yeeeeaaaaa i just got home. wow... what a fucking awesome day mian. opera was the best outta the three performances, in my opinion. probably because i was in a good mood first of all, and my family was there, even though they came late and missed the whole Act 1. it was nice having them there tho. my mum didn't have any idea what was going on, but my brother sorta did, cuz he actually read the program! *gasp!* anyways, HOLY SHIT!! drama on Seagram Floor 3... Joanna just came out, well, burst out of her room, and started yeliing at Colleen.... they started yelling, literally at each other, now Colleen is in her room with Mel, crying her eyes out.... whoa... scary. my poor heart...

anyways, what i was going to post before all this was what happened last night. i don't really know why i'm posting this... basically for my own record... anyways, yeah, so! last night i got off the phone with matty, and it was another bad call. i cried my little heart out after, and had to take a walk... well, i walked around my kitchen, and then decided to take a bath to calm my senses. anyways, by that time i was already better... a bit. being the weirdo that i am, i took my laptop in with me. ha! yeaaa.... right when i was going in the bathroom, Mel came in the door, and she laughed at me. hahah wutever! anyways, i start talking to Mike and Fran, and Fran had to go, then i was talking to Mike, and i'm like, "yea, i'm bored." so mike's like "let's do something!" so then we made plans to go to his place, watch movies and drink.

*sorry i just paused for like an hour.... talking with room mates... we resolved a lot of stuff now, it's okay.*

anyways, i'm tired of writing in detail soooo
- went to Mike's, at UP, thanks to foot patrol still working at fucking 2:45am
- went to UP, got mike to give me food, hung out in flat, watched 50 First Dates (hilarious!), while eating.
- finished off mike's kahlua with milk (YUM!!)
- decided not to open my coconut rum, cuz i didn't really feel like getting drunk or anything. i was mellow...
- finished watching 50 First Dates, still wasn't tired, started watching Van Wilder
- what a boring movie, mian.... mike liked it though... pah. only because it had topless women on it! stupid michael jang
- i was tired by 5:45, so i told mike to shove over and let me sleep... i don't think i actually fell asleep til close to 6, but i fell asleep while he was still watching the movie.
- woke up at like 11:30am ish, and went back to sleep on my little corner of the pillow.
- had this weird-ass dream
- next time i woke up, mike's roomie, ty, came in and went on his bed (he moved to the couch after this girl passed out on his bed)
- third time i woke up, some weird guy was standing at the door talking to ty and mike. he left. we all went back to sleep
- finally got up at 12:30
- hung around til 1:30, went back to rez, where i posted that post down there

all in all, it was an excellent day, compared to what i've been having lately. anywhoo.... gotta watch the Oscars, so... bub bye!

P.S. OMG OMG OMG it's JUUUUUUUULIE ANDREWS!!!!!

wow! what a night! haven't been up so late since the history essay! hahah Mel just asked about my night... trying to get something out of me. lol! anyways, getting ready to go to opera again... last time! ahhhh i can't wait!
my parents called this morning telling me Bernard's mom isn't coming in anymore, so they are coming, and seeing the opera too. yay!

anyways, time to go... will post more later

the first thing, or person i saw this morning when i got out of my room was Ramiz and his cousin... it was kinda freaky. i really didn't wanna get up this morning... so freakin tired.. bah. i managed to stay up til 4:15 ish alongside Tracy. haha crazy. oh wutever, mian. i need to practise.. goddammit. not looking forward to tonight.. bah. kill meeee

at least i've got my coconut rum. yum? i dunno yet. ha i can party with myself. how pathetic.

--> down to 12 Cho Changs...

In an instant, it's all down the drain. How can there still be such anger, after so long? Too many tears i have shed for this, is it really worth it? i am tired of this, being ripped apart time and time again. What i want isn't important anymore. nothing concerning me is important. i am not important. now, it's like a ornament, taped up, trying to take its original form, but in reality, only mere pieces of glass.

all i asked was respect, maybe responsibility, maybe even just a little bit of love, but maybe even that was too much. what can i do now, but pretend to be that ornament? i can pretend....

it's been a long night... actually... no. it went quickly. but it was still long. opera was fine. so tiring! one down, two to go! AHHH!!! i was sooo hungry when i came back. now me so tiiiired. oh oh!! one good thing about the opera tonite: when we got there, we found candies on everyone's stand!! i guess tihs is a way of thanking us (for rehersals, or the performance? i dunno).

Ramiz and his cousin are at our place studying... it's such a nice friday night... quiet. not lonely quiet, but peaceful quiet. i like that.

Matty DITCHED me today. he had to skate downtown, even though he hates downtown. that sucked.
ummmmmmmmmm... i can't think about that anymore. i am trying to force myself not think of anything related to the subject of Matty & I. argh...

i want to sleep... i want to talk to Matty.... bah. he's too busy skating though. hmph! dum dum dummmm...

ok too tired to post anymore.

i am shocked!!! THIS is Wormtail (aka. Peter Pettigrew, aka. Scabbers)?!?! totally NOT what i pictured him to be... (well, according to Mugglenet, it's not confirmed to be the actual PoA movie shot, but i'm pretty sure it's real)

ok i'm watching this show called Super Millionaire, it's hosted by Regis, or however you spell his name. anyway, with his show, the most you can win is 10 million dollars!! jebus! this dude just won 30, 000$. holeeee

anyway... i have nothing to write. i need a hug... and something to do!

hello my fellow blog readers! it's such a beautiful day outside! i wanna ride my bike... but i don't have a bike here! eeee! i skipped psych this morning oops. i didn't feel like getting up and walking all the way to the NAB. according to Kyla, tihs girl in my religions and psych class, psych was interesting this morning. oh well!
i'm filling in a course add form, hoping to get into the psych distance education for the summer, which is an internet course. i REALLY need it, mian!! i am gonna take a minor in psych, since i need 4 credit in psych anyways for Mus.Thereapy. might as well, eh?

anywhoo.. nothin much else to post... i might do another one later on tonight.

hmmmmm... i'm really starting to dread nights. and not because of opera. i don't care about that.
goddamn nights... too many alone time. too quiet. too much solitude makes mandy go crazy! fuuuuuck.
but seriously.
i can't wait to be back in toronto now.... i think, well i hope Jeff, or anyone can come job searching with me! i need people, people!!

on a brighter note, today was a good day, compared with yesterday. although i didn't wanna get for skills, breakfast was fun, and well worth waking up for-- Ian and his jiz sweater.. lol! hilarious! Shannon, we all love you, even if you do live in Walkerton....hahaha!! oh man... to many jokes (S: "Well.... we do have one bus" I: "hahaha a school bus!" not even the full size ones! the little bus with Walkerton on the side." LOL!! gosh...)
welll, anyways, i'm really looking forwrd to summer, Shannon's most likely gonna come visit me nad Fran and Tracy, and we can take Shannon to Ikea! (She's never been to an Ikea, thanks to living in Walkerton) and... lots of other cool (NORMAL) places Shannon's never been to! hahaha awww... now i feel bad, cuz im making fun of her too....but it's soooo funny!

And Liz found my music! YAY. apparently someone found it at the front door of her rez and put it on top of the buzzing counter. wheww...

opera was good... long... tired... bah.

TAG MY BOARD PUH-LEEEEEZE! it's lonely... like me....

man, i am having such a fucking horrible day. first psych, religions, boring concert, bad rehersal with Beth Anne, losing my fucking music, BAD masterclass, and the horrible phone call with matt.

gawd...

well, at least Fran cheered me up! *smiles* i love her, she's such a dear. and the last 20 minutes of American Idol cheered me up too. and Colleen's peanut butter cookie. thanks Cole!

i need to sleep soon... i know i won't though. i never really do. ah welllll...

type type type what to post about? it has been sorta a reminsing/thinking day so far. psych and religions class didn't really help. i hate when u learn something, and you realize it's happening in your life too, and blah blah blah... it's so depressing. i didn't forget about Music at Noon though. i almost fell asleep. pahh... well i was resting my eyes at one point, and then the song was done, Ian, who was sitting besides me was like "you fell asleep! i saw you!" hahah right. well, maybe so, but so was Francine! it wasn't a bad concert, it was just.... a tiring day i guess? meh, i dunno!
it was tracy's birthday yesterday! two boys invited her to ice cream! hahaha!! me and mike were like "oooh tracy's got a date!" hahah she's so fun to tease. tee hee! and then today she was telling me and ian how her friends all surprised her and how surprised she was. haha! oh tracy....

bah, i have to practise with Beth Anne later. poopie. oh well. i really don't feel like playing. my neck hurts. too much playing the past three days.

anyways... im contemplating whether or not to go home next weekend... not the coming one (damn opera), but the next one.. hmmm.... i might. hafto look fer a job. argh. err... i mean... yay! oh! AND i might be able to hang out with some people who have reading week this week before they go back! hmmmmmmm....

omg, i want to paint.

.......... why do you always give me false hope? waiting... waiting...

opera rehersal today went okay. the whole production was ran- including costumes, props, and the acting! it was so exciting! the lights were cool, and the costumes were pretty! it actually seemed like an opera, pretty coooool. Mike was being an asshole. laughing in the middle of nowhere? uhhh.... riiiight. weirdo. he poked Rod with his bow out of nowhere, and then started laughing. after playing, and resting again, like so long after the incident. he's still laughing. oh my god.

anyway, uhh... i'm very tired, so i think i'm going to bed. good night.

btw, Skills exam? bleh. that's all i've gotta say.

*WHEW* ok so i just came back from my second 3-hour pracise of the day. we had two 3-hour practises today with the damn opera. the only good thing about these two practises were 1) no clock, so i couldn't see the time and 2) the whole cast of the opera were there singing with us, so it's not as boring. anyways, by the end of the first practise session, i was so tired, i totally zoned out. like, i was playing and stuff, but my mind wasn't there at all. it was weird. i went home, took a shower, made dinner, ate dinner, sat around a bit, then left again. ahhhh. the second round at first felt better, cuz we were all energized again, but nope, it was more tiring! when Les made us go back about like 30 bars, i was like "noooo!! don't go backwards!!" but obviously not outloud. haha well, loud enough so that only Mike, my stand partner, could hear. anyways, during the break, Laura, this fellow violin player, started teaching me and Rod (rigo) yoga stretches... damn, they were good! really streches the muscles... ahhhh.... i have to do some later. my muscles are really tense.

anyways, Mel gave me a cookie...after two creamsicles. yummmm hehehe.. i'm so frickin sleepy! argh. still got skills exam tomorrow...bah. ok i have nothing else to post.

i hope emilia calls me soon, i really need to talk to her. bahhh

yay im back! well, i've been back since probably like 11:30 this morning. we went to see that townhouse my parents wanted to buy. it was nice outside, but crappy inside. ah well. it only needs renovating, ya know. then we dropped audrey off and went to my place to drop off my stuff too. went to lunch then dropped me off at...oprea rehersal!! YAAAAYYYYY!!!!! (goddamn.) anyways, it was a LONG 3 hour practise, and by 5, i was dead tired!! bahhh... anyways, since i came back i did like no work. well, i looked over my Skills prepared melody and rhythm, but that's about it. pahhh... oh well. i will do it tomorrow... promise. lol i don't even know who i'm promising.... myself, i guess. anyways, i'm so freakin tired, mian. and i miss people. some more so... stupid tim.... always cancelling on me. pah. anyways, umm.... i'm full, just ate din-din. but it was yum-yum! hehehe

i should call emilia, see how she did with the phone call. hm. mehhhh... anyhoo, i'm outtie in the retirement home! (don't think i don't remember my PUTE!)

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fuck, what a night it has been. and last night too, but tonight's post is going to be about tonight. so yea... i got my hair cut (sorry Mar, didn't save ya any!). not too short, but it looks pretty good, compared with the last couple of haircuts i've had before. so anyways, it was cool, and my parents went out to dinner, and i got tha car (yeah!) called up emilia, and went to stc. all was good, ya know.. walked around and crap. then everything closed and we went to the theater and talked our asses off. two and a half whole hours goddammit!! stories were explained from eons ago, and recently. tears were shed and and anger was built up. apologies given and so were explanations. so...i guess all in all, it wasn't a waste of a night. anyways, i am tired now, and very anxious to get back to waterloo (actually...to be honest...... not really. but still.) and play some goddamn opera!! just kidding. that is the last thing i want to do. what i really want to just to be back with my friends again, and maybe not face my problems for once.