i didn't go to yvonne's after all. she called and said her sister went out and took the rollers with her. and besides, it was getting kinda late. didn't want to miss the oscars, y'kno. (that by the way, was very entertaining! i got to stay up late!) also! i rearranged all my furniture (on that sunday)! i know i know...i'm not even done painting. oh well. it's only the top part of one of the walls anyways. i figure i can do that on the weekend. so...yeah! now, i slep in my own room! hee hee hee! it's so cool- i'm not even used to it yet! instead of looking at my glow in the dark stars before i sleep, i look out the window (no drapes yet). it's really peaceful. and a lot of stuff go through my head. i don't think i'll mention what they are, in case certain ppl may read this blog and get mad at me or whatever they want to do.

anyways, so yesterday came around, and i had chem again. so we're supposed to present a lesson to the class, and i thought i was in shelby's group. i only just found out i wasn't the day earlier (sunday). so yesterday i went to my group, and i asked them what they were doing for the presentation. no answer. they started talking about introductions. i asked if i could do the introduction. no answer. i was so fuckin mad that i practically yelled at them (mostly jennifer and jen-yin) i'm like, "Will you guys answer me?!" and jen's like "well you didn't ask anything!" and i said "YES i did! i asked two questions! and you totally ignored me!" and then i turned around and ignored them. bastards. and then sathya began taling to me like nothing happened. she even asked if she could borrow my white out. bitch. can't she buy her own shit?! god...how cheap can one person get?! anyways, i was so mad i didn't even go to choir. i just went to my mom's office and then followed her around to do some grocery shopping and stuff. *sigh*
and that night out family got into this huge ass fight cuz of my stupid brother.

and then before i went to bed, my mom asked me why i didn't go to choir today and stuff and i told her i wasn't feeling well, and then she asked me what happened, and then i told her the story about chem. and she said i shouldn't always think of myself as the "flower". being a leaf can be good too. oh yeah, by that time, i was crying. and then i told her i'm never the flower. i'm the goddamn leaf. and i HATE it!! i think ppl treat me like shit. well, some ppl. not all. anyways, she asked me all these questions about my chem group and if they told me about it and stuff like that, and i told her no. and then she started being really nice and sympathetic. she's like "oh, you should've told me earlier." oh well. anyways, i looked out my window in my room, and cried myself to sleep.