in the first pic

when one just reads about Josh Groban, one must listen to him sing.
*logs on to the music downloading place*
ahhh...this is nice.
Starry starry night
paint your palate blue and gray
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
shadows on the hills...
*melts*

i eventually felt much better last night, once i started talking to matt. the convo wasn't funny or anything, but it just took my mind off other things, which was nice. the wonders of talking to ppl can do to you. heh heh...but then my mom found out i was still on the comp and yelled at me. so i had to go. and stuff started coming back, and i couldn't sleep til like, 3 in the morning. argg...oh well.
i've been thinking of that day when carmen kate and jordan came over, and what they thought of the picture. (u guys know which one i'm talking about. the "disturbing" one) cuz i've never shown it to anyone before. so...yeah. i was kinda nervous about showing it to them, actually. i'm pretty skeptical when it comes to things like this. and then that led to.....other things, which i won't blog about. and that led to other things. heh heh...

well anyways, signing off..gotta do some fanfic reading and eventually...studying.

well isn't this grand? i'm blogging the third time in like, an hour. but well, i just read carmen's blog and it gave me mixed feelings, which is kinda weird. at first it made me smile cuz of the cordless keyboard thing. but then she mentioned all the people, and now i feel left out.
it's stupid really. i can't even explain why i'm like this. must be a girl thing. or it might just be me. and remember, i'm in that really-easy-to-get-pissed-off mood.
what a horrible day today turned out to be.

fuck fuck fuck
i accidently deleted this email from Compass 101. argggg!!! can someone tell me what it's about?
bloody hell.
i'm in my easy-to-get-really-angry mood right now.
and my brother is being a bitch.

i'm in this dreamy state and i wanna wake up. talk to people. smell the flowers. see the sun.
but i can't becuz it's winter, and 9:15pm. and no one is msging me.
i dunno why i'm even blogging. i guess it's just cuz i've been doing my daily dose of blog-reading. and i guess i just felt like leaving a mark.

went to Buffalo today. it was pretty fun. i got a pair of home-pants. in case u don't know what they are, they're pants that u wear at home. duh.
anyways, we came back at around 6:40, went out to dinner. and back home at about 7:30. the house was so cold. but that's cuz we turned the temp. down to save gas. or whatever. it's nice and warm again now. but i'm still wrapped in a nice blanket and stuff. i like being wrapped in blankets. it's so comforting. all i need now is a nice fireplace and a hot cup of cocoa.
my home-pants are so comfy. tee hee.

ok back to fanfic reading...ahh...

i dunno what to post. i've done nothing today. behehe well i watched A Beautiful Mind with my mommy and daddy. hahah they fell asleep. it was actually a pretty good movie. this guy, John, he's like reeaaalllly smart, but then he's a schiziophrenic, so he sees these people. and...after a couple of years, this psychiatric dude comes and takes him off to a hospital. and the psychiatric doctor was played by Christopher Plummer! hee hee! (sorry, i like him. he's an awesome actor)
and then i ate dinner. it was good. turkey and mashed potato and...stuff.

and i finally completed my university application. i've got 7 choices.
2 of music therapy Laurier and Windsor, Ryerson for arts and contemporary studies, Waterloo- general arts for anthropology, Waterloo-applied arts co-op for anthropology, Laurier for anthropology, and York for anthro.
i've still got to do my Quebec ones. but i think i'm gonna wait til after the break, cuz the Concordia one is reeaallly confusing. so i will have to ask good ol' Mr Buck.

hmm..ok i have nooothing else to post. so good night.

gimme some fucking kleenexes BITCH!!

hey carm, are those the lyrics to "Despised"?
hahah cuz all i know is one word: DESPISED!

food was yummy tonight. but ugh...my cold is getting worse, and i need more KLEENEXES KLEENEXES!!!
BAHAHHAHA!!! oh my lordie...that's was a good one! it just came to me right there! i am cracking myself up...whoo!!
okay...umm...tee hee hee hee hee!!

i say we go to Plantations right now!!

i'm cold...freezing. BITCH!!
lol
umm...i see a lot of kids from HSC these days. on tv, newspaper..u know. iiiii wanna be on the newspaper. hahaha...but i'm not in any immediate danger, so i don't think the newspaper ppl thought i was good enough for them. pfft! BITCHES!! i'll show them who's not good enough...*giggle*

aaaanyways, matt came over a while ago, and left a card. tee hee sweetness! it's so pretty and it's sitting on my desk right now. =) adds to the decor of my un-Christmas looking room. lol
anywhoo-dilly...fuck, i need to finish my fuckin math homework..on fuckin christmas fuckin eve! (hmm....4 in one sentence...not bad. eh carmen? lol)

DESPISEEEDDD!!! DESPISEEEEEEDD!! lol oh man...that's pretty damn funny! where's kate when u need her?
oh! oh! i was watching tv this morning, and they had this "Life and Times" thing on and guess who it was?? Christopher Plummer! oh yeah baby...i still upset at myself that i didn't go to King Lear. ARGG!! if only i knew he was gonna be in it!! they were saying how they restored this dome theater thing, and they wanted Christopher Plummer to play King Lear cuz he had the "juste" or whatever u call it. and they were saying how they knew Plummer was the right man to do it, cuz King Lear is this old man, and all the old men wouldn't be able to play this role, cuz they would all be tired and stuff. pretty funny, actually. i was like "oh dry...that sucks"
now i wanna watch the Sound of Music. oh!
did u know that the Sound of Music was on tv two days ago? oh yeah! hahah i didn't stay to watch the whole thing tho. poohy. oh well. tonight, The Red Violin's gonna be on. 9pm, channel...err...7, i think.
anyways..it's gonna be good!

i don't have anything else to post, other than a happy christmas eve to all to reads this!

rrrr....hellooo!
i'm currently at Jordan's house, and i just got out of bed. i'm cold. i should put some clothes on. LOL sorry if that sounds..umm...disturbing. i'm still on mocha high. tee hee hee!! and i'm sleepy.
kate, jordan and carmen are watching Queer as Folk, and i'm hearing some rather disturbing noises behind this curtain...

aaanyways, yeah, we went out to Plantations for some drinks again. and had a fuckin' crazy time! i think we all killed Jordan. lol

ummm...i'll edit this later...
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ok i'm hooo-ooome!
anyways, as i was posting...we had a crazy time at Plantations, and Kate started singing this song from the sing along "Messiah" and she nearly killed me too! LOL Christ is gay, ehhh? lol
and then Kate was like, "am i the only sane one here?"
hahah
and then after a long time, we paid and went to Jordan's house. and...yes...

oh oh!! and Carmen finally gave me Shawn's card and Rachel's cookies. mmm...
Shawn, if u ever read this, THANKS!! i looove the HP picture! and i'm glad u liked the cd! hahaha that's only cuz Olga's on the back...hahah!!

ok well, i'm done. ta-ta-cheerio!

somebody!! call meeeeee!!! *struggling to walk upright and gasping for air*
i'm gonna turn into a puddle of mandy-goo soon. right beside the carmen-goo. hahah

ok waiting for ppl to finish dinner so they will call me about what we're doing tonight.
doo doo doo...
i'm posting rubbish here, but what the heck.
u know what i realized today after finishing the 4th HP book (for, like, the 5th time)? i really like the word Veritaserum. it has oomph! i wish I had some Veritaserum. then i would be powerful and stuff! moo-haa haa!!

hmm..eye flirting, eh jordan? i gotta try that sometime..lol i say we go to Montreal RIGHT NOW!! lol!!
ok i'm having too much fun...no more fun. signing out...

u know, this university application business is screwing everyone over. like, seriously. i still haven't a clear idea of what i wanna do, except for the two music therapy schools. but other than that...i dunno.
i'm currently working on Concordia's application, since, like, last night! but it's so fuckin confusing. argg..i probably won't even get in.
what should i go into?? help help help!!

matt u copy cat! (wow, that rhymed!) u and your blog...grrr...
just kidding..
but holy shit...it's the same as mine!! lol
and that post about LotR, that was pretty damn funny!

ok i'm out.

i wasn't planning on posting today.
but good ol' carmen posted a nice long msg on her blog, so now i feel bad, and so i'm posting.

i didn't do much of anything today. but i wasn't bored. i got up at quarter to 1 (holy shit, eh?). talk about catching up on my sleep! haha! well, i woke to with a terrible sore thorat and cough and stuff. so i grumbled a little, tossed around in bed, and eventually got up at 1pm. no one was home except for my brother. he came back from judo already. bahha. so i made myself some brunch, and plopped down on the sofa and ate and watched a video (Stepmom), which was really really good. and then after that, i walked around my house, and when my brother said he was going to sleep, i thought, 'hmm...not a bad idea'.
so i went slept on the sofa, but at about 4:30, my mom came home, so i had to move my sleeping headquarters back to my room. and i slept more. hahah got up at 9pm, and ate dinner, cleaned up a bit in my room, looked at some pictures, took a shower,and now, here i am, blogging.

well, i'm actually waiting for carmella to get back online so she can tell me the wonderful story of why she doesn't wanna hang out with certain people at the moment. heeheehee. and adam and i are having this interesting convo about skiing and talking to strangers. lol and matt and i just started a convo about ghosts. oh yeah...gotta love the dead. hee hee
ok that's all. lateroo!

wow...people actually reads my blog. i was talking with billy last night, and he was like "oh u thought could've done better on your performance, eh?" and i was like "wha? how do uuuu know?" and i was all surprised and stuff, cuz right before, i was talking with jon, and he and carmen played this trick on me where he knew what i was thinking. and he was like, "carmen just said hi, right?" grr...stupid pranks. i'm too gullible. tee hee. anyways, and then billy was like "oh, i read your blog."
pah! thinks he's so good, ehh? well...mleh!!
i dunno if maryam still reads it tho..hmmmmmmmm...oh well.

anyways, today i went to art class, which was pretty cool, cuz i got to work on my rose instead of the watercolour. that was getting boring. anyway, yeah, the rose. i had to start doing all these crazy things to it. like, i had to put blue and green and yellow on it, which is supposed to be RED. pah! it's crazy looking right now. and then i went to see LotR with jon, jackie, and some other dude. the movie was sooo fucking long! holy shit...and there were soooo many people. we were sitting in the 3rd row from the front! PAH! owww...our necks...and some parts were really bright, and we were all like "ahh!! it's bright!" lol and when u actually look at the screen u get dizzy cuz there's so much action, but ur really close and all that. i almost fell asleep. lol! yea i didn't like it too much. at the end, i still didn't understand what was going on. But for Legolas, it was WORTH IT!! hahahaha!! oh baby...

holy shit...i'm talking with yvonne right now. and i think she's reading my mind too....i have a bunch of psychic friends...this is freaky.
anyways...no plans tonight. so call me somebody! (*psst* carmen...? teehee) i'm just cleaning my room...

guess i'm going out tonight after all. yaaayyyy!
just waiting for carmen to call.
CALL!!! im bored..
well, actually i was watching a movie with my brother. (hey, at least we're not arguing. teehee)
still waiting....

variety show was great. although i know i could've done so much better, the ending was awesome. there were only a couple acts i thought were really boring, and the "technical difficulties" stuff was dumb. other than that, it was great.
matt's staying now, i'm pretty sure. yay for my card. it worked! i'm so happy! going out to have a drink with carmen & jordan later on.
life is good. =)

I'M GONNA BE SOOOO READY FOR TOMORROW, I'M GONNA ROCK THE VARIETY SHOW. I'M GONNA BLOW EVERYONE AWAY.
AND IF I DON'T, I'M GONNA GO SHOOT MYSELF.

so i had the variety show rehersal aaaallll day. holy shit, it was boring. we ran through the whole thing twice, wasted a lot of time, and practiced the finale. even though i'm complaining so much about rehersals, the show is going to be great! i was pretty nervous the first time we ran through it cuz i kinda messed up, but the second time went smoothly (for once!) so now i'm pretty confident. well, since i was third, i had all this time to waste after my performance, so, the second time, i was trying to sleep. hahah i was sooooo tired! i think everyone was tired. so yea...i tried sleeping, and i almost did too! but i had to get up when pat and joanna performed cuz they wanted me to record it for them. so after they finished, pat and i came out so we could listen to the song, but we bumped into carmen and jordan, and jordan cutted in and listened to it first. bahh...so i just hung out with matt and ben until they finished, and then i listened to it, and then...yeah. after that, we had to go back in for the rehersal. and then, like 20 minutes later, we got to go out for pizza and i tried to find out if mr.remigio was still there so i could do my clay project. but he wasn't, so matt and i just ended up sitting back on the bench. we discussed his "move" and all the reasons why he shouldn't leave. and then eventually (cuz i dun wanna type all the details) we went to visit carmen in the yrbook office, and looked through everyone's grad pics (i look ugly) and tried to find my cover page from last yr, so that i could use it for my portfolio. but we couldn't find it. and then eventually, i went home. and....yeah. what a big waste of time. (the rehersal). and my camera didn't work cuz it had no batteries...argggg!!! stupid camera...now i have to find some batteries...poooohhh

anyways, that's about it.
carmen, kate- if u read this, remember, wear your glowsticks tomorrow, and i will wear mine!!

mmm....yummay! no questions asked. who's coming to see LotR with me?

i think i just snapped my glow stick. dammit! oh well.
um...went to stc after variety show rehersal (which was as boring as hell) and finished the rest of my shopping.
well, actually, i need to get one more thing. frickin...frackin....
well, now i have painted (with my cute lil foam stampers, which i paint instead of stamp) all the wrapping paper and wrapped everything. oh yea...i'm good! heheheh

anyways, holy heart of mary, andrea lo did her monologue today, and it was soooo goood! yes i marked her. gave her 9/10! yup! and well she was this 82 yr old chinese woman, and one of her props was this chinese bowl and it was a gelly candle, and the gelly stuff looked like tea! it was sooo cool! and then she told us she got it at stc, so now i have like, 3 of them! hahaha they were 1$, i mean, c'mon!! heheh i love candles...my dad thinks i'm gonna burn the house down everytime i light my candles...bahaha
anyways....i'm cold right now. boo for shivering...

ok i have nothing else to blog about, except i think i did pretty well on the physics test!! =) (but i shouldn't jinx myself...)

today was actually a great day, even tho it didn't seem like it when it happened.
it's always like that. u know...when ur home, and thinking about it, and ur like "wow...today was fun. and eventful." yep. that was my day.
had band practice this morning. it was kinda boring, cuz that Del Borgo dude conducted us, and he was on the song where i have tacet. tacet is when u have nothing to play.
so then after band i skipped second period (which, ironically was music again!) and we had a subsitute, and he had already marked me absent, so it would've been pointless if i went anyway. so i went to my locker, and i practiced my christmas variety show piece, which sucked.
and then i went to tech, la dee da. it was fuckin boring, and i couldn't skip either, becuase when i was about to, the teacher was walking back to class, so i had to go back in.
and math sucked.
but the christmas variety show rehersal was great! i got to play first, and i got out before 4!! yeah baby!! and then i left, and lo & behold, i found matt and co. in the halls! well, jordan (the gr.11 one) was being an idiot, and stuff, so i tried not to talk to him. but to my misfortune, it didn't really work. and when they finally left, matt, paulanne and i went to practice some music. and then after that, matt and i went to walk around while paulanne practiced her vocal stuff. and then when we had nowhere to go, we went back to the music council room and just hung out and listened to music, and paulanne singing. it was really peaceful, actually. cuz it was all quiet and stuff. we had the whole room to ourselves, no sharing. yaaayyy! so yea, it was fun. although we didn't have much to say. but u know what? it's alright. the company's great. and then paulanne came in and wanted to go to midtown, we packed up our stuff, dragged ourselves off the comfy couches and went out in the blistering cold. (dramatic, aren't i?) well, then paulanne got her dinner, and some sugar, and off we went back out in the blistering cold, to school. and then...matt saw this dude he knew and then i had to go change for the concert, so i left him there with that dude and gabe, and i went to go change.

the concert was pretty good, considering how bad choir was last time. the band was good too, but i made a couple of mistakes during the chimes part. (Louvre). but the other stuff was good. and...yeeahh...here i am. blogging again.
hmm i have a physics test tomorrow. dammit. and i reeaallllly don't wanna go to that CVS rehersal on thursday. like, seriously!!
ok well, i'm off.

holy heart of mary, my computer's slow today...
and yesterday i couldn't even post anything. bloody hell...

anyways, my monologue went okay today. although the blacklight didn't have to same effect as i hoped it would...but meh. whatever. choir was HORRIBLE today cuz i didn't feel like going at all, and on top of that, my stomach hurted like crazy. oh myy...but shelby gave me some drugs, and after like 45 minutes, it got better. dammit! Nique was like "u can come to my house and i'll give u drugs! u have a choice of illegal drugs or non-illegal drugs."
hahaha silly niquey!

anyways, then matt and i just sat around waiting for 6:00 to stroll by...band, u know...it was pretty interesting i might add. well at least i wasn't by myself again. yippee. and then we went in the music council room with the bunch of gr.10 girls, and listened to them talk. and we laughed at them cuz they were funny. behehe and then at one point, rachel came in and told me she got me a christmas present! yaayyy!!
and then we went to band, the end.

bahah sorry i don't wanna write anymore. i need to dooooo homework! ta-ta-cheerio!

Angela's sister: Yech! the stink!
Frank: It's the twins, their asses are shitty
Angela's sister: A mouth like a sewer, and no wonder with a father from the North.
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Well here i am in front of my computer again. and i can't think of anything for my monologue. i've got cramps and i can't find my stupid advil. frickin....frackin...it hurts like a bitch and it won't go away! arggg!! go away!!!
i don't even wanna present tomorrow anymore. *sigh*

did i blog about downloading the Oh Mandy song? well, i did. the real one, not the funny versions. yeah, well it's actually a pretty cool song. all these years, people have been singing it to me, and i never even thought about downloading it to hear it. but i like Mike's version more. bahah last night, at Yvonne's party, i told Carmen about it, and she was like, "what? there's an actual song?" i'm like, "yeeaa...u don't know about it? how come u kept singing it?" and she's like, "oh i learned it from the simpsons!"
holy heart of mary! hahhah

ok i think the tylenol's working....after like, an hour! geez...
anyways, since i'm feeling better at this moment i shall go and work more, before the ouchness comes again...ta-ta!

ok...i have a bunch of stuff to blog, but i can't really put it into words. and besides, i'm on icq, and it's distracting. so good bye.

oh, btw, the punch at yvonne's was MOST DELICIOUS!!! mmm-mmmm....LOL!

i was thinking about last night, and it was all very stupid, but..well...i guess everyone has their bad days.

i felt crappy this morning, but i kinda had to act like nothing happened cuz then my mom will be like "what's the matter?" and we all know i don't want her asking that.
well, i was getting over it anyways, so it doesn't matter. the math and HP helped...

so at lunch, carmen and i were walking around and talking about...ermm....someone (i don't wanna post who in case ppl will read it and tell...that person) and well, yeah....it was a pretty uncomfortable convo. not between us, but the person we were talking about. ANYways...
hmm...
ok i have nothing to talk about today.
my life is full of nothingness.

stupid damn monologue...i think i'm gonna have to do it over again. my script sucks...

matt and i are talking about mexico right now...hmmm....i wanna go to mexico...=)
hmm...i wanna go to africa, and visit all the little orphans. (i seriously do, actually. behe)

ok that's enough. signing out...ta-ta-cheerio!

just when you think life is going your way, it let's you down again. (the Omid stuff doesn't count. those are miniscule compared to this)
i won't blog about it, cuz those are for my therapy, which i desperately need. (and not physical therapy either. real mental therapy) and besides, it's too complicated for y'all to understand. and if i think about it enough, i'm sure tonight will be another crying-myself-to-sleep night. whoopee.
well that's it really.

i never thought Omid would annoy me as much as he did today. holy shit...well, it all started at lunch, when i went in the caf to talk to Shawn about our shopping trip for Yvonne's b-day present that we planned for like a week! and Omid just started cutting in, saying how he was the one who thought up the "sharing the present" part, and he should go and get the present, and his parents had to take him shoe shopping the same day, and blah blah blah...well then he and i just started yelling at each other cuz, ok, shawn and i thought up the whole shopping trip, and now he's like, oh " i'll go get the present. i'm going Fairview with my parents anyway. i'm her friend so i feel like i should be responsible"
ok, i'm her friend too!! what the hell?! that REALLY got me mad. and then we kept yelling at each other, and then at one point i'm just like, "okay i'm really mad now, so i'm going to leave." and i left. eventually, Shawn came out and talked to me, and i told him i don't even want Omid to go now, cuz, like that friend comment was really mean. who does he think he is? the ultimate friend and present buyer? and then eventually Omid came out, and we started another argument, in which i kinda teared up cuz i was so angry. well then we finally agreed that he would come with us and get it. and so we went after school, and he apologized to me, but he was like "although i didn't think i did anything wrong"
so then we were at stc, and i kinda talked to him, but not really, and at one point he was like "are u still mad at me?" and i'm like "yeah!" (no point in lying)
but then...yeah. we got the sweater, and guess who paid for it? yup, me. i swear, Omid wouldn't be able to get her the present anyway, if i weren't there. so that was another thing i was mad at. (sorry i get mad easily, once i start)
so yeah...now i'm still mad at him. that bastard. and then he was like "oh i can't take it home, cuz then my parents will know i was at the mall." and since i couldn't take it either, shawn had to.

on a happier note, our photo thing today was pretty fun. and i had LOTS of fun with the mistletoe! hahaha! mikey didn't believe kamla kissed me, and then i got mikey to kiss me. hahah and he did, and i'm like, "i'm never washing my face again!" and then he got all creeped out and stuff. but then, to annoy me, he was like "oh, u missed another chance to see me naked! (he knows i really wanna see him naked. LOL carmen and kate got to! i didn't! no fair!) i was changing in my English monologue. my teacher taped it" i was like "What?! nooooooo!!!" grrr...and then Sarah was like "Do u like mikey?" and i'm like "nooo...but i still wanna mess with him. lol" and she got creeped out. hee hee...i'm good at creeping ppl out.
hahah i think i should stop messing around with him...makes people wonder things...heh heh....but it's so fun!

anyways, i'm finally going to move my locker beside sarah's. yaayyy! no more fobs near my locker! (sorry, i had to say that...they annoy me) it'll be closer to physics, which is good, cuz i always have to rush to class. and i'll be REALLY close to art. oh my gawd! i just remembered...that bitchy girl will be near my locker then....ugh. i hate her.
she's sooo, like, in your face.
i'm in strings, and she'd like, stare at me while i'm playing a scale or a song or somethin (cuz i'm good...heheh jk!), and then she'll play the exact same thing when i stop playing. and then, when me and kat, and albert and james are in the music council room, she'll look in and walk around, and look in again. yeah...and she's in my calc class, and once, when adam was explaining how to get the tangent line with an exterior point, she just walked towards us and started looking at us and listening intently. holy...that was freaky. and then she would go back to her desk, look at her textbook, and stare at us again. *shiver*

so...yeah...she's a weird one. and she shows off a lot.

anyways, ummm...i have nothing else to say. i have to go in the weight training class tomorrow and talk to them about christmas cheer. i don't really don't to. what'll i say? argg....
well, signing out now. gotta do some work.

stupid math. gawd, i hate math. argg...STUPID LEIBNIZ!!! what'd he go around inventing calculus for?!
that's why i'm blogging again, u see. i just couldn't take it anymore.
why am i so dumb? i don't get anything!! arggg...why couldn't i be...say...Maryam/Chippy( still got pute in me)? hahah right. anyways...(hey, Mar, do u still read my blog at all?)
yutat offered to help me, but i doubt he will, cuz he's always inside with all the guys. and he's never serious around me. and he's always dissing me. and harry potter. it's annoying.

anyhoo-dilly...i don't have anything good to say now. so i'm not gonna say anything at all. here, at least...

i really like the final movement of Scenes from the Louvre. especially the trumpets when they play thier 7 16th notes. (gotta love the repitition!) but i suck on chimes, so whoever's going to the Christmas concert, plz don't laugh at me. well, i'm improving, so...yeah. and for this one song, C'est Noel, i'm taking over 4 instruments at the same time! well, not the same time, but, in the whole piece. crazyness!
well, i am in the Crazies...hee hee
and not to mention Vicious Calendars...so i'll be viciously crazy! yeah baby!!

anyways, kamla, margaret and i went to stc during lunch and last period. gues who was the skipper? (not me!) anyways, it was fun fun fun! i got ppl presents (i changed my mind about not getting school people stuff, cuz i felt really bad after carmen asked what i wanted) so..yay for presents!
OMG, when i was at Music World, i saw the Josh Groban Cd/DVD, so now i actually have something i want! *hint hint*
just kidding!!
Anyways, yeah...Josh Groban rocks! but it's so expensive, i'll probably end up getting it for myself. heheh meh well!
so then we went to the dollar store, and i had to get mistletoe for our class' Christmas cheer photos, and i was like "kamla, i've got mistletoe! kiss me!" and she kissed me. hahaha but just on the cheeks, cuz.....YOUUUUU KNOW!! hahahaha!! so then we paid and then we went back to school. poo school. kamla went home, cuz she's lucky. =) stupid variety show....grrrr...but then we saw jennifer (the gr.11 girl) on the RT so that was cool...

and the ONE thing i really wanted to get carmen, they had none left. arggg!! stupid mall people...

well i just found out this afternoon that tomorrow's early dismissal. no wonder shawn was like "let's go shopping on wednesday!" heheh so cute! so i might go tomorrow...i was almost going to get kamla's present today, but then i was like, i can't, cuz ur with me right now! that'll ruin the surprise! so...yeah.

i still have to write all my cards. i don't think i have enough. bahah my list keeps on getting longer each year! hmmm....ok i think i'm gonna go write cards now. yay for cards!

well in band today, Donald Coakley came again. i thought he was more cheerful than last time. Laura (this girl in my section) told me that the first time Coakley came, his wife just died and he was in a terrible mood, yelling and everything.
but anyways! what i was gonna say was that, i've noticed that Coakley is a miracle worker for our trumpet section. like, last time, after about 15 minutes on working with the trumpets, i was like, "whoa! i never knew the trumpets can actually do that! i'm impressed!" and today, the trumpets were once again, playing very well. and like last time, once Coakley left, they all started sounding bad again. hahaha
well, okay, sorry, that was mean.
trumpets are actually very hard to play well. seriously. i've tried it, and after 3 minutes, my ambusher, or...ombusher (i don't know how to spell it) was really tired. and...yeah.
our concert is tuesday! bah! so fast...

and i have a crisis. well, two crisi. (HAHAHA crisi!! get it? cello, celli...crisis, crisi? HAHAHA! anyway...no one gets my jokes...) okay, the first one, i reeeaalllly wanna quit choir. omg, it's soooo boring. (carm, jordan and nique y'all understand...) and i was telling paulanne this, and she's like, "omg i know!!" cuz i told her about the Virgin Mary song i hate soooooo much. anyways, so i'm considering it.
and my second crisis, i dunno if i should audition to play for the Black Tie dinner thingy. see, i want to play in it, cuz i think it's good performing opportunity, but the problem is, i actually don't want to go to the dinner. i'll be wastin a perfectly good friday evening doing a ton of nothingness! and i don't feel like dressing up just yet.
so...if anyone reading this has any opinions, plz tell me!

ok well, that's really all that's happened today. i got my Josh Groban cd back, and i failed my calculus test. and when i tried asking ppl if they could help me with the problems i didn't understand, no one could, cuz they didn't know either. Aquila was like, "who gave this test?! it's so hard! how're u supposed to do this?!" hahahaha so cute. bahahah omg! and i was waiting for band to start, and i was sitting on the benches with jon yu, cuz he was doing homework, and mr. zupo comes by, and he's like "are u....and u..." and he makes this face as if asking whether we were going out. hahah and we're both like, "no!" that was pretty funny....then he left, and jon was like, "yeah, cuz u forgot about me when u went to C.D.F." and i was like "yeah...and when i came back i didn't know who u were." lol funnyness...
(ok i guess that wasn't all that happened today...)
ummm...what else? i didn't see carmen aaalll day! and i actually had to tell her something. at lunch, me, mike, sarah, and kamla were having a great time messing with mike....err...mike's hair! LOL! he looks cute in pigtails, and me and sarah had a great time making mike's hair go up like a fountain, and pinning it with sarah's gold clip thing. omg...hilariousness! i wish i had my camera! and then when we took it off, his hair was still in it's place, and it was flying everywhere! ohhh man...lost a couple calories from laughing!

bah...i need to finish my Christmas shopping. i think Shawn and i are going on either wednesday or friday...cuz we have to get ******'s birthday present. heheh i hope she won't read this...heheh yea, and i was thinking, wow, i'm glad i got shawn's present already or else i won't ever be able to, since he might come shopping with me. whew!
aaaaaanyways, ok i should start my homework...tee hee blog more latah!

well guess what? i saw HP again today. oh yeah...gotta love Dan! oh wait...Sean Biggerstaff!! yummm...that was definately my favourite part. yep, i went with good ol' Matt, since Carmen was "sick" (hahah) and had lots of homework. hmph, not sick enough for shopping, huh? just kidding...
anyways, so yeah i had the car so i was driving along...i got lost a couple times, cuz we all know how bad i am with directions. but i'm learning, so no laughing at me. anyways, it was really fun, even tho we didn't talk TOO much, but hey, when there's HP, u don't need to talk. hehehe anyways, after the movie, i got a mag with Orlando Bloom on the front. yummm...hehehe!! anyways, then i called carmen's cell, but she wasn't there, and had a funny song on her answering machine. it was the oh mandy, you came and u found me a turkey in schoolie song. ok the words aren't perfect, but mike wrote it for me, so...yay for mikey!
aaaanyways, she was at home, so then we drove to her house, and then we went to STC to get Christmas presents, and...well, just presents. hahaha i got the Varekai soundtrack, which i'm listening to right now. it's good...brings back memories of Montreal. i wanna go back to Montreal this year! but Mr. Lum was like, "no we're not going to Montreal" grrr...and Dralion is going to Montreal in May! argggg....i wanna go to Montreal!!!
anyways, after stc, i drove them home, and i watched Life's Little Miracles, and i thought of my pacemaker operation i'll have to do soon, and that was pretty emotional...
and then i looked at the Legolas magazine and i giggled at how pretty he was. hahahaha! and now i'm blogging, and talking to matt and carmen on icq. whoopee...

omg, i was talking to Joanne this morning (she's a cousin of mine who lives in seattle, but is in a exchange program in china with her university) and apparently, she's in Hong Kong right now, skipping class. hahaha but she was telling me how she's doing this honours paper thingy, and i'm like "joanne the honour student!" and then she was like "yeah right. whatever. i'll never compare to Audrey" (the cousin with the baby) but then, i suppose no one really can compare to her, cuz i mean, Stanford! holy shit...
anyway...yeah.

ok i don't have anything else to say, other than the Varekai cd is really good, but Icariens isn't on it, and that is my favourite song. it's the song that goes with the Icarian Games, the one where the hot twins are in. *grin*
anyways, i really have nothing else to say, so ta-ta!

well i wasn't going to blog today, but i have absitively posolutely nothing to do. so...here goes.
i went to art this morning. yay. my teacher came back from her little vacation, and i had to haul the box of oranges for her. but then she cut one up and i had some, and damn, they are some yummy oranges!! i'm done all the background colour of my latest painting. it's a close up of a rose. but this is just a "practice" painting, cuz when i finish this i'm gonna do another one, but WAY bigger, and much prettier (hopefully), and i'm going to give it to Sick Kids, cuz they cared for me ever since i came here (Canada, which was when i was like, 3). and since i'm on the topic of Sick Kids, i really don't wanna leave. i've got less than a year! i know..they only take people up to 18, but there are exceptions for everything, right? maybe, just maybe i can stay til i'm 20. but i know they're not gonna keep me, no matter how much they love me. *sigh* oh well.
anyway, after art class, i drove home and ate and moped around til math class, then i drove me and my brother to math, and after math, we went to L'Amoreaux HS cuz my brother wanted to ask about their swimming schedule. and then we went home. and then i read a little, talked to Carmen, and now i'm blogging.
yeah,Carmen won't be able to see the movie with us tomorrow cuz she's sick and she's got tons of homework. but we're probably going Christmas shopping afterwards. yay. i need to do my christmas shopping otherwise i will have no other time to do it. omg, i hope the Varekai cd won't be like, 35$, cuz i know Cirque du Soleil cds are really expensive. but then i guess it's okay for shawn. i was going to give him like 30 bucks anyway for taping my shows.

well, i'm freezing right now and i don't know why. i checked the temperture in the house, and it's normal, so...i dunno. but i have bad circulation, so maybe that's why.
i need to finish my univ. application soon. i still dunno what else to apply for. i've got down Laurier and Windsor for sure, and Ryerson for the new Arts and Contemporary studies, but i might change that. i've already changed it twice. i WAS gonna take the Co-op arts and something else thing at Waterloo, but i've decided not to cuz it requires pretty high marks. i think my average is about mid 70. i'll never make it. esp with math and english so low. stupid smart people...esp andy. arggg...

ok well my hands are freezing and i can't type anymore. so ta for now!

u know i'm bored when i post more than once a day.
anyway, i just read Matt's version of blog, and holy shit, i never knew about what happened on that "cutting" day. this is kinda freaky. just like in gr.9 when Lorrie was telling me how she's in the 18 Buddist thing. why oh why does all my friends have to be so vicious?
anyways...yeah...umm...
ok i'm signing off. gotta go do something.

i am very tempted to write something in here that is...well, let's just say, very not me. and being the calm and un-explosive person that i am, i'm not going to write about it. but i am really really angry, so...i need to calm down. *sigh*

ok the christmas variety show thing went okay. i had to wait forever (until like, 5:25) but luckily matt kept me company. yaaayyyy!! um...yeah. the actual playing wasn't too bad. but it's wasn't GOOD. whatever....i just remember i have violin lessons tonight. i have this new teacher, and i'm not used to going on fridays. so now i'm going to eat.

*note to self* call carmen

ok sorry about the last post, but i accidenetly posted it on the crazies...oopsie daisy.
whatever.

Land of tomorrowwww
Your time has cooooome!!

oh my gawwwwddddd...
i just got home. home sweet home, and computer.

ok so a recap from what happened this evening:
after school i headed for choir but then i saw matt and he was bummed out so i sat with him a bit, then i had to go cuz i was kinda late. (well not really. everyone was just talking and stuff) anyways, i told him if he stayed we can go to dinner afterwards, but he left. and after orchestra, i was by my lonely little self, cuz paulanne went home to get her uniform, and jordan and nique and carmen and rachel thought i was at home, and so they were calling my house. lol sillies...
anyway, so i hung out with mr. pinhorn and mr. lum in the music office and ate pizza until paulanne came back at around 6:00. and then we went to Midtown so she can get her dinner, and i got bubble tea and a lemon tea for lum. then we came back and we changed in the music council room (no one saw us). and then we had the concert...la dee da. i don't wanna repeat the concert cuz basically, it was CRAP. but paulanne and i had some pretty cool convos in that music council office. and mr. lum almost came in when i was changing the second time. ew disgusting. so then after the concert, me, carmen, jordan, nique, and rachel drove to country style and hung out there a bit, talking about the memories of meeting each other, and the kevin/me/rachel story, which was pretty funny now that there's nothing between me and kevin. and then we drove nique home. we were gonna drop rachel off next but her neighbourhood was so fuckin nice that we drove around for a bit, going in circles and carmen squishing me cuz her seatbelt wasn't on, and oohhhhh myyy gawwwddd rachel's house is sooooo pretty!! damn the rich kids...heheh just kidding. well, at least she's not like the snobby rich type. so yea...so we had to go in a take a look, and the inside was really really nice, and omg, her backyard was like something from a magazine! so...yeah, we stayed there pretty long, looking at photos and listening to Charlotte Church. and then about 9:30 we were about to leave, but then mrs. walker came by and we stood there talking for another like, 20 minutes. lol but we eventually left. and now here i am blogging. doo doo doo...
oh yea, in the car, we were talking about the hp movie on sunday, and we were like, ok, in the afternoon, around 2-ish, since carmen will probably go to church and i have to eat with my family. sooo yeah. and we'll probably go to Morningside cuz it's cheaper, and i have to save my money for Christmas presents and stuff. so...yeah. jordan said if we were going between 6-10, he would probably be able to get us in for free at AMC, but we're going in the afternoon, so...too bad!
anywho-dilly...yeah, omg May is SUCH a little biatch. grrr...she has these attitude problems, and she is the worst piano player ever!
ok...maybe not the WORST, but considering her position and everything, i expect her to actually do a decent job! i don't play piano, and i can probably play better than she was tonight. honestly! *sigh*
aaanyways, now i'm in a bad mood, talking about her. i was so giddy and crazy...*thinking about what to write*
oh! i finished my grad comment last night! i like it, but it's not thaaaaaaaat original. ah whatever. it's got a rhyme in it though! heheh.
okay this post is really long so i'm gonna stop typing.
nighty night!

p.s. mikey looks adorable in pigtails!!

this limit thing is getting to me. i haaaaaaate limits! stupid limits...grrr....
i wanna sleep! and read HP! (i'm reading the 4th book again...i think this is the 5th time or somethin)
*SIGH*

Jordan and Carmen- POST DAMMIT!!!! *smiles innocently* love ya!

mmm...chocolate.
Carmen finally gave me the yummy swiss choclate from Switzerland! whoop dee do! and then after school, she and jordan were like, can i have some of your chocolate? hahah but i didn't open it yet, so they were like "meh, it's okay then" so then they left for madrigals. aaaaanyways.
i think i'm gonna tell u about my first spare today, because it was really weird. okay. so i'm sitting on the benches doing, or trying to do, my english homework, and there's all these ppl near the SAC office, but i was tuning them out.
ANYway, so yea, i'm doing my work, and suddenly Tuan comes and sits down next to me and starts talking. so then we're kinda talking and stuff, and he's like u know my name? and i'm like, yea Tuan right? and he's all surprised and stuff. and then he's like, and i bet u know my last name too. and i'm like, yep! i didn't get all my work done after all.
and that's my story.

second spare was so much better. nirusha and i were talking about this guy she likes ( i'm not gonna post who it is, because i know she'll kill me if i do) and...well, basically, guys in general. and raymond and karen were eavesdropping. but then they're like "u were talking so loud everyone could hear you!" hahah oh well. i dun care. and i made this little name thingy for matt. with flourescent orange pen. last year, when i did mike's and jordan's and rachel's, i thought it looked better. i like the red pen. it makes the name look more intricate. heheh especially jordan's red pen! =)

*SIGH* guess what? i bet the Netherland dude is on the ship already (Nique, u know what i'm talking about. i miss him!) oh well. nothing else to post. so ta!!

a couple minutes ago i had the Capriccio Italien song in my head. now i have The Prayer.
Let this be oooour prayer
As we go our waaayyyy.
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be saaaafe.

La luce che tu dai...

ok that's enough. i don't know how to spell the Italian words. well i could go down and get my music score, but...meh. it's aaall the way downstaires. heheheheh

speaking of music, holy heart, i played sooooooo bad! jeff kao was there, and he was like "that's nice!" and i'm like "no, it's terrible! if u don't believe me, ask christine." and christine's like "yeah that was pretty bad." *SIGH*
ah well...

aaaaanyways, oh! oh! oranges and grapefruit came! well, it came yesterday but oh well. omg we were unloading the boxes out, and i only unloaded for like 20 minutes and my arm was killing me! there were more than 600 boxes!! poor adam and eugene and all those other people who had to unload since 3:30...adam told me that his arm was STILL hurting today. bahaha sucker.
but now the hallway smells very citrus-y. mmm...even though the strings room is almost like a refrigerator. oh well.

aaanyways. ok i have nothing else to say. i need to do my english homework.
and i wanna talk to the Netherland duuuuuude!!!!!!

wow i feel like i haven't blogged in a long time.
*checks date*
ok, it is a long time.
anyways...getting my grad pic done tomorrow. yayyyy anna lent me her curling iron today, so i get to curl my hair. i just tried it a while ago, to see what it looks like and to see if it's actually decent. it is. and besides, when am i ever going to curl my hair again? probably not in a loooong time.

nique's play on saturday was awwwwwwesome!! hehehe!! my favourite ones were, of course nique's, and kevin's. omg..soooo funny! and well i forgot they had a cast party afterwards, or i'd totally go! even though i'd probably get bored...but anyways! omg, kevin told me today some VERY disturbing news regarding rachel and jackie, but i won't post them here. heheh i was like "what?! rachel? are u serious?!" yeah...well me and nique and rachel were talking about it during band, and yeah...it was like...okay, rachel, get away from me...

on a cheerier note, Donald Coakley came and conducted us in band today! it was pretty tedious, cuz he kept stopping and everything. it took us like, half an hour just to get through the first page! but i have to admit, it sounded amazing! i never knew our trumpet section could play so well! and i was working pretty damn hard myself! heh heh...omg, my hands were killing me afterwards! (stupid cymbals...) and phil did a pretty nice job with the suspended cymblas himself! =) yaaayyy

ok i have like, nothing to post now.
excited about missing physics tomorrow! (even if it is only for a little while...) *smile*