i went downtown with my parents to see this new condominium we got. it was sooooo cool!! id love to live there by myself. one of the walls is curved (the building is circular) and it's ALL glass. it's sooooo pretty! but there's only one room. which is alright if one person lives there. but then there's this study area and stuff, and i guess other ppl can sleep there. and, omg, the kitchen is sooooo nice! there's a little island and allll these drawers! wicked! and all the appliances are already included. so there's a microwave, stove, dishwasher, clothes washer, dryer, and fridge! anyways, then we were talking about universities, and she said if we weren't renting it out, and if i got a couple of ppl with me, we can all share the rent and can live there. ahhh!!! this is so exciting!! whoever's reading this: apply to a downtown university and live with me!!

ok, anyways, i'm going to eat now. and then im watching Panic Room with yvonne, so, ta-ta!!

i didn't go to yvonne's after all. she called and said her sister went out and took the rollers with her. and besides, it was getting kinda late. didn't want to miss the oscars, y'kno. (that by the way, was very entertaining! i got to stay up late!) also! i rearranged all my furniture (on that sunday)! i know i know...i'm not even done painting. oh well. it's only the top part of one of the walls anyways. i figure i can do that on the weekend. so...yeah! now, i slep in my own room! hee hee hee! it's so cool- i'm not even used to it yet! instead of looking at my glow in the dark stars before i sleep, i look out the window (no drapes yet). it's really peaceful. and a lot of stuff go through my head. i don't think i'll mention what they are, in case certain ppl may read this blog and get mad at me or whatever they want to do.

anyways, so yesterday came around, and i had chem again. so we're supposed to present a lesson to the class, and i thought i was in shelby's group. i only just found out i wasn't the day earlier (sunday). so yesterday i went to my group, and i asked them what they were doing for the presentation. no answer. they started talking about introductions. i asked if i could do the introduction. no answer. i was so fuckin mad that i practically yelled at them (mostly jennifer and jen-yin) i'm like, "Will you guys answer me?!" and jen's like "well you didn't ask anything!" and i said "YES i did! i asked two questions! and you totally ignored me!" and then i turned around and ignored them. bastards. and then sathya began taling to me like nothing happened. she even asked if she could borrow my white out. bitch. can't she buy her own shit?! god...how cheap can one person get?! anyways, i was so mad i didn't even go to choir. i just went to my mom's office and then followed her around to do some grocery shopping and stuff. *sigh*
and that night out family got into this huge ass fight cuz of my stupid brother.

and then before i went to bed, my mom asked me why i didn't go to choir today and stuff and i told her i wasn't feeling well, and then she asked me what happened, and then i told her the story about chem. and she said i shouldn't always think of myself as the "flower". being a leaf can be good too. oh yeah, by that time, i was crying. and then i told her i'm never the flower. i'm the goddamn leaf. and i HATE it!! i think ppl treat me like shit. well, some ppl. not all. anyways, she asked me all these questions about my chem group and if they told me about it and stuff like that, and i told her no. and then she started being really nice and sympathetic. she's like "oh, you should've told me earlier." oh well. anyways, i looked out my window in my room, and cried myself to sleep.

well, joanna's solo yesterday was really good, but the one she did in december was much better (i think). the song was better and the whole mood was there. yesterday's show was a show for kids. *smacks forhead* of course! no wonder there were so many kids there! stupid annoying brats!! apparently, joanna didn't know either. oh well...

anyways, i finished painting a bit again. now i have to fix my AA page. heh heh heh and later im going to yvonne's house cuz she's gonna show me how to fix my hair and stuff. yay! i hate my hair!! ugh!! anyways, that's all, bye!

I CAN'T WAIT!! I CAN'T WAIT!! I CAN'T WAIT!! i'm going to Joanna's (Audrey's cousin) concert today!! YEAHHH!!! she's doing another solo, but this time the Toronto Symphony Orchestra is going to appcompany her! isn't that cool?! and bernard's gonna come with us! yayy!!
yesterday, her mom, brother and herself came over so that her mom can give us our tickets. and then they stayed a while, until we had to go to orchestra (pooh). we hit it right off. i was painting my room, and she came upstaires and we just talked about lots of stuff. it was fuuun!! so....yeah! i'm glad we got to actually meet, cuz last time at her concert i didn't really know her, and at Audrey's wedding, there were lots of other ppl around, so we didn't get to know each other that well.

anyways, i'm almost done painting my room. just before i wnet on the comp to type this up, i painted for an hour. it's pretty good. Joanna said it looked more like the sky, only green. meh...oh well.

*a while later*

whoops! gotta go! art class!!

wow...haven't written in sooo long!
anyways, saturday- i went to my violin lesson, and the teacher was alright. i didn't like him THAT much though. he's picky! and we we in this little room, and i was almost suffocating!! *gasp* no oxygen! yeah...not so good. and, well, he changed a lot of stuff on my Bach (?) music. argggg...

and sunday....i don't remember what i did. *sigh* so sad...
well, at one point of the week, i blew up my corner chair and found a hole in it, so i went to stc and returned it, and got a new one. now the new one is blown up, and it's got no holes! YAY!!

and today, we had this lady come in for an assembly about "racism". well, all the did was talk about her life, which sounded REALLY rehersed and unrealistic, and did a role play, which was somewhat funny, but...meh. it didn't really associate with racism.
i later found out, from Jackie, Henry and those ppl that she was paid 800$ to come here. apparently, Noaman was walking to the office, and was talking to her and Mr.Caruana about his question he asked and stuff, and he asked him again how was it talking about racism, and he siad it wasn't about racism. so he lied. sorta. and like, i could tell that Jackie and Henry were really disturbed by this. Jackie was pointing out that, with the 800$ we could've spent it buying books or whatever. i totally agreed with him. that silly speech did not worth 800$. the students' 800$. and in carmen's blog, she stated that making a collect call (what the assembly woman did at one point in her life, apparently) does not require 25 cents. lol that's just funny!!

well, that's all for now. i still have a wall to paint. grrr...stupid wall. but it looks nice, so...i'll keep at it!

well, my first violin lesson is tomorrow. i'm kinda nervous, cuz i am a crappy player. *sigh* oh well...

and i finished one wall of painiting! yeahh! i have one left, and the top of the closet and the whole top section of my room where i couldn't reach. it's kinda getting boring, i gotta admit. doing the same thing over and over. last night, my arm was soo sore from painting...argg...

anyways, yesterday, me, nique, kate and jordan went to watch The Sound of Music. it was sooooooooo much fun!! i love that movie! =) and they gave us a bag of fun stuff!! wickedd!! after that, we went to Second Cup and take a drink and just hang out. and then nique's dad phoned and said he was nearby, so he picked us up and we all went to her house. it was fun. we played Cranium, but without the board. i totally sucked at that game. heh heh heh

well, got orchestra tonight. blahh...i dun wanna goooo!! *sigh* stupid orchestra. oh well.

i can't believe this. i'm getting another violin teacher! well, it was my idea actually. peter is a really good teacher and all, but the way he taught me how to hold bow isn't really good. i thought gabriel was better at that. but no way am i going back to gabriel. man, he scares me. all his yelling and stuff....*shudder*
anyways, yeah...but i feel SO bad for peter, cuz he's such a nice person and i'm like, abandoning him and all...*sigh* so i just came back from the new violin place. it's like a whole building for music ppl. not private, like peter and gabriel. i haven't actually seen the teacher, but i'll see him on saturday. that's when my lessons are gonna be. saturday...well, it's a good thing i suppose. no school to worry about. what im worried about is what if this teacher is another gabriel? like, what if he DEMANDS perfection and all that. *shudder* i dun wanna think about it.....
i need to practise...i haven't played in like 2 weeks!! well, i practiced a bit before i came on the comp, but it's not enough. more!! more!!

i still need to finish one wall before i sleep tonight. painting, i mean. i'm half done the closet. it's very tiring. and a little boring. but it's coming out very nicely, so im happy. :)

i want to sleeeeeepppp!!!

ok, well, that's all, bye!

gueeess what??
i began painting my room!! i have one wall and my door done. and i started pretty late, around 4pm. i had to go buy the white interior paint, and go shopping for clothes with my mom and ate lunch and stuff before, so...yeah. we didn't buy anything though. oh well. and then we went to the home depot (again) to buy the interior white. and i talked with this guy. i asked if i needed to buy glaze for the white, and he said it depends on personal preference nad stuff, and he told he how a long time ago, people who made the plaster for houses left the plaster half dry, and the painters would come and paint and the paint would dry into the plaster and it would look simply marvelous! hee hee hee! and then we said i could buy some practice boards. so i did. i didn't even use them lol. cuz i'm good! LOL nononono! i'm joking!!! hahahahaha alright. so i went home, mixed the turquoises with the glazes, pour them back in the cans, pour some white, and finally began painting.
it wasn't as easy as it sounds.
but anyway, yeah. i did my door first and then my wall. *sigh* sooo tiring!! my aaarrrrmmm!!! and my baaaaaaccckkk!!! blahhh...but you know what? it actually looks good! seriously...heheheh even my mom, who doubted me before, said it looks good. so...yayy!! i'm so happy! =) i'm gonna paint allll day tomorrow, and by thursday, i'll be all tired, but pumped to go to the Sound of Music Sing Along!! YEAHH!! i can't waaaaiiiitt!!!!!! i'm so excited!!!!
ok, anyways, i don't really have ne thing else to say, just that im excited!! for everything!! i'm hyper!! (actually, not really, but hat the heck!) so ta-ta-cheerio!!

omg cody!!!

that's a saying from a tv show, it's hilarious!! but u gotta say it with a funny voice.

the last two has been quite packed with activities.
yesterday, i finally began paiting. and it wasn't even the colour part! it was the primer. i've been so fuckin patient the whole morning...cleaning, taking a walk with my parents, going out for lunch, buying the primer...*sigh* anyways, yeah. now, it's all done. i think i'll start the colour tomorrow. eeheehee!! i'm so excited!! and im kinda nervous. nervous that i'll make a mistake or something. and i mean, this is the real thing!! *takes a deep breath...exhales*

anyways, today, i did not start painting because.....kate and jordan came over! it was fun! we played monopoly, and jordan killed both of us. i was like, 600$ in debt, and kate was 1200$!! heheheh stupid hotels!!! argggg!!!

anywyas, my mom just called me, so post more latah!!

guuuess what?
i didn't go to stc after all. see, i was gonna go see a movie today and hand out resumes and buy that corbner chair, buuuut, my mom was pissed off at my brother when they picked me up from my art class, and my mom wanted to go see this violin maker dude with bernard and his mom, so...i went with them. i didn't really want to, but, meh. so we went, and bernard was there already, and he told us that that guy was doing an interview or something, and wanted us to come back in an hour and a half. so we went to bernard's house. he was really surprised it was my first time going, cuz my whole family's been there at least once. anyways, so me, my brother and bernard stayed at his house while our moms went shopping somewhere. and then an hour and a half later, we went back to that violin dude's house. it was cool! he makes cellos too! and there's this one celllo, it's sooooooo nice looking!! i wish i played the cello....oh well. anywyas, we asked how much he was selling them for and one of them was $12000!! i mean, that would be a reasonable price if they were reeaalllly good violins, but they weren't that good. so after a long time, my brother got a new shoulder rest, and bernard got 2 rosins, 2 strings, a shoulder rest, and.....um, i think that's it. yeah! heh heh heh. and then we went to this mall place cuz his mom bought us this music dictionary. awww so nice! tee hee! and then we went to costco and then stc just to get my chair. i think i'll drop off resumes again next time.
oh! oh! we were at costco, right? and omg, they were selling these lil kids' chairs, and they were soooooo cute!! they're like, stuffed animals, a cow, a lamb, and a duck. i swear, if carmen was there, she'd go crazy!! cuz the duck one was absolutely adorable! so i got one for audrey's baby. a cow one. it's really really cute! but she won't be able to use it until she's at least one yr old or something. but still! heeheehee!! i can't wait til they come! they're coming in late may. yeahhhhh! *squeals with joy*
well, anyways, i'd better go. gotta check email. ta-ta!

i am so damn (or "bloody" as Harry puts it) bored right now. i just updated my resume, cuz i wanna find a job. im going to see a movie tomorrow with my brother, but not the same movie. so, yeah. i'll be dropping off some resumes on the way. i am also planning to buy that blowed-up corner chair we (me kate carmen and jordan) saw at stc last time. i'm rearranging my room, and i've succeeded in leaving a nice little corner out for it.
*sigh*
sooo...my room. it's a giant mess right now. i've been ripping stuff off my walls and packing all my stuffed animals and beanie babies and pictures frames in big plastic bags and stuff. i even managed to move one of my desks (i have two) into the middle of my room. one of my desks (the one i didn't move) is really cool. i just found out yesterday (after owning it for like 10 years) that it can come apart. cuz it's divided into two sections: a desk, and a cabinet with lots of drawers. so, i'm taking apart the desk section, and leaving the cabinets' part. i'm going to get a nice little bookcase soon, so i can have my own littl library. it's gonna be beside the chair in the little corner. ahhh....and i want to put my water/fishies column beside that. but im not positive about that yet. i only wanna put it there cuz there's an electrical outlet there. sooo... yeah. arggg...i've been having allergies the whole day!! stupid dust. there's so much in my room. well, not THAT much, but still, a lot. and i cleaned up a lot of it today already. plus, i constantly have this air freshener machine in my room. but it's not that big of a help. i kept achoo-ing in orchestra, i think there's a lot of dust there too. stupid orchestra. but omg, i have to tell u what happened at orchestra.
okay, we had to play this new song, and the concertmaster, Thomas (stop laughing, u know who u are...it's ont THAT kind of thomas. lol) played this solo, and it was soooooooo good!!! damn...anyways...

*sigh*

i'm tired of typing. apparently i have a lot to say. how ironic is that? arggg...ok, i'm signing out now....my fingers hurt....ta-ta-cheerio!

went to stc with carmen kate and jordan. got a curtain thingy for my door. it's up already. damn, that glue gun burns! hmm...i think that's the point. oh well. it looks nice, but i think there's just too little of them. like, 6 strands. 10 or 12 is more like it. maybe i'll go buy another pack....hmmm...now there's a thought!

anyways, mom and i went to home depot and we got my paints!! YAYY!!! im so happy! now i just have to clear my room and stuff. i can't move the furniture yet, cuz it's heavy and i can't do it by myself. oh, the colours we got were light turquoise and dark turquoise. the guy who helped us (who also happened to very pretty hot) said that for the type of painting i wanna do, we'll have to get this glaze thing and mix it, so we got that too and a brush. i'm hoping i can start painting on sunday or monday. *cross fingers!*

welps, that's basically what happened today. so blog more latah! ta-ta-cheerio!

just read jordan's blog. SO pissed off. think he can get anyone pissed off whenever he wants, without caring what other people might think- what the hell?! he has no idea HOW many times I compressed my anger. every single time!! GOD!! then he goes around saying he wishes ppl would tell him deep secrets and stuff. bs.
(j- if you're reading this, this is really how i feel, so...think about it.)

anyways, on a happier note, i'm finally finished all my exams! ahh! chem was SO hard!! at one point, ms.bbaksi came in with a smile on her face. bitch. doesn't she notice we're not in the mood?! we're doing freakin chem exam!!! anyways, after that, i stayed with carmen, kate and nique to study french, and then back to school, walked them to the class, and left. cleaned almost the whole freakin house! AND cooked dinner! (i don't cook dinner, it's my first time- hahaha) argg so tired...well, at least im free! carmen and i are gonna go to the mall tomorrow (not sure which one...STC?) so she can buy her friend a baptism present and i have to look for a water tank thingy for my room. i haven't decided which kind i want yet....hmmm....oh well.

didn't go to lunch with Johnson after all. he didn't reply last night, so...oh well. maybe another time.

anyways, that's really it for now. ta-ta-cheerio!

two down three to go!! man, i'm gonna be so screwed for bio tomorrow! and chem on wednesday!! i haven't even started studying that!! argggg...
anyways, yea, the english exam. it was pretty easy. IAPS was loooonnnggg!!! i barely had enough time to finish it! an then the damn teacher yelled at me cuz she thought i wasn't finished when i was finished. damn bitch. *ahem* excuse my language. me and carmen and jordan and nique had lunch at country style today. and we studied. it wasn't very helpful cuz my notes were crap and i couldn't memorize the vocab. pat and boris nad shawn and some other dude was there too. so i studied with them. oh, yeah, the other dude was andy. *ugh* thinks he's so smart. *mutters*

anyways, damn i have volunteering tomorrow!! arggg i don't wanna goooo!!! oh well, i haven't been in like, 3 weeks, so i don't think i can cancel again. i wish someone would call me. i wanna talk to people....*sigh* i have such a boring life... oh well.

gotta go study more bio. ta-ta-cheerio!

you know what? IAPS is a pretty easy course. well, i knew that before, but since i'm studying for that exam right now, i really notice it. i just started studying for it today, and i pretty well know everything. just have to go over it a couple of times and stuff. the rock and roll music part is gonna be the hardest. the advirtising part is pretty good.
i still have to study english before i sleep tonight. argg...and then tomorrow, bio bio bio!! (and some math) *sigh* it's gonna be 3 days of hell. but what's funny is that i'm actually looking foreward to the exams. i dunno why. happens with test and stuff too. i just want it, so i can get it over with quickly. doesn't that make sense?

anyways, MAR- if you're reading this, i wanna wish you a VEEEERRRRY happy birthday!! i'm sorry i totally forgot about it until yuen posted on the club. well, to be exact, you're not 16 yet (about 2 hours more!) but what the heck! and i'm sure the angels are all singing again! =)

oh, yeah, i got my free Mars bar today. i didn't win again, so nique, sorry, you won't be able to have my mars bar. heh heh
ok then. i think im done.

ooh! it's march already!!
so much (good stuff) happened! first, i went to chemistry tutor on wednesday, and i was the only one there. so...yeah. it went okay. i understood some stuff. i'm sure i forgot everything now. tee hee! aaand...oh! yesterday, i wnet to music fest for agincourt singers. we sang pretty well, but i thought we did better at kiwanis than we did at music fest. perhaps it was just the acoustics of the two churches that made the difference. i dunno. i missed the last bio class before exams. oh well. i studied for the macbeth quotes' test on the bus though, so that wasn't a total waste. since we're on the topic of macbeth, the quotes' test was hard today!! ack! and freakin ANDY made a stupid mistake! see, he was supposed to analyse 10 quotes and give the rest of our group them. and he had to put who said the quote and in one of them, it was supposed to be menteith (or something like that) and instead he put angus! so there were two quotes said by angus and none by menteith (there was another angus one) and like, how am i supposed to know who said what! well, i suppose the meaning should give you the answer, but i didn't study it that way!! arggg....that asshole. and when i told him, all he said was "yeah, sorry" i HATE him more than EVER!!!!! grrr...
on a happier note, i recieved an email from audrey! (she's my cousin) yayy! she said she's trying to take long walks a couple of times a week now. (cuz she's pregnant). and she said the baby's head is already down! omg!! so exciting!! *giggles like an idiot* it's roughly 5 more weeks now. *sigh* i can't wait, man! i'm gonna see her in june too! she'll (?) be...two monthhhhs old! damn, time goes so fast!! i mean, bryan is more than a year old now (the baby in my agenda, for those of you who don't know) and i remember at audrey and larry's wedding banquet, anna was still pregnant with him. that felt like last month. but it's been a year and a half. *hmmm....*

*singing to a reallie good song!* i dunno what it's called though.....oh! it's GreenDay. now it's Linkin Park....ooooh!! my favourite!!

aaand...oh yeah! i have to mention about the Happy Girls and the Depressed Girls. Ok, it was carmen and Kate's idea. one day, me, kate, carmen and nique will dress in pink and stuff, with pigtails and signs going around and making ppl happy! my sign's gonna say....ummm....wait, i don't think i should tell. it's a secret! tee hee! anyways, the Depressed Girls are the opposite of the Happy Girls. we're gonna be all depressed and stuff. hehehehe it's gonna be fun! and embarassing!! but oh well!

umm...what happened today? i don't remember...oh! mrs. erikson gave boosted my mark for the colour wheel to 27/30 from 25/30. she said she looked at it some more and decided that i put in a lot of time and stuff (which is very TRUE) so...yeah! i'm happy now. =D anyways, i have to go take a shower now cuz i smell like the darkroom. (me and nique were developing our pictures after school)