whoo hoo! purple contacts so puurrrdy... :D!

logan's not coming tomorrow. boooooooourns. i was hoping he would be. ah well.

can't wait til tomorrow!

gotta go chill with amber now. i'm outtie.

damn garbage days... so much garbage...

anywhoo... i need sleep. i really do. and annies calling in the morning don't really help at all. oh well. thanks annie, for calling me this morning.

let amber out to play today. put her back in cage after about 3 hours. not too bad.

contacts tomorrow after work. can't wait!

when is the party n thursday? anytime after dawson's creek. i'll be expecting y'all at 12:01pm. okay? good. thanks paul! fireworks! i don't want to go to Miliken.

my parents have their phone off again. thye don't want to talk to their darling daughter. oh well... not my fault if their money's not paid on time.
crap... gotta go to BMO. *sigh*...

and get some sleep.

so cold....

paul's over at my place right now.
we just went to stc and agincourt mall. krispy kreme and a free donuts!! headed over the dollar store for sparklers. how many should we get, paul? i dunno... let's get one pack each! holy crap! we now have 20 sparklers each..muahaha!! then over to agincourt mall to get the GOOD STUFF!!! oh yeah.... our box was opened... but it's okay, becuz another box was as well, so we stole some fireworks from the other box and put it in our's. HAHAHAHA!!! yay!! MORE FIREWORKS!!! good times to be had on thursday! ohhhh man... i can't wait!

hahah paul just went through my brother's computer, and found......stuff. hahaha!!!
ohhhh good times.

fireworks tonight!!

the pride parade was fun. the man walking around stark naked was disgusting. no, i don't think i would take a picture of you, thanks very much. the men on the roof were fat and nasty, and i had the displeasure of seeing their fucking penises. but besides that, lots of pretty men! but obviously they're all gay. still entertaining to see them grovel at each other. some of the floats were really spectacular.

but it's really pretty sad how today ended.
it's also pretty fuckin sad that people just don't get fuckin obvious clues. like...hole shit. they must be either really ignorant or really stupid. either way....

yes, i'm talking to you.

gawd...








it's hard to listen to your heart when your mind is so demanding. it's hard to forget things that happened in the past. sitting here in silence is torturing me. knowing that you're out there, not giving a damn, is tearing me to bits.

I LOVE AMBER!!

she tried to bite me today, and did. i think my whole room is a bit too much freedom for her all at once, so she's back in the cage til she's used to me more, and i'll give her freedom soon... but she's SO CUTE!! awww... but she fuckin chewed up my favourite photo album. the ONLY time i wasn't around (picking up emilia... took less than 20 minutes!) and a huge chunk was off. BAH!! so disappointing. oh well.. i painted it black back with nail polish, so... it's okay... kinda.

in other news, i actually went into that porn video store today. it really wasn't anything spectacular. i went with emilia and look around. the woman working there was old and ugly and didn't even LOOK at us.. much less ask for i.d. so...meh! they sell a lot of sex toys too... some are fuckin ridiculus. but there are messed up people in the world, so.... meh.

anyways...fuck...i'm hungry again.
but don't worry, i'm not pregnant. hahaha. jks.
PRIDE PARADE TOMORROW! WHOO HOO!!!

I'M GETTING AMBER!!!
went to the shelter today to look at her again. had second thoughts, but... meh. i'm gonna get her. well, i have her already, but they wouldn't let me take her without a cage, something i don't have. so i'm borrowing emilia's for the time being. yaa-aayy!

oh and yesterday, i got jack and jill (two little fishies with tummies) and spencer (african dwarf frog). awww they're so cute! spencer's food is narsty though, he eats bloodworms.

hopefully im gonna start working again. little annie lost my phone numbers! i went to cultures today and megumi told me. i wrote them down again. and she's giving owner annie a call tonight, so hopefully i'll be working again soon!

anywhhooo... that's about it for now. i'll post more about amber tomorrow!

i'm so bored and i don't want to write anything. but... whatever. well, i went to emilia's commencement and commencement dinner alst night. very interesting..... free dinner, no complaints. i saw this guy there who looked a LOT like dan, from wlu... it was freaky. shit went down as well, with certain people whom i would not like to discuss anymore. it's been quite hellish, you know, but i have em, and she's helped me a LOT with my shit. *sigh*... anyways, i bought jack and jill (fishies!) and spencer (an african dwarf frog) today! it was so spontaneous, but meh. they're cute! i cleaned my room up pretty well, might get amber tomorrow. i'm not sure. i really want her... but still not 100% positive yet.... BAH. oh well... we'll see.

anyway... that's enough for now.

dinner was pretty good. actually, it was really good! -- if you excluded the "moments" happening beside me, and Paul scaring me to death when i picked him up at his place. not cool! not cool at all! but yeah, dinner was fun. Caron kept ordering plates of carrots. i think she ate like 8 plates of that stuff. crazy! lots of awkward moments beside me, and only paul and i knew what was happening. haha! oh, and that waiter who spilled the pan with hot water was DEFINATELY not cool. he was probably the worst waiter i've ever seen. he poured this white powder all over the floor and LEFT it there. and then they let people sit at the table next to us, with the white powder stuff (probably bleach) still not cleaned. gawd... hilarious times when the lighter waiter kept coming and turning on and off our grill-- at first i serously thought the waiter was reaching for paul's crotch! holleee... anyways, then we all headed to frances' house and played monopoly for a bit. well, i didn't play, just watched. meh.

oh and my brother and i are STILL fighting. fuck... well, he's leaving tomorrow, so... yay?

oh god! oh god! it hurts! fuck! i don't want to go to dinner tomorrow.

omg, ed the sock knows his harry potter!
best part of the MMVA: ed the sock comparing sam roberts to gary oldman! omg, HILARIOUS!!!

come to think of it, i think sam roberts can be a better sirius than gary oldman! muahaha!

oh, i guess i should post about my experience at the animal shelter and at night downtown with emilia. well, actually, we went to THS in the early evening for about 2 and half hours, played with bunnies, guinea pigs, and even walked a dog (Roly Poly!) i met this one bunny i really really liked, and her name was Amber. she's soooo sweet. i want her. but i dunno if i can keep her at home here in toronto. oh well. Roly Poly was a cute dog. i had to wait outside for emilia go get her cuz it was "employees only". so i waited outside, sitting on the staires. tihs big black man walks towards me and starts asking me questions like where i'm from and sht. and then he asked if i had a boyfriend. i was pretty freaked out at that point, so i kinda ignored ihm. and then he's like "huh??" and i was mumbled something, and he said "i guess it's none of my business, huh?" and i said "yea" and then he's like "okay, well, have a good day!" and kept walking. fuck, mian. i was really freaked out, and emilia still hasn't come out yet, so i sat down once again. not long after, this oldish dirty white man on a bicycle stops in front of me and he's like "are you alone?" and i said, no i'm waiting for my friend" and he kinda checks me out, and asks if i need any company, and if i wanted any company. i said no. and he rode off.
and finally emilia comes out... omg. it was freaky! after THS, we bussed to Fort York, but before we got there, we passed by this International Marketplace, right by harbourfront. i wanted to go to it, so we got off the bus. after checking out all the booths, we decided to just walk to fort york, since it wasn't too far. we were so wrong! it took us soooooo long!! and i think we passed it too. and emilia didn't even know where exactly is was. goddammit!! so we decided to just walk to queen st. instead, cuz i wanted to go there. it took us a really really long time to walk there. we walked down queen, passed by Much Music, there loads of people were standing around the MMVA stage that's tonight, and we watched the bands practise a bit. this one band we wacthed, i dunno which band it was, their guitarist looked like matty from afar. it was really weird. well, we kept on walking, and emilia wanted to go to Church Street and be gay. so we walked...and walked....and walked. ok to make a long story short, we never made it becuz i was sooooo tired. and my feet hurt from walking so much. since the shelter, we've been on our feet for... about 8 hours. so we went home.

oh, and did i mention, we acted like dykes last night? oh yeah... it was fun, and it brought lots of attention. :D yay i love attention!

anyway, i'm back hooome. yay! or..... yay? i don't know. but what i DO know, is that i get to watch Dawson's Creek tomorrow!!! YAYYY!!

omg, i'm such a freak.

i came back yesterday! picked up frances and her little girlie friends and chilled at fairview while they watched a movie. saw damien, karim and abela! they were all working there. hilarious, becuz i always see andrew at the mall. and he made me promise that i would call him when i have a party, so i said i would. hehehe em and i stayed at fairview waiting for so long! and then learned that frances and co. didn't want a ride back after all. PAH! so we went back to her place, killed some time, then i remembered i left my phone in the car, and matty called me! so i called him back and then we talked and then we went to pick him up, but then frances called and so after i picked matty up, we went to frances' place, cuz i left my stuff at her house. so after that we just chilled... went by timmy hoe's and just talked for a bit. it kinda sucked becuz matty wanted to leave us pretty quickly. so i drove him home and he was anxious to leave.

anyway, so last night was interesting. i think i caught a cold becuz emilia left her window open. ack! but whatever. i went to art class today. it was so frickin boring. i wanna go downtown and look at bunnies and puppies. and then par-tay with army boys and drink. i'm at home now, but my brother doesn't know. my neighbour saw me. dammmmmiiiittt!!! oh well.

anyways... i'm done.

whoo hoo, i just finished my exam!!
it went...... well. i don't think i got anything higher than an 80 though, which really sucks. but hopefully in the 70's range. but i tend to jinx myself, so i'll stop talking now.

tim left this afternoon. no comment. i got yelled at by a taxi driver.

so i'm commin home tomorrow! soooo excited! anxious to par-tay and meet some nice army bois. muahaha right. and frances' par-tay! yaa-aayy!

please call me

i had a lesson yesterday, and met Trevor, Jeremy's friend the bowmaker. it was interesting. got some new music... he didn't let me play Prelude in Allegro (or something along the lines... i don't remember the exact title, but whatever) becuz he said other people are already playing it and he doesn't want everyone to be playing it. booooourns. anyway, halfway thru the lesson, DAN the guitar man interrupted!! lol...he's hilarious... amazingly talented, but hilarious. so... that was interesting.

anywhoo...i missed cheryl's, jeff's and pete's concert last night, becuz i didn't know how to get there. :( oh well... but good phone convos with Emilia and AIR-ICK! HHAHAHA good times...

um... oh yea... what do u think of Clémence Poésy as Fleur Delacour??



i'm a no go for it. first of all, she's too old to be playing Fleur (she's 21), second, she's not frickin blond enough!! Fleur's part veela, i imagined them to have straight, long, white blond hair, kinda like Malfoy's. bah! stupid casting people...

ok army party on saturday... bah! i'm anxious to see what it'll be like. tee hee! ok anyways... i'm outtie, but CALL ME! cuz i'll be lonely....heh ;)