WHOOOO!! I'M DOOOONE!!! AND IT WENT GREAT!!! ONE MONTH OF PURE BLISS AND PARTYING!!!!!

joint party next friday in LOOOOO!!! people coming so far: me, sarah, eric, and liza. lol! ummmm.... ah well! omg i hope catherine comes... haven't seen her in so freakin long! (since jerzy's party)

yes, eric has gotten me a present already. lol, and i still need to get his (sing along cd!). and sarah's. bah! i dunno what to get her!
working tomorrow, so i will do some shopping. don't worry sarah, i won't get you Cultures' food. ;)

i'm tired. i think i'm logging out now.

OH! i forgot.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HARRY POTTER!!!! (and JK Rowling, but i don't like her cuz now she's a rich bitch)

stupid concourse people.... had to be so damn loud...
my greatest achievement today: spending 3 hours reading ONE chapter. *takes a bow*

MY BOY HARRY'S BIRTHDAY IN TWO DAYS!!! how old is he supposed to be anyway?? like, 20?

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oooh ooh i feel a party comin on!! (besides nique's party)
sarah still hasn't called me, and eric's gotta ask the parentals. dammmiiittt!! i want a joint party! and preferably some joints.... but that doesn't really matter. :P

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eddy's mad cuz i'm skipping meals. oops? don't yell at meeee!! *wahh*

HOLY. SHIT.

i actually have something to post.

ok i watched canadian idol tonight, and at first i was blown away by Jacob Hoggard's performance because it was so unique and he was so hot, but KALAN PORTER is amazing. seriously, i was by myself lying comfortably in my chair, and once he started singing, i had to sit up and like, lean towards the tv cuz it was just SO unbelievable. i was like "omg... WOW"

oh my gawd, i'm in love with him.

whoo whoo...two and a half more days. being stuck here really sucks. bah.
the garbage truck came this morning. yiay no more bottles and garbage.
amber's doing well, i'm letting her walk around my room more. i think she likes it...
a ladybug flew on my table last night.

can you tell i'm really bored?

i need some food. post more later.

well here i am again, what can i say? i was supposed to be stuck here reading my psych textbook and instead i finished off OotP again. well, no one can really blame me, the ending was so good! i realized last night while i was reading the chapter on Snape's memory, that if the young Sirius was alive today, i'd probably have a huuuuge crush on him. heh heh heh...*shrug* just read his description! *swoons*

anyway, back to psych... so yeah. it sucks. and i guess you can blame me for finishing like the last 200 pages of the book.

oh hell. what am i saying? waterloo is boring with no one around. at least amber is with me this time, that's a bit better.
ok, one more week... i can do it. argh!

off to the library i go.... my One Card doesn't work, wtf?!

so i went to laura anne's birthday party last night, it wasn't too bad, even though i knew less than half the people there. i met her brother! he's so funny... just cuz he's like this super tall dude who, by the looks of it could beat anyone up, but he's so vulnerable. hahha he's scared of laura-anne (he admitted it). but anyway... he's a cool guy, and so was his friend from england who didn't want to speak becuz i wanted to hear her accent. meh! and as promised, i gave laura anne my tarot cards, and MAYBEE i'll get some back...soooon. heheh..
thought i'd be seeing mike, but nope, no such luck. oh well, whatever. carmen couldn't make it cuz of family stuff. personally, i thought she should've came, she needs suport and LOVE!! (which reminds me, i have to call her)

aaaanyways... oh! i went to ikea today and bought my bookshelf and my carpet! it's purdy! my mum and i then went to this new asian supermarket on steeles and warden, and there were SOOOOO many people. fuckin kids running around....i swear, i was this close to yelling at them. gawd... it's a grocery store, not a fuckin playground!! damn kids....

im working on my portfolio again. i need dividers.

and my foot still hurts. i still blame jeff.

HAPPY BIRFDAY LAURA-ANNE!!

mmm amber fur... pleh pleh!! hehehe! my little amber scratched me cuz she wanted to go back in her cage. weird, huh? whoo more scratches on my hand, what fun.

work was boring today. we have a new girl, susan. she's alright. better than nick hahaha. i think he's getting fired. whoo hoo... uh... i mean..... whoo hoo! lol so i'm working almost the entire day tomorrow, but i won't have to work on the weekend. yiay, more time to study for my fuckin exam.
today was SO hot, when i got to work, i wanted to chill in the walk-in refrigerator for a minute, but rebecca and ling were both like "no!!" and i was like "but i'm hoooot!" and ling was like "you're gonna get sick and your mom is gonna yell at us!" hahaha she's so funny. and rebecca was like "here, just have a drink!" so i took a drink, and i was still hot. :(  heh heh heh

i'm sticky, and i have amber fur all over me, so i'm gonna go get naked and shower.

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two more weeks and i'm legal!

after going downtown today with emilia, i realized how much i don't want to be a dyke anymore. i enjoyed the weekend when i felt really straight.

thank you and please stop touching my ass.

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i've put in a new commenting thing! comment!! bye!!!

another after- work story:
my dad just picked me up from work, and when i got back my mom started bitching to me again about school and shit.
"i don't want to nag, but what do you even plan to do with your life? you don't even practise! "

what she really means: "i don't want to nag but you're a stupid worthless piece of shit!"

here's a story:
my mom picked me up from work last night and immediately started bitching about my piercing again. she asked if i was going to take it off before september, i said no. she said, then you're not going to henry's wedding (henry is my cousin. his wedding is in october). i  didn't say anything. she said that im gonna stay in loo that weekend and she'll tell people how i'm too busy to come out, and she doesn't want to explain to everybody about my piercing. i said, you don't have to explain, i can tell them. she said no. then she started bitching about how i try to be white but you can't really, or somethin like that. she goes and rants about races and says something like, if this is my way of trying to be white, it's not working, or something like that. it really disturbed me. after that bit, she goes, i bet you're thinking of getting a tattoo next, aren't you?! don't let me guess right! and then starts ranting about that. what's funny is that even though i didn't really say anything, i am thinking about getting a tattoo. hahah! oh well. so anyway, she keeps yelling at me all the way home, and when we got home, she started on the wedding thing agin, and i said to her, so you're not letting me see my own family? and she said, no. i said, what, are you ashamed of me? and she said, yes. *raises eyebrows* then she says, everything else, i'm not ashamed of, but this i am. and i had nothing else to say to that.
 
i got amber back, missed her so much, my little bunny-poo!! hehehe.

i started on an entry last night about my weekend, but after the first three hours, i realized that there was just too much. overall, it was amazing- lots of fun. met lots of people, even though some of whom i probably wouldn't like to hang out much with anymore, but nonetheless... got super smashed friday night, and barely any sleep (thanks to ron). sitting outside on eddy's car was relaxing. st. jacob's was lots of fun too- mmm fudge and shopping and petting goats! hehhe. oh my fucking foot. that wasn't cool, no thanks to jeff. still limping my way around. saturday morn was fine and dandy- slushies and gazebos and damn those kids on the swings! hehe.. damn mongolian grill, i'm never going there again! thanks jeff and joe for paying for dinner and breakfast- much appreciated. missed my cell phone in tania's car- 16 missed calls. whoopsie- sorry to all those who worried about me. my landlord is a bitch, and i was supposed to call her, but i'm not going to becuz i don't want to deal with her anymore, that fucking bitch.
 
i don't wanna work at primerica anymore.
 
in fact, i don't want to work at all today.
 
what the fuck happened to my tagboard? ugh... too lazy to fix it.
 
P.S. my brother's a fob!

okay. sorry if i'm stupid, but i did not know how to get to Finch station today. so much time wasted, mian. thanks carmen, emilia and laura-ann for waiting!! stupid York... goddamn. so glad i don't go to that damn school. so big and in such a deserted area. pahhh...
anyway, the interview itself was...alright, i guess. Russell (or however u spell his name) kept talking about the company and asking me weird questions like how much money do i wanna make. hahaha but anyway, i qualified, so i gotta go back tomorrow for a second interview. pah. so complicated. my mom thinks it's a scam cuz it's so easy and it's commisioned. well....we'll see what happens tomorrow.
 
I MISS AMBERRR!! i took her to em's place, cuz i'll be gone for the weekend. it's so weird not having her around anymore. but yea... i accidently turned too sharply and my litter box flipped over. i found out when i got to her place. poor amber was so scared. i held her for a bit, and she scratched me. oh well. t was so cute watching her and bart interact. hahaha awww... bart's a horny little fuck. lol seriously. oh baby! i want you! come outta that cage and fuck me! im so horny! hahahah!
 
mike just invited me to jeff kao's BBQ on saturday. but i can't gooo! boooourns. oh well. maybe next year.  laura-ann's b-day party next friday. whoooooo tarot cards! we had this nice chat today about them, and apparently, she said they only work if the cards were given to you. so i guess i'm giving laura-ann my deck of tarot cards, and maybe she'll get me a deck for my birthday! whoo hoo!
 
anywhoo... i'm tiiired. gotta get naked. mmm... :)

well well well... looks like i'm breaking my reputation for having ZERO busniess ANYTHING in my life. i'm interviewing for a financial planning job tomorrow. it'll be so weird... carmen's probably sitting in on my interview...taking notes..... bah!

haha

i hate working with nick. can't help but roll my eyes and bitch about all the things he can't do.

the sun's finally peeping out from the clouds...

carmen, you woman!! thanks sooooo much for hooking me up with the financial job interview! (even though that woman from yorkdale talked to both of us and you got called first)

new job interview tomorrow at 11:30! whoo hoo!

just one problem: how the hell do i get to York U.??

wow... amazing how my own mother can make me feel like such a worthless piece of crap so fast...

it hasn't been a good day and a half. ever since my parents got back.

by not accepting my choices and the things i've done, they are really forcing me out. it makes me sad. it really does. i really don't want to, but if they are adament about it, i have no choice. at least i have somewhere to go now.

:D OW.
:) oww..
:| there, that's better.

i got a longer post for my labret. it actually hurts.
parents are coming back tonight. bah! no more going out at indecent hours and sleep overs with my muffin.

things to do at 2:30 in the morning: light sparklers and play with fire in a remote playground!!

so i just came back from playing with fire with kevin and jordan. quite fun, really. and we also went to Cafe Mirage. hahaha omg, i wanna work there. if i get the job, i'm SO quitting Cultures. seriously.

work SUCKED today. gawd... the fact that nick's been closing for so many nights and still can't do stuff without people telling him to do it really pisses me off. and he's... what, in his mid twenties? geez... i want that Cafe Mirage job.

in other news.... i am really anxious for my check up tomorrow. i fuckin need a longer post cuz this one i have is going into my skin. dammiiiiitt! bah. it's annoying. i keep pushing it out. jordan was like, "it's not supposed to hurt for this long" and i said "it's not hurting, it's just going into my skin and im pushing it out." argh. so....yes.

anyways. okay, i should probably get some sleep.

OMG I HAVE A HOLE IN MY LIP!!!

before hole:

me: carmen? am i really doing this??
carmen: *PINCH* yes, you are.
me: ow... i am...?
carmen: YES.
me: okay...

*in new tribes*

me: carmen? i'm really doing this aren't i?
carmen: *PINCH* yes, you are!!
me: ow... i am...?
carmen: YES. now let's look at tattoos.
me: okay... that pinch actually hurt.
carmen: sorry!

after hole

me: carmen! look! i have a hole in my lip!
carmen: yes you do!
me: i can't believe it!

*20 minutes later*

me: i can't believe i got a piercing!
carmen: yup! after... how long?
me: yeeaa... i know.
carmen: yea, you shouldn't have talked so much and just did it!
me: i guess... omg, i can't believe i did it!
carmen: hahaha about time...
me: it feels weird...
carmen: yea, i know... when jordan got his, he went on and on about it.
me: hahha! ow... carmen, stop making me laugh, it hurts.
carmen: *making a grim face* ok.. this is gonna be my laughing face.

sooooo... i'm actually sleeping by myself tonight! hahhahaha oh, hilarious.

working with nick really sucks. he doesn't know shit. i don't really understand why the was hired in the first place. no offense, but i really hope he somehow finds the job so bad that he quits. cuz i don't like working with him. hahaha annie and i were talking about him today and annie was like "did you notice how he smells?" and i replied "no, not really... i don't usually smell people." hahaha
oh man... i'm not looking forward to annie quitting. i'm gonna be the one training people, and basically taking over everything she does! and that's a LOT. and i'll be having quite a bit of authority too.... it's gonna be weird.

anywhoo... so yesterday, before work, emilia and i were at stc and we were at la senza and i bought this really pretty lingerie. :D! the third time we walked in there, we saw sarah working! i was pretty surprised, and i guess i was a little too happy to see her cuz that night on msn, she told me not to do that again cuz the girl training her told her that the manager might mistake it for sarah helping us steal or something like that. oopsie! hahaha meh.

aaaanywhoo... ikea was fun today. work was good. i get a day off tomorrow! downtown with carmen- yiay! found out my midterm exam mark. it was.......... okay. i expected to be higher, although not by much. but still. i AM retaking the entire freakin course. *sigh*... oh well. goal for finals: 80% or higher. bah.
and i am actually going to sleep before 4 tonight. :D

so anyways, my plans for friday are off. and i'll be wooooorrrrrking. jolly good. i took saturday off! yiay. i wanna meet logan. :( stupid work.

carmen's back from NY!! was nice talking to her again. labret piercing soon? maybe? hopefully?? heehee... sometime between now and saturday? i dunno. we'll see.

kamla came to visit me at work today. it was so unexpected! she just popped outta nowhere! well, she just finished work, so... yiay.

got Amber's nails cut today. she's such a good girl. except she pissed in my car. goddammit.

i'm tired, and i woke up this mornnig for nothing. no dawson today. :( so i made cake. mmmm..... cake. i need frosting though.

plah. i'm tired now. gotta stop blogging.

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OMG.
i forgot to mention: Jack and Jill died. for real. it sucks. a LOT.

fhack.

you know what fuckin sucks?
a night spent bringing up history and plans that don't follow through.

i fuckin hate this.

spencer SCARED me this morning. i thought he DIED. i shook the tank a lot, and he just floated there behind the filter. and the second time i checked on him, he was still floating there... it was freaky, cuz i did NOT want to get him out.
anywhoo.. i called emilia, complaining about spencer, and when i was ready to take him out, i find out that he's....missing? omg! he's not dead!!! so...yes. he gave me quite a fright.

work really sucked. Megumi really pisses me off sometimes. like...fuck!! argh! anyways, after work, emilia came to cultures, and then we drove to my house, watched this weird gay movie called Birdcage, petted Amber, then drove her home. it was okay...

figured out all my courses for september. whoo hoo? so i'm taking these courses: (skip if you don't care)

Fall Term:

- Theory 1 (yea, i suck....gotta retake theory. hope justin's in that class with me!)
- Skills 3
- Intro to Music therapy
- Guitar Techniques
- Voice Techniques
- Orchestra
- Developmental Psychology: Infancy and Childhood

Winter Term:
- Theory 2
- Skills 4
- Orchestra
- Developmental Psychology: Adolescence and Young Adulthood

yiiaaayyyy....
that is, if i even get into some of those courses. bah. i hate being stupid. it's so frustrating. argh....

you know what else sucks? waiting for some certain people to come online so plans can be made. bah! Margaret, you know what i'm talking about....lol. the only time i'm free is friday to saturday before 5. so we can go on friday, come back saturday afternoon. sound good? i gots to talk to him first tho, so.... yeaaaaa.

anywayyss.... yeah. i'm done.

bllleuggghhh...
i just got back from my cousin's friend's house party. All the way in fuckin mississauga. of course i took margo with me. we had fun......... talking to ourselves. haha no, actually, it wasn't too bad. i mean, we didn't know anyone there, except my two cousins, but we started talking to people there.

sorry marg, i said i was gonna go to bed, buuuut, nah...

so anyway, we were at these guys' house, Nick and Tyson (they're brothers). and MAN!! are they ever hot!! esp Tyson. :D! hello! when we first got there, he was still not changed, so we saw him walking around in his boxers... (i think?) but yeah...:D! my cousin Denny bought me a case of smirnoff. margaret was like, how much do we owe you? and my cousin was like "it's on me." and then i told margaret "yea... i wasn't planning on paying him back anyway." hahahaha it's okay. he buys me stuff from time to time anyways, so i knew he wouldn't take the money. as the night progressed, GIRLS arrived! *gasp*....they were pretty skanky though. but then, more girls arrived, and they were okay. around midnight, i was getting really bored, and wanted to go home, so i had to stop drinking (even though i only had a bottle) and sober up before driving. sat around for an hour talking about boys and a possible upcoming road trip! anyway...around 1,we started saying bye to people... i was still a LITTLE buzzed, but a lot better. driving was a bit difficult, since i had to concentrate hard. but i got home and that's all that matters. :)

fun night! but next time, we'll get more people together before going to a party where we know no one...

ok i've been sitting here for a while... don't know what to post.

goddamn.. something is not right.

*sigh*

well, last night was pretty fun... but it's been weird today. don't feel like doing anything. kinda peeved about logan not coming. and dunno what to do with nique's cage, cuz it's so big.. bah.

this sucks.